Now, I really realize that this is not just a matter of position, but, in the face of time, to him, I am a terminally ill patient.

I want him to love me, I want him to suffer the pain after loving me, and the more love I want, the more pain he will endure one day.

Is this really the love I want?

no! This is definitely not the love qíng I imagined!

I walked for an hour and walked back to Mazu Street, but I still didn't know what to do.

I bought a dozen beers at the street corner shop and took them to the reef beach.

I sat on the reef, drinking beer and looking at the dark sea.

In the TV series, there is a very vulgar plot: the hero and heroine are finally together after suffering, but suddenly the hero or heroine finds out that he has a terminal illness. At this time, whether it is the male lead or the female lead, they will silently conceal their illness, trying to drive the other party away, hoping that the other party will stop loving themselves.

Every time I see a qíng festival like this, I always yawn and say, "Can you be a little new?" Now I finally understand why this section is so vulgar, because it is a necessity for qíng to go deep Choice, no matter how the screenwriter wants to innovate, he can't go against people.

I drank the wine and wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes with my fingers. Do I have to reluctantly cut my love like the heroine in the TV series?

However, Wu Julan is not the male protagonist in the TV series, and he doesn't think I can't drive him away.

From the beginning, his attitude was very clear, and he didn't want to accept me at all!

If it wasn't for my stalking, he wouldn't pay attention to me!

He will never give me a chance to die, I have to figure it out.

With the sound of the sea làng lapping on the reef, I opened the sixth can of beer.

Intellectually, I know it's not right to drink like this anymore, this is by no means a place to get drunk alone, but right now I just want to drink. Forget it, the big deal is to give Jiang Yisheng a call later and ask him to carry me home.

I was drinking and thinking wildly when my phone suddenly rang.

I took out my phone and saw that it was Wu Julan's call. I didn't want to answer it, so I had already put it back in my pocket, but after a second thought, I couldn't bear to worry him, so I answered the phone anyway.

"Hey?"

Wu Julan asked, "Where are you?"

I pretended to be elated, "My friends and I were drinking and chatting outside. I'm sorry, I forgot to tell you and Jiang Yisheng."

"What friend?"

"I met an old classmate by chance in the hospital. I only planned to chat for a while, but the classmate was called classmate, and several classmates came. Go home first, don't wait for me, I'll go back later. "

"How late?"

I grabbed my hair and said, "Everyone is having a good time chatting. It's definitely not going away for a while. I've brought the keys. You don't need to worry about me, just go to sleep first!"

Wu Julan was silent.

I felt that I couldn't hold it any longer, and was on the verge of collapse. I hurriedly said, "They called me. If you're fine, I'll hang up." After speaking, he hung up the phone without waiting for him to respond.

I lifted my head and drank the remaining half of the can before opening another can.

After drinking two cans of beer in a row, I suddenly cried out inexplicably: "Wu Julan, I love you!"

"Shen Luo loves Wu Julan very much!"

"Wu Julan, there is a very good girl who loves you very much! If you don't cherish it, you will regret it sooner or later..."

Facing the pitch-black sea, I screamed like a vent.

Wu Julan, if you are like me, or if I am like you, I will definitely tell you how much I love you!

Growing up, I wanted to love my father and mother like other children, but my parents didn't give me this opportunity. I have accumulated a lot of love, so much that I am reluctant to give it to anyone, and I dare not give it to anyone, because that is all I have in ordinary people, but I want to give it to you.

I want to use my life to love you well, do my best to be nice to you, spoil you with everything I have, and make you the happiest man!

However, if you don't give me a chance, my fiery love can only be turned into a hopeless cry in front of the dark sea. The sky can hear, the earth can hear, the sea can hear, but you can't hear it!

I emptied another can of beer in one go and shoved the can flat.

I swore to myself with tears in my eyes: "Last time! If he answers me, fate tells me not to give up, if he doesn't answer me, fate tells me to give up!"

I put down the beer can, stood up staggeringly, put my hands to my mouth, faced the sea, and shouted with all my strength, "Wu-ju-blue! Wu-ju-blue..."

Under the starlight in the sky, the sea breeze blew gently, and the sea gently slapped the reef. I stood on the high reef, like a madman, screaming with all my strength, over and over again, as if to consume all my life in the scream.

I know no one will respond!

I made this oath that I knew the result, but I just gave up!

Calling his name over and over again facing the sea, calling it hoarse, telling myself that this is destiny, and I have tried my best.

From now on, I will bury this feeling deeply, let him feel that I also think that we are not suitable.

I will tell him that I can let go and forget him, because the only eternal thing in this universe is that everything dies. Even a star can disappear, let alone a feeling? Please leave him at ease, my feelings for him will definitely disappear with time! This is an objective law, and everything will not violate it!

I believe I must be sincere when I say it, even if he stares into my eyes, he will believe it, because I am telling the truth and definitely not deceiving him.

It's just that I won't tell him how long it will take for my feelings for him to disappear!

