Chapter 21 But that's it

This kiss seems to have used up all Ji Chenfeng's electricity tonight, he slid down against my lips, and fell softly on top of me.

After being stunned for a moment, I turned to look at Yan Shanhua at the door, looked at her silently for a long time, and helped Ji Chenfeng into the room under her terrified gaze.

When he helped Ji Chenfeng, who was completely unconscious, to lie down on his quilt, there was a suppressed coughing sound from behind. just saw that Yan Shanhua's face was not very good, it should be sick.

I casually pulled a corner of the quilt onto Ji Chenfeng, then took the instrument on his ear and put it aside. After doing all this, I stretched my aching muscles and turned around and walked out the door.

He didn't mean to worry about Yan Shanhua, and he didn't want to explain anything to her. He just walked past her indifferently, not even bothering to give her a look.

Bending over to put on my shoes, I pushed open the door and breathed in the fresh air outside, unconsciously squeezing my lungs to the limit, and exhaling deeply. After taking one, two, and three steps forward, he heard the sound of the iron door being slammed open behind him, and the sound of messy footsteps mixed in.

"Xiao Nian..."

I had expected it earlier, so I wasn't surprised. I stopped and half turned around in the call.

Yan Shanhua staggered and caught up with me. I don't know if he walked too fast or was hit too hard. After hurriedly grabbing my arm, he fell to the ground weakly. The knuckles jutted from the force, and she trembled, almost pulling my coat off her body.

"Xiao Nian, don't take revenge on me like this, please, don't do this..." She raised her face, revealing a face full of tears, "It's all my fault, it's all my fault! Don't do this, I beg You... I really beg you!"

I stared at her numbly, completely unmoved: "Do you know what kind of life I lived in Sang's house after you left?"

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry..." She apologized over and over again, as if she had been scared out of her mind, not listening to what I said at all.

"After you left, Sang Zhengbai found another nanny to take me. In front of people, she was very kind to me, like I was really her own son. But once there were only the two of us left, she would treat me well. All kinds of beatings."

Yan Shanhua's cries were suddenly stopped. She opened her mouth slightly and stared at me blankly. Except for the tears that still fell uncontrollably from the end of her eyes, her body was completely still as if someone had pressed the pause button.

"She would make me lick off the food on the floor, burn me with cigarette butts, slap me in the face, and press my head into the water..." I thought I would feel pain when I mentioned this, after all, last time Shi Hao was there When I brought this up in front of me, I nearly knocked his brain out. I don't know why, but this time it wasn't painful at all. If I had to say it, I was a little happy - venting my emotions, stinging Yan Shanhua, made me feel happy like never before.

"Sang Zhengbai was busy with business affairs, just like with you. He was very relieved about the nanny and thought that the other party took me well. I was like this... I was tortured by her until I was five years old. The most ridiculous thing you know is What? I thought she was my mom, I thought… all moms are like that."

No one told me what "mom" really was, but when I learned to call that woman "mom" clumsily like other kids, she seemed happy and less cruel to me afterwards.

It was only when I grew up that I realized that the other party was happy not because she was happy to be my mother, but because... She fooled the superiors with a humble identity and played around with those who looked down on her. She was smart for her own sake. Rejoice in intellect, rejoice in his courage and character.

She was happy to ask me to call her mom over and over and then give me the sharpest pain when I let my guard down. Just like those animals in the circus, they obviously have the ability to overturn the animal trainer, but they still obediently crawl under their master's feet and tremble, daring not to resist. She enjoys such "tameness" and I am her puppy.

If Xu Xi hadn't come to see me later, discovered the scars on my body, and exposed the crimes of the nanny, maybe I would have been abused and grown up like this, thinking that this is the pain that everyone must experience when growing up.

"No..." Yan Shanhua showed a frightened expression and shook his head weakly, his throat still seemed to be blocked by something, but the syllables were leaking out with difficulty.

"Where was Ji Chenfeng when I was abused? He grew up under your care and held it in the palm of your hand." I raised my arms little by little to get rid of her entanglement, "Even three years ago you came to me , but also to cure him."

Yan Shanhua tightly grasped the last bit of fabric, choked up and unable to say a sentence: "Xiao Nian... I don't know... I really didn't know it would be like this..."

Relentlessly and completely throwing off the other party, I looked down at this woman who was kneeling on the ground, embarrassed and in pain, and did not stop her torment.

"I haven't had a good life these years. Sang Zhengbai only has his own business in his eyes. Although Mrs. Sang's parents raised me, they didn't get close to me." I pointed to the blue iron gate, "Ji Chenfeng You have carefully framed my certificate and hung it on the wall. But my certificate, no one has ever cared about it.”

No matter how hard you try, you won't get recognition, no matter how much you look forward to praise, what you get in the end is just a scribbled prevarication.

