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    Ji Ling: ? ? ?

    He stared blankly in front of him, the god-like black mecha smashed Ning Yu's white mecha out with one punch, full of black question marks!

    Wasn't Jing Sui normal before? What's the matter with him? Why do you want to attack Ning Yu? Shouldn't he also have a convulsion... No way! You are the hero, you must hold on, you are my only hope to go home!

    Ji Ling almost cried.

    Just when he was in a trance, a cold and majestic voice resounded in the duel arena: "The outcome has been decided, the duel is over."

    Although Ning Yu's name was not mentioned directly, everyone could see that it was only a matter of time before Ning Yu defeated Ji Ling, and there was no doubt that Ning Yu won the duel.

    But the scene was still silent. Even so, His Majesty personally drove the mecha to interfere in the duel process. This kind of thing... is the first time in the entire history of the empire!

    As the emperor, he made an exception to intervene in a fair duel.

    To defend an imperial aristocratic dude.

    Clearly unfair.

    People online were silent for a while, then began to express their grievances.

    "I thought His Majesty was the closest to the civilians and the fairest. It was said that he punished Ji Ling for Ning Yu. I think it was just a show, and it was only at the critical moment that I could see who he was protecting..."

    "In the final analysis, they are still protecting the interests of their nobles, and they are in tune with each other. Usually, they are just pretending to show us."

    "Take us all for idiots?"

    "Lick - are the dogs awake?"

    "As the emperor, isn't this a bit too much?"

    "Even if you admit that Ning Yu won, Ning Yu could have won."

    "You shouldn't have hope for these imperial nobles. Of course, the emperor safeguards the interests of the nobles, hehe."

    "I feel sorry for our big Ning Yu, take him away."

    "..."

    Ji Ling didn't know that in just a few minutes, the trend on the Internet had changed several times. Not only did he almost wash himself out, but Jing Sui took over the pot by the way and began to become the object of netizens venting their dissatisfaction.

    He got out of the mecha in a daze, looking at the huge black mecha in front of him with a sullen face.

    What about Jing Sui, the most reliable friend of the people? How are you!

    Are you reborn, or are you being misled by Brandon? !

    Just when Ji Ling was in despair, he saw the hatch in the middle of the black mecha open, and a tall, tall figure jumped off the mecha dozens of meters high and fell steadily like a mountain. on the ground.

    Jing Sui raised his head to reveal a handsome face, his golden pupils shone with cold light. He didn't look at Ji Ling behind him, but walked straight to Ning Yu's mecha and grabbed the edge of the mecha door. He stretched out his hand and ripped off the damaged cabin cover, pulling Ning Yu out of it.

    Ning Yu's lips were pale and seemed to be injured. He raised his eyes to look at Jing Sui, the green eyes flickered for a moment, and he made a low voice: "Your Majesty."

    Jing Sui said slowly, "Are you all right?"

    Ning Yu shook his head, "No problem."

    When Jing Sui shot, he controlled his strength, and at a glance, he could see that Ning Yu was not injured because of the injury just now. It is said that Carlos arranged for someone to obstruct it secretly... But this is not the right time to talk about it. He paused, looked at Ning Yu with apologetic eyes, and said in a gentle voice, "Just now, I made you feel wronged in a hurry... Although it was a duel, since the outcome has already been decided, it is better to put peace as the most precious thing. What do you think?"

    Ning Yu showed an understanding smile and said with emotion: "You are right, I was a little impulsive just now and almost didn't stop."

    Jing Sui smiled slightly: "It's okay."

    Ji Ling was in a trance and was very desperate at first, and almost thought that Jing Sui was also reborn. In the end, although Jing Sui suddenly shot to save him, he ran to greet Ning Yu without even looking at himself, showing his affection in front of everyone! I doubted my own thoughts again.

    Didn't Jing Sui come to help him?

