Chapter 55 He Actually Holds Back

I really don't like to hear that. It was so powerful that it took me a while before I could speak as usual.

"Have you fallen in love with someone else?"

There is no place for me, so where does my place go? Or... to whom?

Ji Chenfeng quickly washed the bowls one by one and put them aside, his tone remained unchanged from beginning to end: "It has nothing to do with you."

It felt like a big rock was stuck in heart, and couldn't feel comfortable no matter how hard breathed.

Intellectually speaking, it really has nothing to do with me. I have nothing to do with him. He can be with whomever he loves. This is his freedom, and I have no right to interfere.

"Is it Jane?" But I've never been a sane person, and even if the drug suppresses most of my bad temper and makes me look sane, it's just an illusion.

Medications can help me calm down, but they can't erase my emotions.

"Is it him?" Seeing that Ji Chenfeng didn't answer for a long time, I asked again calmly.

Don't nod, don't say "yes". I stared at the back of his head, and dark thoughts gradually rose in my heart. Don't make me the person I feel terrible about.

With the sound of water running, Ji Chenfeng slammed the chopsticks into the chopstick rest, as if he felt absurd to hear Jian Xing's name: "No, don't drag others in."

The black flames that were fluttering at the beginning of life immediately stagnated, becoming smaller and smaller, and finally disappeared.

Just because of his words, the stones, flames, and pain in my heart all disappeared, and the mind that was trapped in the nightmare was released. I felt the pain dully, and when I looked down, it turned out that I had unknowingly ripped the blister on the back of my hand. . The tissue fluid dripped down half of the palm along with the blood, and it seemed to be a little seeping.

What am I going to do just now? What do I want to do?

Without saying anything, I hurriedly left the kitchen with my palms in my hands, took a tissue from the living room cabinet, and pressed the wound. I searched for my phone, and when I saw it was on the ground, I bent over to pick it up, stuffed it into my trouser pocket, turned around and stepped on Ji Chenfeng's slippers without saying a word, and went out the door.

He closed the door heavily and went all the way down the stairs, not thinking about how to get back at all.

There was no moment when I was so clearly aware of the horror of Ji Chenfeng, he seemed to be able to easily turn me into another person. As long as it's about him, I can't calm down. He controls my emotions better than drugs.

Walking slowly among the dark streets, when came to senses, came to a small noodle restaurant with a bright sign.

Taotie Noodle House... I remember last winter, Ji Chenfeng brought me to eat the noodles here.

My stomach, which had not ingested any food for almost ten hours, grunted in response to the situation, and walked into the store with its legs raised. It happened that someone came out and bumped into me.

"Isn't it..." The boy with the plastic bag looked back and apologized to me, stunned.

Although my hair was cut, I changed into clean clothes, and my spirit was different, I still recognized each other at a glance. It was Cheng Tao, the kid who smashed my car twice and was finally turned by Ji Chenfeng and sent to the police station.

He clearly recognized me, too, and his expression became reserved.

"I'm sorry." Standing up straight, he bowed respectfully and gave me a big salute.

Before I could respond, he bent down again, this time for longer.

"Thank you."

Standing up, he smiled shyly at me, then turned and ran into the darkness with the bag in his arms.

Looking at his disappearing figure, I was full of doubts. I can still understand the apology. After all, I smashed my car twice. I should say sorry, but why thank me? Thank me for taking him to the police station?

The old woman who was watching TV turned her head and squinted her eyes as soon as she saw me.

"Hey, isn't this Xiao Ji's friend?"

I smiled and sat down in front of the board: "You have a good memory."

"I remembered it because you were handsome, and others will forget it the next day." The old man on the side joked, "Let's see what to eat today?"

I asked for the same interview as last time, and while waiting, I casually asked about the child just now.

"You mean Cheng Tao?" The old woman said with a gossip face, "He told you before that his mother ran away with someone, and the child with a younger sister and a disabled father at home. He was still wandering on the road last year, doing something It was a petty thief, I thought this child was going to be abandoned, but it turned around and somehow attracted the attention of the government. Not only did they try to get the two children to go back to school, but they also found a nursing home for the child's father. Funded by what kind of organization."

The old man joined in: "This is called good luck. I heard that the school has waived all expenses for brothers and sisters, and the government has also applied for subsistence allowances. Although the money is not much, it is enough for a child to spend a few dollars. Sometimes it is enough. Cheng Tao will come to our store to buy food, all of which are the cheapest plain noodles. I feel sad. Last month, I asked him to come over to help after finishing his homework at night, wash two dishes, and let him bring some when he goes back. Let's go."

"Cheng Tao and his sister seem to be good at reading, and the teacher is also happy that they can go back to school to continue their studies. It would be great if they can really make a difference." The old woman said with emotion, "I'm not afraid of your jokes here, it's just a pheasant's nest. , Few of the natives can do it, and if you can go to high school, you can be considered literate. It's different from the Ji family..."

She pointed in the direction of Ji Chenfeng's house and gave a thumbs up: "He is a golden phoenix flying out of a pheasant's nest. Knowledge, looks, and character are all first-class. I am destined to be a pheasant for the rest of my life. , I just hope that these little pheasants can become phoenixes, and they can become one."

So, Cheng Tao thanked me, could it be that he thanked me for bringing him back on the right track, so that he could have a chance to come back

campus

?

Then he would be thankful to the wrong person.