After years of disappointment, I grew into what I am today, but one day I was told by a strange woman that I have been occupying other people's lives for more than 20 years.

Ha, me? Occupy?

In this case, shouldn't I have hatred? Does the guy who completely accepts the reality and thinks about handing over everything to others really exists in the world?

Leaning down, I gently wiped away the tears on Yan Shanhua's face: "You can go and tell him what I'm plotting and calculating. But I can also tell you clearly, if you do that, I will hate you, And it will never make you feel better."

Feeling the slight trembling under my palm, I smiled and continued: "Isn't it okay now? He is happy, so am I. When we are happy, you can be happy, right? Don't worry, as long as the secret is still a secret, I will won't hurt him."

After speaking, I straightened up, put my hands in my pockets, and turned away without looking back.

The long steps were long, and I didn't walk fast because of the dim light. The fun feeling after venting emotions was blown by the wind, and even the time to walk down the long steps could not be maintained, and it passed away suddenly.

Halfway through the distance, I simply sat down and looked up at the sky dotted with sparse stars on the long dark steps. Looking at it, I sincerely sigh... This place, even the night sky is so ugly.

He held the hand stained with tears in front of his eyes. Because of the tightness in his pocket, the tear stains on his fingertips touched his palm, and the faint moonlight reflected some light.

Ji Chenfeng's sticky voice sounded in his ears, he said, I am his angel.

"What angel..." I sneered and tightened my fingers. On the dry autumn night, that little water mark disappeared in a short period of time.

I sat for a while longer and smoked the e-cigarette for a while before I got up and continued down the stairs.

In the next few days, didn't contact Ji Chenfeng actively, either because was afraid of Yan Shanhua, or... just couldn't get up.

I'm not too worried that Yan Shanhua will tell Ji Chenfeng all the time. Although she hasn't gotten along day and night, this woman is the type of person who can tell her character at a glance - she doesn't dare.

After moving to the hotel, without the giant screen projection, couldn't watch horror movies for a while, and there was nothing else to do, so went to Arya.

Xu Xi had already learned about Hezi Fashion from Cai Congcong, and he highly praised me and invited me to lunch.

"It will be my sister's death anniversary in a few days. Don't forget it then."

The hand holding the knife and fork paused for a while, and then connected it calmly. I answered in a natural tone: "Time flies so fast, I'm in my twenties in a blink of an eye."

Xu Xi smiled and said, "If my sister is still alive, I will be very pleased to see you grow up so big."

If she was still alive, it might not be me sitting here.

Knowing that I was a fake, I still paid respects to Mrs. Sang as if nothing had happened in the past three years, and this year... I even seduced his son.

If there really is heaven and hell, Yan Shanhua and I will definitely go to hell to be judged after death.

After having dinner with Xu Xi, I habitually took out my phone and checked the time, only to see the message Ji Chenfeng sent me this morning.

【Can you take a look at Xiaocao? 】

No contact for a few days, did the first text message just let me take a look at that bastard?

"What's wrong?" Xu Xi asked while putting on his coat, "You look unlucky."

I put my phone in my pocket and walked out of the restaurant with her: "It's okay, it's just a spam message."

"Will you go to the show with me this afternoon?"

I hesitated and said, "No, I'm going back to sleep."

He was going back to the hotel to sleep, why did he drive the car to the veterinary hospital for no reason?

Looking at the familiar bright blue door not far away, even I couldn't understand my own behavior.

Forget it, come here, let's go in and take a look at Little Wang Ba.

After getting out of the car, the door was opened, and the noisy quarrel inside poured out.

"You quack doctor, you pay for my baby... You killed it, and it was you who died! You are trying to make money and kill yourself!"

"Calm down and discuss something, we understand your mood, but this is not the reason for you to do it..."

"Fuck you, our cat was killed by your doctor, how can you make me calm down? We came to sterilize and died on your operating table. How can you make me calm down?"

The quarrel between men and women came from the small office belonging to Ji Chenfeng at the end of the corridor.

Many pet owners waiting in the consultation room stuck their heads out and watched curiously, and there were also several people watching the excitement around the office door.

I approached the door, and because of my height, I saw Ji Chenfeng standing against the wall at a glance.

His cheekbones were red and swollen, his white coat was wrinkled, his head was lowered, his tall body was hunched, and he looked miserable as an abandoned stray dog.

Opposite him was a man and a woman who looked like a husband and wife. The woman has been sitting on the chair and crying with a white cloth wrapped in her arms, while the man fiercely argued with another middle-aged doctor who was wearing a white coat and was older.

"You must have an explanation!" the woman roared, and a deactivated, fluffy silver tail fell out of the white cloth bag.

Ji Chenfeng's body was shocked, he glanced in the direction of the woman, and quickly retracted his head, lowering his head.

Oh. I heard some doorway, came to the interest.

Is this a medical accident? I don't know who said that he is very good at taking care of small animals? It's just that.