Chapter 103 (8.4)

Chu Yu didn't speak, she listened to Wei Yun's words, and she felt a kind of exhaustion welling up from the bottom of her heart.

She lowered her eyes and said slowly, "Go home first."

This was a kind of euphemistic refusal, which made Wei Yun look up suddenly: "Is it so difficult to answer me?"

"Look into my eyes," Wei Yun took off his mask, revealing his handsome face, and said in a cold voice, "Answer me!"

Chu Yu didn't speak, Wei Yun said hoarsely: "Like it or not, is it so difficult for you to answer me a sentence?!"

"Wei Yun," Chu Yu looked up at him: "You are being presumptuous."

"Yes," Wei Yun gritted his teeth and said, "I'm presumptuous. I'll commit a crime of disregarding human relations. If there is anything else to scold you, just say it. I only need one word from you today—I like you, what should you do?"

"Then get back!"

Chu Yu pushed him away sharply, raising her voice. Wei Yun was pushed away by her, and Chu Yu looked at him coldly.

"Why do you think I don't respond, why do you think I don't speak? Wei Yun, you have to tell me what I'm saying, and when it's so embarrassing, can you feel at ease?! I'm your sister-in-law, and I have a responsibility to you. , I have family affection, I came to the Wei family, and I was with you. At first, it was just for my identity, and I just admired the strength of the Wei family. Even if I have friendship with you later, I just treat you like a brother and a friend-"

Saying that, Chu Yu closed her eyes and said with a trembling voice: "Xiao Qi, you and the Wei family have given me warmth. I like you, mother-in-law, Achun, Alan, and even Wei Qiuwei and Xia Weiqian... You all make me feel good and happy. Especially you, Xiao Qi."

She opened her eyes and looked at him quietly: "I am very grateful to you. In my life, there is no one who treats me better than you."

"So I don't have the heart to hurt you, and I don't have the heart to say it. My friendship with you doesn't stop there, maybe it's a little throbbing, but Xiao Qi, my love for you is really too shallow."

"That's also..." Wei Yun said hoarsely, "There's also a little bit, isn't it?"

Chu Yu didn't speak. After a while, she slowly said, "But what do you want?"

"You want me to be with you, don't you?" She chuckled: "But how much do I have to pay when I am with you? Xiao Qi, you are no longer a child, you are with me, we both have to pay Too much. I'm not willing to pay for that."

Wei Yun pursed her lips, her words cut into his heart like a knife, Chu Yu stared at him quietly: "Xiao Qi, I once liked it once, I tried my best to be vigorous, when I like that person, I think, even if I I don't care if I don't get a response. But when I really didn't get a response, I really came to the end of the road, and I exhausted all my enthusiasm, I realized that people will regret it. So I Tell yourself, I will never take that step again in my whole life. So I will not choose the hardest road, Wei Yun, you are the hardest road for me."

"You are someone who is very important to me," Chu Yu raised her hand and took it to heart: "In this life, apart from my family, you and Weifu are the most important to me. I have invested so much effort in you, I have spent my whole life looking at Weifu, and I can't bear to see Weifu and you, because I am stained with the slightest stain. The Wei family is so loyal to the family, and should not be stigmatized because of such a thing. And you, Wei Yun, if you have the heart to take revenge , you shouldn't give Zhao Yue any chance to attack you, you should have a clean reputation, do you understand?"

"I don't think it's a bad reputation." Wei Yun's voice was hoarse: "I like you. I do it, so I'm not afraid to admit it. It's just a fake name, I don't care."

"I care." Chu Yu said calmly, she looked at Wei Yun and couldn't help laughing: "You're right, it's just a fake name, you don't care, it's not that it doesn't hurt, but because you like it, Let you be enough to resist everything. If I like you, I like you enough, nothing matters, Wei Yun, I can leave this world behind, I can tolerate myself liking a child who doesn't understand anything, I can tolerate myself Trembling and worrying about this person changing his mind every day, I can also accept that I have endured everyone's scolding, and you changed your mind and left after the Wei and Chu family were shamed by me, but—"

Word by word, she was very clear: "I don't like you enough."

