Chapter 43 Happy New Year

It was freezing cold outside, but there were no cars on the road at nine o'clock. According to common sense, today is a family reunion holiday. It is a day when... no matter how big the event is, I will be persuaded to "say what to do after the new year".

But Ji Chenfeng didn't play cards according to common sense, and he had to shake everything out on this day.

Does it matter if I get the letter? The weather is exceptionally sunny today, and the puppy is going to be operated on tomorrow, and it is not necessary to read the secret report that has been burned. What is the difference between reading it then or watching it afterwards?

Furthermore, hiding the letter Ji Chenfeng gave me and deceiving him with a greeting card was my reply, all of which were made by Yan Shanhua alone. I just chose to continue to let Ji Chenfeng misunderstand after learning about this, and did not deny it. At most an accomplice, why does it seem to be all my fault now?

"Because you didn't do it yourself, you never mentioned it. I should have realized earlier, with your personality, how could it be possible to send something like a greeting card?" Ji Chenfeng looked at the letter on the ground and said the last sentence, Almost muttered to himself.

When the truth is exposed in front of you, if you recall it, you will find that the clue has already appeared, but it has been ignored intentionally or unintentionally. Ji Chenfeng is like this now. He finally could no longer use excuses to convince himself of the many quirks that didn't make sense in our relationship.

"It's true that I didn't send the greeting card, but I definitely didn't mean to lie to you..." I bent down and picked up the Mid-Autumn Festival greeting card, and glanced at the contents - the moon is full of people tonight, and I don't know who Qiu Siluo is.

The handwriting is good, I don't know who Yan Shanhua asked to write it, it's unrestrained and eclectic. At first glance, it looks like my handwriting.

"I didn't know the existence of letter at first. Auntie probably thought that I would not reply to your letter, so she didn't give me the letter at all, and I only learned of the existence of letter from you later. At that time, you were so convinced that Doubt, I really don't know how to explain this to you. I'm afraid you won't like me after knowing the truth, and even more afraid that you will blame your aunt and affect your relationship between mother and son..."

Except for a slightly different reason for hiding the truth, I'm telling the truth and don't think it's an unforgivable mistake.

Letters and greeting cards, these two props only affect how much he likes me, but the result will not change. In the end, he will not be able to withstand my temptation, fall into my trap, and be completely obsessed with me.

It was doomed from the first sight he saw me. I am the savior who gave him a new life and walked out of the haze of life; I was the first ray of sunshine he saw when he woke up in the chaos; I was also the spiritual pillar that supported him to regain his studies and life.

If he's a bird, I'm his chick plot. Falling in love with me is his instinct, nature, and destiny that he cannot resist. In this case, why bother with the innocuous little concealment?

"In your opinion, it's all trivial matters."

Ji Chenfeng seems to have the ability to read minds, and he can tell my heart.

I froze all over, and instinctively began to deny: "No..."

"Then what's a big deal? What kind of deception is needed to make you think it's a big deal?" Ji Chenfeng interrupted me, frowning.

It was like a dark hole had opened in heart, swallowing up all the patience that had accumulated.

Is it my own will to act as a pawn in the family and get engaged to a woman I don't know at all? From entering the door, no, since the day, I have been coaxing him and admitting my mistakes. Just because I didn't meet his expectations and run away from the marriage with him, am I now a heinous bastard?

I was a little irritated by him, and the scorching wine rushed to the top of my head.

"What about you? My concealment from you is deception, so what's your concealment from me? Have dinner with your ex-boyfriend and let him in, didn't you tell me the same thing? What's the difference between what you did and what I did? "

Ji Chenfeng was stunned, showing a bewildered expression.

"I……"

I finally raised my eyebrows, and I became more and more ruthless: "Oh, there is still a difference. Gu Yingqing and I are innocent, and you and Zhou Jiyu are not necessarily different. Why do you want to reconnect with him?"

I tore up the greeting card in my hand and scattered it on the ground in front of Ji Chenfeng.

