Chapter 38 This Is My Life

"You confused me. You spent so much time on him, I thought you at least... liked him." Zhou Jiyu's mouth twitched, and he couldn't stop laughing.

Like Ji Chenfeng? Thoughts are like tentacles spreading in the sulci of the brain, as soon as I try to touch this fresh thought, I am stunned by the abnormal electric current it releases, and I don't want to approach it again in disgust.

How can I possibly like a man?

"It's just a man's desire to conquer, not to mention liking. It's like..." I looked for an appropriate metaphor to describe the relationship with Ji Chenfeng more accurately, "Mountain climbing satisfies human's desire for nature. Exploration and conquest, but no one will really marry a mountain as a wife." Of course, marriage still has to be married to a woman.

"Does he have no doubts about you?" Zhou Jiyu asked.

"Doubt? No. Because he has helped him a lot, he can say that he trusts me very much. If he is angry, he can believe any outrageous words as long as he is angry."

"It seems... he has completely fallen into your trap."

Ji Chenfeng is now in the waiting room more than ten meters away, and there are only a few walls between us. At this distance, he explains to another person how he is addicted to me, dependent on me, and declares his love for him. Sovereignty, there is a different kind of satisfaction.

"Thanks to Dr. Zhou's teaching." I smiled a little smugly.

Due to Zhou Jiyu's poor health, he just talked for more than ten minutes, and was given some sleeping and sedative drugs, and the treatment ended early.

It's good, don't make Ji Chenfeng wait too long. Rare weekend, what to eat later? French food, Japanese food, or hot pot?

Or go back to the hotel and eat something else before Cinderella strikes midnight...

"The famous psychologist Jung believed that the composition of personality is divided into three structures." When I put on my coat and prepared to leave, Zhou Jiyu's voice sounded like a weak ghost from behind, "The outermost layer is the individual Consciousness, such as emotions and memory; at the bottom is the collective unconscious, which can also be thought of as instincts inscribed in the genes; among them, the personal unconscious, usually the manifestation of a complex."

"Complexes are shaped by the absence or pain of deeply buried memories, such as perfection complexes, inferiority complexes, Electra complexes, and... hero complexes."

I tidied up the back collar and looked at Zhou Jiyu inexplicably: "What?"

"Do you remember? I said before that I abandoned my lover many years ago." He was sitting behind his desk, struggling with cold sweat on his forehead.

"Remember, what's the problem?"

"It was abandonment, and it was also escaping. It didn't take long for me to be together, and I felt the pressure. Many times he didn't regard me as a lover, I was more like... a sculpture that needs to be admired. He enshrined me, and got something from me. This kind of peace of mind. I am his 'hero'. All his feelings for me are based on the help I have given him." He cut to the subject step by step, "But I am not. I am not selfless, I'm not brave, and I don't think about others everywhere. I wear the mask of a hero every day, disguise myself as someone else, and all day long I'm afraid that he will discover the true face of the mask... This kind of life is too tiring, so I run away ."

Thinking that he was reminding me to wear a mask and not be discovered by Ji Chenfeng, I sneered in disdain and made a sharp comment on his past escape.

"I don't see, you used to be a coward."

What about discovery? As long as he is completely tamed, even if he accidentally exposes his true colors one day, he has become a dodder that relies on me, can he really leave me?

Where can he go without me?

"Indeed, I'm a coward." Zhou Jiyu leaned back in the chair and said with an ugly smile that was forced up, "I hope your mask will never fall off."

Today's Zhou Heyu is really weird, did you eat the wrong thing?

I felt that his words were somewhat unlucky, but I ignored it, unscrewed the handle and opened the door and went out.

The Zheng family’s hotel was no longer available. The next day, I went to an agent to look at the house. When I saw it in the afternoon, I directly signed a brand-new apartment near Fly City. Because of the poor location, one month's rent is not even one-tenth of what I was staying in a hotel.

