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    Chapter 27

    Su Yan hugged Xia Tingwan's body and kissed Xia Tingwan's face.

    Xia Ting closed his eyes late, he hadn't kissed Su Yan for too long. As soon as he touched Su Yan's lips, his eyes became sore and his eyelashes trembled.

    At this time, Su Yan was much more fierce than usual, and his teeth were biting heavily on Xia Tingwan's lips.

    Xia Tingwan snorted dully, but then opened her lips more urgently.

    Su Yan suddenly came over and rode on him, pressed his head and kissed him more deeply.

    The tongues of the two were entangled with heat and humidity. Su Yan aggressively invaded his throat, and then used the tip of his tongue to gently brush against his gums, like a cat's tongue with fine barbs sliding across his sensitive oral mucosa. Xia Tingwan's back almost spasmed.

    He instinctively wanted to bite Su Yan, but Su Yan pressed his chin with his fingers so he could only moan.

    He was almost unable to breathe, until he was let go by Su Yan, he gasped for breath.

    Su Yan put his hands on both sides of Xia Ting's evening head, his eyes were deep, and the posture was like a lion scrutinizing its subdued prey.

    Xia Tingwan raised her head and asked with wet eyes, "Su Yan, what about you, do you miss me?"

    "think."

    Su Yan lowered his head. This time, the kiss was very light, like a touch of water.

    First, the ravaged lips, then Xia Tingwan's bare shoulders, neck, and flat and slender collarbone.

    Then he gently lifted the corner of the quilt, under the dim light, a thin layer of light red was glowing on Xia Tingwan's fair chest, and the two petite nipples hardened sensitively.

    Further down, there were several startling small circular scars on the flat lower abdomen.

    The burn marks left by the cigarette butts on the skin have faded to gray-white over the years, but they are still ugly and uneven.

    Su Yan leaned down, kissed those ugly scars several times, and then gently licked them with the tip of his tongue.

    Xia Tingwan's tears suddenly fell from the corners of her eyes.

    Su Yan has kissed there thousands of times, but he still suddenly cried with grievance.

    In front of the person closest to me, can't be strong no matter what, just want to show him pitifully over and over again, let him see—

    I have never been treated kindly by this world since I was a child, only you are kind to me.

    So, can you always be so nice to me.

    "My little elf." Su Yan whispered, he raised his head slightly, and there was a trace of distress in his eyes.

    Xia Tingwan sniffed softly and caressed Su Yan's hair with his hands.

    Su Yan kissed his round belly button, and then came up a little more. Holding his shoulders and sucking on his nipples, his force became heavier and heavier and gradually turned into gnawing, and the tips of his teeth grinded repeatedly on the soft part.

    Su Yan raised his eyes, his long and narrow eyes narrowed slightly, and there was a kind of possession and desire that was almost bloodthirsty.

    Xia Tingwan felt that the nipple was swollen and painful, but the pain of congestion made him excited quickly.

    He propped up slightly and looked at Su Yan, as if looking at a big cat.

    Although he was so weak, he knew that this powerful man would love him, but he wanted to flutter.

    Sexual desire seems to be provocative in itself. He wants to confront Su Yan, then be subdued and possessed.

    He climbed his legs onto Su Yan's waist, trying to turn over and press Su Yan under him.

    But Su Yan held his body unceremoniously: "Don't move."

    His eyes brightened wildly.

    The more he was stopped, the more he wanted to struggle. He had done so many times with Su Yan before, and he especially liked the beginning of the ride, so he wanted to ride on Su Yan's body to go wild.

    Xia Tingwan tossed like a little beast who didn't know the depths.

    He was not as strong as Su Yan, and Su Yan refused to let him go. He couldn't turn it over. He kicked his right leg subconsciously in a moment of anger, but he forgot his injury and kicked directly on the bedpost.

    He immediately cried out in pain.

    Su Yan immediately straightened up and held his foot to examine it carefully, and then gently put it down after confirming that it was all right.

    "Didn't I tell you to stop moving?"

    Su Yan's eyes had a hint of sullenness. He turned Xia Tingwan's body sideways, lifted the thin nightgown completely, and then slapped Xia Tingwan's bare buttocks.

    He hit so hard that Xia Tingwan's eyes turned red: "You!"

    In addition to the pain in his butt, his face became extremely hot all of a sudden, he turned his head angrily and stared at Su Yan, deliberately showing his dissatisfaction.

    Su Yan said with a straight face, "Are you listening?"

    At first, Xia Tingwan was still holding her neck, stubbornly refusing to speak.

    "Clap" sound.

    Su Yan didn't ask any further questions, and slapped the same round buttocks hard.

    "Ugh..."

    Xia Tingwan's tears were still swirling in her eyes, but this time they all came down.

    He was in pain and shame, but strangely more excited.

    The butt was hot, but the front was even harder, and even the front end was quietly oozing wetness, and the nerves were thumping for comfort.

    He immediately softened, and squeaked into Su Yan's chest like a small milk cat: "I'm obedient, I won't move, I really won't move."

    Su Yan's hand stroked Xia Tingwan's hot buttocks, and then kneaded slowly.

    He whispered in Xia Tingwan's ear: "Little guy, they say that you are so good in front of me, but it's not true. Because no one knows how good you are in bed, right?"

    Su Yan gently lifted Xia Tingwan's face.

    Xia Tingwan's face is so blessed, it's small, it seems that it can be held in the palm of your hand at any time, the peach blossom-like eyes are full of moist thirst, and the nose like a deer is upturned. Desire also appears to be natural and pure.

    Su Yan looked down at him, took a deep breath, and said softly, "Baby, anything I do for you is my own willingness, and others don't need to understand."

    "Um……"

    Xia Tingwan hugged Su Yan's neck and groaned with a trembling voice, his whole body softened.

    The gentle whispers after the pain made him so excited that he couldn't help himself.

    He was so contradictory in his bones that he always had to confront Su Yan, and then be severely suppressed after provocation. He longed to beg Su Yan for mercy, longed for Su Yan to punish him and then hugged him intimately.

    "Su Yan, I want it," Xia Tingwan begged in Su Yan's ear, almost sobbing: "Below, it's so hard, uh..."

    Su Yan smiled lowly.

    He put Xia Tingwan on his back on the bed, then bent down and buried his head between Xia Tingwan's open legs.

    Su Yan kissed Xia Tingwan's outer thigh.

    Xia Zhongyu used a smashed beer bottle there, and the glass fragments were deeply embedded in the flesh and then pulled out, thus destroying the original smooth texture.

    Su Yan kissed slowly and lightly, as if the scar was worth his lingering.

    Xia Tingwan raised her head and looked at the ceiling, breathing heavily.

    Su Yan raised Xia Tingwan's right leg high and put it on his shoulder.

    That posture made Xia Tingwan have to tilt her butt up, and the hidden part between her legs was completely exposed to Su Yan.

    He whimpered out of his throat in shame, but his body trembled with excitement.

    "Is it so wet?"

    Su Yan curled his knuckles frivolously and flicked Xia Tingwan's already stiff and wet lower body.

    The bloated part couldn't stand such stimulation at all, Xia Tingwan jumped up suddenly, staring at Su Yan with a little annoyance in his eyes.

    "My little male peacock is in heat again."

    Su Yan leaned between his legs and raised his head to look at Xia Tingwan, and said slowly: "Animal World doesn't say that the estrus period of adult blue peacocks is between June and August, so what happened to my little baby? What, it's still such a wave in autumn?"

    When he speaks, his words are eloquent and serious, but his fingers are poking at the stiff column body one by one.

