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    Standing on the battleship, Jing Sui looked down coldly, watching the steel torrent on the ground ruthlessly razed this place to the ground.

    The ground is collapsing and the crowd is fleeing.

    Suddenly... Jing Sui narrowed his eyes and looked straight ahead.

    Above the wreckage, a young man slowly appeared. He raised his head, revealing a bright face, and looked into the sky from a distance. Even if he was hundreds of meters away, Jing Sui could see every trace of him without hindrance. His expression, the look in his eyes fluctuated violently.

    Ji Ling came to the ground.

    The huge starship in the center was like a steel fortress. He felt that Jing Sui should be there, so he looked up.

    Although he had decided to stand up, the surrounding war and the heat wave caused a dull pain on his face. Ji Ling was a little worried that he would die before he could see Jing Sui. After all, swords and guns have no eyes...

    But if you pretend to be forced, you have to stand up.

    Ji Ling stood up against the wind with an indifferent expression, standing among the ruins and corpses, feeling that his whole body was full of strength, like a peerless master.

    I don't know if Jing Sui saw him or not. Just as he was thinking about whether he should make himself more present, suddenly—everything around him stopped, as if the pause button had been pressed.

    All the imperial troops and mechas stopped moving, and the rebels who were desperately blocking looked at each other, and then quickly retreated.

    Ji Ling was slightly startled, his heart fell, and he stood there quietly.

    Jing Sui found him.

    The entrance of the huge starship opened, and a group of imperial soldiers descended. The black-haired, golden-eyed man at the front, wearing a black military uniform, with a cold face, strode towards him.

    Jing Sui came to the young man step by step, looking at the face he was thinking about.

    Clearly separated not long, but there is a kind of feeling as if separated.

    Since that day Brandon took the boy away from the palace, he has never seen him again... It's not that he doesn't want to see him, but he can't see him. So far, he doesn't know what else he can say or do. .

    It took him a long time to have to accept the fact that the boy no longer loved him.

    And how should I deal with this person who doesn't love him?

    He is not ready.

    Until he learned that the boy was kidnapped by Wen Yan, and then wandered around, and then Ning Yu's identity was exposed, Carlos found the boy first...

    Jing Sui finally could no longer remain silent. He remembered the torture he suffered when the boy was kidnapped last time, and the use and harm that "Gabriel" had done to him. How he was treated, all this made him suffer and couldn't sleep at night.

    Who would have thought that Ning Yu would be Gabriel?

    Jing Sui laughed at himself. In the last life, he boasted of his fame, but he didn't know that there was a person who was always hidden in the dark and even beside him, and he knew nothing about it.

    Ning Yu, did he torture him like this in order to avenge the humiliation and suppression of the young man in his previous life?

    Jing Sui didn't know.

    He fixedly looked at the young man in front of him. At this moment, countless complicated emotions emerged in his heart, countless words he wanted to say, and he wanted to approach him to comfort him and ask him if he was alright... But he faced the indifferent blue The eyes are so close to each other, but they can't get any closer.

    Jing Sui was silent for a long time, and finally said: "I'll take you back."

    Ji Ling looked at Jing Sui calmly, and raised the corner of his mouth: "Yes, but I have a request, you withdraw from here now."

    Jing Sui's expression finally changed slightly, and a look of surprise and pain appeared in his golden eyes. Is Ji Ling actually defending these rebels? Did he forget how they treated him and tortured him?

    Damn these people!

    Jing Sui took a deep breath and said, "Why?"

    Of course, Ji Ling had already thought of an excuse. Although he knew that Jing Sui liked him, there was no reason to persuade Jing Sui to withdraw from the army. He had to make sure that Jing Sui could not refute it!

    Ji Ling looked at Jing Sui and said calmly and clearly: "In the last life, when I fell into the hands of the rebels, when I was the most fearful, desperate, and at a loss... when you had completely abandoned me and announced my When the news of death..."

    Jing Sui's pupils shrank suddenly, looking at him.

    Ji Ling said word by word: "He saved me."

