Nineteen years ago, September.

Eleven-year-old Bai Luorui was wearing a small white dress and lying on the windowsill, she looked out from the window of the nursing home. From this angle of hers, a small patch of green in the grass can be seen.

The old people ate their supper early. Now that it was almost dusk, the sky just showed the color of the sunset. They all finished their meal and walked from the cafeteria outside to the sleeping place in twos and threes.

Most of the old people were deaf, and they spoke loudly, making the yard noisy. In front of Bai Luorui was a soundproof glass window, through which she could still hear some intermittent voices.

The scenery outside the window was monotonous and uninteresting, but Bai Luo Rui looked very focused, very quiet, and motionless.

Grandpa went to the cafeteria to return the plate. He will take this opportunity to take a breath, chat with other old people, stay for a while and come back. Grandma has already been lying in bed early, she has simply washed, and she does not need to take care of her anymore. . In every day, only this time is Bai Luo Rui's own.

Grandpa always said that their family was lucky enough. When grandpa and grandma came to live in the nursing home together, there were just two vacant beds, so grandfather and grandma shared a room. Later, because her parents divorced, she also lived in. Slept in the same bed with grandma.

Bai Luorui seemed to have heard her mother talk to her grandfather before, that her grandmother had a very serious illness, like lung cancer or something. She was lying at home and waiting to die, even in the hospital. There are more old people here, who can bask in the sun and chat. Maybe grandma's health will be better.

Grandpa always insisted on taking care of grandma by himself, and did not let people send grandma to the intensive care unit.

However, my grandmother's body didn't get better, instead it was getting worse every day. Sometimes she would have a fever at night, and it was hot against Bai Luorui's body, covered with sticky sweat. When she felt so bad, she would hum. Sometimes when it bothers other people, a doctor will come and give her an injection. But Bai Luorui knew that those drugs couldn't save her at all. At most, they could delay her condition and let her live longer in pain.

Now, Bai Luorui could hear grandma's breathing. Grandma should be trying to fall asleep, but her breathing seemed to be pulling a bellows, making a heavy whirring sound. The air in the room became filthy along with it, and there was a strange smell, the smell of disease and old age. Fortunately, she was already familiar with all this.

Man, why do you get old? And why would he die?

Bai Luorui pondered this question and became fascinated.

There was a bright whistle from the door, and it was a secret signal between Wei Hong and her. Bai Luorui's eyes moved and retracted. Although it was almost dusk, it was bright outside the window. The room was dark, the lights were not turned on, and the curtains were drawn to block all the sunlight. No way, grandma doesn't like sunlight, so the curtains are drawn all the year round. There is only a small piece of the window, you can feel a bit of light.

Bai Luorui adjusted to the darkness in the room before walking out. She heard her grandmother's coughing sound from behind, she had been awake all the time: "Stop interacting with that kid surnamed Wei, you learn from the kid who comes here often. , I don't forget to study hard every day here..."

In this yard, Wei Hong is a stinky boy who is tossing around. He has poor grades and skips classes in school. The child who is often brought over is an outlier. Bai Luorui doesn't know whose child he is, only that he appears occasionally. in a nursing home.

In the past few months, I have seen him every month. He is fair and good-looking, a clean little boy, and he is polite to people, and he is a good boy among all the old people. Bai Luorui likes him, he has a good smell on his body, which is different from the smell of these old people. She asked him, and he said that his surname was Gu, and his name was Gu Zhibai.

Bai Luorui walked forward, pretending not to hear the words behind her, she locked the door carefully.

At the bottom of the stairs at the end of the corridor, Wei Hong and Du Ruoxin had been waiting there for a long time. One of these two friends was twelve years old this year, and the other was only nine years old. Wei Hong was still holding a frog that he caught today. Because of running in the yard all the year round, he was tanned, but his eyes were white and bright. When the two saw her approaching, Wei Hong got up and threw the frog on the ground, raised his head and said to Bai Luorui, "Have you really made up your mind? Are you going to find Dr. Xia?"

Bai Luorui nodded. After dinner today, this is the time they had made an appointment.

Du Ruoxin grabbed Bai Luorui's hand, remembering her previous plan, she backed off a little: "I'm afraid, let's not go..."