    Xia Tingwan was teased to the point of crying: "Su Yan, you..."

    "Huh?" Su Yan's low nasal voice seemed particularly sexy at this time. He narrowed his eyes, still unwilling to let Xia Tingwan go: "What's the matter? What kind of little peacock are you?"

    "I, woo, I'm not..."

    Xia Tingwan tightened the sheets with both hands, and such a question made the corners of his eyes red with shame.

    The grievance that his desire could not be relieved made him want to take a bite of Su Yan, but all his sensitive parts were under Su Yan's control and could not resist at all, and even his legs could only be hung softly on Su Yan's shoulders.

    "Not what?"

    "I'm not a blue peacock." Xia Tingwan shook her head tearfully.

    He was so hot that he couldn't think, and didn't know what he was talking about, he choked subconsciously: "I'm yoursyour little peacock, my breed, my breed is Mr.'s peacock."

    "So nice."

    Su Yan smiled.

    He took Xia Tingwan's upright part into his mouth.

    "Um..."

    Xia Ting groaned softly for a long time, and the end sound shivered and stretched in the air.

    The intense pleasure made him feel like there was a fluffy bomb in his body, and the itchy and numb satisfaction spread from his heart to his limbs.

    Su Yan really knew how to please him.

    The tongue swirled familiarly around the front of his mouth, before taking that part into the warm mouth.

    Xia Tingwan was so stimulated that her tears fell, and her chest heaved violently.

    He couldn't help reaching out and pressing Su Yan's neck heavily, wanting more, more, wanting to wrap it completely.

    He was so greedy at this time.

    Su Yan was choked and groaned.

    But he didn't get angry, but lowered his head and swallowed Xia Tingwan deeper, burying Xia Tingwan's lower body deeply in his throat.

    "Su Yan, ah, um..."

    Xia Tingwan grabbed Su Yan's hair randomly and called out loudly.

    All the senses tremble with pleasure, under the cover of extreme lust.

    He is no longer himself.

    He is a moist cloud, a blooming rose.

    Just when he was about to be released, Su Yan suddenly stopped ruthlessly and spit out Xia Tingwan's thing again.

    The sudden emptiness made Xia Tingwan almost unbearable.

    He twisted his waist sadly and rubbed against Su Yan. Seeing that Su Yan was still unmoved, he finally couldn't restrain himself and whispered weakly: "Wow, don't, don't be like this... Su Yan, I want it, please, please. ... Su Yan."

    "Don't worry."

    Su Yan raised his head, because his voice was hoarse after speaking for a long time.

    "Wow... I'm so uncomfortable, Su Yan, woo."

    Xia Tingwan couldn't help covering his face, his tears fell down, and the pillow was wet.

    Su Yan propped up and climbed up, took Xia Tingwan's hand away, and then gently wiped away his tears with his fingers.

    "Little baby," Su Yan took a deep breath and whispered in his ear: "Every time you go to bed, you cry a little tear bag, do you know how charming you are when you are fragile, like tears Sweet, I can't wait to eat you in one bite."

    Xia Tingwan felt ashamed, but her heart was thumping again.

    He raised his head and gasped for breath—eat me, Su Yan.

    eat me.

    Su Yan suddenly separated his legs, knelt down between his legs and licked the narrow entrance between his thighs, and then licked in with the tip of his tongue against the entrance.

    "Ah, ah...don't..."

    Xia Ting screamed loudly in the evening, he shook his head vigorously, his legs trembled and wanted to close together, but Su Yan resolutely pressed them to the sides and widened them.

    The secret entrance was opened by the tip of the tongue, and every fold was licked wantonly.

    He sobbed and begged for mercy in a mess: "Su Yan, good brother, I can't stand it, ah, let me go..."

    He is born with a small 0, and the sensitivity of that place is beyond imagination.

    He hadn't been so loved by Su Yan for too long, and the overwhelming pleasure was over his head, and he even felt scared for a moment.

    He was shaking all over, and even his toes curled up in convulsions.

    Of course Su Yan would not let him go easily.

    It kept making Xia Tingwan's whole lower body wet and trembling, and then she slowed down and licked and bit the delicate skin of Xia Tingwan's inner thigh.

    After that, he took the part where Xia Tingwan stood upright again in his mouth and swallowed it.

    Xia Tingwan's knees trembled, and she came out crying.

    He was like a small boat, brought into the sea in the night by Su Yan.

    Lust is so deep and unpredictable, Su Yan is a powerful helmsman. Sometimes he slows down to let him breathe in the calm sea, and sometimes he plunges him into the middle of the turbulent wave, making him tumble and sink in the ultimate pleasure.

    Su Yan is really a patient man, and his self-control makes him unbelievably powerful in bed.

    Xia Tingwan didn't even need to be inserted at all, just repeated foreplay like this made Xia Tingwan climax several times.

    At the end, for a while, Xia Tingwan almost felt as if she had lost consciousness.

    After a long time, his body was feeling the afterglow of happiness, spasm from time to time, and he just lay motionless like this.

    After he came back to his senses, he realized that he had been hugged by Su Yan.

    His legs were still shaking slightly, he hugged Su Yan, and said in a hoarse voice: "Su Yan, I, I... I just seemed to pass out."

    "Just lost for a while."

    Su Yan lowered his head and kissed him, his breath had a refreshing taste like mouthwash.

    "Have you brushed your teeth?" Xia Tingwan put her head out of Su Yan's arms, suddenly feeling a little unhappy, he couldn't help but shoot in Su Yan's mouth just now, but he didn't expect Su Yan to brush his teeth so soon : "Do you think it smells?"

    Su Yan looked down at him and smiled, then kissed him lightly, and whispered, "Baby, I want to kiss you—I'm afraid you don't like it."

    "I don't dislike myself."

    Xia Ting snorted.

    But there was still a soft and sweet expression on his face, and he reached out and wrapped his arms around Su Yan's neck.

    "Then don't rinse your mouth next time." Su Yan gently touched his forehead and said.

    Xia Ting said "um" late, and quietly got closer to Su Yan.

    He was obviously the one being served, but he felt a little exhausted and his legs were weak.

    But he still blinked his eyes and whispered in Su Yan's ear, "Su Yan, can I help you speak for a while?"

    Su Yan looked at him, and was silent for a while before saying, "No need."

    Xia Tingwan was stunned for a moment. He was a little overwhelmed. After thinking about it, he whispered, "Su Yan, I don't mind that, really."

    "I know."

    Su Yan responded, but calmly repeated: "No."

    "I know."

    Su Yan responded, but calmly repeated: "No."

    Xia Tingwan looked up at Su Yan, he was really confused and didn't even know what to say for a while.

    Su Yan stroked his forehead and whispered, "Go to sleep."

    Xia Tingwan raised his hand to hold Su Yan's hand: "Su Yan."

    He arched into Su Yan's arms like a small animal: "You, don't you want...?"

    "It was better when I first went to rinse my mouth."

    Su Yan's tone was very flat, and he didn't seem to feel anything. He paused and continued: "Tingting, you don't have to force it, I know you probably still mind."

    Xia Tingwan's lips trembled slightly. He looked at Su Yan and couldn't help touching the man's cheek. He shook his head: "Su Yan, I..."

    He hesitated, not knowing how to explain his feelings.

    Wen Zichen's affairs, intellectually, he really thought that he shouldn't mind anymore.

    But emotionally, he really can't be 100% sure.

    Su Yan looked down at him: "And I said before that our relationship during this time... doesn't need any answers or commitments. So, maybe it will be a while longer."

