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Chen Yuncheng turned his eyes away, and he said again, "Jun Yan."
Ning Junyan said, "You called my name for the second time."
Chen Yuncheng took a deep breath, and finally said, "You said you won't let me leave if you don't agree, have you thought about what will happen to us in the end?"
Ning Junyan said, "How about what?"
Chen Yuncheng lowered his head and looked at his coiled knees leaning against the edge of Ning Junyan's thin quilt. He said, "I remember your parents came to take you away when you were a child. Actually, I really hoped that you would not leave. At that time, I felt You are my only relative." Chen Yuncheng had never said these words to anyone else.
He still remembered that after Ning Junyan was taken away, he sat alone on the bench of the police station. He wanted to cry, but he held back. When someone came to talk to him, he also tried to make himself look good, for fear that others would dislike him.
At this time, Ning Junyan sat up straight, he stretched out his hand and gently held Chen Yuncheng's hand, as if afraid of touching Chen Yuncheng's wound, Ning Junyan just held his fingers sticking out from the edge of the gauze.
Chen Yuncheng didn't break free, and at this moment they seemed to return to the moment when they parted in their teens.
"But," Chen Yuncheng continued after a long time, "I know you have to go back with your parents, I have no right to keep you, you have your own life."
Ning Junyan's voice was low: "Do you think I am not qualified to keep you now?"
Chen Yuncheng shook his head, "That's not what I meant, I just want to say that we are not children anymore, even if we are brothers, we can't always live together when we grow up, we will always have our own families."
Ning Junyan asked him, "Can you do it?"
Chen Yuncheng said: "I may not be able to, but I know you will definitely have it. You are so good, I don't know how many equally good girls want to marry you."
Ning Junyan nodded, he still held Chen Yuncheng's finger and said, "Do you think so?"
Chen Yuncheng looked at him, "I hope you are doing well."
Ning Junyan asked Chen Yuncheng, "Then how are you doing now?"
Chen Yuncheng has never had a good life, but he doesn't feel that he has a bad life. Life is destined to go on like this. It's pointless to complain about oneself. He told Ning Junyan and also told himself, "I think it's fine."
Ning Junyan said, "I hope you have a good life too." After speaking, he smiled without warning, raised Chen Yuncheng's hand and gently touched his chest, "But I can't control myself, even if you don't think so. Well, what if I don't want you to leave?"
Chen Yuncheng was stunned.
The smile on Ning Junyan's face disappeared, and he looked at Chen Yuncheng intently: "Chen Yuncheng, I have tried my best to restrain myself, I have been giving you time, do you understand?"
Chen Yuncheng trembled in his heart and wanted to pull his fingers out of Ning Junyan's hand.
"No," Ning Junyan held his hand even tighter, "I don't want to hurt you, you will hurt. You ask me if I have thought about what will happen in the future, why haven't I thought about it? Since I see you again I kept thinking about you that day, and sometimes it gave me a headache. I had already thought about it for a long time, we will be you staying by my side in the future, and without my consent, we are not allowed to leave for half a step. "
"Ning Junyanβ" Chen Yuncheng felt a little unstable when he heard his tone.
Ning Junyan raised the other hand beside him and pointed to his head, "You were injured here as a child, you must remember."
Chen Yuncheng watched his movements and recalled the injury on his head when he first saw him.
Ning Junyan said: "Maybe it's still not normal until now, I was so excited when I saw you, and I even regretted letting go of your hand at that time. If I don't let go, will we not be separated? So long?"
Chen Yuncheng was churning in his heart, and many emotions rushed up together.
Ning Junyan took his hand at this time, put it on his lips and kissed it lightly, and said, "So don't say you want to leave, you can't leave."
For a moment, Chen Yuncheng froze because of his words, but in the next moment, he was diluted by more and more complicated emotions, suffering from inner contradictions and at a loss.
They sat face to face on the bed and didn't speak for a long time.
Ning Junyan's expression was very calm, he also reached out and brushed the hair that fell from Chen Yuncheng's forehead, and then said to him, "Don't be afraid, I will give you time."
Chen Yuncheng looked at him.
Ning Junyan said, "I can't bear to hurt you."
Chen Yuncheng was silent for a while and asked, "Does my head still hurt now?"
Ning Junyan replied, "Occasionally."
Chen Yuncheng sighed softly, raised his hand and touched the top of Ning Junyan's head gently, calling him like a child, "Yanyan."
Ning Junyan lowered his gaze, his eyelashes trembled slightly, and replied, "En."
Chapter 41
Chen Yuncheng wanted to chat with Ning Junyan, but ended up chatting with himself.
Until he turned off the light and lay on the bed in the guest room, Chen Yuncheng still couldn't fall asleep for a long time. He put his hands behind his head and wondered if Ning Junyan had gotten into the horns. Perhaps the experience of being together when they were children was too precious for them, or perhaps the separation was too sudden and unacceptable, so Ning Junyan still couldn't let it go after so many years.
Chen Yuncheng couldn't quite figure it out. The relationship between people was too complicated. Sometimes he couldn't understand what he was thinking. It was too difficult to figure out what kind of mentality Ning Junyan had.
Because he slept too late at night, Chen Yuncheng woke up a little later the next morning than yesterday.
After he changed his clothes and came out of the room, he heard noises from the kitchen and walked over to see Ning Junyan frying eggs.
Ning Junyan wrapped an apron over the sweater, held a spatula in his hand, and stared at the fried egg in the pan with a serious expression, ready to turn it over.
Hearing Chen Yuncheng's footsteps, Ning Junyan turned his head and said to him, "Wait for me."