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Chapter 58
Chapter 58
Since Su Jingyang was kidnapped by the system and came into this world, he has suffered a series of unintended disasters, and the idea of ββgoing home has always been firm.
ββIt is not so much a thought as a belief.
Even if there are A Li and A Xuan who are like relatives to him, there are Liang Lu and Rong Hua who are good to him, and there is Rong Ci who is unclear about his feelings... But the belief in returning home is as stable as a mountain standing in the heart.
He wants to go back, even if he is alone after returning, but there is where he grows and takes root, and there will no longer be entangled and coerced by the system!
If he is told to stop collecting energy and give up to return to the original world, it means that he will be at the mercy of the system for a lifetime, it means compromising with the dog system, and it means bowing his head to the evil forces!!!
As long as Su Jingyang thought about it, he felt a suffocating suffocation in his heart, and every nerve was clamoring for rejection! No one could make him pay such a high price!
But he didn't know when it started, but he started to change unknowingly. Originally just wanting to make a deal, he became more and more accustomed to Rongci's company, accustomed to him holding his own body temperature, and accustomed to what he gave him. An Xin, even if he was angry because he was deceived, he finally died because he was worried about his injury. Su Jingyang had to admit that Rong Ci's purpose of deceiving him into marriage was somewhat achieved, and he cared so much about him, but he kept telling himself secretly that he must not be trapped.
Once you step in, you're done.
And now there are two more children, and they have only been together for a month. Although he usually cried and made him headache and upset, the kind of thought that grew out of his bones and blood was overwhelmingly eroding his heart and making him feel panic. .
Sometimes quietly looking at the children's sleepiness, looking at their cute faces, Su Jingyang's heart would be filled with a touch of sadness and grief, he is really... afraid that if this continues, he will give up Can't fall.
That night, when the two children woke up, it was Rongci who called them to eat milk. Usually children wake up from hunger and move around, Su Jingyang wakes up quickly, and then asks the nanny to come in, but today he lay still and his eyes were closed, as if he didn't notice anything.
Rong Ci knew that he was actually awake, his dark pupils flickered slightly, staring at his figure with his back to him for a while.
Rong Ci felt that he was weird this day, and also had an intuition that he was not simply because he blamed himself for the child, but seemed to have something on his mind.
Rong Ci stretched out his arms, leaned his body to hug him, Su Jingyang moved in his arms after a while, opened his eyes and turned to look at him.
The eyes of the two met, and Rong Ci stared at him deeply. He was about to speak, but Su Jingyang raised his hand and covered his mouth, frowning to prevent him from speaking. I'm afraid that his questioning will make me even more upset.
Rong Ci's breath was slightly heavy, and his eyes were fixed on his face. After a while, he pulled his hand off and held it, kissed him, and said in a low voice, "Go to sleep, the child should not be in a while. It will be noisy."
He didn't ask, which made Su Jingyang breathe a sigh of relief, and answered vaguely in his mouth, but he didn't fall asleep. He forced himself to wait for the baby to finish feeding, then got up and took both of them and placed them by his side.
Fortunately, the two of them fell asleep together after playing for a while.
When Daan fell asleep, he tightly grasped one of Su Jingyang's fingers with his little hand and refused to let it go.
The tip of Su Jingyang's nose was filled with the fragrance of milk on the child's body, and he couldn't help but feel soft. He didn't pull out his hand, tucked the quilt into Xiaofan, lay down and kept his eyes closed.
After realizing his sexual orientation, he didn't think much about his children. Every day when he got home from get off work, he just played games and then went to bed. At that time, how could he have expected that his nightlife could still be like this.
Su Jingyang slept rather deeply this night. When he woke up suddenly and opened his eyes, he found that the two children had already woken up. Although they both had tears in their eyes, their noses were reddish, and their small mouths were flattened, strangely they did not cry. .
Su Jingyang felt very stunned, and he turned back suddenly, and found that Rong Ci, in a white single-clothed shirt, was sitting cross-legged beside him, holding his arms and looking at the two children with cold eyes. Eyes deterrence feeling to eat people.
Su Jingyang was silent for a moment, "...what are you doing?"
Rong Ci looked at him and said, "I think they can live without crying. Treat them so that they won't make noise every day and make you work so hard."
As a result, as soon as the words fell, the two children snorted and cried aggrieved, their little mouths trembling with tears.
Rong Ci: "..."
Su Jingyang closed his eyes, his chest heaved abruptly, and he gritted his teeth and cried out, "Rong-ci!!!"
Rong Ci's brows jumped when he shouted, and he pursed his lips tightly without saying a word.
While holding the child in his arms, Su Jingyang scolded him with a bloody head. Rong Ci blinked his eyes, and he was more and more afraid to tell Su Jingyang that he actually used a little trick just now, lest the two children snort early in the morning. Haw woke him up.