    Xia Tingwan was stunned for a moment, and he repeated it again: "No answer, no promise... So you don't really have sex with me, do you? Because doing it is a promise, right? ?"

    Su Yan was silent and did not answer.

    Xia Ting took a deep breath and asked again tremblingly, "But Su Yan, since you think so, why are you willing to give it to me..."

    "Because you want it."

    After a long time, Su Yan finally whispered: "What you want, I just want you to get it. If you have desires, I will find a way to satisfy you."

    "You keep saying what I want,"

    Xia Tingwan's eyes were red, and his voice seemed to be hoarse suddenly, and he rustled: "Yes, I'm satisfied, but what about you, Su Yan, what about your desires? You think you have the responsibility to satisfy me, but I Doesn't have the same responsibility to satisfy you, does it?"

    Su Yan did not speak again.

    Xia Tingwan felt stuffy in her chest: "Su Yan, I know that I have always been willful before, you have always let me, you are reluctant to let me speak, you are reluctant to let me suffer a little grievance, you are used to it, but I It really isn't like that now."

    "I sometimes, sometimes really feel, that you don't love me as a partner. You never gave me a chance to love you as an adult, even now, and you still do. "

    When Xia Tingwan said this, there was a sudden burst of unspeakable sadness in her heart.

    He lowered his head, tried to hide the grief in his eyes, and whispered: "If you don't do it with me, is it in your heart that you still want to leave a way for yourself. You let me wait for you, but if you don't As soon as you think about it, if you still can't get over that hurdle, can you still be cruel and separate from me?"

    "no."

    Su Yan suddenly said abruptly: "It's not the way back."

    He said this, but did not continue for a long time. The awkward silence made Xia Tingwan look up at Su Yan involuntarily.

    This man's expression, in the shadows, has a kind of unbearable pain.

    "Tingting, I don't know what to do."

    Su Yan finally said: "I really don't know what to do all the time, I want you to be happy, and I want you to grow up, but I don't know what to do, I feel that I have done many, many wrong and stupid things before. decision, don't know how to correct it, it's a mess, but I love you, always have been - I can only know this clearly. I can't say anything else, and I can't answer it. Please don't force it I, Ting Ting, my language is sometimes really clumsy. Many times, what I want to say to you even has to be written into a love letter or a letter to express my meaning. Will it take a while, okay? In time, maybe everything will be fine."

    His speech rate was very disordered, and there was no connection between each sentence. Even Xia Tingwan struggled to hear every word clearly, but couldn't understand his exact meaning.

    When Su Yan said the end, he covered his face in despair, not letting Xia Tingwan see any clues from his expression.

    Xia Tingwan had never seen Su Yan, who was always calm, so chaotic, and even had a kind of despair that was broken.

    He felt an unprecedented sense of suffocation.

    During this period of time, he always thought that their relationship had gradually been on the right track, but Su Yan still hid a lot of things from him, maybe it was pain, or maybe it was an unspeakable difficulty, he didn't know what it was.

    This concealment made him feel sad too.

    There was not much blood dripping, but the dark wound hidden in the chest. When he took a breath, it was like a person who has been lingering in a sick bed for a long time, feeling weak and stuffy.

    He never thought that the relationship between two people who love each other would have so many complicated and unspeakable pain points.

    Like a river in the night, when the gurgling flows, the silt and stones are slowly rolling along with it.

    That night, they were still lying together as usual, but no one spoke.

    Xia Tingwan turned her back to Su Yan and looked at a spot in the darkness. He slowly stroked Su Yan's arm and felt an indescribable sense of powerlessness.

    He doesn't know how he should grow up so that the man behind him is willing to open his heart to him completely.

    ...

    After the night, their relationship seemed to have come to an awkward standstill.

    It seems that the conversation caused both internal injuries at the same time, so no one can face it, and no longer mention it.

    Xia Tingwan's feet were getting better day by day, and Su Yan was suddenly busy.

    Then they stopped sticking together every day for as long as they used to.

    In the middle, Ji Zhan and the others went to shoot the material for the other two episodes of "On the Road", but TBN didn't seem to be in a hurry to negotiate the contract with him, just chatted with Zhou Yang, saying that it would wait until Xia Ting was late. Contact the Legal Department.

    Undecided is frustrating, but there is nothing to do.

    Xia Tingwan spent a long time thinking about the script of "Xun" and the character Gu Fei.

    He began to maintain a state of silence for a long time, trying to really immerse himself in the feeling of being a mute in life.

    He was not used to that feeling, and deliberately immersing in it also caused some consequences. The lack of expression made him often feel very depressed.

    In such a state, one night, Xia Tingwan suddenly received a WeChat message from Wen Zichen.

    "Mr. Xia, may I meet you?"

    Xia Tingwan's first reaction was of course stunned. He really didn't know any reason for Wen Zichen to contact him again.

    He replied with a succinct "no need" and said nothing more.

    Although he refused outright, the appearance of Wen Zichen always left him with a question mark - what should Wen Zichen say to him?

    Xia Tingwan still went to see Yin Ning from time to time. Yin Ning still hadn't made a decision, but it seemed that she gradually stopped being so resistant to seeing him.

    Even one night, Yin Ning sent an unprecedented WeChat message to Xia Tingwan, asking if he could go to McDonald's with him.

    Su Yan was busy with work and hadn't come home yet, of course Xia Tingwan put on his coat and went out without hesitation.

    His right foot landed very lightly, and he couldn't walk fast with a limping, but he didn't call the driver. Anyway, McDonald's is in the community at the foot of Xiangshan Mountain, and it's not far away, so it took ten minutes to walk there.

    Yin Ning was wearing a small dark blue schoolbag and a very warm cashmere coat, waiting for him at the McDonald's door

    "It's so cold..." In the late autumn weather, Xia Tingwan was still wearing thin clothes, he blew his fingers, waved to Yin Ning, and stepped up: "Why do you want to eat McDonald's so late? "

    "Suddenly want to eat." Yin Ning kicked the thick leaves on the ground.

    "Okay, call me if you want to eat, and I'll take you there."

    Xia Ting laughed late. He glanced at the bright storefront of McDonald's. Seeing that few people were sitting in it late at night, he was not too worried. He put his hood on his head and took Yin Ning's The hand went in.

    Yin Ning stood in front of the counter and looked up at several sets of meals seriously. He had a hard eye, so he had to turn his head to look at it. After hesitating for a while, he said, "I want to eat spicy chicken."

    Yin Ning is very introverted and is not good at communicating with strangers, so she only whispers to him when ordering food, not directly to the clerk.

    Xia Ting looked at him late, and a trace of pity and guilt filled his heart. He touched Yin Ning's head and said, "Go and sit."

    After returning with a dinner plate, Xia Tingwan and Yin Ning sat in a corner by the window, Yin Ning was eating, and Xia Tingwan looked at him with one hand on his face.

    Yin Ning was nibbling on the fried chicken leg, and he couldn't help but burp. He glanced at the chicken leg in his hand and sighed. For some reason, the circles of his eyes suddenly turned red.

    Xia Ting was stunned for a while, and asked softly, "What's the matter?"

    "I... miss my mother." Yin Ning lowered her eyes, tears dripping on the back of her hands.

    Xia Tingwan looked at the little boy in front of him, and his eyes were sour, "Ningning..."