It's not that Ji Chenfeng didn't ask me why he didn't go back to the place before. I told him it was too far from his house and it was inconvenient. I wanted to be closer to him, and he didn't ask any more questions after hearing that.

Although it is far from the city center, every morning when I go to work, I am very upset by the traffic jam on the overhead. But as soon as I opened the door, I saw the hot food on the table, Ji Chenfeng was busy in the kitchen, everything in the house was spotless and placed in the place I was most accustomed to. The irritability will dissipate in an instant.

Moreover, it may be the relationship between a balanced diet, or a regular work and rest, and even the sleep problem that has been troubled for many years has been improved. In the past, could only fall asleep after taking two sleeping pills, and it was easy to wake up in the middle of the night.

Apart from attending the family banquets of the Gu family from time to time, or taking Gu Ying and Sang Zhengbai to dinner, my life has entered an unprecedented stage where I am very comfortable in all aspects.

So comfortable that even Tang Bian was amazed at how good-natured I have become recently.

"Master, you are really in good spirits at happy events. It seems that your whole popularity is getting better. It's different when you have love."

Tang Bian bent slightly, stood beside me, and handed the documents in his arms to the table in front of me. After I signed one, I would put it aside and sign the next one that he handed over. In this way, it is like an assembly line operation, which increases work efficiency.

"Did your mother let you inquire about my private life?"

Tang Bian choked, and after a while he said aggrievedly: "No, she ignored me recently. Young master, don't be so protective of me, I'm loyal to you and won't hurt you."

He is not loyal to me, he is loyal to "the young master of the Sang family", one day I will no longer be Sang Nian, and he will no longer remain loyal to me.

The tip of the pen drew a black arc on the paper and stopped abruptly. I checked the document, picked it up and asked Tang Bi'an, "Why isn't Peng Fan's signature?"

Peng Fan is the deputy director of the investment promotion department. Before I airborne, he was the most promising person to take the position of director. A first-class top student from a prestigious university, with IQ and EQ, can't pick out any faults in life, and is considered respectful in front of me.

If it is Zheng Jieyuan, the idiot, he will definitely treat such a guy as a close subordinate, no doubt he will let him go, and finally become a listed director. Thinking with his toes, he must have been respectful to me on the surface, but in his heart he wished that I would make a mistake and be transferred to another department by Sang Zhengbai, or continue to be a rotten young master.

Tang Bian glanced at the document and said, "Peng Fan went out to work and is not in the company. This is very urgent. I need to confirm the document today."

is a document confirming the location. The location of the brand in the shopping mall is not fixed. If the performance is good and there is a more suitable location in the new year, it will often choose to change the cabinet. Low-end shopping malls are looking for brands to settle in, and high-end shopping malls will become the fragrant buns in the eyes of brands, and try their best to occupy them for themselves.

After decades of struggle, Sang Zhengbai started from food sales and developed Zhengyi Group to its current scale, not only involved in the food industry and retail industry, but also in the real estate industry and financial industry.

Zhengyi Plaza in Hongshi City is the core industry of Sangjia, located in the CBD of the city center. In such a shopping mall, the auditing of every brand entering the market is extremely strict, not to mention the position on the first floor by the escalator. This is the facade.

"Late Moon, this brand...is it a domestic women's clothing?" I have some impressions about the brand name on the document. I had contact with this brand when Alia was hanging out. The reputation has always been good. The IPO has just been successful two years ago, and the Hong Kong Stock Exchange has knocked the gong. The external image has always been high-end fashion, and the marketing is also in place, but it will not humiliate this position.

"A1-12 is a lot of people vying for it, and Mobis seems to be paying attention."

Mobis is a new trendy brand in recent years. The design of things is quirky and very popular with fashionistas. Any doll produced will be fired at a high price of tens of thousands.

This kind of brand is just like stock trading. Right now, the limelight is on the rise, and it is natural for customers to come. But if the market passes or there is negative news one day, it will be worthless immediately.

After hesitating for a moment, he signed the confirmation letter of the last month.