    Jing Sui's fingertips almost pierced into the palm of his hand, so hard that his knuckles turned white and rattled. That was one thing he could never forgive himself. He knew that Ning Yu didn't really want to save Ji Ling, he just didn't want to be killed by Carlos. It's just for use, but no matter what the reason is... In the last life, at the moment when the boy needed help the most, the only one who appeared to save him was Gabriel.

    And he himself gave up on him.

    This is probably the reason why the young man was willing to stand up for him even though he knew that Ning Yu hurt him and deceived him.

    Gratitude is clear, love and hate are clear, and never want to owe anyone.

    don't want to hurt any innocent people.

    Ji Ling said: "And there are many civilians here. They have not hurt me and are innocent."

    Jing Sui looked at him silently, the pain deep in his eyes swept like a dark cloud.

    He could understand what Ji Ling did, but he didn't want to back down, didn't want to leave, didn't want to let go of anyone who hurt the boy, especially... Gabriel.

    The violence and pain in his heart made him on the verge of losing control.

    Jing Sui slowly opened his lips, and his voice was cold: "Even if you save them, they won't be grateful to you."

    Is it really worth it for a bunch of pariahs who hate you?

    "I don't need anyone's gratitude." Ji Ling said lightly: "It's your Majesty, in order to compete with a group of ants-like pariahs, and being attacked by the enemy on the back and back allows Carlos to take advantage of it, the real gain outweighs the loss."

    Jing Sui's eyes suddenly became sharp.

    Ji Ling did not avoid or dodge, and looked directly into Jing Sui's eyes, "Your Majesty, don't forget your original purpose, and don't forget who is your real enemy."

    Jing Sui pursed his lips tightly, as if he was about to see through the person in front of him, and it was like the first time he really knew him.

    The young man spoke clearly and lightly, but every word hit his weakness. He was reminding him that defeating Carlos and maintaining his dominance was what he should do as an emperor at the moment. The rebels were wrong and the gains outweighed the losses.

    It's not that he doesn't understand this truth, but he shouldn't say it from the boy's mouth.

    Do you really, don't care what you're going through?

    Or is it because it's too painful, it doesn't matter anymore?

    Jing Sui's voice was low and hoarse, and each one said loudly: "You are defending a rebel, an enemy, someone who deceives and hurts you."

    Ji Ling really regretted that he had gone too far in acting at the beginning. There was no explanation for that, but he could still avoid the heavy and lighten it! His eyes were indifferent, as if he didn't care about anything, he chuckled and said indifferently, "If you want to say hurt, haven't each of you hurt me?"

    Jing Sui laughed miserably.

    Yeah, if it hurts, who can stay out of it?

    He closed his eyes for a long time, and said, "You are right, I should not reject your reasonable proposal."

    Ji Ling said, "Your Majesty is wise."

    Jing Sui's Adam's apple twitched, and cold pain circulated in his chest. He would rather Ji Ling hate him, be angry at him, be angry, but none of these... no gratitude, no resentment, or even emotional fluctuations.

    He spared no effort to come here with the enemy on his back...

    Let go of hatred for him, compromise and stop for him, and even let Ning Yu go for him.

    In the end, only got one sentence: Your Majesty is wise.

    Do you know that you are actually the most cruel person.

    ………………

    The army withdraws.

    What came was overwhelming, and those who retreated silently, leaving only a piece of ruins and wreckage.

    Ji Ling followed Jing Sui back to the starship. People saluted him respectfully, and the servants brought exquisite clothes and food, trembling and cautious, lest the poor service would arouse His Majesty's anger.

    Ji Ling accepted all of this calmly. Sometimes he felt that he really seemed to be a nobleman, as if he had gradually become accustomed to such a life, but... He knew that this was just an illusion, no matter how long he was here, the essence Or the ordinary earth boy.

    In order to avoid Jing Sui, Ji Ling stayed in the house every day and did not go out, and even had his servants bring him in for dinner.

    Although he pretended to be cool before, but remembering the situation he was about to face, Ji Ling quietly complained to the system: [I want to go back to the lonely one, under the ten thousand people, only money and power can fill the empty and painful life. . 】

    Ji Ling especially emphasized the pronunciation of the word "下" under one person.

