Cheng Yan didn't expect Xiaobie to win the wedding, but he didn't expect Xia Shaoqian to come to judge him after Xiaobie.

Xia Shaoqian looked thinner than before, but a little fatter after middle age makes it easier to look younger. As soon as Cheng Yan saw his appearance, he felt his breath suffocated, his heart was sour and astringent, and he couldn't help but want to hug him, comfort him, and touch him.

"sit down."

However, Xia Shaoqian's blunt voice fixed Cheng Yan there.

Two people were sitting on two single sofas. Xia Shaoqian's hair was neatly combed, he wore glasses, and his eyes swept over Cheng Yan as sharp as the most severe judge. Cheng Yan was nervous and wanted to cough again, but he coughed twice and held it back. Xia Shaoqian looked at his complexion a little better.

"Drink tea," he said.

Cheng Yan felt more and more like he was being taken over to confess his crimes. Sit down, drink your tea, and then it's time to get straight to the point.

Sure enough, Xia Shaoqian asked Jiang Xiao with one mouth.

"How did you meet Jiang Xiao University in a different school?"

"It was my classmate who took me to their school to play, and I got to know each other..."

"When? Be specific."

Cheng Yan was stunned for a moment, then replied, "It's the second semester of my sophomore year. One of my classmates said that there are many beautiful women in Jiang Xiao's school, so he took a few people from our dormitory to go out together... The girl he asked happened to be Jiang Xiao's class. Come on, we just played together."

"And then? When was the relationship determined?"

Cheng Yan didn't want to answer any further, he said gently: "I was young with him back then, and we just played all day. We didn't think about staying together for a long time... There's really nothing to say."

Xia Shaoqian suddenly showed disgust and annoyance: "Did you want to be an actor just by playing?"

Cheng Yan was silent. It was Jiang Xiao who brought him to the set for the first time, it was Jiang Xiao who said to him "you have talent", and it was Jiang Xiao who didn't forget to encourage him to persevere when he left. He didn't want to tell Xia Shaoqian what happened between them and others? Xia Shaoqian wanted to abuse himself, but he didn't want to accompany him.

"Speak!" Xia Shaoqian's voice was full of anger.

Cheng Yan raised his head, his eyes softened: "He is just such an opportunity. I really like this line of work to do this line of work... You should believe me?"

Xia Shaoqian has always liked Cheng Yan's gentle calmness. He speaks gracefully and without leakage. He feels very smart and interesting. When he has a leisurely mood, it is a pleasure to guess the meaning of the words.

But today is not the time.

Xia Shaoqian only felt that the dark fire had burnt through, turned into an open fire, and was about to burst out.

"So in your heart, he is very good. No one is as good as him, and no one can hurt him. I don't even have the qualifications to listen to the truth. If I listen to it, it will tarnish him."

Cheng Yan was stunned.

"Xia Shaoqian, I thought you wanted to have a good talk."

"I'm talking, but you won't."

"Are we talking? It's you who is judging me."

Xia Shaoqian looked like I was just trying to judge what happened to you: "Is it a shameful thing I'm asking?" Then he instantly realized that Cheng Yan was really shameful in the past, and immediately changed his words: "You refuse to tell me, It's just a ghost."

Cheng Yan also became angry: "Jiang Xiao and I have been together many years ago, do you hear it? Who didn't click! You didn't? Why do you always drag other people among us, what do you think? Jiang Xiao, an outsider, is the problem? I don't think so."

Xia Shaoqian did not speak.

Cheng Yan finally got up and sat down next to him, holding his hand: "Xia Shaoqian... Let's have a good talk."

Xia Shaoqian's hand was a little cold. Cheng Yan had a low-grade fever, and felt that his hand was cold, so he couldn't help but hold it tighter.

Xia Shaoqian's eyes were finally no longer so cold.

"Sick?" he asked Cheng Yan.

Cheng Yan shook his head: "Just a little cough."

"Smoke less."

"I was thinking about quitting smoking like you..."

Suddenly feeling warm again, Cheng Yan gradually relaxed and talked with Xia Shaoqian about the things he had been outside for the past few days. He's starting to feel good that they need to open up and have a serious talk, not fight over who's right and who's wrong.

"Did you meet Zhu Feiqing two days ago?" Xia Shaoqian asked gently.

Cheng Yan nodded: "Did she tell you? We chatted for a while and talked about your father..."

Xia Shaoqian sneered: "Don't worry, he's just a little long-winded. What else did Zhu Feiqing say?"

Cheng Yan said seriously: "She advised me not to give up, at least you shouldn't give up first."

"Oh." Xia Shaoqian listened.

Cheng Yan was focusing on his hand, and after covering his left hand and right hand, he did not see that Xia Shaoqian's eyes had gradually changed.

