After experiencing the betrayal of his relatives, he should be more mature.

Only then can he become a better person.

Jian Ci had never thought about the scene in front of him.

He came from the sweet and murderous game world, he killed decisively, and experienced countless lives and deaths, but looking at the fallen man in front of him, he wanted to treat his wounds, but his hands kept shaking, and he couldn't even take medicine. stable.

"I'm sorry..." Jian Ci muttered in disbelief, "I shouldn't have let you go back, I already knew it, but I didn't expect..."

It was at this moment when Jian Ci might lose him that he realized his second self.

It has something to do with Jian Ci being born in a world where life and death games are paramount, and because he is born with a strong will to win and game talent, he has never had time to try a love experience. Book.

The system generates for him the type he most likely likes:

Tall and handsome, patient, with an amazing talent for fighting, rebellious but extremely devoted.

He is most charming when he smiles, as if there are thousands of stars in his eyes, and it seems that there is only one person.

However, Jian Ci has always felt that he is not tempted. Even if his heart beats faster when he observes him, and sometimes he wants to have physical contact with him, Jian Ci will keep denying it, which is not liking.

Watching Ren Shuhan endure the severe pain and sew up his flesh, this is the first time Jian Ci has fully realized—

I really fell in love with this character.

Jian Ci never thought that he would have this kind of feeling. Years of gaming experience made him unable to face such a self, let alone the reality of being rejected by Ren Shuhan, so from this time on, he sometimes yearned for love too much and fantasized about love. The plot, sometimes returned to reality, is just as indifferent to the person he likes, and has entered the hell he has set for himself invisibly.

When he destroys others, he also destroys himself.

In the remaining ten years in this book, neither Jian Ci nor Ren Shuhan had ever walked out of the heavy snow that night.

Ren Shuhan rebuilt his inner alchemy, practiced martial arts day and night, and practiced diligently in order to numb himself, and his life became more and more busy. It is not so much that he never thought of Jiang Qingyue, but he never forgot.

Jian Ci felt sorry for him, and told him to stop calling him Master. Without Jiang Qingyue, he shouldn't be so depressed. Just treat himself as a family member and stay by his side every day, but he always pushes He opened a brief speech, just saying that he wanted to be alone for a while.

"You...Aci," Ren Shuhan lowered his head and said sadly after considering it, "You don't understand, I treat him..."

are different.

I want to touch, to hug, to kiss, to bite gently like a small beast, to hold him tightly in my arms, to pass through, to protect him with my whole life, that kind of ardent feeling .

was buried in the snow.

One night, Jian Ci got drunk, came to his room, sat beside his bed and looked at him, looked at him, and suddenly lowered his head.

Ren Shuhan thought he wanted to hug him, but he felt awkward, so he closed his eyes and turned his head, with a gesture of rejection, without saying anything, and Jian Ci fled.

When he left, Ren Shuhan felt a little sad and grabbed his sleeve.

Jian Ci turned his head and sat silently beside his bed.

"Aci, I..." Ren Shuhan also sat up, and for the first time mentioned the person he hadn't mentioned for many years, and frankly said, "I miss him very much."

For Ren Shuhan, Jian Ci is the elder who brought him from birth to five years old. Just like his father and brother, he has been taking care of him since he was sixteen, although it is colder than he remembers. Too good at expressing feelings, but also important relatives.

"People die like lights go out." Jian Ci said stiffly, "You should have forgotten about him long ago."

Ren Shuhan shook his head.

"He's not dead."

Jian Ci was stunned.

"Even if he wants to kill me, what if this life is taken away from him?" Ren Shuhan suddenly laughed, "I was saved by him."

"What did you say?" Jian Ci asked dumbly, because he was convinced that Jiang Qingyue was dead, so he had never checked Jiang Qingyue's whereabouts over the years, "He seriously injured you, but you didn't kill him? Say, you were out of strength at that time, didn't you?"

"I can't kill him," Ren Shuhan said, "I can kill him, but I can't."

Chapter 99 My choice remains the same

"He wanted to kill you, but you let him go." Jian Ci took a long time to find his voice and asked repeatedly, "You still miss him, what do you miss about him?"

Do you want him to take revenge?

At that time, Ren Shuhan didn't mention a word, and Jianci thought he was losing face, so he didn't ask.

As a result, Ren Shuhan took the initiative to talk about this for the first time in so many years, but it seemed that there was no betrayal or pain at all. The blood that he shed that night and the flesh that was gouged out were all lightly ignored. There is only one sentence left, "I miss him very much."

"I miss him..."

Ren Shuhan loosened Jianci's sleeves and turned his head to look at the moonlight outside the window.

Thinking about the smell on his body, the temperature of his fingers and waist, and wanting to touch his long hair again, but these are all things that he can't talk to his relatives at will.

"Think of his eyes, actions, and words at the time," Ren Shuhan closed his eyes and pinched the sour corners of his eyes, "The person who touched me was not him."

"You're deceiving yourself." Jian Ci gritted his teeth and clenched his hands, "I'm going to kill him for you."

"Aci," Ren Shuhan opened his eyes suddenly, held his wrist, pressed his hand hard, and paused for a moment before saying, "Master, don't go to him."

Jian Ci likes the attitude of being at the top, so the identity that the system first generated for him was Master, but after the feeling of heartbeat appeared, he was dissatisfied with the sense of distance of the title "Master", so he always thought, "Aci" It was special, whenever Ren Shuhan called him like that, he would agree to Ren Shuhan's request as much as possible.