Chapter 60 Lock me up

Driving back to Fly City in Zheng Jieyuan's car, no one said a word along the way.

I can feel my mind getting more and more tense, each second getting closer to the limit than the last. With the ups and downs of breathing, the pain in the shoulders spread to the whole body. The air conditioner was blowing the slightly damp clothes, and the body became colder and colder. As soon as I returned to Ji Chenfeng's house, I couldn't wait to rush into the bathroom.

He took off his clothes, and the ferocious brand on his body was reflected in the mirror.

It may be due to soaking in water, and the wound is more red and swollen than when it was just scalded. The normal skin squeezes the damaged skin, so that the pattern of the hexagram is no longer clear.

so ugly.

Those scars on my back are hard to see by myself on weekdays, and as long as others don't mention them, I won't always remember their existence. But this brand is different, it is too conspicuous.

Maybe this is Shi Hao's purpose. Every time I see it, I think of the humiliation I have suffered today.

The nails dig into the skin, scratching at the red and swollen wound. I couldn't find a more handy tool, so I could only use this simple and rude way to destroy the pattern that was just branded.

It wasn't until the brand became bloody that I stopped in sweat.

Not so ugly anymore. Looking at the wound in the mirror that looked more and more miserable, I thought full of Ah Q's spirit.

Since the wound hurts as soon as it touches the hot water, I almost finished the bath with cold water. This also led to the body not only did not warm up after taking a bath, but even colder.

Under the continuous scouring of cold water, the wound quickly lost its color. Without drying, getting wet and getting dressed, and leaving the bathroom, I wearily crawled into my bed and wrapped my body in a blanket without even showing my head.

The sound of the microwave oven running came from the kitchen, and after a while, the smell of food filled the small room, and it smelled like instant noodles.

Ji Chenfeng has no habit of eating late-night snacks, so this should be his first meal tonight.

The guy Zheng Jieyuan, although he is sincere enough to be friends, he is not careful at all. In the afternoon, the two of them were at the pet hospital, and Ji Chenfeng knew best whether he had eaten or not. Can't he just buy something to padded his stomach on the way?

Whether it was the pain on the body or what happened tonight, it was destined to be a sleepless night. I covered my head and lay on my side, looking like I was asleep, but I was actually paying attention to Ji Chenfeng's movements behind me.

From the kitchen into the bedroom, and from the bedroom into the bathroom. After half an hour, he came out of the bathroom with a burst of hot air with the scent of soap.

I thought he would go back to the bedroom to sleep next, but he stopped behind me.

He is looking at me.

"I know you haven't slept."

I opened my eyes, and a faint light came in through the gaps in the blanket. The cocoon-like space was dark and stuffy.

"Sang Nian, I don't want to continue like this. You can move out tomorrow."

Pulling down the blanket, I blinked blankly at the wall in front of me, and it took me a long time to find my voice.

"...But, I haven't found the house yet."

"You can stay in a hotel first, or stay at Zheng Jieyuan's place."

He doesn't want to give me another chance.

From the moment he allowed me to live in his house, I knew he was loose. It was clearly agreed that I would only stay for one night, but the next day I didn't leave and didn't chase me, and they said I could stay until I found a house.

Don't give me the keys, don't let me go out, how can I find a house?

When Meng Xueyan said that he could introduce me to a cheap house, he heard no response, as if he had completely forgotten that the "friend" I borrowed was himself. When I saw Zheng Jieyuan, I didn't even remember the "no friends" lie I once told.

In this way, he allowed me to live under the same roof with him, hating me, but couldn't help but be soft-hearted towards me.

I know all this.

But now he says he doesn't want to go on like this.

He doesn't want to convince himself to forgive me anymore, he doesn't want to know whether my words are credible or not, and he doesn't want to have any connection with me anymore.

Because I'm angry with him?

Because I made him angry?

"...Okay." I said calmly, "I'll move out tomorrow."

After getting my clear answer, Ji Chenfeng didn't say anything. After a while, the lights in the living room dimmed and the bedroom door closed gently.

I looked at the darkness in front of me, only to feel that the darkness was bottomless, like an invisible mouth that would swallow me up in the next second.

He wrapped himself in the blanket even tighter, curled his knees, it was clearly sweltering heat, but his body felt cold for no reason.

I thought would not be able to sleep, but then body gradually warmed up, and consciousness became less awake.

Accidentally knocked the food over to the ground.

"Tsk." The woman who couldn't see her face walked against the light and pulled me off the chair.

Beating my body hard, she forced me to kneel in front of the overturned food.

"I'll eat everything that fell on the ground, or I want you to look good!"