"I was really nervous the day I left... I was just thinking about myself," Cheng Yan lowered his eyes and confessed to Xia Shaoqian gently, "The next few days were very chaotic, and the more people stared at themselves, the more they felt their own sadness. , the easier it is to be selfish. I was like that for a few days. In fact, I used to be like that... although..."

He paused and said in a lower voice, "Although I love you, I am also confused by my own pain."

He said in a hurry: "But Zhu Feiqing is right. In order to maintain this relationship, I am not the only one who is tired and sad. Your situation may not be more comfortable than mine. She said, 'As long as you have a little affection for him, Shouldn't bear it'..."

"You're tired, you're sad, but you can't bear it?" Xia Shaoqian's voice sounded abruptly.

Cheng Yan faintly felt that Xia Shaoqian had misunderstood what he meant, and he stared at Xia Shaoqian: "I feel sorry for you."

Xia Shaoqian was silent.

He suddenly raised his arm and said, "Crack!" and slapped Cheng Yan on the face. This time, it was fierce and fast, and Cheng Yan was thrown to the ground by him in an instant.

Both stayed. Cheng Yan didn't realize what was going on at all. He only felt the darkness in front of him, and a loud rumbling noise in his mind. After a while, he felt that he was lying on the ground, and his face was burning with pain, stabbing and stabbing.

Without looking back, he knew that Xia Shaoqian was looking at him.

He got up, a little dizzy, he shook.

As expected, Xia Shaoqian sat there motionless and looked at him, still standing tall. Cheng Yan suddenly remembered the first time they met, and it seemed to be the same. Xia Shaoqian sat, and he stood, ashamed to the point of embarrassment, and forced his composure.

But at that time, he never expected to talk about true love with Xia Shaoqian!

"Cheng Yan..."

Xia Shaoqian's face was pale, and this slap was beyond his own expectations.

"I didn't expect you to feel tired," his voice was not usually low, but a little light and empty, as if he couldn't help himself, "I gave you everything... How can you, how can you feel tired?"

Cheng Yan didn't sit down again, he stood a little further away, and turned the intact half of his face in the direction of Xia Shaoqian: "Look, this is the problem between us—my problem."

"Since when did you feel tired?"

Cheng Yan thought for a while: "It was very early... Probably when you forced me to say 'I love you'."

Xia Shaoqian was shocked again: "Am I forcing you?"

Cheng Yan suddenly felt a surge of joy.

"Maybe you didn't feel it, but the first time was really under pressure."

"What pressure."

"You are the gold master. The gold master said love first, I can't help but say it."

Xia Shaoqian looked a little dazed. But the soft emotion that Cheng Yan had when he came here no longer exists. He only hoped that Xia Shaoqian really loved him a little bit. Because, hearing these words, as long as Xia Shaoqian loves him a little, he should feel sad.

Xia Shaoqian asked the question again: "In your heart, who am I?"

"I don't know." Cheng Yan replied.

Xia Shaoqian seemed to find it hard to believe that this answer was so simple that it didn't answer.

Cheng Yan explained: "Because you only want to, you only need to be loved, so I should only have this kind of feeling for you? I'm sorry. I loved you and hated you. You don't think I should be tired, but I am tired."

"Why?"

Cheng Yan felt that he could no longer hold on. He could feel the temperature in his body getting worse and worse, and the slap just now made him still a little dizzy, and his eyes turned black after a while.

"Why," he gave a short laugh, "because it was abnormal in the beginning... We are doing a business. I also want to ask you why, why do you love me? Because I am more in line with your requirements and imagination Or have you already determined in your heart that I have received your favor, so I will only love you, not betray you, and dare not hurt you? You want sex, I give you sex, you want love, and I can only give love I'm sorry...I'm not good enough!"

"Enough!" Xia Shaoqian's restraint was a little weak.

Cheng Yan suddenly felt relieved for a while, and then he felt a little weak in his legs, took a few steps back and slowly slid down the wall and sat on the ground, fainting.

When he woke up, Cheng Yan glanced at the empty big bed, and his heart was unusually calm. He touched his face, which seemed to have been applied there, and the medicine was applied, so it didn't hurt if he didn't touch it. He couldn't sleep any longer, so he turned on the TV and tuned to the station that was broadcasting the upper part of the old country.

Today's two episodes are almost over.

Zhou Xinchun's wife found out her husband's ambiguity with the courtesan, and walked down the boulevard in a disheartened and dazed way.

At this time, the episode rang, and Cheng Yan was taken aback when he heard the familiar melody, and then he remembered that Teacher Yang had already told him that the song "Scornful Beauty" would be used as the interlude in the play.

used to be cautious

I thought that was to cherish

used to smile

Pretend to be happy all the time

forgive me

love you to the point of suffocation

I still don't know how beautiful love is

...

Cheng Yan finished listening to the song silently and turned off the TV.

The author has something to say: the next chapter will probably break up

After writing it, found out that it is already 214...

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