"He abandoned you, changed his name, and lived a good life by himself. I saved you, made you hear again, gave you hope, but you still remember him." The snake, annoyed, began to spit venom at all the objects around it that could be attacked, "Are you cheap?"

Ji Chenfeng's complexion quickly turned pale, his eyelashes trembled, as if he had been severely stabbed by me.

"Do you think so?" he asked.

After venting his ill will, it's not that he regrets saying such a heavy thing, but it's too late to take it back.

However, it is normal for couples to quarrel. I have concealed it, and he has concealed it. Since everyone is at fault, it should be considered a balance, right?

"For the past few days, let's both stay calm and don't contact me for now." Putting on my coat, I turned around halfway, not to look at Ji Chenfeng.

Now he's angry and can't coax him well. After two days, I'll just coax him more.

He put on his shoes and walked out of the gate, and he didn't hear Ji Chenfeng chasing out until he stepped down the stairs. Looking back, the blue iron door was the same as I left, and it was wide open, revealing a dim yellow light inside. The people in the room seem to be not afraid of the cold, or they have no intention of caring about the cold or warmth.

After pursing my lips, I quickly walked down the steps while holding onto the cold guardrail and returned to the car.

"Where are you going next, young master?" Tang Bi'an's tone was very cautious, perhaps seeing that my face was not good.

I buckled my seat belt and gave him the address of the rental house.

Afraid that the two cats will be cold, the heating in the house is turned on 24 hours a day, so don't feel cold after entering the door.

I took off my coat wearily, tore off my tie, and slumped down on the sofa.

Two kittens heard the sound and kept rubbing against my feet. The little white cat even jumped on the sofa and put its head in my palm, making a coquettish purr.

Usually when they are in a good mood, they may even tease them, but today really have no such interest.

I fell down, curled up my arms and legs, so that the small sofa could accommodate my body.

Obviously tired, but no sleep at all. Every word, every look, every expression that Ji Chenfeng said to me today is constantly repeated in my mind.

The black hole in my heart is getting bigger and bigger, swallowing up patience and vitality.

The smell of Ji Chenfeng still lingered in the air, so that every breath deepened the impression of him in his mind.

I lay in a lifeless state for an unknown time when firecrackers suddenly sounded outside the window. I blinked slowly and sat up, just in time to witness a gorgeous golden firework blooming outside the window.

It's twelve o'clock.

The phone began to vibrate, and countless New Year's text messages poured in from familiar and unfamiliar people, except Ji Chenfeng. Our last chat history is still yesterday.

"Happy New Year." My fingers scratched the little white cat who was napping on the sofa back, I said softly, got up and went to the kitchen to pour myself a glass of water.

He rummaged through the drawer to find the sleeping pills that had been neglected for a long time, swallowed three pills in a row, and went back to curl up on the sofa.

Of course it would be more comfortable to go back to bed, but I don't want to do that right now. If I had to say a reason, it might be... Ji Chenfeng's breath would be stronger on the bed.

The effect of the sleeping pills is remarkable. Within ten minutes, the messy brain relaxes, like a big lump of soft cotton, completely giving up resistance and sending out a "sleepy" signal.

Closing my eyes little by little, I fell into a drowsy drug-induced slumber.

For the next few days, was at home on vacation and didn't go anywhere. eat takeout when I’m hungry, tease the cat, watch movies when I’m bored, and take two pills when can sleep at night.

Ji Chenfeng never contacted me. Although Zhou Jiyu is a jerk, the theories he taught me have never gone wrong. Based on my last experience, I decided to wait seven days. If Ji Chenfeng doesn't come to me in seven days, then I will go to him.

I regarded this quarrel as a new contest, and I wanted Ji Chenfeng to bow his head to see me just like the last time. On the fifth day, Ji Chenfeng didn't come, but an unexpected person found me.

"Big brother, Happy New Year." With a low ponytail, black-rimmed glasses covering half of his face, jeans, sneakers, and an army-green down jacket, A Yao, who is standing outside the door, can be seen by anyone. They all feel like they are just ordinary college students.

"Why don't you follow Ji Chenfeng here?" I blocked the door and didn't let her in casually.

