Chapter 35

"So, until now, you haven't told him that you actually liked him for a long time?"

The end of the year is the busiest, but the couple, Luo Ting and Gu Wenli, suddenly had more time. The main reason was that their daughter Doudou was taken back to her hometown by the old man in the family. The couple rarely had time to spare, so they asked Lin to come back. Eat at home.

Said to be eating, but in fact tortured. After all, after Luo Ting knew for the first time that Lin Hui and He Jianshan were really together, the "fuck" voice on the phone was so loud that it could pierce Lin Hui's eardrums. If everyone hadn't been at work, he would have liked to pour the wine immediately, and then put a pot of peanuts and listen to Lin Hui talk about it for three days and three nights. So the mother and daughter just went through the airport security check on the front foot, and he quickly took out his mobile phone and WeChat Lin Hui: [speed, the meal arrangement is scheduled, Lili and I are waiting to feed, waiting for you]

Lin Hui: [...you two are so old, can you be more reserved? 】

Luo Ting: [We middle-aged people don't need to be reserved, we need gossip that ignites passion for life]

Lin Hui: […]

In this way, Lin Hui went to the door to grab a meal, and by the way explained to the two of them the process of confirming the relationship with He Jianshan. After a series of "oooooo", "woooooo", "tsk tsk tsk", Luo Ting keenly sensed something was wrong, so he asked: "So, until now, you haven't told him that you actually liked him for a long time. ?"

"Why should I talk?"

"Isn't this a good opportunity? The two of you have just established a relationship, and now you are in a deep relationship. With your confession, He Jianshan can't help but be moved and wow?"

Lin Hui peeled the orange in his hand and said nothing.

After a while, he said: "I don't think it's necessary, whether it's 3 years, 5 years or 8 years, my crush is my own business, and it's all over. It's weird to mention it now, as if to say 'you Look, I love you so much, don't you feel moved', I don't want to use this to kidnap him, just let it be."

Luo Ting was anxious: "how can this be called 'kidnapping'? And what's so strange? I'm going to tell you about it. You are hypocritical. You are smart about everything. You have to listen to me when it comes to love. "

Luo Ting began to lay out the facts and reason: "Do you remember when I gave Li Li a birthday present? I made a handmade photo album and ordered it by line. It was very thick and troublesome, and it was 2 o'clock in the night. I gave the gift. When I was there, I pretended to be very relaxed on the face, but ah, secretly let the boss secretly hint to Lili, saying how I spent my time telling me how I stayed up all night and saying that I cut my hand, and Lili was touched and ruined - you are Take out this kind of scheming!"

"Don't talk nonsense." Gu Wenli on the side couldn't help but knocked Luo Ting's head, and pushed the washed red grapes in front of Lin Hui, "Lin Hui, don't listen to his nonsense, eat grapes."

"I'm talking nonsense, he's in love with He Jianshan, it's not He Jian, it's not He Shan, it's He Jianshan!"

Gu Wenli shook her head and ignored Luo Ting, turned her head to look at Lin Hui and said, "Lin Hui, Luo Ting's words are not rude, although you are together now, I always feel that sometimes you still think a little too much. You know What's your mood like?"

Luo Ting and Lin Hui looked at Gu Wenli together.

"When Luo Ting and I first started working, we often made appointments to meet in the central shopping mall. There is a large display window next to the south gate of the shopping mall, which was given to LV. Every time I go there, I will stare at a LV handbag in the display window. Look, I remember that I really liked it and wanted it very much, but I couldn't afford it. Later, Luo Ting saved a few months' salary and bought the bag and gave it to me. "

"You know, when I received that bag, I was really happy and crazy. It's no exaggeration to say that I took at least hundreds of photos from all angles. I cherish that bag very much, and I usually squeeze the bus and subway to work. , I don't want to carry it at all, unless there is an important event, I will take it out, and I even bought a matching skirt and shoes for it."

"In fact, it's just a bag. But because of its high price, in my heart, I can't treat it as an ordinary bag. Even, it rarely plays the basic role of a bag."

"I think He Jianshan is like this bag to you. He is a luxury item in the window. You have thought about it for a long time and dreamed of owning him, but when he actually appeared in your arms, you found out, It's too expensive, you can't bear it, you can't help but carefully maintain it, even if you don't want it, you can't control it at all."

Lin Hui opened his mouth.