However, the simple technique seems to have little effect on these two little guys. And what's even worse is that they found a backer, but they were very proud, and now, it is only him who is scolded...
Rong Ci heard Su Jingyang's scolding until he finally stopped scolding, then he secretly let out a long breath, put on his clothes, put on his shoes and got out of bed, and ordered someone to prepare hot water for the child to bathe.
The heat rash on Dafan Xiaofan's body was almost completely healed after three days of rubbing the ointment. The stone in Su Jingyang's heart was considered to have fallen to the ground, but after this, he became more careful. As Lingli said, the experience is his own. Slowly find out, don't be too nervous.
Ah Xuan has been at the wizard's place all this time, and Rong Hua has not come back. Every day, only Ling Li is left to accompany Su Jingyang. When the weather is good, Su Jingyang and Ling Li take the child out to bask in the sun. Let the wind out, when the weather is bad, you will stay in the bedroom.
In addition to taking care of the children, Su Jingyang chatted with Ling Li to relieve fatigue. If Rongci comes back to accompany Su Jingyang after finishing the business, Lingli will leave after a little more tea time.
Before knew it, another twenty days had passed, and there was a little snow outside that day, and Su Jingyang didn't go out.
Not long after Rong Ci left, Ling Li came with A Xuan, and they sat down and chatted together. Su Jingyang suddenly remembered something, and asked Lingli, "By the way, Ah Li, is Rong Hua not back yet?"
Lingli teased the little trouble in his arms and laughed softly: "He is close to Xu Mei, maybe he will stay there for a few days to play."
Su Jingyang snorted, it was nothing to play there for a few days, Su Jingyang was just worried if something happened to him. However, Rong Hua, with a ruthless and arrogant temperament, generally would not allow himself to be bullied.
Su Jingyang hugged Xiaofan for a while, then put him back in the crib and let him lie down, hug Dafan and play, the two children can only do this, hugging each other, otherwise they are too partial. Fortunately, now they are gradually crying a little bit. It is less, and it is more suitable for Su Jingyang's arrangement.
Ah Xuan looked at Su Jingyang for a while with bright eyes, and suddenly asked, "Uncle, why are you unhappy?"
Su Jingyang was caught off guard by the question, and opened his eyes wide in amazement to look at Ah Xuan.
The wizard's treatment was very effective. Looking at Ah Xuan's clearer and brighter eyes now, Su Jingyang couldn't help but think of the scene when he first saw this child.
Su Jingyang raised the corner of his mouth and smiled at Ah Xuan, "Uncle is not unhappy, just a little tired."
Rong Ci knew that he was tired and tired of taking care of the children all day long and was in a bad mood, so he couldn't laugh out of his thoughts, so he lived his life with gritted teeth every day, scolding him and beating him, but he didn't expect to see even a child now.
Lingli looked at Su Jingyang for a long time, his lips moved, and he said in a low voice, "Jingyang, if I can... do something for you."
He once said that he would repay this person with his whole life, but so far, he seems to have done nothing, and can only watch with his hands and feet, and nothing can help.
Su Jingyang was stunned for a moment because of Ling Li's words, but he quickly covered up and smiled, "It's okay, I'm used to it now, didn't you say that after three months, the child will be more obedient? I am now It can be considered as half of the time, and if you persist, it will be easy.β
Two days later, Rong Hua finally came back. Different from the irritable and gloomy time before, he was completely quiet and calm. After coming back to see the big trouble and the small trouble, he went back to his room and didn't come out for a few days.
It was snowing outside, and it was inconvenient for Su Jingyang to bring his two children to see him. After Lingli went there, he came back and told Su Jingyang worriedly, "Rong Hua is in a bad mood, I asked him what was wrong, but he only said that he was very annoying and felt Nothing is right."
What's wrong? Su Jingyang tilted his head, looking puzzled, "What's wrong, did he say it?"
Ling Li shook his head and sighed: "I don't dare to ask more, I feel that he has a very heavy heart."
Su Jingyang waited for Rongci to come back and asked him if he knew what was going on. Rongci was a little unclear, but he still said, "Don't worry about all of you, I'll go see him tomorrow."
In the end, Rong Hua was taken by Rong Ci to the Master Wizard. After listening to Qing Xin Ling for more than a month, he gradually improved slightly. After that, he occasionally came to play with Ling Li to play with the big trouble and the small trouble, but most of the time, he still The cold wind blows on the roof in a daze.
Su Jingyang couldn't care about him for a while, because almost three months had passed, but the two children were still not taken by others. The only change was that they would succumb to the pressure of Rongci and let him hold them for a while. of. But for Su Jingyang, it didn't relieve much of the burden.