    Ji Ling's eyes lit up, this is very possible! In this life, because of the butterfly effect, Ning Yu has not been plotted against himself, but instead beat himself up, he will definitely win the duel, Jing Sui does not need to go to the hero to save the beauty, but this is not necessarily a good thing for Ning Yu.

    Because as a civilian in Ningyu District, if he really killed himself in the duel arena, even if he won the honor, he would undoubtedly get into super trouble!

    Is he someone he can kill at will? Absolutely not!

    In this case, he can only admit that he killed Ning Yu, but Ning Yu will face crazy revenge for killing himself. Killing a noble is the bottom line that he cannot touch.

    Dueling is fair, this society is not.

    Not to mention that other nobles will take revenge against Ning Yu in order to maintain their authority, and will face endless troubles. Just their parents, Grand Duke Ji Ting and Mrs. Marina, will do anything to make Ning Yu pay for their lives!

    So Jing Sui's shot seems to be saving himself, but he is actually protecting Ning Yu. In this way, Ning Yu won the duel beautifully, won everyone's affirmation and sympathy, and won't offend his parents and other nobles because of this. Baili and no harm.

    This is the correct way to unfold the story!

    Ji Ling thought of this, and hope rekindled in his heart, you are doing well, man!

    I definitely saw you right.

    While everyone's attention was on the radiant Emperor and the protagonist Ning Yu, cannon fodder Ji Ling slipped out quietly. He was really tired today.

    Although many things have changed in this life, in order to go home, he must be able to turn the plot back!

    Ji Ling returned to his preparation room, wiped his face with cold water, rested for a while to recover some strength, pushed the door and was ready to leave.

    At this time, everyone was concentrated outside, but there was no one here. Ji Ling was walking alone in the empty metal corridor. When turning a corner, he accidentally bumped into someone. He was about to say sorry, but when he looked up, his whole body stiffened. On the spot, he was speechless with his mouth open in astonishment.

    Is he hallucinating? How could he see Jing Sui here?

    Didn't Jing Sui just talk to Ning Yu outside? !

    If you don't comfort your sweetheart, what are you doing here alone?

    Jing Sui lowered his eyes slightly, looking at the stunned young man in front of him, the young man was a little embarrassed, and there was a blush on his fair face that had not disappeared after the fierce battle, and complex emotions slowly emerged in his eyes.

    In fact, wanted to talk to him just now... but he didn't do that.

    He didn't want to push the boy to the cusp of the storm to endure more malicious speculation and unprovoked attacks, so even if he wanted to see this person again, he didn't look back.

    Ji Ling stared blankly at the man in front of him. After a while, he thought that this might be a coincidence, or that Jing Sui was also about to leave... Since it happened by accident, he had to continue acting no matter how tired he was.

    His eyelashes trembled, and he looked at Jing Sui angrily and sadly with red eyes, and said unwillingly, "Who asked you to save me, I, even without you, I can defeat him!"

    Jing Sui didn't speak, just stared at him.

    Ji Ling was a little flustered, Jing Sui's eyes always made him feel that something was wrong, he shivered, and continued: "I'll show you, I'm not better than—"

    Ning Yu is poor.

    But these three words were not spoken.

    A gust of cold wind swept across his neck, Jing Sui suddenly stretched out his hand on the wall behind Ji Ling, lowered his head and approached Ji Ling's face, his sharp golden pupils stared at him for a moment, the tight curvature of his jaw, pursed tightly. The thin lips showed that the man in front of him was not in a calm mood.

    Ji Ling suddenly got stuck.

    I'm going, it's the first time he has seen Jing Sui's serious expression, it's really scary! No matter how disgusted this person used to be, it was an understatement of indifference. Even when he ordered his expulsion from Emperor Star, he still showed no expression, just like he didn't even have the qualifications to make him angry.

    Although he and Carlos are the same kind of person with deep scheming, if Carlos always wears a hypocritical and elegant noble mask, then Jing Sui never shows any joys and sorrows - there is probably no such thing in this world. Anyone can guess the true emotions in his heart.

