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Chapter 5
Qiao Lan is so possible!
Qiao Lan's English grades are not good. Every time she assigns homework, she almost always copies with masks. Homework like memorizing texts and words is not written, and she never cares about it.
This morning Qiao Lan even asked her to dictate the words in the first unit. She clearly didn't even know where she had learned.
But now, she actually wrote everything right!
Not only did she write all the words in this unit correctly, she also wrote all the words in the previous units, and Qiao Lan also wrote them all correctly.
So Qiao Lan actually knew which unit to dictate, and had memorized the words a long time ago, and even asked her without memorizing!
I remembered the thoughts in Qiao Lan's mind when she deliberately ignored Qiao Lan in the morning. At this moment, besides the burning pain on her face, she also hated Qiao Lan deliberately pretending to deceive her.
Old Liu was very happy about Qiao Lan's sudden correction. He praised Qiao Lan for a long time, and when he turned his head and saw Qin Yang staring at Qiao Lan with an unknowing expression on his face, Old Liu immediately became angry again.
"What do you look at? Look at what people wrote, see what you wrote, 23 words are wrong and 14 are wrong, pigs are smarter than you, and have a face to read, roll down and copy the words! Except Qiao Lan, all of you, the wrong words Everyone a hundred times, after finishing writing, bring it to me for inspection!"
The face at the table is even darker.
It stands to reason that she has written very well, but because of Qiao Lan, even she has become the one to be punished. When I returned to my seat with a black face, I was probably furious, and I thought that Qiao Lan was still the bully Qiao Lan before. Without even thinking about it, I asked Qiao Lan, "Aren't you back?"
Qiao Lan turned a page leisurely.
What are you talking about, the wind is too strong, I can't hear it.
by! Qiao Lan actually pretended not to hear her and ignored her?
The tablemate was shocked, and his face turned blue.
Wasn't it just being praised by Old Liu and really going to heaven? Do it, ignore her, right? The group of people around Song Yao have made up their minds to reject Qiao Lan, and now they are offending her again. Then wait and see, who will regret it in the future!
After the self-study, I ran to find a few classmates who usually played well at the same table. Several people gathered together and said something, while talking, they looked at Qiao Lan and the classmates sitting around. I can probably hear that several girls are talking about Qiao Lan costumes.
Qiao Lan’s deskmate said that Qiao Lan had memorized the words deliberately and deliberately asked her, saying that she had a deep mind, and an introverted boy sitting next to him. After thinking about it for a long time, I didn’t figure out how Qiao Lan could see her after recite the words. My mind was deepened, and I couldn't think of why the other girls nodded in agreement.
"What kind of pretense, who doesn't know what she is," the several people said more and more vigorously, "Song Yao Xinshan feels her pathetic."
"Yes, yes, Song Yao is so kind to her, she doesn't thank Song Yao at all, but actually likes Chen Yaoyang, why is she embarrassed?"
"It's just that she still likes Chen Yaoyang. How can someone like Chen Yaoyang look at her, if Song Yao can't be disgusted by her?"
The boy sitting next to him didn't even know what to think.
Chen Yaoyang is the first grader and looks so handsome. The girls in the class like him more than 10%. The girls who scolded Qiao Lan said that Chen Yaoyang likes them so much here and there.
They all like Chen Yaoyang, so why don't you feel sick.
But no matter how much I complained in my heart, I was an introvert. I didn't dare to say it. I just thought that if I had the opportunity in the future, I should change seats with the same table. People who chewed the tongue behind would still deal less with.
Qiao Lan's tablemate took advantage of the fact that they pulled a lot of Avengers between classes, and Qiao Lan was further excluded. Qiao Lan didn't react at all. She went to the bathroom, and when she came back, she just met Tan Mo, who was slowly entering the classroom while shaking her wheelchair.
Tan Mo's school uniform was clean again, with new gauze wrapped around his hands, and his head was lowered as usual, silent and without vitality.