Wei Yun's whole body trembled fiercely, and he was breathing rapidly.

Chu Yu looked at him quietly, with a clear and calm expression: "Wei Yun, what I like about you is just like looking at the sun and the moon and admiring the spring flowers. You are really a very good man, and no one doesn't like it."

Wei Yun didn't speak, his lips and teeth trembled, he seemed to want to say something, tears rolled in his eyes, Chu Yu looked at him quietly, countless emotions surging in his heart.

Why don't people like this, who doesn't?

When she realized that he liked her, when he said what he liked, it seemed like a fire ignited her heart, illuminating the empty, dark and lonely world.

But she knows too well where her love comes from, and she knows too well how much this love is. She didn't even want to make compromises and sacrifices for this love. She just wanted to be quiet in her own world and recall over and over again all the warmth that this young man had given her.

Gu Chusheng threatened her, she was not helpless. It's just that when she faced this feeling, she suddenly felt scared. She wants to marry a person who makes her feel safe. She will never be tempted for the rest of her life, she will always remain rational, and keep a distance from that person, so that she will not come to see each other.

Her gaze made Wei Yun feel as if thousands of troops were running over him, he could hardly stand up straight, but he still had to stand, he gritted his teeth and trembled: "It's not that you don't like me... Since you like me A little, so why...can't you like more...a little more?"

Chu Yu watched the young man raise his head, and tears rolled out: "You said that I am your most important person, and you feel sorry for me, but why... you can't like me?"

Hearing this, Chu Yu froze in place, she heard him speak hoarsely, like a child: "You said you were good for me, but the choices you made were the ones that made me the most sad. You marry Gu Chusheng, You know that I like you, but you still marry him, what are you doing for me? You have chosen a path that will make you feel the most at ease."

"My feelings make you feel scared, you think I'm young, you're afraid that I'm sorry for the Wei family in your heart, you're afraid that you will sully the Wei Yun in your heart, you're afraid that you will bear the rumors and throw away your chance of stability and then I turn and leave, you are the most What I'm afraid of is that you have to open your heart and let me in."

"So you choose Gu Chusheng."

His words were like a sharp sword, breaking open her layers, revealing her bloody heart.

"Compared to me, what he can give you is a more stable world, you don't have to worry about who will enter your heart again, you can also give yourself reasons, you are for the Wei family, for me, you have nothing to be sorry for I"

Wei Yun walked step by step and stopped in front of her. His figure shrouded her, and the moonlight fell in the alley. Chu Yu listened quietly. His words were too straightforward and sharp to wake her up.

"Chu Yu," he said hoarsely, "you are so selfish."

"You gave me so many reasons and wrapped myself in layers after layers. You made me really think that you loved me so much, you gave me hope and saved me from the darkness. You saved me, saved me Wei family, but in fact, you are just saving yourself."

Saying that, Wei Yun lowered his head and his eyes fell on her heart.

"Your heart is empty."

He was dumbfounded and said something that the two of them had been trying to hide and hadn't thought about. He never knew, but never wanted to think about it, until this moment, he blurted out.

He can only tear open the curtain completely, revealing the unacceptable truth that people always avoid and cannot look directly at.

"You married into the Wei family. You did so much for the Wei family and for me because your heart was empty."

"Don't do this," Wei Yun looked at her quietly, with pity and bitterness in his eyes: "You don't know why you live."

His voice made Chu Yu feel as if she was submerged in water. The water was piercingly cold. She heard Wei Yun slowly raise her head and looked at her in disbelief: "Why?"

She is only twenty years old.

Why, but already heartbroken.

Chu Yu looked at him, she wanted to admit what he said, but the moment she spoke, she felt that it was not the case.