    The System Heart Dao host is actually still cowardly, so he asked tentatively: [Are you afraid? 】

    Ji Ling exploded immediately and said loudly: [Hehe, would I be afraid? I am a dignified man, would I be afraid of such a thing? ! 】

    System: [...] If you weren't so excited, I might believe it, and if you compare the size, I don't think Jing Sui will lose to Carlos...

    But the system can't bear to remind the host of this cruel fact at such a moment, so he admits his fault with kindness: [It's me who said it wrong, you are the bravest. 】

    Ji Ling: […]

    He felt that the system might be playing tricks on him, but he didn't want to get to the bottom of it.

    As a human being, it's hard to be confused.

    ………………

    Ji Ling stayed on the starship with nothing to do, living a comfortable life of drunken life and dreams. The comfort really made people lose their fighting spirit. After only a few days, he felt that he was about to degenerate again.

    Ji Ling: [System, how is the discussion in your Time and Space Administration Committee? Why don't you give me an answer to such a major mistake? At least give me another mission! 】

    System: [Don't worry, I will urge again, the result should come out soon. 】

    Ji Ling had to continue to wait, but he felt that this time should not be long. After all, the results of the investigation were already available, and now it was time to discuss the task and compensation.

    After thinking for a while, he decided to stay by Jing Sui's side until the result came out. If he had to choose one, Jing Sui was actually quite suitable. Live by yourself, and not be killed by other rivals. Emperor Star is also the safest place.

    Although it looks like it's taking advantage of him...

    But isn't it impossible? He is really tired of the days of being robbed, so it is better to have a harmonious society, at least there is freedom in love, right? But let's not talk about falling in love now, choosing a partner is the same as picking Chinese cabbage in the vegetable market, it's miserable.

    However, what surprised Ji Ling was that Jing Sui rarely appeared in front of him.

    Ji Ling is a little puzzled. Jing Sui has gone through untold hardships to get himself back, but he can't even see his face and let himself fend for himself. Bar? He really has lingering fears for these people...

    The strong unease and apprehension made Ji Ling unable to sit still. He felt that he had to go out to check the situation and see what was going on.

    To avoid being caught off guard at times.

    To deal with the enemy, you must know yourself and the enemy to be victorious!

    Bah, although he seems to have been losing all the time before, this does not hinder his fighting spirit. After all, he has managed to keep the chrysanthemum-flower so far. Isn't this a victory in another sense?

    Ji Ling finally walked out of the room.

    The servant waiting at the door immediately said respectfully: "Do you need anything?"

    Ji Ling felt a little uncomfortable. He put his hands behind his back, took a few steps, and asked with a frown, "How long until we can return to Emperor Star?"

    The servant said, "The day after tomorrow will be there."

    Ji Ling thought so fast? After saying this, he didn't know what to say. After a pause, he asked again, "Your Majesty, what has he been doing recently..."

    The servant said: "Your Majesty is busy discussing the battle with other generals. The army of Grand Duke Carlos has already attacked two galaxies, and the current situation is not optimistic."

    Ji Ling looked surprised. Did they reach this point? Carlos still rebelled...

    Ji Ling didn't ask anymore. It's pointless to ask this kind of thing. Could it be that he can still let Carlos and Jing Sui stop fighting?

    In any case, the most wounded in the war are countless civilians.

    It's fine to say that he is sentimental and hypocritical, but Ji Ling really likes the earth, his country and his hometown, at least he doesn't have to face such disasters and parting ways.

    He thinks that life is good if it's simple and ordinary.

    After experiencing everything here, I realize more and more that what I once had is worth cherishing.

    Ji Ling said to the servant, "I'll just walk around, you don't have to follow."

    The servant said respectfully, "Yes."

    Neither stopped Ji Ling nor followed Ji Ling.

    Ji Ling walked along the corridor to the edge and looked at the starry sky outside through the huge floor-to-ceiling glass. Such a majestic universe is breathtaking and picturesque, and one cannot help but indulge in it.

    If it weren't for the cruelty of this world, which reminded me that I was incompatible with this place, would I still be able to stay firm in my heart to go home?

    Ji Ling didn't know.

    Time passed slowly.

    He heard steady footsteps in front of him, turned around, and looked up to see Jing Sui standing not far ahead.