She grabbed the SLR on her shoulders, held it up in front of me, and sighed, "You must have not read my report, right? You didn't answer my phone calls, so I had to come here in person, just in time. Show you something."

show me something?

"What?" I stepped aside suspiciously and let her into the room.

As soon as she entered the door, she took off the scarf, and when she saw the two kittens sleeping together on the sofa, she smiled and said hello: "Oh, the two little ones are here, so cute."

She hurriedly stroked two kittens, picked up her DSLR, pressed a few buttons, and handed it to me.

After I took it, I found out that it was a two-minute video. I glanced at her inexplicably. She didn't explain it, just motioned me to watch it quickly.

I hit the play button and I sat down on the sofa. The video should be held by A Yao. The camera is facing the front windshield of the vehicle at the beginning, and the focus is virtual and solid for a while, as if adjusting the parameters.

"A week before New Year's Eve, I squatted near Ji Chenfeng's house as usual. I was drinking milk tea when I heard a faint voice from outside the car..."

Following A Yao's explanation, the camera flickered and aimed at the passenger's window. Through the blurred glass, the lens gradually focuses on the long steps.

"I looked outside and found out that it was Ji Chenfeng who ran down anxiously with Yan Shanhua on his back..."

It was snowing in the sky, Ji Chenfeng didn't even wear a coat, so he was wearing a thin black sweater, carrying Yan Shanhua who seemed to be unconscious, and walked down the steep stairs.

The steps were too slippery, and he was carrying a person on his back. He walked extremely hard, and it was frightening to watch.

At this moment, the window glass between the camera and Ji Chenfeng slowly lowered, and Ayao drew closer to the camera.

I have never seen Ji Chenfeng so flustered, and there is even a hint of helplessness in his eyes.

"Mom, don't sleep... please, don't sleep..."

Yan Shanhua's head drooped softly on his shoulders and did not respond in the slightest. Ji Chenfeng was calling out anxiously, but suddenly he accidentally stepped on his feet and lost his balance.

"Ah!" A Yao in the video couldn't help but shouted, the camera shook violently, and my heart also mentioned in my throat.

Ji Chenfeng slanted sideways and fell to the steps. At the critical moment, he did not forget to protect Yan Shanhua behind him with one hand. But in this way, the weight of his whole body fell on the right hand that was going to support the ground.

His heart beat heavily for a moment, as if it had been beaten violently by something. This kind of feeling, in the past, only had when watching horror movies. When the atmosphere is tense, cut to the scary music, and the heart will be frightened and beat hard. But this time the intensity was unprecedented, as if I had used all my strength, causing a lasting and dense dull pain in my heart.

The video continues. Ji Chenfeng fell and sat on the steps, maintaining a posture without moving for a while.

"Wipe!" In the video, Ayao scolded, dropped the DSLR and got out of the car. At the end of the picture, it was fixed on Ji Chenfeng's face that quickly turned bloodless due to pain.

It turned out that his hand was hurt like this...

"It's fortunate that he just slipped, not stepping on the air, otherwise if he fell like this, he would be disabled if he didn't die." A Yao said in fear, "Although I am monitoring him, I can't help him, right? Just get out of the car and go. I helped him. Yan Shanhua was well protected by her son, nothing happened, but Ji Chenfeng's hand was seriously injured. Later, the ambulance came, I watched them get in the car and left. "

I called up the video again and pressed the play button: "What happened to Yan Shanhua? Didn't he take medicine to control it?"

By the way, when the video was filmed, when Ji Chenfeng called me for the first time, he was in the ambulance.

At that time, he wanted to ask for my help. Just like every time before, ask me for help with hope, and I will always help him.

However, this time I missed his call.

How can you handle everything by yourself when your hand hurts like that? The thumb traced Ji Chenfeng's figure on the screen. Couldn't find me at the time, why didn't you tell me afterwards? Don't you want to ask me for help after only three times of no response?

"I don't know exactly, but it seems to have deteriorated, and..." A Yao said regretfully, "She is now living in the palliative care department of the hospital, and she should live better in a few months."