His expression didn't change much, but his voice was hoarse: "How can I not know what you said? But I can't just watch you suffer and do nothing—"

I bowed my head, and my heart was sour: "How can you do nothing? At least you rescued me safely. When 'Xiao Qitang' in prison dies, no one will bother me anymore..."

He shook my hand and his eyes filled with pain, "A Tang, if you want to leave, I know you want to leave..."

My arm was pinched by him and it hurt, but he couldn't get rid of him at all. He was afraid of losing me, and I was not. My mind was in chaos, and I only heard my own voice: "Then what should I do? Stay, hide in the corner of the capital, and live disguised as others every day? I am afraid during the day that someone will expose me, and at midnight I'm looking forward to you coming out of the palace to meet me privately, and then watching you marry a concubine and have children outside the palace, and accompany you secretly all your life? Song Langsheng, is this kind of company you want?"

His body was tightly embraced by him again, almost suffocated by him. He trembled: "What nonsense are you talking about? How could I marry someone else? I have only liked you in my life. In this life, You are the only wife."

My heart hurts fiercely. In the past, I would have been filled with joy to hear such a profound confession from him, but at this moment, every sound and every word is pierced into my heart like sharp needles. It was painful, but there was no trace.

I didn't go on arguing with him about what would happen if an emperor didn't marry a concubine. What a smart man he is, far more foresight than me, I can think of, how can he not think of it?

Maybe it's because I was too hasty, eager to let the matter come to an end, maybe we should all slow down and give each other time to calm down, so as not to make a life-long resentment decision.

Hearing the sound of the watch from a distance, it turned out that the fourth watch had passed. If Song Langsheng did not return to the palace at this time, it would only cause unnecessary trouble. He still had a thousand words to tell. I knew what he was thinking, so I said, "I won't leave silently, don't worry, I'll wait for you."

After Song Langsheng left in a hurry, his secret guard took me to settle in a town on the outskirts of Beijing.

It is indeed a quiet place. The small bamboo hut is surrounded by bushes and jungles. It faces the green mountains in the north and the green lake in the south. There are also a few jīs in the courtyard. The leading dark guard told me that they live there. The next door next door to me, if I have any needs, such as what I want to eat, what to play, or I want to write a book and send it to the emperor, they can do it for me.

After expressing my deep sympathy for the profession of dark guard, I entered the hut and planned to wash my face and go to sleep first.

I thought there was no one in there.

Unexpectedly, as soon as pushed the door and entered, saw a woman lying on the bed in the outhouse.

Qing Gu, Lin Danqing, my mother.

What I didn't expect was that Song Langsheng actually picked up my mother, and what I didn't expect was that he didn't even say a word to me about picking up my mother.

What he said about it afterwards was that he wanted to surprise me.

That's why I suddenly appeared in front of Qing Gu's eyes, and she was shocked when she heard the movement and opened her eyes.

The two looked at each other without saying anything but tears.

Sometimes I think, if the father and queen mother could face their birth defects calmly, then I should be the daughter of an ordinary doctor now, and Song Langsheng is destined to be as long as he is not killed by other brothers. A king who is admired.

I asked my mother why she had never approached me for so many years. At least she had a chance to tell me the truth in Chenjia Village.

She said the truth was far less important than my happiness.

Maybe it's a certain number in the dark, so after such a long circle, we still returned to the starting point.

It's just that everyone's heart is devastated, and it is difficult for anyone to accept the ending at the beginning.

Including my mother.

On the fifth day after meeting me, she left with a letter.

When I woke up early in the morning, I saw the warm food and stationery on the table, and I rushed out of the farmhouse before I even took it apart and called the guards to tell them to find my mother separately.

She really came and went without a trace, but when I rode my horse up the mountain stream to see which way she was walking, I saw a vast fog.

I couldn't figure it out, how could she have the heart to leave me and leave again after we were separated for so long and finally reunited.

The wounds she was tortured have not yet healed, and the after-effects of the drugs have not been cleared up, so where can she go when she is alone.

I unfolded the letter paper, and when the mist in my eyes turned into tears, the handwriting on the paper gradually became clear: Mother is gone.

Don't get angry with me this time, don't worry about me, mother herself is the best doctor and can take care of herself.

It's you, remember to go to bed and eat on time, don't let xing act, not for yourself, but also for the sake of the child in your belly.

Don't bother to find me, my mother is used to wandering in this life, and I don't want to drag you down again and again, and I don't want you to let go of the person you cherish most because of your mother.

There will be a day to meet him.

treasure. Do not read.

I read the letter three times with difficulty, and after reading it for a long time, I realized what the phrase "child in the womb" meant.

I suddenly remembered yesterday that I couldn't afford to eat, and when she pulled me up, she held me by the wrist and was stunned for a while. I asked her what was wrong, and she pondered for a long time without saying a word.

It turns out that I am also a person who wants to be a mother.

Chapter 66: Fanwai Five

On the way back, I didn't dare to use the horse anymore. Although I was full of doubts, I still didn't dare to take the risk, so I had to lead the horse and walk slowly all the way.

Although the letter is very clear in black and white, I still don't believe it. How could I have... Could it be that my mother was in poor condition recently and misdiagnosed?

My heart was twisted into a mess, and after thinking about it, I decided to find a medical center to confirm it.