Qiao Lan thought for a while and walked up to speed up.
She remembered that Asperger's disease is still a bit different from ordinary autism. Autism is a rejection of alienation, while Asperger's disease actually hopes to get friendship, but it is always self-defeating because of social misunderstandings.
The people coming and going around made Tan Mo tense uncontrollably, his muscles became stiff, and his mood became very restless.
When he was still living with his mother in the United States, his mother took him to see a psychiatrist. After the psychiatrist had a certain understanding of him, he told his mother, “When your child faces the crowd, he feels The pressure received increases in proportion to the number of people on site."
He was only about ten years old at the time, but he already fully understood the meaning of increment. He quickly used mathematical formulas and geometric figures in his brain to calculate what the doctor meant: when two people interact, there is only one connection, and three people have three connections, four Individuals have six connections, five people have ten connections...
At this time, there were too many connections around him, and no one could see the intense tension and anxiety he was facing under his silent and dead face.
Under such circumstances, even if someone called his name, Tan Mo would subconsciously feel that he had heard him wrong.
Until the voice yelled again, Tan Mo surpassed the hearing of others, and immediately recognized the source of the sound.
He raised his head and saw the girl who said sorry to her yesterday and pushed his wheelchair, standing close to him 1.5 meters away and looking at her with a smile.
"Good morning," the girl said.
Tan Mo's thin white fingers gripped the wheelchair tightly, and his amber eyes stared at Qiao Lan. The muscles on his face looked like necrosis and there was no expression on his face.
He can tell that this is a simple greeting, and he can't tell whether a person is crying or laughing like he was when he was very young. Now he can be sure that the girl in front of him is smiling at him.
But that's it.
There are many kinds of laughter, such as smile, sneer, wry smile, big laugh, sneer, etc. Normal people can understand the meaning behind these expressions without a teacher as they age and experience, but Tan Mo can't.
Tan Mo once looked up the meaning of every word in the dictionary, but Asperger's disease still made him indistinguishable. It took him a long time to distinguish between smile and laughter simply and remember it in his mind. The facial expressions of the resident while smiling and laughing.
His mother made him smile when taking pictures of him, and told him that the smile was a slight smile, the corners of his lips were slightly raised, and even a bit of teeth could be revealed. The laughter was because someone once laughed and laughed out of tears.
The girl in front of her was smiling at him.
But thinking of the smile behind this expression, Tan Mo lowered his head again, like a machine that received the wrong command, and after a short period of discrimination, he returned to his previous silence.
He remembered that when he was seven years old, the neighbor’s boy talked with him in a very friendly manner. There was such a smile on his face, but the next moment the boy pushed him out, and he hit the hard On the concrete floor, when the blood was falling down his cheeks, he could only hear the distant mother calling his name, and the boy's undisguised laughter.
He also remembered that when he was ten years old, those classmates who often mocked him as a fool found him. They told him that they were ashamed of the tricks they had made to him in the past and asked him if he would accept their apology. He forgave them, they gave him a bottle of soda, and he opened the soda, but a mad hornet flew out of it.
Such teasing and bullying are never interrupted, and the rest of the children usually enjoy it.
They all said he was a fool, because he was fooled again and again, but he couldn't help it. Asperger’s disease makes his eyes clouded when facing people. He can’t distinguish between malice and goodwill. He can't distinguish good people from bad people. He can't distinguish between help and teasing. In the beginning, they deceived with "goodwill help."
Later, whether it was good intentions or malice, he attributed them all to malice. He no longer believed in anyone other than his mother, so that he would not be chased again, and he would not be hurt every time he believed. pain of.
Therefore, he still lowered his head and passed Qiao Lan silently, without giving her any response.
No one will like him, and no one will treat him kindly.
He was born a mental lunatic, a discarded defective product.
And defective products,
Destined not to be accepted by anyone.