    Therefore, Jing Sui, who suddenly became emotional and looked very angry, was really frightening!

    Ji Ling's teeth chattered in fright.

    From the extreme distance, Jing Sui stared at the fear in the blue eyes of the young man. After a long time, he closed his eyes and opened them again. In the depths of the golden pupils, there was an almost imperceptible dark color of pain.

    The pale and bloodless face of the young man in front of him gradually overlapped with the scene in his memory that he could not forget all his life.

    In the steel ruins covered with dark clouds and thorns, the man with the face of 'Ning Yu' stood in front of him without hesitation at the critical moment, gave him a thunderous blow from Carlos, and then he slowed down. Slowly fell down, the disguise on his body dissipated like a faded mirage, and finally revealed the original appearance of the boy.

    He fell into his arms, his face pale and bloodless.

    But the scorching light in his blue eyes was like the last gleam of fire in the burning embers. At the last moment when his life was about to die, he used a weak voice and said seriously to him: "I'm sorry... I won't do it again. haunting you."

    "You and Ning Yu, be good."

    Those inaudible words, accompanied by the smell of blood and blood in the wind, were so light that they almost drifted away with the wind... But his heart, which was almost never moved by anything, twitched slightly.

    It seems that something very important has passed silently.

    Since then, every detail in this picture has come to life in the countless years that follow.

    He also finally realized that the boy didn't hurt Ning Yu at all that day, he actually went to save Ning Yu.

    Because he thought that Ning Yu was the one he loved, he went to Ning Yu's place even at the risk of being discovered by Carlos and risking his life.

    Using his arrogant and domineering appearance as a cover, he gave Ning Yu a chance to escape.

    He loves being humble like that...the pretense of pride is his last self-respect.

    But even if he was so jealous of Ning Yu and hated Ning Yu, he finally chose to use his own life to fulfill them.

    Jing Sui has always known that he loves him. This love has been abandoned by him and dismissed, because there are so many people who like him that it makes him numb. He has long been accustomed to all kinds of admiration and worship. Gaze...and the juvenile was but the most disgusting and self-aware of them all.

    What those people love is not the real him, but his appearance, his identity, and cheap love is what he lacks the most.

    He thinks the same goes for teenagers.

    But only then did he realize that he was wrong, that it was outrageous.

    It turns out that there is really a person in this world who loves him so purely and fervently. Even if he is hurt like that, he gives up again and again, and pushes him away again and again... but he still can't let him go and can't help but love him.

    Willing to do anything for him.

    Throughout the past and future, there will never be a person who will love him like a teenager.

    This love is not universal, but unique.

    It is countless times more precious than the most precious treasure in the entire universe.

    But he didn't realize it until he lost it.

    Jing Sui's eyes gradually showed a look of pain and sadness. He once thought that he would not regret anything, but when the young man died, he realized that this was not the case. He would also regret the death of a person. Can't sleep at night.

    I regret that when I was a teenager, I didn't take a serious look at him, and I didn't treat him well, even once...but I didn't.

    He just... trampled his mind again and again.

    Until the young man used his own life to open a tiny crack in his cold heart... And as time passed, the crack did not heal at all, but gradually expanded, and finally his heart was full of turtles. crack.

    What everyone saw was the icy emperor who was aloof and arrogant. Everyone thought that he had long forgotten the young man who died for him.

    Everyone thought he was a heartless man.

    But only he himself knew that the web formed by the crack had enveloped his heart, quietly changing everything.

    So he proposed to Ning Yu to dissolve the engagement.

    Ning Yu agreed very readily. This answer was expected by Jing Sui, because he knew very well that Ning Yu didn't actually like him much. They were not so much lovers as they were allies with common goals, interests fit. From a civilian at the bottom, to a high-level evolutionary step by step, and finally to become the hope of all civilians, those who can do all this must be more rational than emotional.

    Or, Ning Yu has already seen everything through.

    The young man's death easily shattered the not intimate connection between them.