    "When I did something right in the past, my mother rewarded me with a McDonald's. At that time, I thought that McDonald's was the best food in the world, and I always wanted to eat it. Later, brother Zichen said that McDonald's was unhealthy and he didn't want to take me to eat it. Just listen to him. I miss my mother very much, and sometimes brother Zichen, but they can't stay by my side all the time. I feel very sad. "

    Xia Tingwan reached out and touched the back of Yin Ning's head, and said softly, "I'm sorry, Ning Ning, I'm sorry, in the end it's my fault."

    "Don't keep apologizing."

    Yin Ning rubbed his eyes, he raised his head, his eyes were red: "Actually, I don't hate you all the time. Sometimes, I really hate the whole world, so I hate you more. But sometimes I feel You're okay too. When you accompany me to paint, when you accompany me to eat McDonald's, and when you hide the things that pushed you for me, I think you are, you are also... very good. So you don't keep apologizing, you apologize, I was wondering in my heart whether to forgive you or not, and when I thought about it, I couldn't help but want to hate you again. I just wanted to talk to you for a while, I don't know why, I think you are the only one who will listen carefully."

    "You know, I don't seem to remember that I have a safe home since I was a child. I have been borrowing from relatives' houses with my mother, but I will be kicked out after a while. Everyone hates us. I feel like It's a mouse. Sometimes I can't help thinking that it would be fine if I didn't exist. My mother is sometimes gentle, and sometimes scary. I miss her very much, but I'm also afraid of her. Brother Su Yan said, when my mother is healed, Just let me go back and live with my mom—you say, my mom, will she be okay?"

    Xia Ting couldn't answer this question any time soon.

    This is the first time Yin Ning has opened up to him and said something from his heart, and it is also the first time he has discovered that this little child also has very complicated and deep feelings in his heart.

    Yin Ning lowered his head and took a sip of Coke, and murmured, "Before we moved out this time, brother Su Yan told me a lot. He said that you were also unhappy when you were a child, and your mother left early. My father also hurt you cruelly. So you can understand my feelings and you are really good to me. No matter what my mother does in the future, you will always be responsible for me, so I can rest assured. "

    "He also told me that he regarded me as a half-adult, so he discussed it with me seriously-he said that he handed me over to you rashly before because he did not do well enough, and he ignored my wishes and let me I feel scared and uneasy, he will never be like this again, so this time I will try my best to let me decide where I want to live. But you are the person he cares about the most in his life, so please take into account his mood , don't hurt you like last time. Give you a chance, even if you don't want to forgive you, try to get to know you a little bit."

    Xia Tingwan's eyes turned red now: "Did Su Yan say that?"

    "Yeah." Yin Ning nodded, he put the last french fries in his mouth, raised his head and said, "I haven't decided whether to go back to Xiangshan or not, but I think...I-I'd like to know more about it. One by one."

    "Thank you, thank you."

    Xia Ting stammered in the evening.

    He couldn't describe how grateful he was in his heart. He knew that he was not worthy of Yin Ning's forgiveness, but between him and Yin Ning, even if it was just a little bit willing to understand each other and take a step forward, they had already Enough to make his heart tremble.

    Before leaving, Yin Ning wanted to eat wheat whirlwind again.

    Xia Ting bought two late, and went out to eat one with Yin Ning.

    When stepping out of the McDonald's, Yin Ning suddenly raised his head, hesitated for a moment, and asked softly, "Brother Tingwan, can I meet Brother Zichen again? I, I really miss him... After the car accident, Su Brother Yan is very busy, he is with me every day, he is really good to me and brother Su Yan. But brother Su Yan said he doesn't want to hear this person's name again, I..."

    Looking at Yin Ning's melancholy eyes, Xia Tingwan couldn't help but be stunned for a moment.

    Before he could answer, he saw Su Yan's familiar Maybach parked outside.

    Su Yan wearing a long black trench coat stood at the McDonald's door and looked at them both.

    "Why are you here?" Xia Ting was stunned for a while, then walked over with Yin Ning limping.

    "I heard from the person who took care of Yin Ning that you are here. I'll come to pick you up when I'm done, and send Ning Ning back by the way." Su Yan glanced at Xia Tingwan's right foot lightly: "You're still injured. Thoroughly, go a little less."

    Xia Tingwan felt a little guilty for some reason.

    After sending Yin Ning home, he quietly dug out a spoonful of wheat whirlwind and fed it to Su Yan. Su Yan glanced at him and said nothing, lowered his head and ate it.

    Xia Tingwan took advantage of the situation and leaned into Su Yan's arms. In the quiet car, there was only the sound of their breathing from each other.

    Their relationship during this time was not as good as before, and the invisible barrier made this shallow and warm atmosphere at this time especially precious.

    Xia Tingwan wanted to say something, but in the end she didn't speak.

    The next day, Xia Ting thought about it again and again, but still sent a message to Wen Zichen: "Do you still want to meet?"

    Maybe it was Yin Ning's words that made him shake a little bit, or maybe it was in his heart that he still couldn't let go, and wanted to know what Wen Zichen wanted to say.

    But he knew that Su Yan would never agree, so he simply didn't mention this meeting to Su Yan.

    Wen Zichen replied quickly, and the two decided to meet at a secret coffee shop in the Xiangshan community at 3 o'clock in the afternoon.

    Xia Ting arrived early in the evening. After ordering a cappuccino, he huddled in the sofa seat in the corner in a daze.

    He was a little nervous, in fact, he didn't want to see Wen Zichen at all, but he was curious about what Wen Zichen wanted to say.

    Wen Zichen arrived on time at three o'clock. He was wearing a pure white coat. After sitting down, Xia Tingwan realized that it had only been less than a month, but Wen Zichen had lost a lot of weight.

    Wen Zichen took off the cashmere scarf, revealing his pointed chin, smiled reluctantly and said, "Hello, Mr. Xia - actually, I didn't expect you to see me."

    Xia Ting looked at him silently.

    Wen Zichen ordered a cup of hot cocoa, and after the drink was served, he took a breath while holding the warm cup with both hands, and said softly, "During this time, I tried to contact Mr. Su at first, but he took me His number was blocked, and WeChat was blocked, so I didn't dare to bother him anymore, but I was really in pain."

    Wen Zichen raised his head, and when he said the last sentence, his tail trembled involuntarily: "I, my affairs, my mood, I don't know who else to talk to - these days, I'm going crazy. Mr. Su will never want to hear my words again. Xia Tingwan, no matter how much I envy you, you are the only person I know who can have contact with Mr. Su. I can only tell you, and only you can understand."

    "I know that in the end, you, you and Mr. Su must feel that I spent all my time staying by his side because of money."

    Xia Tingwan looked at Wen Zichen expressionlessly.

    Looking at it from this angle, Wen Zichen's eyelashes are very long, and there is a little mole at the corner of his eye, which makes him look a little pitiful.

    "Yes, I admit, in the beginning, it was true."

    Wen Zichen smiled bitterly. He took a deep breath and said in a low voice, "Yes, I am a person who really wants money."

    "I was born in a single-parent family. I am the eldest, and I have two younger brothers. I have always been supported by my mother alone. I started helping my mother take care of my younger brother's life when I was very young. But I have a good temper and patience. Later, I went to study in the nursing department affiliated to N University and became a nurse. But my two younger brothers are very smart. The older one was admitted to the law department, but the tuition fee is very expensive , My mother's health has been getting worse and worse in the past two years, she is always in and out of the hospital, my family...the burden is very heavy, I, I really, I have been eager to be rich since I was a child, but I can't get rid of it..."

    Xia Tingwan became inexplicably irritable, and could not help interrupting Wen Zichen: "Is it necessary to tell me these things? If all you want to talk about are these personal matters, then forget it, I'm going back."