"Don't refute me, Lin Hui." Gu Wenli sighed, "Even I don't think you want to tell He Jianshan that you liked him for a long time, I'm afraid that one day you can keep the last bit of dignity when you separate."

Luo Ting looked at Lin Hui in surprise: "No, you just talked?!"

Lin replayed the oranges: "I never thought about the day we separated, but I really don't dare to think more. When you first fell in love, you would enjoy the future, thinking about which city to work and live in, and what to buy. This kind of house, how to decorate it, and even the name of the child. But we are different, let's not say that we are both past the age of dreaming, the fact that we are both men is enough to attract attention. When I'm in a crush, I don't need to worry about anything. When we're really together, I can't help but think about it. He's different from me. There are too many people behind him, too many responsibilities, and too many things to bear. And I think it's fine now."

"Besides, you said that I regarded him as a luxury, so why is he not playing the perfect lover."

Luo Ting and Gu Wenli looked at each other.

"It's not right to play, he is a perfect lover, and he can do the best in everything. However, perfection requires a lot of effort to maintain."

Luo Ting frowned: "Wait, I don't understand, isn't the perfect lover? Are you too picky?"

Lin Hui smiled: "His character is like this. If he can achieve 100 points, he will never allow himself to be 99. He is used to it. It can be said that he strives for perfection at work, but love is not work. I don't want him to worry about it. After work, I have to spend a lot of time thinking about love or me, I don't want him to be so tired."

"Have you asked him? Have you told him what you think?" Gu Wenli frowned, "I think in a sense, is He Jianshan also insecure? He used to focus on work, Focus on you now?"

"We're in a relationship, and it's not the same as other people. Without a few steps, he always felt wronged me a lot. Do you know what he said to me - 'If others have it, you should have it too.' I asked him Who are the others?" Lin Hui suddenly smiled, "he said, it's the people in the TV series."

"However, the people in the TV series are not Lin Hui or He Jianshan. We are different from others. If I talk about the things I have a crush on, wouldn't he feel more indebted? I just don't want to do that. Don't say, I don't want to make love a responsibility for him, or even a burden in the end. If you think I am hypocritical, then I am hypocritical. Rather than loving me, I hope that he will not be so harsh on himself, love himself, go love the world."

If Lin Hui wanted to find out what attracted He Jianshan in the first place, it must be loneliness.

In this world, some people like animals, some people like to collect cups, some people are addicted to online games, and some people relieve stress through travel... Different people have different emotional needs, and everyone draws happiness and nutrients from various things. But He Jianshan did not. He seems to have only work and nothing else.

Or rather, it seems not.

Countless days and nights, whenever he saw He Jianshan busy with work in any place, he felt so profoundly lonely, like an abyss that was cut off from the whole world, and at the same time strongly attracted Lin Hui, and approached him involuntarily.

Gu Wenli shook her head, somewhat disapproving: "Lin Hui, how can love be a burden? Have you ever thought that you are part of this world, and loving you is not contradictory to loving the world. Love is not a one-man show, you are too independent. , or you really have been his work partner for too long and have not been able to completely change from this identity. You have to let him know that you need him and you don't need him, so that he will be burdened. I feel that you are also very interesting, both eager to give each other the best love experience, but ignoring the essence."

Speaking of this, Gu Wenli suddenly laughed: "Speaking of which, people who are in love will influence each other, but I think that he is now very different from the He Jianshan you mentioned before, because of you, He may be slowly changing."

Lin Hui was stunned when he heard the words.

Luo Ting nodded again and again: "my wife is right. Go back, I'll leave my unpleasant words here today. You don't have family pressure. You're not afraid of wearing shoes. You're afraid of shit. Don't think about him all day long. How is the mountain, think about yourself OK? Are you so sensible that you want to run for a model? Does the government give you awards? Do it, brother! Last time you told me what kind of bread was delicious and let me buy it for Doudou, Tell He Jianshan to let him buy it for you! Buy all the stores!"

Lin Hui didn't know whether to laugh or cry: "Yes, yes, I know."

"Don't laugh. If you don't say anything else, you have to come and meet me first. I'm your best friend in Jinghua. When you ask him, just say we want to invite the two of you to our house."

Lin recalled that he didn't even think to refuse: "No."

"Why not? You didn't even ask him. Why, are you looking down on our poor friends?" Gu Wenli pretended to be dissatisfied.

"You know that's not what I meant."

"Yes, you just subconsciously feel that he is not suitable for this kind of occasion-this kind of daily and trivial gathering of friends, we are not familiar with him, and the things we usually come into contact with are not the same, it may become very embarrassing , it is also a kind of tiring.”