The doctor who saw me seemed to be an old doctor of this hospital, and he smiled as soon as he touched my pulse: "Congratulations to this lady, this pulse is fluent and slips like a pearl, it is undoubtedly a happy pulse. ."

My hand trembled, "Doctor, do you want to touch it for a while? How could I possibly be pregnant? I don't vomit when I eat, and I'm not drowsy, and there's no sign of pregnancy at all."

The doctor glanced at me with a smile, "Everyone's condition is different, and not all reactions such as morning sickness, etc., this old man has been examining the pulse for decades, and he definitely won't make a wrong diagnosis of the happy pulse, so madam can rest assured."

I rubbed my forehead: "...this is obviously impossible..."

"Why is it impossible? Madam has a monthly letter in the past two months?"

I shook my head, "I thought it was because of irregular work and rest..."

Doing the math like this, two months ago, Song Langsheng and I were still living in the Guiyuan Garden in Guangling. During that time, he really didn't seem to be lazy in that regard... But, I have been rushing on the road overnight for the past two months. It's the night roaming the deep palace again, frightened, and detained in the heaven prison a few days ago, full of grief, so that the child can be kept? Is this like father or mother?

Seeing that I have no masters, the old doctor couldn't help but ask, "Could it be... girl, you... haven't married yet?"

I glanced at him, "Of course I'm married. Even if I look green in the past, you can't say that, doctor. I got married several years ago."

The doctor breathed a sigh of relief, "Then what is there to worry about, Madam? This is a happy event, and you should go back and tell your husband."

I can't imagine if Song Langsheng would do anything irrational after learning this news, I shook my head and said subconsciously, "Tell him, I'm afraid it's going to be a rhythm of chaos in the world..."

The doctor took a deep breath, "Mo, could it be that this child...isn't your husband..."

I didn't pay much attention to what he said, so I nodded to myself, "I really don't know how to say it, alas, it's my fault that I was too impulsive at first, I locked him up without caring about his feelings, and then I acted out of nowhere. Let things turn into this uncontrollable situation..."

"Guanguanguan shut up the husband to do something wrong?" The corner of the doctor's mouth twitched: "...This, this, what does the lady mean that the child can't be kept?"

"When did I say I won't keep the child!" I glared at him, "The child's father, Yushu Linfeng, is handsome and handsome. In the future, whether this child is a boy or a girl, it is destined to spoil all living beings. How could I not keep a child!"

The doctor's look at me can no longer be described as horrifying. When I looked up after wandering around, I felt that the old doctor's attitude towards a pregnant woman was too unfriendly, so I didn't talk to him anymore, and asked him to give me a second security. Fetal medicine hurried back.

The streets outside the city were crowded with cars and horses, and I kept walking slowly, lest a passing passerby accidentally bumped me.

People are so magical sometimes. A few days ago, people who were reckless and did not know whether to live or die, when they found out that there was actually a small life in their stomach, they began to look ahead, and they were cautious in every move.

At that time, I lived in seclusion in the small town of Guangling. Song Langsheng and I would often lie on the rough ground, watching the faint stars in the sky, looking forward to who our baby would look like in the future, what name would we choose, whether to learn martial arts, or to be together Travel to Wanchuan and see the wonders of the world.

Song Langsheng especially likes little girls, and when he sees a more beautiful child on the road, he can't help but glance at him, and then thoughtfully narcissistically said: "Let's not have a daughter, my daughter will definitely fall in love with her. The country is all over the city, all the men in the world are fortunate, and I am absolutely reluctant to marry her."

When I heard it, I said angrily, "Then I'm not married to you yet?"

He said indifferently: "How many of me are there in the world?"

I:"……"

I couldn't help laughing out loud when I thought of his self-defeating look, but I couldn't stop laughing.

How should tell Song Langsheng?

A daughter of a rebel is pregnant with a keel. According to the Daqing Law, even if the child can be born safely, that woman will never be able to become a concubine.

He is now facing the enemy on the back and on the back, and it is difficult to ride a tiger. He can't even leave to come to me these few days, which proves that the situation in the DPRK is far more severe than imagined. Whether it is for me and that group of courtiers to die, or to abandon the safety of the country and take me away, there will be unimaginable consequences.

I swayed back to the bamboo like a wandering soul. As soon as he arrived at the door, he saw several black-clothed corpses lying around outside the hospital. It seemed that they had just been dropped by someone, and the blood on his lips was still seeping out.

The door was half-closed, and I vaguely felt that there was someone in the room. I couldn’t figure out what was going on, so I didn’t dare to enter without authorization. I was about to turn around to look for someone when the door suddenly opened, and someone walked out slowly and said to me: "Don't panic, it's the old man."

That person was Zhao Gengnian.

After entering the house, I found out that not only the chief minister of the dynasty was visiting, but also the general Huo Chuan, the minister of military affairs Yang Lizhi, the commander of the military commander He Pingzhao, and others. I didn't come to catch me as a fugitive, so I was a little relieved. It's just that I'm already a commoner, and it stands to reason that when I see several important officials in the court, I'm going to bow down. , Nanne asked, "What's going on with the corpse outside?"

They looked at each other, only to hear Huo Chuan say: "I was waiting to see that the princess was not at home, and I was hesitating whether to continue waiting, but an assassin mistook the movement in the house as the princess' intention to act, and I and Mr. Yang , Mr. He immediately shot and restrained them, but they would kill themselves immediately after biting the poison, and not a single living mouth was left."