Chapter 87 Should I go or not?

Shengchuan lowered his eyes and saw Shen Yu biting his sleeve in a daze, thinking that he was pretending to be stupid and showing off the sequelae. He felt a little funny in his heart, but it didn't show on his face. He pulled his hand down and said only one word: "Dirty.""

Shen Yu: "..."

He glanced at his sleeves and slowly realized what stupid thing he had done. He immediately put them down and sneered, "Do you care?"

He insists on biting, insists on biting!

Shengchuan secretly scolded him for his bad temper, and asked with a half-smile: "I don't care about you, who cares about you?"

He was the only one left beside Shen Yu.

He is the only one left...

After Shengchuan realized this, his eyes suddenly darkened for a moment, and he was gloomy but unaware of it. Hearing Shengchuan say that he wanted to take care of him, he turned his head unnaturally and muttered something secretly. He couldn't tell whether it was a curse word or a good word.

Shengchuan just pretended not to hear, picked him up from the sofa and went to take a shower, leaving a mess of folders on the floor, a silent reminder of what had just happened here.

For a period of time after that, Shengchuan was dealing with the matter of registering an online store. Uncle Cheng sent over some required documents. He registered a store online in the names of Uncle Cheng and Father Sheng. After handling the relevant matters, he contactedThe advertising company is ready for the next step of promotion.

The designer there quickly contacted him: "Mr. Sheng, our equipment is ready and we can go to the orchard to shoot promotional videos at any time. When will you be free?"

Shengchuan has been controlling all matters from afar, and has invested a lot of money. Although it is okay to leave the on-site promotional video to Uncle Cheng and the others, Shengchuan is afraid that they will not understand that, so he thought for a moment and said: "There is no rush now, when the time comesI’ll contact you again.”

After that, he hung up the phone.

The bodyguards outside still haven't withdrawn. As long as Shengchuan goes a little further, he will be stopped. Shen Yu obviously hasn't completely let go of him yet. Shengchuan is afraid of irritating his condition and has never said that he wants to go out. Looking at it nowComing is not a long-term solution.

Aunt Lin was making lunch in the kitchen, and the sound of chopping vegetables could be heard faintly, giving the large and empty room a little more smoke. Shen Yu didn't know whether it was to recuperate or to keep an eye on Shengchuan. He rarely went to the company and spent most of his time.Hold a remote video conference in the study room.

Shengchuan sat on the sofa for a while, guessing that the time was almost up, and then went upstairs to look for him. Shen Yu had just finished the meeting, and when he saw him coming, he turned off the computer interface: "What's wrong?"

His mental state during this period was better than before, but he still looked thin and gloomy, and he didn't put on much weight.

Shengchuan walked over and leaned on the edge of the desk. He didn't say anything. He just stretched out his hand to him and slightly hooked his fingertips. Seeing this, Shen Yu narrowed his eyes and put his hand up, but it didn't fall into his arms., but squeezed hard, trying to pull Shengchuan over.

Shengchuan seemed to be on guard for a long time, his figure remained still, and he clasped Shen Yu's wrist, secretly competing with him, and finally got the better of him and pulled him into his arms.

Shen Yu struggled twice, and it was obvious that he was not convinced.

Shengchuan held down his erratic hand and felt that Shen Yu seemed to be full of energy for this kind of thing. He closed his arms skillfully. After a while, the other party calmed down and behaved as much as he wanted.

Shengchuan asked him: "Is the meeting over?"

Shen Yu moved in his arms, and her hair brushed Shengchuan's chin, causing a slight itch: "It's over, what do you want to do?"

Shengchuan was curious about why Shen Yu asked this every time. His fingertips gently drew a circle on his waist through a thin layer of clothing, and said deliberately: "What do you think I want to do?"

Shen Yu obviously remembered the ridiculous thing he did in the study last time and snorted lightly but said nothing.

Shengchuan rubbed the back of his head, like smoothing the fur of a cat, over and over again. Shen Yu narrowed his eyes, lazily, and seemed to be somewhat helpful, but he heard Shengchuan suddenly say: "I have something to do, and I have to go out for a while."trip."

Chen Yu paused when he heard this, and looked at him coldly with clear black and white eyes: "I said, if you have the ability, just jump off the second floor."