When she came to Wei's house, when she was numb to save people and help people, she did. But when she was in Fengling City and saw Chu Jin beating drums in the tower, when Gu Chusheng said to her "I don't want you to die", when she went to Beidi alone and carried him home, when he told her that he wanted her to do A little girl all her life, when he pressed his forehead against her stomach and said "sister-in-law, I hurt" because of the pain, her heart was full.

She felt that her life was complete and complete. When she was by his side, she felt that it was light and flame, so she surrounded him and tried her best to be good to him.

She was afraid of getting too close to him, and wanted to give him everything.

She felt that something had collapsed in her heart. Under this man's questioning, everything went by without a trace. Wei Yun saw her staring blankly, and he stretched out his hand and covered her face.

"Don't be afraid."

He hoarsely said: "I like you, it's really not that terrible. I don't know what you've been through, and I don't know why you're like this, but Ayu, I like you and won't hurt you. I have been thinking about this sentence for many years. Four years ago, when I left Fengling City and went to Beidi, I wanted to tell you this sentence. But I dare not say it because I am afraid of blasphemy. Brother, I am also afraid of blaspheming you."

"Later I realized that this relationship is not shameful, I didn't hurt anyone, I just like you. I wanted to tell you again, but everyone told you at this time that I was too young and my words were too frivolous, so I didn't Dare to say it. I endured this, I think, if I say this one day, it must be because I am sure, sure, I will never let you down in this lifetime. "

Chu Yu's eyelashes trembled, and she raised her head to look at him.

He is so much taller than her, and the youth's face is clear and handsome, and it is not at all as immature and youthful as when he was a teenager. Now he is calm and determined. He quietly looked at her, word by word, and said seriously: "You are with me, gossip, I will stop it."

"The mountain of swords and the sea of ​​fire, I'll go."

"I fill all the wounds in your heart."

"I'll give you what you lost, what you didn't get, and what you want to have."

"You always think that I am naive," Wei Yun laughed, with pity and helplessness in his eyes: "But Ayu, you are actually just like a child, you like this thing, you are not as brave as me."

Chu Yu didn't speak, she bit her lip, she didn't know why, listening to these words, she felt tears welling in her eyes.

She felt as if she had been smashed to pieces layer by layer, knocked open her heart, and presented the softest and weakest self in front of this person, who held the light to illuminate her.

She felt that she was being carried away, and every word she said was impulsive, so she pressed all the words to the bottom of her heart and clenched her teeth.

Wei Yun looked at her quietly, stretched out his hand, and took her in his arms.

"Silly girl, why are you so stubborn?"

Chu Yu finally couldn't hold back her tears, blurring her vision.

Wei Yun felt that the person's tears drowned him. He hugged her and patted her back, feeling distressed and helpless. He softly coaxed her: "don't cry, what's wrong with me, just tell me. Look at you, you're crying so much that your makeup is gone."

Chu Yu didn't speak, she gritted her teeth, pushed him away, and walked back with blurred eyes. She wiped her tears as she walked, like a child.

Wei Yun didn't know what to do, so he followed behind her and watched her rush forward. After a few steps, she stepped on the corner of her skirt and fell down with a stagger.

Wei Yun hurriedly stepped forward to help her and asked anxiously, "Are you alright?"

Chu Yu didn't speak, her face became a little pale, she lowered her head, and said nothing, just big tears fell down.

Wei Yun thought about the way she fell just now, touched her ankle with his hand, and frowned, "Are you bruised?"

Chu Yu didn't answer, Wei Yun pressed her lightly, and she tightened her body. Wei Yun opened her mouth to talk about her, but when he looked at this man with his head down and tears falling, he couldn't say a word again.

He sighed, half squatted in front of Chu Yu, and said gently, "I'll carry you back."

Chu Yu didn't move, and Wei Yun grabbed her hand and pulled it up to him, then put his back firmly on his back.

