third chapter

At the meeting, Xia Tingwan was very uncomfortable again.

When a reporter from U Weekly asked about his acting skills, he first praised him for portraying Xiao Xia, who was a victim of domestic violence, in a very real way, and then changed the topic and asked him if he had experienced similar things in his life, or had contact with Xiao Xia. people.

Xia Tingwan felt as if someone suddenly clenched her throat.

Under the spotlight, even just three or four seconds of aphasia was very embarrassing. He felt his palms sweat, he wanted to smoke a cigarette, and he wanted to drink a few shots. As his eyes wandered, he saw the front row seated Su Yan.

Su Yan folded his hands and looked at him steadily, that kind of focused gaze made him suddenly feel more at ease.

He finally managed to come up with a fairly reasonable response: "I personally have no experience or contact. In fact, director Xu Zhe really gave me a lot of inspiration and help on how to interpret the character of Xiao Xia."

When it comes to entering the entertainment industry, he has always been in a state of being less conscious and self-aware.

To be a star, the most satisfying thing for him is that someone likes it.

Of course, it was too naive to think about it later, but for him at that time, that was his true thoughts.

He wants the likes of many people, and the unrequited love that does not pursue the real him, does not require any responsibility or feedback,

He is like a vain peacock, he just wants the splendid splendor of the moment when the screen is opened.

As for the real self underneath, he didn't want to be seen, approached, answered, or remembered.

After the meeting, the scene formed a small-scale chat and social situation in twos and threes.

Of course Xia Tingwan should have been the protagonist, but he himself felt that his performance during the interview was really bad and he was in a bad mood, so he wished that no one would pay attention to him, and quickly slipped into the corner by himself.

It was the agent Zhou Yang who found him first, "There is something."

Zhou Yang's conversation at the beginning is usually accompanied by some headaches. Xia Ting took a sip of champagne in the evening, glanced at Zhou Yang with his eyes, and motioned for him to continue.

"Someone wants to treat you to dinner."

"Don't go." Xia Tingwan refused without even thinking about it. Since he became famous, there have been many such things. There are rich businessmen and directors, but firstly, there are no great characters, and secondly, Xia Tingwan's character is self-willed. Extreme, he enjoys admiration, but hates the approach of someone who has intentions. Once his liking is forced, he will step on his safety line.

"This Mr. Su's face, I'm afraid I have to give it." Zhou Yang shook his head, he turned his body and pointed to Xia Tingwan, who was standing in the distance and talking to Xu Zhe: "Tingwan, I understand you. , it's not really annoying, I'm sure I won't mention it to you."

Xia Tingwan was a little stunned at first, but then there was a surge of anger in her chest.

He ignored Zhou Yang, but clenched his champagne glass and strode in Su Yan's direction. .

"Mr. Su,"

He abruptly stood next to Xu Zhe and Su Yan, who were chatting happily, and although he smiled with shallow dimples, his eyes stared at Su Yan provocatively: "As you, you don't have to do this if you want to eat with me. Trouble. Do you need to make up a movie fan to tease me?"

Xia Tingwan's words were thoughtless and rude, which made Xu Zhe turn his head in astonishment.

But Xia Tingwan was really angry.

What he thought was a personable movie fan was actually a dignitary who played old-fashioned tricks.

If Su Yanming came, he wouldn't be so angry, but Su Yan lied to him, like playing a joke, watching him complacent, and then condescendingly forced him to agree, it was too boring.

Su Yan was not as cool as he thought, which annoyed him.

"Actually, it's very easy to find me for dinner. The last time someone asked for 300,000 yuan, I refused, so Mr. Su... Why don't you ask for a price?"

As soon as Xia Ting's words were out of his mouth, he immediately regretted it.

The 300,000 thing was made up. Although there was such a thing in the circle, the price was too vulgar. No one would say it in plain sight. He just wanted to choke Su Yan with it.

But in fact, this of course not only lost his own face, but also made Xu Zhe look bad.

What's more, he hadn't quite figured out Su Yan's background, but Zhou Yang said that, so of course he shouldn't be offended.

Xia Ting's hair was fried fast in the evening, but in fact, he was very cowardly, but he didn't want to be soft immediately, so he could only stand there stiffly.

Su Yan looked down at Xia Tingwan, a little surprised.

"Feel sorry."

Su Yan apologized first, which surprised Xia Tingwan. He looked like the kind of person who didn't need to say sorry in his life.

"I'm not very interested in seeing you today, so I really want to invite you to a meal. In fact, I should tell you directly, but I didn't see you after the meeting, so I entrusted it to Mr. Zhou, presumably because of what happened when I relayed it. Misunderstand."

"As for fandom status..."

Su Yan turned around, only then did Xia Tingwan notice a bodyguard wearing a black suit behind him, nearly two meters tall, Su Yan took a thin CD from the bodyguard and handed it to Xia Tingwan .