Shengchuan was neither angry nor annoyed. On the contrary, he wanted to laugh: "Why don't you let me out?"

Shen Yu frowned, and his mood suddenly became irritable because of his words: "There is no reason."

Shengchuan asked: "Are you afraid that I will run away?"

Shen Yu didn't answer, he just wanted to think whatever he wanted: "You can't go out anyway."

There seemed to be a knot in his heart that he couldn't get rid of, and his mentality was still paranoid and twisted. After speaking, he seemed unwilling to continue discussing this topic with Shengchuan. He broke away from his arms and left the study with a gloomy expression.

Shengchuan stood there with his hand still in the same position as before. He slowly lowered it after a moment. He looked in the direction Shen Yu left and followed him, only to see the other party enter the bedroom.

Shen Yu's condition has been under control during this period, and he basically doesn't use medicine anymore. However, Shengchuan's light words just now were like a stone, suddenly breaking the peace in his heart, and he felt suffocated for no reason.

Shen Yu pulled open his tie with an expressionless expression, his breathing suddenly became rapid, and his fingertips began to tremble slightly uncontrollably. He rummaged through the boxes and cabinets looking for a sedative, but he couldn't find it. His clothes were soaked in cold sweat unknowingly, and his temper was rising.The long-term suppression seemed to have reached the critical point, and he swept all the ornaments on the table to the ground, making a loud crackling sound.

A ceramic ornament fell to the ground and broke into several pieces. It hit Shengchuan not far away from his feet. He saw this scene as soon as he entered the door and was stunned for a moment. Shen Yu seemed to be aware of his arrival and looked up.He walked out of the door, his face pale, and his dark eyes darkened.

Shengchuan paused, walked into the room with an unchanged expression, walked straight over the debris on the ground, then leaned forward and squatted down in front of Shen Yu, and said in a calm voice: "I have thrown away your medicine."

He emphasized again: "All is lost."

Shen Yu looked at him steadily, his chest heaving up and down. Hearing the words, he clenched his fingertips silently. His joints were blue and white, as if he was forcing himself to endure something. Seeing this, Shengchuan wiped the cold sweat from his face and kissed his dry and tight lips., asked inaudibly: "What are you afraid of?"

What are you afraid of, Shen Yu...

Shen Yu didn't speak. Maybe even he himself didn't know the answer to this question. It was like Song Mingxue once said that mentally ill patients have a strong desire for exclusivity. If he is willing to share something with someone, it means that he really likes it.other side.

But who can tell clearly whether that desire for exclusivity is for things or people?

Shengchuan hugged him so tightly, it had nothing to do with lust or romance, until Shen Yu's cold body was finally warmed by his cover, and then he finally pulled Shen Yu up from the ground: "I'll take you to a place, okay?"good?"

Shen Yu raised his eyes to look at him, his pale face still covered with a thin layer of sweat. His whole person was like an extremely pure black and white painting. No other colors could be seen. His mind was still in chaos, and he could not hear the emotions after hearing the words.He asked instead: "You want to run?"

Shengchuan corrected him: "I won't run, you come with me."

As he spoke, he raised their linked hands and shook them, even deliberately clasping them tightly to make them airtight.

Shen Yu said nothing and looked at him quietly, not knowing whether he agreed or not.

When Shengchuan saw this, he took it as he agreed, held his hand and walked downstairs. Shen Yu struggled slightly for a moment and then stopped, as if he wanted to see what Shengchuan was going to do.When the bodyguard outside saw Shengchuan coming out, he subconsciously wanted to step forward to stop him, but when he saw Shen Yu was also there, he hesitated and stepped back.

Shengchuan asked Shen Yu to get into the passenger seat, then got into the driver's seat and drove the car away from the Shen family mansion.The sun was just right today. Shengchuan lowered the car window slightly and could vaguely smell the dry scent of the sun. Golden leaves were piled on the roadside, scattering in all directions after the wheels rolled by.

Shengchuan glanced at Shen Yu and said, "The weather is very good today."

Shen Yu didn't say anything. He rarely set foot outside during this period. He seemed to just want to stay in that familiar closed room and guard what he wanted. Hearing this, he looked at the rapidly changing scenery outside the window and took it back.sight.