    "Wait a minute," Wen Zichen said eagerly, he stretched out his hand, but did not touch Xia Tingwan, his eyes were already red, he said tremblingly, "please, listen to me."

    He looked at Xia Tingwan pleadingly like a drowning person holding a straw, and only after Xia Tingwan sat down with his mouth shut, did he say softly, "I met someone after graduation, and he was very rich. I was always with him for a while, and everyone thought we were dating, but it wasn't. That person..."

    Wen Zichen said this, his body seemed to tremble slightly because he recalled something and felt fear, he paused and then said in a low voice: "He is a masochist, I knew it when I met him, but I am too short of money. My brother finally got into such a promising university, but his family has no money. I want to say that if there is someone in the family who can make a difference, he will be able to get out of this kind of poverty in the future, so I still followed him when I gritted my teeth. But that person, he, he was terrible, I really can't describe it. At that time, every time I received a call from him, his legs would tremble, and he liked me like that... Although he was reluctant, but for the money, I had to beg him to torture me severely. He started getting harder and harder, and I became more and more afraid. Later, one time, it was really impossible. I went to the hospital in the middle of the night and had several stitches. I have a very clear premonition that if this continues, I will definitely die in his bed, and I really don't dare."

    Xia Tingwan looked at Wen Zichen's pale face and didn't know what to say for a while.

    "It doesn't matter to him either, he thinks I must go back and beg him, because the money he gave me has always been enough for my mother to be hospitalized for one illness, or my brother's tuition for one semester, and he knows the situation of my family. , so he wasn't in a hurry at all. During my time, I was going crazy... I didn't know what to do, and I didn't dare to tell my family that they thought I broke up with my rich boyfriend, but it wasn't at all. For one thing, my whole family relies on me alone. I'm afraid that if I tell them, the family will be in chaos. That's when you got into a car accident, and I met Su Yan—"

    "Mr. Xia, may I meet you?"

    Xia Tingwan's first reaction was of course stunned. He really didn't know any reason for Wen Zichen to contact him again.

    He replied with a succinct "no need" and said nothing more.

    Although he refused outright, the appearance of Wen Zichen always left him with a question mark - what should Wen Zichen say to him?

    Xia Tingwan still went to see Yin Ning from time to time. Yin Ning still hadn't made a decision, but it seemed that she gradually stopped being so resistant to seeing him.

    Even one night, Yin Ning sent an unprecedented WeChat message to Xia Tingwan, asking if he could go to McDonald's with him.

    Su Yan was busy with work and hadn't come home yet, of course Xia Tingwan put on his coat and went out without hesitation.

    His right foot landed very lightly, and he couldn't walk fast with a limping, but he didn't call the driver. Anyway, McDonald's is in the community at the foot of Xiangshan Mountain, and it's not far away, so it took ten minutes to walk there.

    Yin Ning was wearing a small dark blue schoolbag and a very warm cashmere coat, waiting for him at the McDonald's door

    "It's so cold..." In the late autumn weather, Xia Tingwan was still wearing thin clothes, he blew his fingers, waved to Yin Ning, and stepped up: "Why do you want to eat McDonald's so late? "

    "Suddenly want to eat." Yin Ning kicked the thick leaves on the ground.

    "Okay, call me if you want to eat, and I'll take you there."

    Xia Ting laughed late. He glanced at the bright storefront of McDonald's. Seeing that few people were sitting in it late at night, he was not too worried. He put his hood on his head and took Yin Ning's The hand went in.

    Yin Ning stood in front of the counter and looked up at several sets of meals seriously. He had a hard eye, so he had to turn his head to look at it. After hesitating for a while, he said, "I want to eat spicy chicken."

    Yin Ning is very introverted and is not good at communicating with strangers, so she only whispers to him when ordering food, not directly to the clerk.

    Xia Ting looked at him late, and a trace of pity and guilt filled his heart. He touched Yin Ning's head and said, "Go and sit."

    After returning with a dinner plate, Xia Tingwan and Yin Ning sat in a corner by the window, Yin Ning was eating, and Xia Tingwan looked at him with one hand on his face.

    Yin Ning was nibbling on the fried chicken leg, and he couldn't help but burp. He glanced at the chicken leg in his hand and sighed. For some reason, the circles of his eyes suddenly turned red.

    Xia Ting was stunned for a while, and asked softly, "What's the matter?"

    "I... miss my mother." Yin Ning lowered her eyes, tears dripping on the back of her hands.

    Xia Tingwan looked at the little boy in front of him, and his eyes were sour, "Ningning..."

    "When I did something right in the past, my mother rewarded me with a McDonald's. At that time, I thought that McDonald's was the best food in the world, and I always wanted to eat it. Later, brother Zichen said that McDonald's was unhealthy and he didn't want to take me to eat it. Just listen to him. I miss my mother very much, and sometimes brother Zichen, but they can't stay by my side all the time. I feel very sad. "

    Xia Tingwan reached out and touched the back of Yin Ning's head, and said softly, "I'm sorry, Ning Ning, I'm sorry, in the end it's my fault."

    "Don't keep apologizing."

    Yin Ning rubbed his eyes, he raised his head, his eyes were red: "Actually, I don't hate you all the time. Sometimes, I really hate the whole world, so I hate you even more. But sometimes I feel You're okay too. When you accompany me to paint, when you accompany me to eat McDonald's, and when you hide the things that pushed you for me, I think you are, you are also... very good. So you don't keep apologizing, you apologize, I was wondering in my heart whether to forgive you or not, and when I thought about it, I couldn't help but want to hate you again. I just wanted to talk to you for a while, I don't know why, I think you are the only one who will listen carefully."

    "You know, I don't seem to remember that I have a safe home since I was a child. I have been borrowing from relatives' houses with my mother, but I will be kicked out after a while. Everyone hates us. I feel like It's a mouse. Sometimes I can't help thinking that it would be fine if I didn't exist. My mother is sometimes gentle, and sometimes scary. I miss her very much, but I'm also afraid of her. Brother Su Yan said, when my mother is healed, Just let me go back and live with my mom—you say, my mom, will she be okay?"

    Xia Ting couldn't answer this question any time soon.

    This is the first time Yin Ning has opened up to him and said something from his heart, and it is also the first time he has discovered that this little child also has very complicated and deep feelings in his heart.

    Yin Ning lowered his head and took a sip of Coke, and murmured, "Before we moved out this time, brother Su Yan told me a lot. He said that you were also unhappy when you were a child, and your mother left early. My father also hurt you cruelly. So you can understand my feelings and you are really good to me. No matter what my mother does in the future, you will always be responsible for me, so I can rest assured. "

    "He also told me that he regarded me as a half-adult, so he discussed it with me seriously-he said that he handed me over to you rashly before because he did not do well enough, and he ignored my wishes and let me I feel scared and uneasy, he will never be like this again, so this time I will try my best to let me decide where I want to live. But you are the person he cares about the most in his life, so please take into account his mood , don't hurt you like last time. Give you a chance, even if you don't want to forgive you, try to get to know you a little bit."

    Xia Tingwan's eyes turned red now: "Did Su Yan say that?"

    "Yeah." Yin Ning nodded, he put the last french fries in his mouth, raised his head and said, "I haven't decided whether to go back to Xiangshan or not, but I think...I-I'd like to know more about it. One by one."

    "Thank you, thank you."

    Xia Ting stammered in the evening.