"You promised me a long time ago, so it doesn't matter if you want to talk now?" Bai Luorui's voice was still childish, but what she said was like a little adult with a contemptuous expression on her face. She was afraid of attracting adults. She lowered her voice in Du Ruoxin's ear and said, "You are always like this, your parents kept you here, coward!"

This sentence seemed to have a thorn and scratched Du Ruoxin. After listening to Bai Luorui's words, she lowered her head a little sadly.

"It's up to you to go or not." Bai Luorui took a few steps forward and turned to look at the two little friends behind her, "If you are afraid, it's too late to go back now."

"Whatever you do, I'll follow you." After Wei Hong finished speaking, he followed her forward, his eyes shining brightly in the dim corridor. His studies were not good, and at first the other kids in this yard were isolating him and not playing with him.

It was not until Bai Luorui came that Wei Hong had friends. She would suddenly pull up his hand, the girl's hand was tender and weak, and she would carefully help him wipe the wounds left by the fight.

To Bai Luorui, Wei Hong always blindly followed regardless of right or wrong. In his eyes, the little girl was like a princess. Since she was a princess, a knight should protect her.

Du Ruoxin snorted a few times and followed. Among the children in the nursing home, she is the youngest and timid, but she has always been Bai Luorui's follower. She didn't want to just let it go and be left behind by her best friend. Moreover, she felt that Bai Luorui was right, her parents must have hated her cowardice and left her here. If she could do anything shocking, maybe they would give her another look

The three of them walked all the way to the building of the doctor and the nurse. They knocked on Xia Zhiwei's door as usual. Doctor Xia was resting tonight, and they were all very familiar with the dormitory, which was only a dozen square meters.

Xia Weiwei just took off the white clothes he had been wearing all day, and changed into his regular clothes, which made him look delicate and gentle and intellectual. With a smile on her face, she got up and poured water for them: "Why did you two come together today? Are you here to ask about homework?"

The children here know that Dr. Xia has always liked children. There are often children here to play, and she has long been accustomed to it. There are candies for the children on the table, and they will answer their homework patiently.

"Doctor Xia, I want to ask you one thing." Bai Luorui's voice was clear and serious, as if he had made a major decision, Wei Hong and Du Ruoxin stood aside and did not dare to make a sound.

Xia Weiwei turned his head and looked at the child. She recognized her, this child surnamed Bai, with precocious puberty above her age. She is also very beautiful, such a little girl will still get a lot of preferential treatment even in this gloomy nursing home.

Xia Weiwei asked Bai Luorui, "What do you want me to do?"

Bai Luorui's face had a calmness that didn't match her age. She said word by word, "I want you to help me kill my grandma."

Xia Weiwei was stunned for a moment, only to be sure that she heard it right. This child who was only a few years old had a serious and firm expression. She didn't seem to think that what she said was shocking to the world, while the two little friends beside him, the boy was silent. , the other girl was obviously a little nervous, and seemed to feel her mood change, Bai Luo Rui took her hand.

The children may have been planning for a long time.

Xia Weiwei looked at her, her gaze gradually changed, her expression changed from the initial softness to a bit indifferent: "Why make this request?"

Bai Luorui clenched her fists, her palms sweating: "That's my grandma's wish. She told me more than once that she really wants to die, but she can't live on her own. I hope you can help me to achieve it. For her wish, I only have one request, which is to let her die as painlessly as possible."

Grandma trapped herself and her. Since grandma fell ill, Bai Luorui hadn't slept a whole night. She went to school during the day, and when she came back from school, she had to help grandpa take care of the sick. The seriously ill grandmother was sensitive and irritable, and she would go into a rage at the slightest disappointment, and sometimes she would cry hysterically. She drew all the curtains and was reluctant to talk to anyone. She said her life shouldn't be like this, she said she had enough, she said she wanted to die, more than once.

"Do you think it's good for her to kill her?" Xia Weiwei held the water in her hand, she used a disposable paper cup, which was originally poured for these children, but now it was not handed to them, she bowed her head herself Take a sip.

Although she murdered, she knew very well what she was doing. These children, children who were just ten years old, had absolutely no idea what these words meant.

Although Xia Weiwei sometimes hates herself, she still has a trace of humanity and is unwilling to involve these children. She shook her head and refused: "I am the doctor here, the person who heals the disease, I can't promise you, I don't know why you have such a request."