Under the moonlight, their shadows overlapped, Wei Yun carried Chu Yu on his back, and couldn't help laughing: "Before I saw you, I heard that you are a stubborn and willful young lady, after seeing you, I thought they were talking nonsense. I finally learned tonight that you were probably really a stubborn person before."

Chu Yu turned her head and stared at the shaking wall. Wei Yun's voice was gentle: "I don't know why you are crying, I don't know why you are sad, and I don't know how you got here. But Ayu, I can wait. , as long as you give me a chance to wait, don't think that you are good to me."

"I'm sorry..." Chu Yu said hoarsely.

Wei Yun chuckled and said, "Don't say sorry, I don't mind what you do."

Chu Yu didn't speak, her hands around his neck tightened.

She has never met a person who is so tolerant of her, and has never seen such a person who is so persistent, warm, with light and stability.

She used to be that kind of person for Gu Chusheng, when he came on a horse and stretched out his hand to her. But in the countless years that followed, she slowly discovered that Gu Chusheng was never the red-clothed boy in her memory. His world is all entangled in torment, and what he has is not obsession, but obsession. He just pulled her down into the darkness, never stopping.

As for Wei Yun, he didn't give her an amazing start, he didn't fall from the sky like a god when she was in danger, and even when they met, he was just a young boy and asked her to work hard to support him.

But after touching him little by little, getting close to him, getting to know him, and accompany him, only then did know that this person is so beautiful.

She hugged him silently, and said in a muffled voice, "You alarmed Gu Chusheng like this, what about the people over at Su Cha?"

"I think it's good," Wei Yun chuckled: "I intercepted him, but in fact only brought fifteen people, he sent a signal flare, all the masters in the mansion must come out to save people, I sent people directly to his mansion, Now the people of Su Cha have probably been brought back."

"You stopped Gu Chusheng just to steer the tiger away from the mountain?" Chu Yu responded quickly: "Then you need to get out of the city as soon as possible! Gu Chusheng knows that the person is gone, so he will definitely come to you..."

"I know." Wei Yun said softly: "Before I came, I ordered to go down, send you back, and I'll leave."

"Ayu," he turned to look at her, "I'll grow up, I will pave all the roads, you really don't have to think about what you want to do."

Chu Yu was stunned for a while, Wei Yun's steps were very steady, so she didn't feel any bumps. She quietly looked at his profile and listened to him slowly say: "I felt very happy to see you standing in front of me when I was young. Now I feel that if I can let you stand behind me, I will probably feel happier. ."

"I do not need……"

"But I have to give you a choice."

Wei Yun spoke softly, and the gate of the Wei mansion appeared in their field of vision. He carried her behind his back, his voice soft: "Being forced to carry the sword and being willing to carry the sword are two different things."

After speaking, Wei Qian rushed up anxiously: "Master Hou, things and people have arrived."

Wei Yun raised her head. Everyone at the gate of Wei Mansion was ready. Jiang Chun came forward and saw Wei Yun carrying Chu Yu on her back. She was stunned for a while, and then hurriedly said, "I'm probably clear about the matter, so hurry out of the city first."

Saying that, she stepped forward and reached out to take Chu Yu. Chu Yu was supported by her and Wan Yue, and walked towards the Wei Mansion with her back to Wei Yun.

Wei Yun looked at Chu Yu quietly, and Wei Qian came up and said, "Master Hou, let's go."

Wei Yun nodded and suddenly said, "Sister-in-law!"

Chu Yu froze, Wei Yun said gently, "Wait for me to come back."

Chu Yu didn't speak, she knew what she meant by "waiting for me to come back". He didn't just want to come back, he wanted an answer.

Chu Yu turned her back to him, she straightened her back, and did not look back.

After a long time, she finally spoke, her voice hoarse: "Okay."

I wait for your return.

I give you the answer.

The author has something to say: push the background BGM:

"As A Dream"