    He couldn't describe how grateful he was in his heart. He knew that he was not worthy of Yin Ning's forgiveness, but between him and Yin Ning, even if it was just a little bit willing to understand each other and take a step forward, they had already Enough to make his heart tremble.

    Before leaving, Yin Ning wanted to eat wheat whirlwind again.

    Xia Ting bought two late, and went out to eat one with Yin Ning.

    When stepping out of the McDonald's, Yin Ning suddenly raised his head, hesitated for a moment, and asked softly, "Brother Tingwan, can I meet Brother Zichen again? I, I really miss him... After the car accident, Su Brother Yan is very busy, he is with me every day, he is really good to me and brother Su Yan. But brother Su Yan said he doesn't want to hear this person's name again, I..."

    Looking at Yin Ning's melancholy eyes, Xia Tingwan couldn't help but be stunned for a moment.

    Before he could answer, he saw Su Yan's familiar Maybach parked outside.

    Su Yan wearing a long black trench coat stood at the McDonald's door and looked at them both.

    "Why are you here?" Xia Ting was stunned for a while, then walked over with Yin Ning limping.

    "I heard from the person who took care of Yin Ning that you are here. I'll come to pick you up when I'm done, and send Ning Ning back by the way." Su Yan glanced at Xia Tingwan's right foot lightly: "You're still injured. Thoroughly, go a little less."

    Xia Tingwan felt a little guilty for some reason.

    After sending Yin Ning home, he quietly dug out a spoonful of wheat whirlwind and fed it to Su Yan. Su Yan glanced at him and said nothing, lowered his head and ate it.

    Xia Tingwan took advantage of the situation and leaned into Su Yan's arms. In the quiet car, there was only the sound of their breathing from each other.

    Their relationship during this time was not as good as before, and the invisible barrier made this shallow and warm atmosphere at this time especially precious.

    Xia Tingwan wanted to say something, but in the end she didn't speak.

    The next day, Xia Ting thought about it again and again, but still sent a message to Wen Zichen: "Do you still want to meet?"

    Maybe it was Yin Ning's words that made him shake a little bit, or maybe it was in his heart that he still couldn't let go, and wanted to know what Wen Zichen wanted to say.

    But he knew that Su Yan would never agree, so he simply didn't mention this meeting to Su Yan.

    Wen Zichen replied quickly, and the two decided to meet at a secret coffee shop in the Xiangshan community at 3 o'clock in the afternoon.

    Xia Ting arrived early in the evening. After ordering a cappuccino, he huddled in the sofa seat in the corner in a daze.

    He was a little nervous, in fact, he didn't want to see Wen Zichen at all, but he was curious about what Wen Zichen wanted to say.

    Wen Zichen arrived on time at three o'clock. He was wearing a pure white coat. After sitting down, Xia Tingwan realized that it had only been less than a month, but Wen Zichen had lost a lot of weight.

    Wen Zichen took off the cashmere scarf, revealing his pointed chin, smiled reluctantly and said, "Hello, Mr. Xia - actually, I didn't expect you to see me."

    Xia Ting looked at him silently.

    Wen Zichen ordered a cup of hot cocoa, and after the drink was served, he took a breath while holding the warm cup with both hands, and said softly, "During this time, I tried to contact Mr. Su at first, but he took me His number was blocked, and WeChat was blocked, so I didn't dare to bother him anymore, but I was really in pain."

    Wen Zichen raised his head, and when he said the last sentence, his tail trembled involuntarily: "I, my affairs, my mood, I don't know who else to talk to - these days, I'm going crazy. Mr. Su will never want to hear my words again. Xia Tingwan, no matter how much I envy you, you are the only person I know who can have contact with Mr. Su. I can only tell you, and only you can understand."

    "I know that in the end, you, you and Mr. Su must feel that I spent all my time staying by his side because of money."

    Xia Tingwan looked at Wen Zichen expressionlessly.

    Looking at it from this angle, Wen Zichen's eyelashes are very long, and there is a little mole at the corner of his eye, which makes him look a little pitiful.

    "Yes, I admit, in the beginning, it was true."

    Wen Zichen smiled bitterly. He took a deep breath and said in a low voice, "Yes, I am a person who really wants money."

    "I was born in a single-parent family. I am the eldest, and I have two younger brothers. I have always been supported by my mother alone. I started helping my mother take care of my younger brother's life when I was very young. But I have a good temper and patience. Later, I went to study in the nursing department affiliated to N University and became a nurse. But my two younger brothers are very smart. The older one was admitted to the law department, but the tuition fee is very expensive , My mother's health has been getting worse and worse in the past two years, she is always in and out of the hospital, my family...the burden is very heavy, I, I really, I have been eager to be rich since I was a child, but I can't get rid of it..."

    Xia Tingwan became inexplicably irritable, and could not help interrupting Wen Zichen: "Is it necessary to tell me these things? If all you want to talk about are these personal matters, then forget it, I'm going back."

    "Wait a minute," Wen Zichen said eagerly, he stretched out his hand, but did not touch Xia Tingwan, his eyes were already red, he said tremblingly, "please, listen to me."

    He looked at Xia Tingwan pleadingly like a drowning person holding a straw, and only after Xia Tingwan sat down with his mouth shut, did he say softly, "I met someone after graduation, and he was very rich. I've been with him for a while, and everyone thinks we're dating, but it's not. That person..."

    Wen Zichen said this, his body seemed to tremble slightly because he recalled something and felt fear, he paused and then said in a low voice: "He is a masochist, I knew it when I met him, but I am too short of money. My brother finally got into such a promising university, but his family has no money. I want to say that if there is someone in the family who can make a difference, he will be able to escape this kind of poverty in the future, so I still followed him when I gritted my teeth. But that person, he, he was so scary, I really can't describe it. At that time, every time I received a call from him, his legs would tremble, and he liked me like that... Although he was reluctant, but for the money, I had to beg him to torture me severely. He started getting harder and harder, and I became more and more afraid. Later, one time, it was really impossible. I went to the hospital in the middle of the night and had several stitches. I have a very clear premonition that if this continues, I will definitely die in his bed, and I really don't dare."

    Xia Tingwan looked at Wen Zichen's pale face and didn't know what to say for a while.

    "It doesn't matter to him either, he thinks I must go back and beg him, because the money he gave me has always been enough for my mother to be hospitalized for one illness, or my brother's tuition for one semester. He knows the situation of my family. , so he wasn't in a hurry at all. During that time, I was going crazy... I didn't know what to do, and I didn't dare to tell my family that they thought I broke up with my rich boyfriend, but it wasn't at all. For one thing, my whole family depends on me alone. I'm afraid that if I tell them, the house will be in chaos. That's when you got into a car accident, and that's how I met Su Yan—"

    "The first time I saw Su Yan, I felt that he was very unusual."

    Wen Zichen looked down at his fingers: "You probably don't know, the more people like me, the more they can identify the richest people in the crowd."

    Xia Ting looked at Wen Zichen late, this person made him uncomfortable, and even the coffee in his mouth felt unbearably bitter.

    "You must be feeling disgusting,"

    Wen Zichen grinned mockingly at the corners of his mouth and said slowly, "Actually, sometimes, I also feel disgusting."

    "That night, the ambulance took you and Ning Ning to the hospital. You were all covered in blood. I happened to be negotiating something with the emergency department, and it was a pediatrician, so I quickly helped with the treatment. Ning Ning's injury is not really serious Seriously, except for the bruise, it's the eye wound, but you went to the emergency room. Ning Ning's side handled it almost, and you are out of danger. When I came out to drink a glass of water, I watched in a very hidden corner of the emergency room. When Su Yan sat in the chair, he..."