After about half an hour, Shengchuan drove the car onto a road near the sea. Shen Yu vaguely felt that this place was a bit familiar. He sat up unconsciously, tilted his head and stared at Shengchuan, and said in a deep voice: "What do you want to go to?"where?"

His breathing was erratic and his body was tense, unable to relax for a long time.

Shengchuan slowed down the car and placed a free hand on his head for a moment, as if to comfort him. Then he held the steering wheel again and whispered: "Don't worry, it's okay."

This is a piece of mountainous land near the sea with excellent scenery. It is the private property of the Shen family, but it is not used for development because Mr. Shen said by name before his death that he would be buried here. Later, after his death,Really buried here.

Shengchuan found a place to park the car, went around to the other side, and then pulled Shen Yu out of the car. Shen Yu resisted a little, but couldn't get rid of him, and was finally led to a cemetery in front of a cemetery.

Mr. Shen is buried here, and his wife who died long ago is buried next to her. The black and white photo above is calm and kind, not as serious and sharp as usual. A cold stone tablet records all the stories of his life.

There was a dedicated person cleaning here, and a bouquet of light-colored flowers was placed every day, but it still couldn't stop the weeds from growing wildly. Shengchuan leaned over and pulled out some, but turned around to see Shen Yu standing motionless, looking at the tombstone with red eyes., the sea breeze blew up the corners of his clothes, making a hunting sound.

Sometimes, people only know that the Shen family has changed the head of the family, but they don't know that it means that Shen Yu has no father.

Suddenly, he seemed to have everything, but then nothing.

God just likes to play tricks on people.

Mr. Shen didn't like Shengchuan, it could even be said that he was disgusted. He had a pair of eyes that had seen everything in the world, and he knew that Shengchuan was only close to Shen Yu for money, so the few times they met were quite unpleasant, and Shengchuan always suffered from his bad looks.

But now that everyone has gone, there is no use worrying about that.

Shengchuan cleaned up the grass around the tombstone and saw a bouquet of light-colored flowers on it, still stained with morning dew. He straightened out the messy flower branches, then stood up slowly and bowed three times in the sea breeze.

Shengchuan looked at the photo on the tombstone, and after a moment, he suddenly said: "I will take good care of Ayu in the future..."

He will take good care of Shen Yu in the future.

Shengchuan could tell endless lies, but he couldn't think of any kind words for the only truth he said. They were plain and serious. They were words he had hidden deep in his heart and it took him two lifetimes to say them.

Shen Yu squatted down at some point. His eyes were red, and he buried his face in his knees. He tried his best to suppress the sobs in his throat, but his shoulders were shaking. He slowly tightened his hands and hugged his knees. His back was helpless, as if he was just a person.A child who has lost his father and has nothing.

He couldn't let go of Shengchuan, because that was the only person he cared about in the world after Shen's father passed away.

It is the only thing that can be held in the empty palm.

Shengchuan didn't say anything. He slowly hugged Shen Yu from behind. In front of him was the endless blue sea, which was as salty as the warm liquid falling on the back of his hand: "A Yu..."

Shengchuan said: "I won't run away. I will take good care of you in the future."

After he finished speaking, he kissed the side of Shen Yu's face, kissed away the salty tears one by one, swallowed all the whimpering sounds of the other party in his throat, and after a long time, they slowly separated.

Shen Yu didn't know why and didn't say anything. Shengchuan gave him time to calm down and stayed quietly with him at the cemetery for a while. Seeing that it was getting late, he pulled him towards the car.

The sun had set unknowingly and was sinking slowly on the horizon. The water surface was sparkling for a while, reflecting the orange sky, like a rich and colorful painting.

Shen Yu lowered his eyes, looked at their holding hands, and suddenly asked in a hoarse voice: "Where are you going?"

Shengchuan paused when he heard this, and after a moment he realized what Shen Yu was asking: "I'm going back to my hometown."

Shen Yu raised his eyes to look at him and asked with no discernible emotion: "Why are you going back to your hometown?"

Shengchuan smiled when he heard this, sighed again, looked at him silently, and after a moment he joked: "Selling oranges, are you going to go?"

Shen Yu: "..."