"The Blu-ray disc of "Whale's Talk" bought by someone some time ago, I brought it today because I wanted to get Mr. Xia to sign it."

Su Yan looked at Xia Tingwan, sighed softly, and said, "I'm really a movie fan, I didn't lie to you. Is it a little embarrassing to make this request now?"

"No, not embarrassing."

Xia Tingwan felt his face get hot in an instant. He didn't dare to look at Su Yan's expression. He only glanced at Xu Zhe secretly.

Su Yan built a hundred steps for him to let him down. While Xia Tingwan breathed a sigh of relief, he felt even more ashamed, so he quickly found a pen and wrote his name on the CD.

"Mr. Xia."

When Xia Ting was writing in the evening, Su Yan's low voice rang again beside him: "If someone asks you to eat again, no matter how much money - tell him to get out."

Xia Tingwan involuntarily raised her head to look at Su Yan.

Even if it was just such a hasty encounter, Su Yan's body was almost firmly marked with elegance and decency, and the word "go away" came out of his mouth, which really surprised Xia Tingwan.

"So if you get into trouble, Mr. Xia can come to me at any time."

However, Su Yan didn't explain any further. He took over the CD signed by Xia Tingwan, and a pair of light gray eyes showed a gentle smile, "Thank you".

He left these two words and turned away.

——

It took Xia Tingwan a full week to sort out his things.

For seven days, Su Yan has not come back, nor has he said a single word, only sent Secretary Lu back once to get the documents.

Xia Tingwan felt very depressed because of this, but this was what he expected.

The housekeeper, cook and driver all stayed in Xiangshan's house to help. They grasped a subtle but decent attitude and left enough time for Xia Tingwan most of the time.

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, but reappears at any time if needed.

No one showed any unusual attitude, no one urged, and no one talked much.

This is of course the style of the Su family.

Su Yan handled things properly and steadily, but not sloppy. Even if it was a fanatical pursuit back then, it always maintained its own principles.

When he said he wanted to work, he would never reply to Xia Tingwan's message. But when Xia Tingwan was annoyed by doubting her own charm, Su Yan often returned to him by plane.

Su Yan is often very busy, and he only accompanies Xia Tingwan to talk all night when flying back. In the early morning of the next day, Xia Tingwan often flies away before anyone wakes up, but he is very worried about the pain of running around. Not a word.

He does not interfere in Xia Tingwan's work, nor does he interfere in Xia Tingwan's life. He has written so many touching love letters, but when he turns around and leaves, he is always straightforward.

Xia Tingwan often complained to his friends that Su Yan was an old antique, but in fact he always felt that Su Yan had an old-fashioned dignity and calmness.

He didn't have that demeanor, nor did anyone around him.

On the eighth day when she was sure that Su Yan would not appear, Xia Tingwan was finally unable to linger any longer.

In fact, he didn't have that many things. All the things that were inconvenient to carry were sorted out and waited for the housekeeper to arrange to send them to his house. He only carried a delicate leather suitcase in his hand, and left Su's house wearing a pair of sunglasses.

"Mr. Xia, will I take you home or not?"

"not going home."

Xia Tingwan sat in the back seat and looked out of the car window at the scenery of Xiangshan Mountain and replied.

He didn't want to go back to that home.

When he married Su Yan, his mother Zhang Xueqiao and his stepfather advocated strongly. Now that the media reported the gossip about his divorce from Su Yan, Zhang Xueqiao had already called him dozens of times.

Xia Tingwan didn't pick up a single one. He wanted to know what Zhang Xueqiao would say when he picked it up, but it was nothing more than asking him to hurry up and beg Su Yan not to divorce.

Zhang Xueqiao is such a kind of woman who lives on the charity of men all her life. Even at the age of nearly fifty, she is still coquettishly coquettish with her stepfather.

But he didn't blame her, she just wanted to be a little woman forever, not a mother.

She wants to live comfortably, and for this reason, the happiness of her son is not so important.

Just like when he was eight years old, one day, she ran away because she could not bear the domestic violence, so she left him to the alcoholic father Xia Zhongyu for wanton abuse.

But Zhang Xueqiao was not completely cold-blooded. One day when he was thirteen years old, she suddenly came back with her stepfather who was in business. As soon as they met, she threw more than 200,000 yuan to Xia Zhongyu, smashing this man who only knew how to drink and gamble. Confused, and then she took Xia Tingwan back to her stepfather's house neatly.

Zhang Xueqiao still thinks that she and her stepfather are the saviors, and pulled Xia Tingwan out of the swamp, who was covered in injuries.

But Xia Tingwan is like a wild cat who doesn't obey discipline. She doesn't care about relatives or obedience. Her stepfather thinks he doesn't know how to be grateful and rarely talks to him.