    Wen Zichen said this, he couldn't help biting his lip with his teeth, and after a long time he whispered, "Su Yan is crying."

    Xia Tingwan suddenly raised his head to look at Wen Zichen, his fingers flicked, and even the coffee cup almost slipped off.

    Wen Zichen seemed to fall into memory and murmured: "He covered his face with one hand and kept enduring it - so his shoulders twitched and he couldn't help it, so he let out a very light inhalation. I walked over and handed him a tissue, he looked up, his nose and eyes were red, and there was blood on his shirt. He said thank you to me. He was so embarrassed, he didn't look like him at all. A person of that status."

    "But Xia Tingwan, you know, at that moment, I felt that I fell in love with him. He was so fragile, I felt... It didn't seem like he was far away from me, but it was so close that I could hug him, Tell him it's okay."

    Wen Zichen looked at Xia Tingwan, and there were shallow tears in his eyes, as if recalling the scene at that time, even a vague smile appeared on his face involuntarily.

    "You said that there is money in my feelings for Su Yan, I think it may have been at the beginning. At that time, we already knew your identity, and of course we knew who he was, but the situation was chaotic. You are the one he swore to marry again. How dare I think so much. Only at that moment did I really lose my mind. My heart was beating so fast, I couldn't help but keep wanting to look at him Didn't think that way about anyone. It wasn't because of the money, really."

    "I'm curious about him, I want to know what kind of feelings he has for you, and more importantly, what kind of person he is, and I can't help but think - what if it was me, if he could have those feelings for me too , even just a little bit, I think, even a little bit, I'm satisfied. I really want to have Su Yan, you know, Xia Tingwan, that night, I was really jealous of you, I wanted to replace you—I I also feel very scary, you are still lying in the ward, but I actually think like that, but it is really my real thought."

    Xia Tingwan felt like he couldn't breathe. He didn't seem to be able to hear what Wen Zichen was saying, and he didn't care what Wen Zichen said.

    His mind was full of Su Yan.

    He had never seen Su Yan cry.

    Five years, never.

    He imagined that scene.

    That night in the hospital, Su Yan was alone in the emergency room, hiding in a corner where no one could see and shedding tears quietly.

    Until recently, Su Yan couldn't help but say something to him - "Tingting, I was so scared that night, do you know?"

    But with just such a sentence, how could he describe what happened to him that night.

    If Wen Zichen hadn't said it, Su Yan would never have told him.

    Su Yan won't tell him how much he loves him——

    love to fear.

    Love so much that even if he is out of danger, just thinking of the possibility of losing him, he will hide and cry like a child.

    He really misses Su Yan.

    I know, Su Yan, I really know this time.

    "Although I have such thoughts, I don't actually have the chance. Su Yan is very busy and has been taking care of you. He just asks me about Yin Ning's situation every day. I try my best to take good care of Yin Ning, Yin Ning is a very poor and well-behaved child. I accompany him to rehabilitate and talk to him every day. He later became very close to me. So Su Yan asked me to talk to me and asked me to be Yin Ning’s. A full-time nurse, the price he proposed surprised me. In fact, with that kind of payment, I don't have to think about anything else at all, I can already afford the expenses of the family - but I'm not satisfied, I'm still greedy, The more I get along with Su Yan, the more I want to have him."

    "Later, you got divorced."

    Wen Zichen said slowly.

    Xia Ting stared at Wen Zichen late, but Wen Zichen did not avoid his gaze, but said calmly: "Because of Yin Ning, I can move into Xiangshan, and I am a little closer to Su Yan. He is very Pain, pain every day, he doesn't talk much, doesn't come down to eat, and when I see him, he's always haggard."

    "During that period, there was a very terrifying thing. The man came back once before - he forced me, and he regretted it later. In fact, he has never been a person who likes to force, it's ridiculous, such a pervert, but But he is very principled. He is only the kind of person who bows his head to him for money. But I was injured again, and I went back to Xiangshan after a few days of rest. That is, that night, Su Yan was drunk and lay on the first floor, smashing No one is allowed to talk to him. Actually, I am quite afraid of him, and I have never dared to disobey him, but that night, I...I..."

    Xia Tingwan took a deep breath, knowing that Wen Zichen was about to speak.

    The one thing he couldn't ignore, when he came, was the thing he wanted to explore subconsciously,

    "I mustered up the courage, I thought, that may be the only chance in my life."

    "I helped him into my room, then knelt beside the bed and begged him, I said, let me spend the night with him, I don't want anything, I just fell in love with him, I want to accompany him. He is uncomfortable. If he does, just vent it on me, I can endure anything, no matter how rough it is. I will always be with him, no matter how painful it is, it will pass, and I will spend this time with him. "

    Wen Zichen said this, smiled bleakly, and paused for a while before saying, "My injury wasn't healed yet, but I thought, he was drunk, so maybe he wouldn't find out, or maybe he found out, I'll tell him about the past, and he may... also pity me a little bit."

    "Did you do it?" Xia Tingwan asked suddenly.

    Wen Zichen was silent for a long time before answering: "I gave him a mouth for a while. But he didn't fuck me - me, I stripped, but he didn't fuck me, do you know why?"

    "why?"

    "Because," Wen Zichen raised his head and said word by word, "on my thigh, there is a trace of that person burning with a cigarette butt. He touched it and asked me if it hurt. I, I thought at that time that he really He was asking me and caring about me. I was so happy that I couldn't help but hold his hand and say - it hurts. Then Su Yan he..."

    When Wen Zichen said this, tears suddenly poured out of his eyes, and he choked up and said, "He looked at my scars and said sadly—Tingting must have been in pain when he was a child."

    "Xia Tingwan...Why, you are all divorced, but I still can't get that little charity. When he saw my injury, what he thought was how you felt more than ten years ago, how could I not envy of you."

    Wen Zichen's voice couldn't help but get excited. He tried hard to hold the coffee cup and paused for a while before saying, "After that night, Su Yan told me that he couldn't respond to my feelings. Even then, I didn't give up." I don't care whether I'm cheap or ridiculous, I told Su Yan, I said I don't want anything, I don't need him to like me, as long as I can accompany him, even if I don't do anything, just let me stay Just by his side. He didn't answer me, but he didn't let me go—"

    "I think, I still have a chance, a year or two, maybe if I wait, maybe one day..."

    "Later, on my birthday, Su Yan was going out to watch a play. I asked him if he could take me to see it as well. He knew it was after my birthday and asked me what I wanted to eat. I said I wanted to eat Japanese food. I thought it was ridiculous, but I have only eaten sushi before, not high-end Japanese food. Su Yan and I also said the same. Su Yan took me there—that day, I, I really felt that he was the He felt sorry for me a little bit, or felt pity for me. He told me that I was still young, and I will gradually have what I want in the future, so don’t be too sad about these things. I…”

    Wen Zichen stared blankly at the cup in his hand, a tear dripped down: "For the first time, I touched Su Yan's tenderness a little bit."

    "But soon, you're back."

    "I'm too scared. I don't have any decision-making power, and my situation is so embarrassing. If you want to come back, in fact, as long as you impress Su Yan, I have no place at all, but as long as you want... How difficult is it to impress Su Yan? ?I know that the only possible way for me is to make you feel that you and Su Yan are over, and then quit. I deliberately show it in front of you again and again, I think, you are so proud, maybe you can't stand it once Every time I came back, I saw Su Yan and I stayed together. But—"

    "But you didn't give up in the end."