I am the director of course, and I have the final say. In my consideration, it is no surprise that the last month is more suitable for this position.

Just standing outside the door, could smell the aroma of rice emanating from the house. What did Ji Chenfeng cook today? feel that his cooking skills are getting better and better recently, and there is no way to eat the food outside.

Can't wait to open the door, the warm air is blowing with the aroma of the food. The two kittens, one white and one yellow, were rolling and playing on the carpet in the living room. They were taken aback by the sudden movement of the door. They fled in all directions like a conditioned reflex, and finally they both ran back to the pet air box placed in the corner.

After changing my slippers, I took off my coat and threw it on the sofa. I went to the kitchen and hugged Ji Chenfeng, who was cooking food, from behind. When he turned his head to look at him, I leaned in and kissed his lips.

It's like saying hello, telling him I'm back, the kiss didn't last long - since the last time we kissed and kissed all the way from the kitchen to the bedroom, and finally caused a pot of food to become coke, and set off the smoke alarm, Ji Morrowind is very restrained in this regard.

"You brought the cat back?" His lips parted, but his arms were still around his waist.

"Well, it's time to be weaned, so I'll take it back. I'll take care of them in the future, you don't have to worry about it." He focused his attention back on the pork rib soup that was being cooked, "Go wash your hands, it's time for dinner."

Kissing his side face, I turned around and went to the bathroom.

After my meal, Ji Chenfeng would wash all the bowls and make me a cup of Xiaoshi tea before leaving.

"Then I'll go first." He picked up his jacket on the sofa and said goodbye to me.

"By the way, my dad wants me to accompany him to dinner tomorrow, so you don't have to prepare dinner..." I stopped teasing the two kittens with a cat stick and looked at him.

Ji Chenfeng didn't reply to me immediately, just stared at another coat on the sofa, my coat.

Do you like it so much? Want to smell again? I really can't do anything about him, isn't he the type that collects the tissues I've used every day?

"...Okay, I see." Ji Chenfeng regained his senses, put on his coat and walked to the door.

As if nothing had happened, I continued to tease the cat, only to find that he was really going to leave, so I gave up and chased the door, leaving the cat-teasing stick behind, grabbed his neck when he opened the door, and asked him dissatisfiedly, "Doctor Ji , did you forget something?"

He held my waist, stunned, a faint doubt in his eyes.

Seeing that he really didn't remember anything, the corners of my lips turned down a little bit, loosening his neck, suppressing my displeasure, and planning to go back and continue to tease the cat.

This kind of feeling that only oneself remembers and the other party doesn't take it seriously is too uncomfortable. Have you ever recognized your identity? Even if I can't be the roundworm in my stomach, how can I remember this at all?

He turned around angrily, and just took a step, Ji Chenfeng grabbed his wrist from behind.

With a chuckle, he didn't explain, just showed by his actions that he didn't really forget, he pulled me back into his arms, lowered his head and accurately kissed my lips, and gave me a parting kiss.

That's right. Closing my eyes, I put my arms around Ji Chenfeng's neck. Say hello when you come home, and say hello when you leave home...

"I heard that you gave Mo Yue the location of A1-12?" Knocked on the door, Peng Fan didn't wait for me to answer, he pushed open the door of my office and barged in.

I stopped the pen in my hand, leaned back in the chair, and asked if he had any questions.

"How can a domestic women's clothing be as famous as an international fashion brand? I promised Mobis a long time ago." Peng Fan tore off the disguise he had given to me for many days, and was no longer respectful and polite in his tone or expression.

"So what?" I said in disbelief, playing with the pen in my hand, "Have you signed the contract in black and white?"

Peng Fan was stopped by me, his face was blue and white, and after a while, he spit out two words with difficulty: "...No."

"No, it's fine. Go out and knock on the door next time."