It wasn't until five years ago that my career was hit hard and my bottoms were about to be lost, and I talked to Xia Tingwan earnestly: why don't you just have a relationship with Mr. Su, I think he also treats you sincerely.

Xia Tingwan has never been home.

Until five years ago, Su Yan said to him, "Tingting, no one can change the past life, but the future will be different. I will give you a home."

But now he has no home.

"Go to my assistant."

Xia Ting thought about it for a long time, and finally reluctantly came up with a place.

——

Xia Tingwan began to slump at the house of assistant Zhao Nanshu.

He either slept in the blanket every day, or just sat beside the bed in a daze. Zhao Nanshu finally couldn't bear it after serving him like a cat for nearly ten days.

"Boss, it's today!"

That night, Zhao Nanshu carried the crayfish takeout in his left hand and a few beers bought by 7-11 in his right. He kicked the door open with a brave and almost comical gesture, and shouted to Xia Ting who was still under the quilt. ; "Crawfish Night - Let's Forget Men!"

Zhao Nanshu is a gay man with a flame soaring into the sky. He works full-time as Xia Tingwan's personal assistant. In his spare time, he is a beauty and skin care blogger. More importantly, he is Xia Tingwan's friend.

Zhao Nanshu is good at the whole process of falling in love, falling out of love, and self-recovery. "Forget all stinky men" is his mantra.

Xia Tingwan was in no mood at first, but for some unknown reason, hearing Zhao Nanshu's familiar declaration, she felt a strange impulse in her heart.

People have the instinct to save themselves. When they fall into their emotions and can't climb out, they say they need a sense of ritual.

So there is a little dignified line between today and tomorrow.

Xia Tingwan felt that he really needed a lobster night.

Xia Tingwan and Zhao Nanshu closed the curtains, turned on the TV, and set it to a variety show. They sat cross-legged on the wooden floor and unpacked the crayfish together. The air was instantly filled with the fire brought by the crayfish. Spicy and refreshing.

"This is thirteen incense, this is spicy, and this is minced garlic." Zhao Nanshu ordered the boxes and handed Xia Tingwan a can of beer: "I bought a lot, but It's okay, I was supposed to indulge a little today!"

Xia Tingwan's fingers touched the ice-cold beer, and he couldn't help but flinch. He hesitated to put the beer aside: "Don't drink."

After marriage, Su Yan had several conflicts with him about drinking and smoking.

He said that he was not afraid of heaven or earth, but he was actually a paper tiger. Su Yan was really angry. As soon as his face sank, his legs began to soften.

Strangely, after the drunk driving incident, Su Yan didn't say a word.

But he himself became frightened. It was true that he had not touched a drop of alcohol for the past six months, but Su Yan didn't seem to notice.

"Boss, a brokenhearted person can't get out without drinking." Zhao Nanshu said earnestly.

"I'm not in love, I'm divorced." Xia Tingwan explained, but then she felt even more miserable.

He thought, fuck it, he is divorced, why should he care about Su Yan's thoughts, so he opened the beer directly, raised his head and drank a half can.

For a while, Xia Tingwan felt that Zhao Nanshu was right.

The two of them sat lazily on the floor after drinking and laughed while watching the variety show.

Zhao Nanshu told him some small gossip about people in the circle during this period of time. He listened to it and thought it was a story from another world.

When opening the third can of beer, Xia Tingwan looked at the shrimp shells piled up in the trash can, but her eyes were instantly red.

He slumped down weakly, just lay on the floor and said softly, "Nanshu, do you remember the crayfish we ate in Feng County?"

After the first meeting, Su Yan added his WeChat, but didn't say much.

During that time, he followed another director to film in Feng County in the mountains for a month. He could only eat some farm stir-fries all day long, so he posted on a circle of friends that he wanted to eat crayfish and was about to go crazy.

Three days later, Su Yan took the chef and driver into the mountain, as well as a car of fresh crayfish raised in a water tank. Xia Tingwan remembered that he was surprised and surprised. When thanking Su Yan, Su Yan smiled and just said, "It's an honor to finally find an opportunity to invite Mr. Xia to dinner."

That night, the entire crew enjoyed themselves and drank more than a dozen cases of beer.

In the slightly drunk atmosphere, some people sang loudly, and some people jumped directly into the river to swim naked, making a lot of noise.

He and Su Yan found a secluded lakeside. He was in a hurry to eat, and Su Yan patiently helped him peel the shrimp shells one by one by his side.

"Remember." After Zhao Nanshu replied subconsciously, he felt that something was wrong. He straightened up and moved to Xia Tingwan's side: "Oh, boss, did you think of..."

"I miss him so much." Xia Tingwan covered his face with his palms, he took a deep breath, all that was sucked into his chest was nostalgia, and his voice was like a moan: "I miss him so much. "

"Boss, you, don't do this."