Although he was sent to the police station together with Ji Chenfeng at the time, deep down, I actually didn't believe that doing so would change anything. Subconsciously, I thought this was a stinky ditch, and the people here would never be able to wash away the filth and stench from their bodies. Such as Yan Shanhua, such as me.

And Ji Chenfeng is different because he was born different. Only people like him can believe that people can be changed and fate can be broken.

Before today, I always thought that in the relationship between Zhou Jiyu and Ji Chenfeng, there was no doubt that Zhou Jiyu was more attractive to Ji Chenfeng, but maybe just the opposite...

Ji Chenfeng is like a light in the darkness, making filthy snakes, worms, rats and ants both yearn and fear.

Maybe it was Zhou Jiyu who was involuntarily attracted by Ji Chenfeng. Just like me.

After eating the noodles, I dawdled for a long time and didn't want to leave. The two elderly people may rarely have someone to talk to them so much, so I sat down to close the shop.

I heard them tell a lot about the past of Fly City. Before, Ji Chenfeng and Zhou Jiyu often came to their restaurant to eat noodles, but after Zhou Jiyu left for many years without any news, Ji Chenfeng rarely came. The last time Zhou Jiyu came back, he visited them once, and it became very different. The old woman almost didn't recognize them.

Speaking of Yan Shanhua, they said that more than 20 years ago, they were still setting up a stall on the side of the road, and one day they suddenly saw a woman crying on the road with her child in her arms.

When I went up to ask, I found out that the woman's husband was paralyzed, and she supported the family by herself. She was busy from morning to night, and she didn't have time to take him to the hospital when she was sick. Thinking it was a minor illness, she took some medicine by herself, but she took medicine. Eat something wrong, eat the child deaf.

The woman kept slapping her face until her cheeks were swollen high, murmuring back and forth in her mouth, asking "what to do, what to do". The child is so sensible that it is heartbreaking, and the face is carved with jade, and the words are not smooth, so she will wipe her mother's tears and tell her not to cry. But in this way, the woman cried even more sadly, hugged him, and the words turned into a heart-piercing "I'm sorry".

I listened silently. Before I let it go, I would have ridiculed and ridiculed in my heart. However, with Yan Shanhua's passing away, my emotions have stabilized. Apart from sighing, I no longer want to speculate on her psychology.

How to go, how to go back in the end. When returned to the blue iron door, it was nearly twelve o'clock, and it was quiet in the dead of night, and couldn't hear any movement through the door.

The self-esteem that has always been elusive lately is full of presence at this moment, which makes me a little bit at a loss.

Why don't you just spend the night in the hallway?

Looking at the small plastic bench and table behind me, I began to seriously think about the feasibility of sleeping on it tonight.

It's pretty warm anyway, so if Ji Chenfeng can walk in front of me as if nothing happened, and he doesn't leave me the key, I'll smash his broken lock and find someone to replace it with a new one.

Thinking like this, I sat down on the small round stool and looked at my sleeping environment. I was quite satisfied, so I put my arms on my back and started to feel sleepy, but within five minutes I was attacked by a bomber-like army of mosquitoes from the stool. jumped up.

He slammed the iron door hard, and out of the corner of his eyes, a shadowy shadow flashed past not far from the corridor, which seemed to be a mouse the size of a cat.

This is too fucking big...

The title scenes of various rodent disaster films instantly appeared in my mind, and the strength of shooting the iron gate was even greater. After a while, under my tireless harassment, the iron door was finally slowly opened. I quickly opened the door and squeezed in impatiently.

He closed the door with his backhand, and before his frightened heartbeat could calm down, it jumped harder and faster because of Ji Chenfeng who was close at hand.

"Do you know what time it is?" He looked down at me and asked oppressively.

I leaned against the door and explained, "I went to the gluttonous noodle restaurant to eat noodles, and I accidentally chatted with the old man a little late. Sorry, it affected your rest."

I heard that I went to the gluttonous noodle shop, the lines between his eyebrows faded a little, but his body still did not let go.

"If you want to live here, you have to abide by the rules of this house."

I have no objection to what he said naturally, and I listened to him continue to say.

"Where to go, what to do, what time to come back at the latest, you must tell me; you can't enter my room at any time; you can't touch anything here without my consent."

I nodded: "That is to say, under this roof, I must listen to you."

Ji Chenfeng stepped aside without denying: "You can understand that."

It's probably just a turn of the wind. He used to be obedient to me, but now it's my turn to bow to him. It's all retribution.

Smiling at him, I started to unbutton my pants.

"...What are you doing?" He looked at the trousers that I quickly took off and piled under his feet, his stretched brow furrowed deeply again.

"Take off your clothes and take a shower."

I grabbed the hem of the T-shirt with my hands interlaced, and took off my clothes. I don't wear much in summer, and I took off my clothes in front of Ji Chenfeng in a short while.

"You didn't say you can't do this." I showed my body generously, and I didn't hide or feel ashamed about any reaction that occurred under his gaze.

His eyes didn't stop on me, and the body he used to love seemed no longer attractive to him.

"Add one more, you are not allowed to undress outside the bathroom." He strode towards the bedroom, he turned his back to me, and closed the door with force.

One good news, one bad news. I picked up my clothes and pants from the floor and pushed the door into the bathroom.

The good news is that he didn't show disgust at my straight-forward little brother.

Bad news, he actually held back, fuck.