His hopes were lost, and the anxiety that had been suppressed in his heart could no longer be stopped from surging up together. Is it really necessary to keep the child at home all the time? Then when can he go out and continue to collect energy?
This morning, Su Jingyang was feeding Su Dafan water, but he was choked by accidentally feeding too much. It turned out to be terrible, and he kept crying. Su Jingyang was worried about whether he was suddenly feeling unwell, and called Li Li. Yin came to see it, and after seeing it, Li Yin said that the child's health was fine, but he was crying, as if he was being strangled by the neck.
After crying for almost half an hour, his throat was hoarse, and it was cold, and Su Jingyang was sweating, but he couldn't coax him well.
Because he has been taking care of him, Xiaofan is not happy anymore and starts to hum, Su Jingyang goes from distressed at first to irritability and finally to anger.
Throwing Su Dafan on the bed, he roared with red eyes: "Cry, cry, cry! I know how to cry every day!! I don't care about you!!"
Although Su Jingyang has a temper, but taking care of them during this time can be said to have spent all his mind and energy. The child is too young to speak, and the only way to express his emotions is to cry! Su Jingyang also knows this, and is trying his best to endure it, but there is still a moment where he can't hold back his emotions, especially when he is already upset When there is chaos, the cry of the child is undoubtedly adding fuel to the fire.
After the child was thrown onto the bed by him, he looked like a poor little abandoned worm, thumping his little hands and feet and crying more and more violently. After a while, the sound of crying disappeared, and his face flushed blood red, as if he was about to cry in the next moment.
The maids who were sent by Su Jingyang to wait outside the door heard the cry, and they all rushed in to see what was going on. They saw Su Jingyang ripped off his messy hair and squatted on the ground. They looked at each other and approached. However, Su Jingyang suddenly got up and turned back to the bed. He picked up the child with red eyes. The anger between his brows had not dissipated. He continued to coax with helplessness and bitterness all over his body as if he was resigned.
In the end, both children were tired from crying and fell asleep in the shaker.
Su Jingyang only felt exhausted, then he slumped on the ground and whispered, "Damn, when will this day be over?"
The system appeared and snorted coldly: "When is it a head? Let's talk about it after you give birth to ten."
Su Jingyang's heart trembled violently, and his whole body was immediately covered with a chill that could not be shaken away!
He tugged at the corners of his stiff mouth sadly, he really didn't have the strength to scold it, his body slowly moved back, and he lay on the ground with a blank expression on his face.
Ling Li's face appeared in his field of vision at some point, and his expression was full of worry, "Don't sleep on the ground, it's cold."
Su Jingyang just lay there like this, staring at him blankly for a while, then suddenly said hoarsely: "Ali...I want to drink some wine."
Ling Li was worried about Su Jingyang's body, and he didn't let him drink too much, but he didn't stop him.
Su Jingyang's later things were a little vague. After all, he cried a lot while holding Lingli to vent, but Su Jingyang didn't remember what he said drunkenly.
But the only thing remember is that Ling Li gently patted his back and kept comforting him, comforting him, and tears began to fall on his neck. It was so hot that his body twitched involuntarily.
It seemed that Rong Ci had also come back, but he was blasted out and locked the door.
It was already evening when Su Jingyang woke up with a splitting headache. He opened his eyes and looked at his side subconsciously. The children were all there, but I don't know if it was because he lost his temper today. Lie on the bed honestly and didn't cry.
Su Jingyang didn't know what it was like for a while in his heart. He pressed the center of his throbbing eyebrows, and when he slowly sat up, he felt a gentle force supporting him.
Su Jingyang's sluggish brain just reacted, looking at the person sitting beside the bed, with a delicate and pale face, when his pale eyes looked at him quietly, his eyes had a kind of gentle and firm power.
It is Lingli.
"Wake up." Lingli smiled slightly and said softly, "Sit down first, and I'll bring you sober soup."
Su Jingyang felt inexplicably heart palpitations, and held Lingli back: "Ali!!"
Ling Li sat down again, "What's the matter? Is there any discomfort?"
Su Jingyang scratched the back of his head in annoyance, and then looked at him and said in a hoarse voice, "It's not... That Ah Li, did I go crazy with alcohol and tell you nonsense?"
Ling Li raised the corner of his lips and smiled, his eyes were as calm as lake water, without the slightest ripples.
He held Su Jingyang's hand tightly and said softly, "You didn't say anything, you just cried a lot."
Ling Li nodded seriously, "Really not?"
"Really not." Ling Li smiled again, and said to him in a relaxed tone, "Could it be that you have something humiliating to say, for fear of being overheard by me?"
Su Jingyang only felt that his ears were burning, and he raised his hand and wiped his face in embarrassment. He stopped talking and let out a sigh of relief in his heart.