Xia Weiwei put down the water glass in his hand: "Let's go, after you get out of this door, don't tell others such stupid things."

Bai Luorui seemed to have long expected to be rejected, she raised her head and looked directly at Xia Weiwei, her eyes were aggressive: "We know your secret. If you don't agree to me, I will tell you what you did in the intensive care unit. Policemen."

Xia Weiwei's eyes narrowed slightly: "So, what did I do in the intensive care building?"

"You killed people there." Bai Luorui said solemnly, "We saw you knocking nails into the top of the old man's head and injecting potions into it."

The room was silent for a while.

Du Ruoxin felt goosebumps on her arm. She looked at Bai Luorui with some fear, regretting telling them what happened before.

Once they played hide-and-seek, Du Ruoxin hid in the curtain of a patient in the intensive care building. Perhaps because of her small size, Xia Weiwei did not notice her existence. She heard footsteps in the room and saw Xia Weiwei came to the bedside and injected the old man with something after torture. The paralyzed old man could only make ahhh sounds weakly, accepting such harsh torture.

Then Xia Weiwei recorded these in the notebook.

The frightened Du Ruoxin told her two best friends about this. She hoped that they could tell the adults together, but Bai Luorui told her to keep quiet.

From that day on, they began to pay attention to the whereabouts of Dr. Xia. Every time Xia Weiwei went to the intensive care building alone, some old people would die, and some old people would have scars on their bodies. They were sure that Xia Weiwei was doing secret things here.

She is killing!

She's experimenting with how to kill!

At that time, Dr. Xia's eyes were as cold as they are now, so cold that almost anyone who knew her could not recognize her.

Xia Weiwei looked down at Bai Luorui with interest: "Do you know what you are talking about? Are you not afraid that I will kill you to silence me?"

Bai Luorui said: "If I came alone, I might. But now there are three of us. If you want to kill me, they will immediately go out and call someone. Even if you kill us all in the future, you will definitely Arouse suspicion from others, and you won't do it."

It is normal for the elderly to die in the nursing home, and the death of children, and the death of three children at one time, will definitely attract people's attention. There was no way she could get rid of them all together, as long as anyone was alive, she could spread her secrets.

Xia Weiwei smiled: "So that's why you brought your little friend here?" Then she looked at the three children in front of her, and her tone softened, as if what everyone was talking about just now were all jokes, "I I haven't done anything. Say what you want. Those old people died of natural causes. Let's see if the police believe what you said or what I said. You'd better go back now, otherwise I will be with you. Your parents complained."

Du Ruoxin pulled Wei Hong to get up, but Bai Luorui didn't move there: "Doctor Xia...then I'll tell the old people about this and let them all know that if you're going to kill them, there will be someone at that time. I'm here to investigate." She looked directly into Xia Weiwei's eyes, "Even if they can't find any evidence for a while, they will definitely be on guard and be careful with you, you can't kill people here again."

What she said was right. Once it is related to their own interests and their own lives, people will pay more attention. The police will not believe the words of children, but they will believe the words of the elderly. Even if it's just gossip, it's a weapon that can kill people, not to mention, she might have left clues somewhere.

Bai Luorui stared at Xia Weiwei tightly, she didn't like her, she thought she was cruel and morbid, but she needed such a teacher. She wants to get what she needs and do what she wants to do.

Xia Weiwei lowered her head to look at Bai Luorui. In this child's eyes, she saw something different. That feeling was like a beast foraging for food, and she was a little shaken: "If I do Well, what's the benefit."

Bai Luorui knew that her chance was coming, and it was now that she had to convince Xia Weiwei. She blinked, with a child's innocence on her face, but she was very serious: "I can do things for you. I even said that we can help you. Do things. We're kids, not so noticeable, and we can help you stalk and help you do a lot of things you can't do alone."

Xia Weiwei looked at them and seemed to be considering whether to agree to her: "But, how can you make me believe that you will keep secrets?"

Bai Luorui's voice was clear and clear: "We already knew that you were killing people, but we didn't tell the adults, this is our choice. Now that we are involved ourselves, then we are accomplices, confessing you, We will also be implicated.”

"What about you two?" Xia Weiwei asked again.

"I'll follow her." The boy quickly expressed his stance, his tone was a little proud, as if he was going to do something exciting and brave, "Isn't it a dead person? I live in this nursing home with my grandfather, a five-year-old I've seen dead people from time to time. Some old people are just waste of resources."