    The man stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling glass, with the endless stars and the Milky Way behind him. His long black hair was tied behind his head, his golden eyes were piercing, and his handsome appearance was like a god. Just like Ji Ling came to this world and saw him for the first time, forever. They are all such noble, powerful, and heartless gods that seem unattainable.

    But Ji Ling knew that something was different.

    Jing Sui just stared at him silently, neither stepping forward nor leaving.

    Ji Ling looked at him, suddenly turned around and left in the opposite direction. The moment he turned around, he seemed to see the fleeting sadness in Jing Sui's eyes.

    But his footsteps did not stop.

    Ji Ling returned to his room, went to the sofa behind him, put his hands behind his head, and stared at the roof with absent eyes.

    I don't know how long it took, he suddenly said: [Am I being cruel to him? 】

    He has always thought about protecting himself, escaping, leaving... But he never thought about whether the person who was left behind by him would also be sad? After all, Jing Sui... thought he loved him.

    The system was silent for a moment and said: [If you don't plan to accept him, then being cruel is better than giving him hope. 】

    Ji Ling paused, closed his eyes, and chuckled: [You are right. 】

    At least now, I don't have to say I love him against my heart anymore...

    ………………

    Two days passed in a blink of an eye.

    This morning, Ji Ling changed his clothes under the service of his servants.

    After several times, tossing and turning, finally came back here.

    He looked at the mirror, looked at the strange and beautiful face in the mirror, and cheered himself up, come on! you can! You're the best!

    Ji Ling turned around and walked out the door, walking along the wide metal corridor. The golden sunlight poured in from the entrance, reflecting the light on the ground, causing Ji Ling to narrow his eyes slightly.

    After a moment, he stopped.

    The man with black hair and golden eyes was standing at the exit. There was no one else around, so he should have been screened back. The man was tall and tall, majestic and straight... but he seemed a little lonely.

    Ji Ling's heart is really not surprised at all, it seems that he is going back to the palace again...

    Jing Sui watched the young man come in front of him, he raised his eyelashes slightly, his handsome face was cold and tough, and there seemed to be a hint of paranoia and pain in the bottom of his golden eyes, he said in a hoarse voice: "You know I won't let go... …”

    "No one has ever disobeyed me, as long as it is what I want, I will definitely get it..." Jing Sui's thin lips curled slightly, showing a cold chill: "Carlos will die, and Gabriel will also die. ...anyone who covets you should die, you have nowhere to run but belong to me."

    Ji Ling thought that this person was really sick, he raised his eyebrows coldly, and was about to speak...

    Jing Sui looked into his eyes, the coldness in his eyes dissipated suddenly, the corners of his lips rose, and he smiled self-deprecatingly: "In your eyes, I am such a person, right?"

    Ji Ling was startled, as if something was wrong, but he couldn't tell.

    The man's eyes were cold and indifferent, with a sarcastic smile on his lips, and said: "In your eyes, I will lose my mind and do everything in order to get someone who no longer loves me, and ignore my people, like a lunatic. Crazy for love..."

    Ji Ling was really confused this time, and looked at Jing Sui blankly.

    "Do you think it's possible?" Jing Sui lowered his head and approached him, lowered his eyes and smiled in his ear: "What kind of person do I want? The noble ladies and young masters of the entire empire want to gain my favor, countless People will spare no effort to get my favor, except that you have a heart that loves me deeply... what else is there for me to love you?"

    "I admit that you did impress me, but all I want...is the person who loves me deeply."

    Ji Ling looked at Jing Sui in surprise, as if to tell whether what he said was true or false, but what he saw was the former indifferent emperor, who looked down on everything, indifferent and terrifyingly rational.

    If it was before, he would probably be very happy, happy that his mission finally had hope, and happy that Jing Sui finally returned to normal.

    Now that he finally got the result he wanted, he found that it wasn't that much of a joy.

    Happiness that is built on the suffering of others cannot be comforted in the end.

    Jing Sui looked at the young man in front of him again, with a little nostalgia and reluctance, but after a while there was only indifference in his eyes. If this is the answer you want...

    "So, let's go." Jing Sui said.

    If I didn't have the last life, I might think you never loved me...

    But whether you love me or not...

    I've already fallen in love with you, so I decided to set you free.

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