"If he loses you again, and if you feel uneasy, come to me with this bamboo flute." He said, "I will try my best not to die, no, I will survive, and I will tell everyone around here my name. , as long as you come, you can find me as soon as you ask."

Flowers bloomed outside the window, and the breeze was blowing the fragrance of flowers.

Brother Herring's smile was as warm and warm as a sunflower, and the direction that had been blurred these days gradually became clear.

I took the bamboo flute.

"Xu Fang." The sun shines through the leaves into the light spots in the house, "Let's call it Xu Fang."

Chapter 31

Growing up, I only tried to be taken care of, but never cared for anyone else.

And he was a man other than a concubine.

However, there are more than one or two things that are immeasurable in life?

After Xu Fang drank the bowl of medicine, he vomited blood, and Qing Gu worked hard to suppress the poisonous attack in his body, but he never woke up after that.

Qing Gu said that if he does not improve within three days, he is afraid that he will not be able to recover.

I stayed by the side of Xu Fang's bed day and night, wiping for him, and feeding him porridge and water.

Xu Fang's face was getting worse and worse, and her pulse became weaker and weaker. Qing Gu didn't say anything more than shaking her head.

After leaving the room, I asked her, is there no other remedy?

Qing Gu said, he himself has no will to survive, what can I do?

I said blankly: "He promised that I would try to wake up, how could he not have the awareness of survival?"

Qing Gu said: "Although he is in a coma right now, he may not be unaware, but every time he detects his pulse, he is still silent. Alas, what if he wakes up? Even an outsider like me sees your guilt towards him. How can you not see it when you come out? He wakes up, it will only make you into a dilemma, it is better to just leave it like this, maybe you will still have some thoughts in your heart. "

I:"……"

Qing Gu said: "Do you believe it? Do you believe it or not, you have been saying 'I will marry you as long as you wake up' in his ear from now on, maybe you will wake up tomorrow?"

Me: "... Qing Gu, if you say this, I will suspect that you are colluding..."

Although I knew that Qing Gu was a dead horse and a living horse doctor, I was persuaded.

The moon is full and the stars are sparse, and the evening breeze is leisurely.

I watched Xu Fang in the moonlight beside the bed for a long time, made up my mind, and then slowly said, "Xu Fang?"

His eyebrows didn't move.

"I've known you for so long, I don't seem to have ever told you my name?"

"Well... When I was born, the garden in front of my house was full of begonia flowers. The flowers were beautiful and beautiful. My father wanted me to be like his begonia, so he called me his begonia."

"Actually, I was very happy every day when I was young. My parents loved me very much. There was also a big brother who loved me very much. He was so fond of me that he was willing to pick the stars in the sky for me."

"But for some reason, later, my father became busier and busier, and my mother became more and more indifferent to me. My elder brother was busy taking care of my father. I felt so lost and had nowhere to say. Once I ran away from home and fell into the mountains. The trap of helplessness has never been seen in my life."

"At that time, a man came down from the sky and saved me."

"My heart never left him."

"After a lot of things, I'm no longer an ignorant little girl, but even if he treats me badly and treats me very badly, I have never lost the heart that I gave."

"Xu Fang, you are the second person who saved me in distress when I felt helpless."

"You treat me very well, really good. In my long life, this is the first time I've heard someone say to me that I deserve to be treated better than anyone else in the world."

"In the past few days...I occasionally think, if the person I met when I was thirteen was you..."

I deliberately stopped and said nothing. After a while, Fang continued:

"If you fall asleep like this, your past and your future will all vanish. You are dedicated to me, but I don't necessarily shed tears for such a stranger. If you wake up, what will happen in the future? Although it is unpredictable, at least there is a future."

I pondered for a long time, but did not say the last word after all.

Although, I am afraid that I will end my life and I will not be able to forget him.

In the end, I said that I was tired and fell asleep beside the bed. The next morning I woke up with the sun shining brightly. When I opened my eyes, I met another pair of eyes, clear and bright.

When Qing Gu came and showed a smile, I asked Xu Fang with a sour nose, "Are you going back to the light?"

A warm smile appeared on Xu Fang's pale face.

I always thought that when Xu Fang woke up, I could tell him frankly, in fact, all I told that night were white lies. I was trying to save you. Now that you are cured, I feel at ease. I am leaving. Don't be sad, tomorrow will be better.

Once you're done, you can walk away.

But the fact is that after he woke up that day, he fainted again, dizzy, dizzy, dizzy, dizzy, Qing Gu said: "The sequelae of poisoning, this is a normal phenomenon, don't worry, he will recover slowly, It's just that you can't be too stimulated, especially spiritual ones."

Hearing the words, I silently retracted my hand to collect the burden.

In a flash, I lived in this town for another month. My leg injury was almost healed, and I was able to go shopping for food without the need for crutches.

Although Xu Fang would not let me act alone, I was afraid that the victims who escaped from time to time would be infected.

Nearly half of the villagers have died of the plague. The epidemic spread so quickly that even the imperial physicians in Beijing were helpless. I guess it was time for the imperial court to be cruel.

After thinking about it, I went out while Xu Fang was resting and met the local magistrate.