Du Ruoxin rolled her eyes and looked at her two little friends, she twisted her body, and her competitive spirit made her unwilling to be left behind: "I... I can help you watch the wind, that's what I do best, I hide and seek. , they can't find me."

Xia Weiwei stared at the three children in front of him, Tong Yan Wuji, they didn't seem to know that they were taking the initiative to ask Ying, becoming an accomplice, becoming an executioner, and they didn't know what kind of life they would face in the future.

Xia Weiwei was silent for a few seconds, then she nodded and looked at Bai Luorui: "Okay, I can help you."

On that day, their lives changed.

Since then, Bai Luorui has seen many people die. Sometimes the death of a person is a long and tortuous process that takes months or even years. Time is like a lingering knife, one knife at a time. Flesh and blood are cut from a person's body, as long as there is still a breath, as long as the heart is still beating, as long as the brain waves are not in a straight line, they can linger on and on.

Sometimes killing a person is a very simple process, just need an injection, a rope, a knife, and a few minutes, the soul is like a liquid in a container, and it leaks out, and the life is gone. , yin and yang are separated.

She stayed with Xia Weiwei for a whole year. Like the best student, not only has he learned all the methods of Xia Weiwei, but he is also outstanding.

It's just that she has one more thing to do...

In August of that year, Bai Luorui, who was only twelve years old, made an anonymous call to the police.

Devil, you should go to hell. She was certain that there was no trace of what she did, and she was confident that even if Xia Wei was arrested, she would not confess them and implicate them. That woman is like a madman, no one will believe those crazy things, the things they have been involved in.

Since then, the matter of the Wushan Nursing Home has finally been revealed.

He even said that the inquiries that Bai Luorui was afraid of did not come, Xia Weiwei disappeared, she did not know where she escaped, and no one knew that they had been involved in those things, and they were safe...

Nineteen years later.

Bai Luorui, who was sitting in the car, looked out of the car as if she was a child.

The car stopped at a red light, and Bai Luorui, who had broken free from her memory, looked up and saw that the Longyue Nursing Home was about to arrive. From this angle, it was really very similar to the Wushan Nursing Home.

The bustling city showed its reflection on the car window. In the traffic, the whistle was a bit harsh. Bai Luorui looked at the building in a daze. She remembered that she helped Xia Weiwei hold her grandmother's hand. . At that time, my grandmother's eyes looked at her. It was obviously the quickest potion, but she had blue veins on her neck and protruding eyes. She hesitated for a few seconds before she died, and finally she called her: "Lori!"

That was the last word my grandmother said.

Then she went to the bathroom and washed her hands repeatedly until they were red.

At this moment, Bai Luorui looked down at her hand. She unconsciously turned the bracelet on her hand. It was a relic left by her grandmother. She brought it to this day when she was ten years old. She was too young to take it off.

The grandma at that time must have been pleasantly surprised.

Grandma just didn't have time to listen to her explain this clearly. If she understood it, she would smile like she did after every 100% on the test, hug her and say, "My Lori did a really good job."

She wouldn't blame her. My grandmother lived so painfully and uncomfortably. She always told her that she was about to die and that she wanted to die.

All she did was to end the pain as she wished.

She was brought up by her grandma since she was a child, she loved her grandma, even more than other people, only she understood her pain, and only she could help her end that pain!

After growing up, Bai Luorui discovered that there are millions of families in this world, and many people have to endure this kind of pain.

Life can be measured by formulas, when the pain is greater than the joy, when you are helpless on the edge of terminal illness, when you are too old to drag everyone...

People should die when they deserve to die.

But some people want to die, but they don't have the courage to die, and they don't know how to do it. No one helps them. How helpless and pitiful are those struggling old people and those families who are stuck in the mud? So she came to help him, to help them, that's what she's doing now, it's a great thing, and it's something she has to do.

She is completely different from Xia Zhizhi, and her kindness in her heart has helped those people out of the sea of ​​misery.

Bai Luorui sighed and looked out the car window. The car was about to stop and her destination was about to arrive.

She sat up straight and looked forward. Bai Luorui was still thinking about that question in her heart, and she still hasn't found the answer to this day: why do people get old? And why would he die?