"But didn't we also sign a contract with Mobis? Mobis is definitely more generous than Mobis in terms of rent and deduction rates, and it can bring more young customers and fresh blood to our mall!" He clapped his hands on my desk, his tone couldn't hide his anxiety, "Laoyue is just an unattractive domestic women's clothing. Who knows them internationally? Mobis is a hundred times more famous than them."

"Will Mobis bring fresh blood or fresh scalpers?" Since he was being rude, I had to look down, "I don't want in a high-end shopping mall, customers see a large number of scalpers queuing up every day. Quarrel, and I don’t want them to block the passage of other customers in that location.”

Peng Fan seemed to find it difficult to communicate with me: "You, you are just messing around!"

"I am your superior. I have made a decision, so there is no room for you to say anything."

"Then let's go to Mr. Sang's place and let him judge and see who is right." He slapped my desk hard again.

"Do you think it's a fight between children? If you can't beat it, then ask the teacher to do justice?" Leaning forward, I raised the pen in my hand and stabbed it hard without blinking.

Peng Fan shrank his hands subconsciously, watched in horror as the sharp nib plunged into the wooden desk, and stuttered when he spoke: "You, you..."

"Next time it's not on the desk." I lifted my chin towards the office door and said softly, "Getout, you can go and complain to my father."

Peng Fan was so angry that he held his wrist and left my office with a calm expression on his face.

Having dinner with Sang Zhengbai at night, I have a hunch that it will affect my appetite, after all, this is the case every time. I thought it would be Peng Fan's business this time, but I didn't expect it to be.

Sang Zhengbai was not very angry about my insisting on my position and giving up the golden position to Mo Yue, but instead praised me for having an idea and doing a good job.

"However, you still need to improve your skills. It's too rude." Sang Zhengbai said, "You can talk, but you must never do it. Do you understand?"

It's good not to be scolded, and it's not good to ask too much.

"Understood." I readily agreed.

The rare harmony of a meal was about to end perfectly. Sang Zhengbai wiped his mouth with a napkin and carefully wiped his fingers. He took out a small red velvet box from the inner pocket of his suit and handed it to him. Tang Zhaoyue on the side.

When I saw the box, I groaned in my heart, something was wrong.

"You and Gu Ying have been together for a while..."

Tang Zhaoyue came slowly and handed the small box to me on the other side of the dining table. Holding his breath, he opened it, and when he saw it, there were really two silver rings.

"This is the ring I used when my mother and I got engaged back then. You and Gu Ying's engagement ceremony, it's time to discuss it with her."

I raised my head and looked at Sang Zhengbai who was talking, my mind was in a mess, I didn't expect this day to come so soon.

"We've only dated a few times, and we haven't even spent twenty-four hours together."

Sang Zhengbai was unmoved: "You always want to marry her. What's the difference between getting engaged early and getting engaged later? Gu family is xenophobic, and it is difficult for others to break into their circle. The earlier you become your own, the better you can get in touch. their resources."

From the heart to the throat, it was as if it was blocked by a stone, and the pain was heavy. I should really be thankful that he didn't come here for me at the beginning, otherwise I wouldn't be able to eat a single bite of this meal today.

After decades of baptism, the silver ring has many scratches on the ring body, and the color has long been dim, but I still find it dazzling, and it is so nerve-wracking to look at it more.

Sang Zhengbai's voice continued: "It is also your mother's wish to develop Zhengyi Group into a global enterprise. You said that you would not let me down again."

It was clearly just a sound, but it seemed to have solidified into a solid body, pressing down like a giant mountain, making it hard for me to breathe, and I couldn't even take my eyes off the ring.

Yeah, I can't let him down any more.

I am Sang Nian, the son of Sang Zhengbai, and my life should be like this. A woman of the same family background married and had children, inherited the family business, made friends with powerful people, and lived extravagantly. This is my life and belongs to Sang Nian's life.

If so, why should I hesitate?

Close the ring box with a snap and hold it tightly.

The dull pain of being pierced by a non-sharp horn in my palm is endless, I lowered my eyes and said solemnly: "I understand, father."