Although there was nothing that could identify me, the magistrate of Huáng knelt down tremblingly when he saw me. I expected it well. As the son of the emperor, if I leave alone, he will send someone to paint me. His portrait was sent to the government offices in the world.

Originally, I just wanted to know about the situation of the epidemic and disaster relief, but unexpectedly, I learned the news that the father, the emperor, and the daughter were sick.

I could not wait to rush back to Beijing right away, seeing the sunset in the western mountains, I couldn't catch the boat in time, so I decided to go back tomorrow morning.

Because of his anxiety, he buried his head and thought hard on the way back. He couldn't care about the front, back, left, and right. He inadvertently heard a "be careful" and let people fall.

When he looked up, he found that it was Xu Fang.

When looked again, found that there was also a person lying on his body. The man was dying, and the next moment he fell to the ground and foamed at the mouth automatically.

The passers-by around were already frightened and fled without a trace.

Seeing that I was safe, Xu Fang hurriedly let go of me. He seemed to be afraid that he might be infected, so that he could infect me. He took two steps back carefully, frowning at the collapsed refugee.

I took a few more glances and said, "Relax, his hands and feet are white, and there is no sign of measles on his neck. He is just starving and he has not contracted the disease. Besides, it is impossible for officials to get sick. people left the village."

Only then did he breathe a sigh of relief, "You're fine, why did you just run into the street alone?"

I looked up and saw the sun shining on his face through the shade of the tree, the light spots were deep and shallow, it was really beautiful.

It was at that moment that I realized how big a mistake I had made.

In order to save people, he said so many specious words, and he couldn't bear to tell the truth for more than a month.

Princess Xiangyi's dream can be woken up at any time, but the dream she weaves for Xu Fang will never come true.

Carrying a basket of vegetables, I stuck out my tongue: "I want to add some meat, but the plague is so disturbing that I have to continue my vegetarian diet."

Xu Fang took over the vegetable basket, as if my hand would break if I held it for a while, "Why didn't you tell me earlier?"

He took me to the riverside to buy fish.

I watched him walk towards the distant sky, and I remembered the first time I met him, and the river was still the same.

Under the shade of the trees beside the river bank, there are a few girls who paste paper and weave lanterns. Xu Fang has returned from buying the fish. Seeing me stunned, he asks, "Are they making sky lanterns?"

"Um?"

He said: "In two days, it will be the Qiqiao Festival. We have a custom here. Unmarried girls will make sky lanterns by themselves, write their names and wishes, and let them fly into the sky. , you can go to the girl with the lamp, if the girl seems to like it, she may end up with a marriage."

I said incredulously: "What if it was picked up by an ugly monster?"

Xu Fang smiled and said, "She can refuse."

"If the girl who puts out the sky lantern is not in the man's mind, could it be that she can go back and regret it if she comes to the door?"

Xu Fang thought about it and said, "I guess the person who came to the door was probably the one who was secretly secretly..."

I said, "Isn't this a bit more difficult? Since it's a custom, it must be full of sky lanterns that night. Are they looking for a needle in a haystack?"

Xu Fang smiled when he heard the words: "Then, I don't know, but I heard that in the past, a man really found the sky lantern made by his sweetheart in the sky, and it was a good story. Go wherever you can."

I laugh while saying nothing.

Xu Fang joked: "What? Do you want to try it too?"

I shook my head and said, "Didn't you just say that this is all played by unmarried girls... I'm already married and it's not very kind..."

Xu Fang stopped talking, and I said first: "... Besides, I'm afraid I won't be able to wait for the Qiqiao Festival."

Xu Fang looked at me in confusion.

I said, "Tomorrow I'm going home."

Xu Fang was stunned, he didn't seem to understand what I said.

I pretended not to see his watch, and naturally turned my head to look at the sky ahead, "I wrote a letter to my father some time ago, I originally wanted to report peace, but I received a report from him today. He said that he thought I was going to get sick, and if I didn’t go back, I would be an unfilial daughter, and I would be kicked out of the house, alas.” I sighed and said in one breath, “So tomorrow morning I have to take the first boat. Crossing the river, um, it may be very early, if you can't get up, you don't have to send me off, tonight... eat grilled fish to see me off?"

Xu Fang was silent.

I looked back at him: "Would you like to buy a drink?"

He still didn't speak. Just when I was thinking about doing something to adjust the atmosphere, his voice sounded above his head: "You finally, speak it out."

I was stunned.

"From the day I woke up to today, I finally found a reason to leave, right?"

When the words were picked out, I sighed in relief.

Xu Fang asked: "We... can we never see each other again?"

Ye Feng fluttered the broken hair in front of his forehead. I was a little flustered. I actually wanted to say something like "met by a thousand miles"."Well, it would be better to never see you again."

than illusory fantasies.

I closed my eyes: "Xu Fang, we will never see each other again."

I waited for his answer, but I didn't hear an answer. In the silence, he asked, "Why?"

"I won't force you to do things you don't want to do, you know that very well." Xu Fang's voice couldn't hear anything: "I think we are at least friends, why would you say that to a friend?Do you never see each other again?"

His eyes overflowed with sadness, and I dared not look at him.

"Because with a friend like that," I said, "I feel guilty."