My feelings for him will definitely disappear in this world, because, I will definitely disappear in this world!

"Wu Julan! Wu Julan! Wu Julan..."

After hundreds and thousands of calls, my voice finally became hoarse, and I could no longer make a sound.

Between the sea and the sky, everything is silent, and no sound responds to my call.

This is the final result that fate told me, and the best result!

My heart was ashes, I raised my head with tears streaming down my face, and looked at the sky above my head.

Starry and dazzling.

In the misty tears, tens of thousands of stars shone brightly, seeming so close to me, as if I could have them if I reached out my hand.

How like Wu Julan! Appearing so dazzlingly, it became your entire starry sky, eclipsed all the gems in the world. However, you can only watch, never have!

I was bewitched and stretched out my hands towards the starry sky, wanting to embrace the entire sky.

Suddenly, a meteor appeared, slid across half of the sky as fast as lightning, and disappeared at the end of the sea and sky.

I didn't have time to think about what meteor to make a wish for, but when my eyes naturally followed its light, the only thought that flashed in my mind was: I want Wu Julan!

When the meteor disappeared, I couldn't help but shout again in a hoarse voice: "Wu Julan!"

no respond.

I scolded myself with tears in my eyes: "What an idiot!"

I knew it was a lie, but still did it! If you make a wish on a shooting star, you can achieve what you want, people all over the world don’t have to work hard, just make a wish in the sky every night and wait for the meteor to appear!

I was watching the stars shed tears, a thought flashed through my mind like a shooting star, and my body froze.

"If you want to get to know him, don't listen to what he said, but to listen to what he didn't say."

I stood there for a while, like waking up from a dream, and hurriedly took out my phone.

In the call log, the most recent record was "Wu Julan", which was already two hours ago.

With shaking hands, I clicked his name and dialed.

The familiar ringtone of the mobile phone rang, although it was very weak, but in this silent night, except for the soft sound of the sea, it was the only one that could be heard clearly.

It turned out that it wasn't that he didn't respond, but that the way I called him was wrong.

He's here, he's been here all the time!

In an instant, shock, ecstasy, happiness, sadness, bitterness... all kinds of intense emotions surged in my heart, stirring my brain like boiling water, a foggy mist, making it difficult for me to distinguish between joy and sorrow, and I wanted to laugh , want to cry again.

When the ding ding dong bell ended, Wu Julan appeared. Under the starlight, he stood on a high cliff and looked at me condescendingly.

When I didn't know he was there just now, I kept yelling at Haitian, as if I wished the whole world could hear me calling him. At this moment, he was right in front of me, but I couldn't make a sound, just stared at him blankly.

He floated down from the cliff, the darkness did not affect him in the slightest, and the rugged rocks did not hinder him in the slightest.

He is magnificent, standing in front of me. His brows were deep and calm, and his expression was calm, as if he didn't come out to see me because I couldn't help him at all, but came to make an appointment.

In fact, we have only been apart for a few hours, but my heart has been going back and forth between life and death several times. Looking at him, it was like reunion after a long absence.

The joy of being lost and found, the sadness of the rest of my life, the resentment of grievances and self-pity, and the nervousness and shyness of facing a loved one... I looked at him with all kinds of emotions, as if there were thousands of words to talk about, but in the end it became A flirtatious question asked: "Why are you sneaking in the dark?"

"I promised Jiang Yisheng that I won't let you stay alone until I find out the origins of those people."

I understand that he was not found later, but never left from the beginning. When I talked to Lin Han in the stairwell, he didn't leave, but stayed by the side. Afterwards I left the hospital without saying hello, and he kept following behind.

Then, he should have seen everything and understood everything.

Thinking that he saw me drinking and getting drunk, lying about drinking and chatting with my friends, and all those hoarse struggles and pains... I called his name thousands of times, but he was right beside him, but he was able to keep silent. , looking at me with a cold eye as I put myself into a desperate situation...

Sad and angry, I couldn't help but raise my hand and hit him hard.

At this moment, I really hated him so much, I didn't leave my hands behind, I gritted my teeth and fought with all my strength, as if I was fighting a life-and-death enemy.

He didn't move, didn't say a word, let me fight.

I was beating, and I just felt unspeakable grievances and sadness. Tears flowed down my cheeks. I hugged him and cried.

He finally reached out and patted my back lightly.

With a hoarse voice, I whimpered and cried, "Wu... Ju Lan..."

This time, instead of pretending not to hear, he said clearly, "Here I am."

I couldn't believe it, I was stunned for a moment, then choked up and called again: "Wu Julan!"

He repeated it very clearly: "Here I am."

I wiped my tears and stared at him as if I didn't know him.

Wu Julan stared at me calmly.

I sniffed, glared at him, and said viciously, "I won't give up! No matter what you think, whether it's selfish or thick-skinned, I won't give up anyway! Even if I die one day, I'll leave it to you.A lot of pain, I will not give up! Compared with yours, my life is very short, but I will give you all of my life!"