Lin Hui was speechless by Gu Wenli's words. He looked at Luo Ting helplessly: "Your wife shouldn't teach mathematics, she should teach psychology."

Luo Ting laughed: "you are a fan of the authorities. I just like to see smart people like you acting stupid, hahahaha."

Lin Hui didn't know if he was a fan of the authorities. He also thought about telling He Jianshan the deep affection hidden in his heart in the interval between the two of them making out. But some things miss the best time, and it seems that it really becomes difficult to explain. He Jianshan is very good, very good. He can do his best in everything. The more this is, the more worried Lin Hui is. Will the too delicate and warm love always consume his enthusiasm? The transition from a superior to a lover has led to subtle changes in each other's work and life. Will these changes make him feel hard? If one day, he feels tired and doesn't want to continue, how can he get out of such a love?

How can there be such complicated things as love in this world: desire, shame, longing; contradictions, worries, fears... There are so many accompanying products of love, like sweet traps, in the forest to revel in the deep At the same time, he could not help but hang his heart.

When I got home in the evening, He Jianshan was working in the study. He has been living in Lin's home for the past two days, and now the study has been completely requisitioned by him, filled with various documents. Originally, Lin Hui thought that it was not good to stick together every day, thinking that he must be allowed to go home. But He Jianshan remembered that he said that he was not used to the matter of love. Does this make sense? Lin Hui didn't know, anyway, every time He Jianshan kissed him, he would forget everything.

In the past so many years, Lin Hui has been alone, and he has never felt anything wrong. But now, his home has gradually started to add a lot of things belonging to another person: clothes, watches, keys, he also found He Jianshan's tie on the carpet under the sofa; they used the same shower gel And shaving water, He Jianshan obviously doesn't like scented things, but now he is keen to choose various flavors; He Jianshan hugs him to sleep every day, and then kisses him in the morning and calls him to get up...

From frugality to extravagance is easy, from extravagance to frugality is difficult, when he gets used to the temperature of another person, he will never return to the past. He really loves He Jianshan so much, even though there are still many unspeakable concerns in his heart, he cannot stop him from craving and yearning for the feeling of being loved by He Jianshan: such warm and straightforward love makes people feel Can't help but feel joy and happiness.

Gu Wenli and Luo Ting are right, he can't always hang love high, love is not the moonlight above his head, just watching from a distance is enough. He's got him, and he wants to have him forever.

Thinking of this, Lin Hui knocked on the door and walked in. As soon as He Jianshan saw him, he stretched out his hand with a smile, and Lin Hui habitually held it and walked to his side. He glanced at the pile of contracts on the table, hesitated for a long time, and said:

"You...do you have time recently? It's my good friend from college, who lives in the same dormitory as me, and he's also in Jinghua, oh, he's married, his wife is familiar with me, and he has a daughter, very cute Yes, it’s Doudou; and recently his daughter is away, so he’s just a bit more idle…” Lin Hui went around for a long time, and finally got to the point, “…I want to invite us to his house as a guest…”

He Jianshan raised his eyebrows.

Without waiting for He Jianshan to speak, Lin Hui quickly added: "Oh, it doesn't matter if you don't want to go, in fact, the end of the year is really busy, wait for the next time we-"

"I want to go."

Lin Hui paused.

A soft smile appeared on He Jianshan's face: "I want to meet your friends with you."

"Cough... Then when are you free, let me tell them?"

"Isn't all my time with you? You can arrange it."

"Okay." Lin Hui said and took out his mobile phone, "It's your first time, I'll see if I should bring a gift—"

He Jianshan took away his cell phone: "No."

"what?"

He Jianshan is serious: "This is an invitation from my boyfriend's good friend. I have to prepare the gift myself, and I can't let the assistant do it for me."

Lin Hui held back his smile: "Mr. He, in case your boyfriend is not satisfied with the gift you picked..."

He Jianshan sighed: "That can only be compensated elsewhere."

"for example?"

"for example"

He Jianshan pushed the document aside, then picked up Lin Hui and put it on the desk. Lin Hui lowered his head slightly, held He Jianshan's face in both hands, and exchanged a long kiss with him. When the two of them were panting and their eyes were burning with passion, Lin Hui bit He Jianshan's ear and said softly:

"Mr. He, why don't you make it up first?"

The author has something to say:

Love is terrifying.