    Wen Zichen smiled bitterly, and he raised his head to look at Xia Tingwan: "You said that I was never your opponent, right?"

    A complex look flashed across Xia Tingwan's eyes.

    He had no reason to think that Wen Zichen also looked like a little bird perched on a tree, perhaps a nightingale.

    He couldn't say why, but he still somehow felt that this man had a temperament that only bloomed in the night.

    Wen Zichen didn't resist depravity, and he didn't even care how humble he was, but he could be so cruel to himself, but he still had to rely on something to live.

    If there is no support, he will suffer greatly. Perhaps Su Yan was the branch he wanted the most.

    Xia Tingwan looked at Wen Zichen and said slowly, "You remembered it wrong. I said, my opponent is not you."

    Wen Zichen was stunned for a moment, and then he murmured, "Yes, all you care about is Su Yan's thoughts. He is your opponent."

    When he said this, he suddenly showed a pale smile and asked abruptly, "I'm completely out of play now. So... did you win? Are all the problems between you resolved?"

    Xia Tingwan's face was a little ugly, he stared at Wen Zichen: "What do you mean?"

    That sentence sounded provocative at first, but it seemed to contain some deep meaning.

    He couldn't help but mind, but he couldn't grasp the clue.

    "Nothing." Wen Zichen suddenly stopped.

    "Since there's nothing else to say, I'm going back too." Xia Tingwan lost her patience completely, and he reached out and picked up his coat and stood up.

    "Wait—" Wen Zichen also stood up immediately, his body trembling slightly: "Xia Tingwan, I really like Su Yan. I know it's strange for me to tell you this, but he won't see me again. , he is the kind of man who has no room to turn around once he has made a decision. So these few words, I can only tell you. "

    "Do you want me to help you convey your love for him to Su Yan?" Xia Tingwan widened her eyes in disbelief: "Are you crazy?"

    "No." Wen Zichen looked at Xia Tingwan painfully, and said softly, "I didn't say that. I can admit to you everything I did. I don't want Ningning to live with you, I want to stay there. Next to Su Yan, Ning Ning didn't want to go there, so I taught him about painting. It was fake that he was sick, he only told me, but I didn't tell you, and I also told him that he could do it again. A few more tries might make you realize that he really doesn't want to live there. But other than that—"

    "I definitely didn't secretly instigate Ning Ning to push you. I don't know how to prove myself, but I swear, I really didn't."

    Xia Tingwan looked at Wen Zichen, and Wen Zichen's eyes were full of pleading.

    "It's not important anymore." He thought for a while, and said calmly, "Didn't Su Yan say it? He checked it out and didn't blame you for that."

    "No." Wen Zichen shook his head, blocking Xia Tingwan's way: "he can't be sure it's me, but he suspects me. My mother's illness, he said he would always help me with the burden, but that matter After that, he, he didn't care anymore. I didn't want to ask him for money again. I just thought that after these things happened, he would definitely think that I was just for money, so he calculated him and Yin Ning. The likes he said were all false."

    "But I'm not like that. I really don't want him to think of me like this from now on."

    As if about to cry, Wen Zichen sniffed hard: "Please, Xia Tingwan, I don't ask you to help me tell him this now. But if one day, you guys will be completely healed. , even after many years - if one day you will still mention me, please tell him that my feelings towards him are true - I did not lie to him."

    Xia Tingwan didn't give Wen Zichen an answer in the end.

    He really didn't know what to say.

    Suddenly, he felt a little dazed. He still didn't have the slightest affection for Wen Zichen. He didn't even want to think about the existence of this person, but perhaps he felt that on a certain level, he was also a very pitiful man.

    Once you start to feel that there is something pitiful about a person, the disgust will not be complete.

    Life seems to be like this, there are many things without answers.

    He knew that he would never talk to Su Yan about Wen Zichen now, but many years later... If the thousand sails are over, will he think of what happened now, and many things will become understandable.

    He really doesn't know.

    Before Wen Zichen left, he told him that if Yin Ning had anything to do, he could still find him, and he was willing to help at any time.

    But Xia Tingwan simply refused.

    After Wen Zichen left, Xia Tingwan walked slowly outside again.

    It was not until his mind gradually calmed down that he returned to Xiangshan.

    Su Yan was reading in the master bedroom when Xia Tingwan walked over and hugged him tightly.

    There are thousands of words in my heart, but nothing comes out.

    "what's wrong?"

    Su Yan took off the gold-rimmed glasses, turned around and hugged Xia Tingwan on his lap, and asked gently, "Are you in a bad mood?"

    "I miss you."

    Xia Tingwan said suddenly.

    For some reason, when those words blurted out, he felt a sore heart.

    He won't let Su Yan cry again, never again.

    He swore in his heart.

    Su Yan was stunned, he immediately hugged Xia Tingwan in his arms, patted Xia Tingwan's back one after another, and whispered, "Little guy, I have something to tell you, there is something urgent to deal with at work, My flight tomorrow morning is to go abroad."

    Xia Tingwan suddenly raised her head: "So suddenly?"

    "Well," Su Yan nodded and said in a deep voice, "I don't know how many days I'll be going, it depends on how things are resolved."

    Xia Tingwan couldn't help wrapping his eyes around Su Yan's neck, and he couldn't tell the reluctance in his heart.

    Perhaps it was Wen Zichen's question - "Have your affairs been resolved?" It made him feel a little uneasy. He really wanted to be with Su Yan, and he was reluctant to leave him, even if it was only temporarily. of.

    "My baby, be good." Su Yan kissed him on the cheek: "You are fine, you still have to pay attention to your feet, don't make me worry."

    "Yeah." Xia Tingwan reluctantly recovered herself. He was surprisingly obedient this time. He rubbed Su Yan's chin with his face and whispered, "I'll wait for you to come back. I'll ponder the script during this time. Su Yan... can we make a video?"

    "Yeah." Su Yan nodded.

    "Then..." Xia Tingwan looked up at Su Yan timidly: "Will you still write me a postcard?"

    He hadn't received a letter from Su Yan for a long time. He moved all the love letters in the past to Tianlan Pavilion and collected them, and the number remained at 138.

    "I can write it." Su Yan smiled nicely.

    In the early morning of the next day, Su Yan finally checked the small suitcase he was carrying, and Xia Tingwan actually got up in a daze.

    Su Yan was taken aback, touched Xia Tingwan's head and said, "Why did you get up so early?"

    "I..." Xia Tingwan yawned as soon as he opened his mouth, and there was a hazy sleepiness in his eyes, but he still said, "I want to see you off."

    Su Yan burst out laughing: "You've never seen a plane before."

    Although he said it unintentionally, Xia Ting suddenly felt ashamed when he heard it.

    When he went out to film, as long as Su Yan was not busy with work, he would pick him up in person, no matter whether it was early morning or late at night.

    I used to think that it was all ordinary, but now think back, how many times when returned to H City tired after work, and when got off the plane and saw Su Yan waiting for him, he always felt at ease.

    But Su Yan was on a business trip, but he neither sent nor picked up the plane.

    "I'll give it to you in the future." Xia Tingwan looked at Su Yan and whispered.

    Su Yan's eyes were a little complicated, and then he shook his head gently: "Tingting, I don't need it today, it's too early, and the secretary and I have to deal with some documents on the way, so I can't talk to you."

    As he said, he hugged Xia Tingwan, and gently put it back into the warm bed. He bent down, kissed Xia Tingwan's forehead, and whispered, "Baby, I miss you too."

    Xia Tingwan couldn't help holding Su Yan's hand, and it took a long time to release it reluctantly.

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