Zhao Nanshu didn't know what to do. He scratched his head anxiously, but he couldn't bear to see Xia Tingwan so sad. After struggling for a long time, he finally whispered, "Otherwise, don't give up and try again?"

"How to try...?"

Xia Ting asked weakly after a long time.

"I think," Zhao Nanshu couldn't tell for a while whether he was comforting, or whether he really thought so: "Mr. Su loves you so much, I have never seen anyone in my life who loved others so sincerely. You have lived together for another five years, and it's hard to let go. You see, when you were talking about divorce, he didn't show up himself, maybe he knew it himself, maybe he couldn't bear to see you. "

"Really?"

Xia Tingwan finally reluctantly stood up, and a faint hope flashed in his eyes as he looked at Zhao Nanshu.

"Uh……"

Of course Zhao Nanshu didn't dare to pack a ticket.

He has seen Su Yan's affectionate appearance, but people who have loved so much can file for divorce. Who knows, whether Su Yan has already said goodbye alone in his heart at a certain moment, and decided not to look back. .

He sighed, raised his head and took a sip of beer, and said seriously, "Boss, it doesn't really matter what Mr. Su thinks."

"If you still can't bear it, try to save it. If you fail, you will be a little embarrassed at most, and it won't be worse than now. You've already rolled your sheets hundreds of times. Is it a thing to be embarrassed in front of Mr. Su? ?"

——

The first time Su Yan talked about divorce was a month ago.

Xia Tingwan didn't know what was wrong with her at that time, but she responded with such an "um", and seemed to be very tough at the moment. .

People are sometimes very blunt. He felt that Su Yan's tone was distorted at that time, but also felt that it was a foregone conclusion, and there was nothing to say.

After putting down the phone, on the second day, he sent a WeChat message to Su Yan in a trance: "Su Yan, thank you for these five years."

Now that think about it, feel so stupid. He is not really free and easy, but he sent a farewell-like message to pretend to be generous.

Su Yan didn't reply a word, and didn't see him again. In the end, he only sent Secretary Lu to discuss divorce with him, like giving him a silent slap.

Of course he was afraid, but it was not that he was afraid of losing face, but that he was afraid of Su Yan.

But Xia Tingwan decided to listen to Zhao Nanshu and try again.

He had been decadent for almost a month, and after he made up his mind, he finally regained his strength, cut his hair more neatly, and trimmed his eyebrows a little.

But as sat in front of the mirror, couldn't help staring at the scar on right face again.

Zhao Nanshu stood behind him holding the concealer, hesitant: "Boss, why don't you... cover it up a bit?"

"So be it."

Xia Tingwan shook his head. The scars on his body, Su Yan has seen more than this, and has never been ugly before.

After the car accident, Xia Tingwan stopped driving, so Zhao Nanshu took him to Xiangshan.

The Fragrant Hills at night are really beautiful. Drive slowly along the Huanshan Road, and you can see the city center of H city across the sea.

The vast starry sky and the sea of ​​lights in the world border wonderfully. The hustle and bustle on the other side, but the comfort here.

The security guard of the Su family recognized Zhao Nanshu's car. Perhaps he was not sure about it, so he hesitated and let it go.

Zhao Nanshu parked the car in the front driveway, and Xia Tingwan walked out alone. In front of the porch was a large rose garden that Su Yan planted in the year they got married.

Xia Tingwan stood among the blooming red roses, took a deep breath, walked to the door, and finally summoned the courage to ring the doorbell.

The waiting time was short, but Xia Tingwan felt very long.

He couldn't help but fantasize about seeing Su Yan's face when he opened the door. He discussed a lot with Zhao Nanshu before, but he forgot about it by now.

He missed Su Yan so much, he wanted to throw himself into Su Yan's arms as soon as they met, and wanted to tell Su Yan how wronged he was during this time.

When thinking about it so earnestly, his brain was hot, and it felt as if the divorce did not exist, and Su Yan was still very close to him.

Just then, the door opened.

"Hello." It was not Su Yan who opened the door.

The young man in front of him looked to be in his early twenties, wearing a white coat, with a graceful and beautiful face. He looked at Xia Tingwan and hesitated: "Xia, Mr. Xia...?"

Xia Tingwan didn't know who he was, but of course he knew Xia Tingwan.

"Please wait a moment." After the initial surprise, the young man quickly showed a polite smile. He has a pair of brown eyes and looks like a very gentle man.

He turned around and walked two steps into the room, raised his head and called to the second floor: "Brother Yan, Mr. Xia is here to find you."

After shouting, he turned his head and gestured to Xia Tingwan to come in.

His name is Su Yan 'Brother Yan', he stands in the atrium of this house, so naturally relaxed, just like the hostess greeting Xia Ting to come in late.

Xia Tingwan pressed the door frame hard with her fingers to barely stand still at this moment.