    So they ended the relationship peacefully.

    Keep silent on the matter.

    They still have a lot to do, and they don't have time to be sad.

    Then many years passed.

    The empire was finally what he wanted it to be.

    Some people began to persuade him to get married and continue the bloodline for the imperial family.

    But whenever someone talks about this issue, he always thinks of the boy who closed his eyes in his arms. I remembered the way he always followed behind me and looked at him admiringly...

    He thought, if the boy was still alive.

    I can probably marry him, he will be very happy...

    After all, I want him to get his wish once, even once.

    Too bad it was his fantasy.

    Some mistakes, once made, can never be remedied.

    Not once.

    Just like Grand Duke Ji Ting and his wife, who had left Emperor Star in despair, even if they tried their best to make up for it, they never accepted the slightest, but left the place that made them sad.

    In this world, anything can be made up and can be measured by value, but the human heart cannot be measured by value and cannot be made up for.

    He can't make up for anyone's heart, including his own.

    He used to think that what he gave up was just a trivial thing, but later he realized that what he gave up was a unique treasure that he would never get even if he owned the whole world.

    A pure and flawless heart that loves him.

    Many years later,

    Every time the young man looked at him with loving eyes, every time he smiled and called him brother Jing Sui, every time he was jealous, angry, and angry... The little bit of his relationship with him began to continue from his It was dug out from his memory, which clearly and cruelly reminded him how ruthless his actions were, and did not give him any chance to escape.

    If I had treated the boy a little bit better at the beginning, things wouldn't have gotten to that point.

    But he didn't.

    It was he who personally pushed the young man who loved him deeply into the abyss of doom.

    Every time he recalled, he would tear the wound that never healed, revealing the blood dripping inside, letting him know that he was also a caring person, and he would also feel pain.

    This is probably the punishment the boy left him.

    Let him know that it's all self-inflicted.

    Let him know that a person like him is not worthy of such a feeling.

    But the funny thing is...

    A ruthless person like him is actually favored by God, and he can even get a chance to come back.

    There was a deep self-deprecating look in Jing Sui's eyes. He was a little greedy. He looked at the vivid face of the young man in front of him. There seemed to be something slowly flowing in his chest, which had been frozen by the cold. pain.

    No, it may not be a gift.

    Maybe God let him be reborn to let him see with his own eyes the wrong things he had done and let him know how cruel he was...

    Look at him sarcastically and tell him.

    Now that you are back, what are you going to do? Do you really know how to love someone?

    Deep in Jing Sui's eyes, a look of pain flashed away.

    Yes, look at what you do...

    If it wasn't for his contempt and indifference, how could Ji Ling take the risk to challenge Ning Yu in order to prove to him that he knew he was invincible? In order to get a look and affirmation from himself, he was desperate like this...

    And he knew that he was just humiliating himself, but he unknowingly ignored everything that happened.

    Unconsciously, the love that will torture him for hundreds of years in the future, make him sleepless at night, and can't get it, easily tramples on it.

    Why can't I come back earlier?

    sooner, better...

    Ji Ling stared blankly at the silent, terrifying Emperor His Majesty in front of him, his legs were weak and he almost sat on the ground in fright.

    You, do you need to be so angry?

    Ning Yu is fine again...

    I was the one who got hit...

    Ji Ling almost wanted to cry but had no tears. Seeing that Jing Sui's breath became more and more dignified and terrifying, he suddenly turned his eyes and looked at the tall black-haired and blond-eyed man in front of him with tears in his eyes, hoping to fool him by pretending to be pitiful, and trembled. : "Your Majesty, Your Majesty..."

    This vibrato His Majesty sounded like a hand, gently poking something.

    Let the stagnant time continue to flow, and let the wandering thoughts return to the front.

    Jing Sui finally raised his hand.

    In Ji Ling's dazed gaze, he gently wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes, and made a very soft, very soft sound... It seemed to have traveled through time and space and drifted from the distant future.

    He said, "I'm sorry."

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