I bit my lip, picked up a piece of pumpkin and stuffed it into my mouth. The woman slapped me on the back of the head again, and my whole body fell to the ground because of inertia.

"Who told you to use your hands? Lick your mouth like a dog!"

Tears welled up in his eyes, shaky. But because I was too scared, I was afraid that my random actions would provoke more beatings and scolding, so I even cried in fear and did not dare to speak loudly.

He leaned down and licked food on the ground like a puppy.

The woman walked away temporarily, and I was relieved, but it was far from over.

Maybe the child's control of the muscles is a little bit worse, or maybe I really ate too much, I choked, my stomach turned upside down, and I actually threw up what I just ate.

The stomach is still twitching, and a deeper fear has hit him.

I hurriedly looked at the woman and found that she was rushing this way in a rage.

"I was wrong..." I cried and begged for mercy, picking up the food on the ground and stuffing it into my mouth as if to make amends, "Don't be angry Mom... Don't be angry Mom..."

"Who is your mother? You dead child, find something to do for me every day."

She scolded me and grabbed my arm and pushed me down on the chair.

Having a premonition of what was going to happen, I struggled violently, begging for forgiveness even harder: "I was wrong... It's all my fault... I'm sorry... I'll never do this again..."

The clothes on my back were lifted, and the sharp heat fell on my waist. I screamed, tears falling to the floor one by one.

In addition to the babysitter, there are cooks and gardeners in the family, but the woman is very smart and will never attack me when someone is there.

It is useless to plead for help, and no one listens to it.

I know the pain, I know the fear, but I don't know it's "abuse". After all, my life has been this way since I was conscious.

Xu Xi noticed that it was because the burn was too severe, on her butt. When she came to see me, she found that I was walking in a strange way, and she was unwilling to sit down. The woman told her that I was too naughty, jumped down the stairs and accidentally hurt my leg. At the beginning, Xu Xi was only a fifteen-year-old girl, so he believed it to be the truth and didn't investigate further.

It was spring, and the garden was in full bloom. Xu Xi led me to the garden alone to enjoy the flowers, but the woman did not follow.

While admiring a blooming peach blossom, Xu Xi wanted to hug me up to take a closer look, but as soon as he hugged me, I avoided him.

"pain."

Xu Xi glanced at my leg worriedly, and asked, "Where did you fall? Have you been to the doctor?"

I shook my head and pointed to my butt: "It hurts here."

Although Xu Xi was young, he already had the self-awareness of an elder. Hearing this, he reached out and grabbed my pants regardless of whether it was in broad daylight or not.

When the ferocious wound was exposed in front of her eyes, the woman's crime that had not been exposed for several years was revealed to the world.

Xu Xi said that I am well-behaved and brave because I do not make noise, cry, or feel wronged when facing pain. But she doesn't know, I have cried, quarreled, and been wronged a long time ago, but... no one cares.

Tears are the most useless. I have understood this since I was a child. It can't be my weapon, it can't be my shield, and it can't be valued by anyone.

It hurts so bad can't sleep...

what time is it bright? Is dad coming back tomorrow? With him around, "Mom" wouldn't hit me.

"Sang Nian... Sang Nian..."

I don't know if there is no dry water or sweat on my body, it is humid and hot, and even my eyelashes seem to be covered with water droplets.

I blinked, the picture in front of me was hazy and broken, and only a vague figure could be seen.

"I'm sore..."

Deja vu... It seems to be the same last time, was discovered by this person and held in arms by this person.

Just by holding him, all pain will disappear and every tear will be answered.

It was the first time anyone heard my cry for help.

"Where does it hurt?"

The palms stroked my sweaty cheeks and neck, as if trying to pull the quilt that was tightly wrapped around me to take a closer look, but I grabbed my hand and pressed it firmly back to my cheek.

"It hurts everywhere..." Half of my lips were printed on Ji Chenfeng's palm, I breathed hotly, and there was a constant flow of liquid in my eyes, "I'm dying of pain."

Every scene in front of me seemed to be spinning, and my brain became a mush. I could only close my eyes and hold his hand tighter.

A sigh came from his ear: "I can't move like this, let me go first." Maybe seeing that I didn't cooperate, his voice became softer, "Dear, stop crying, I won't leave."

Despite the ambiguity of consciousness, the trust in him is deeply rooted in his heart. With a vague "um" sound, my hand loosened a little bit and moved to the pillow. I obediently didn't make any more resistance.

The blanket on his body was gently lifted, and suddenly, the other party's movements were stagnant, and he could not even hear the sound of breathing. After a few seconds, he quickly unbuttoned me, as if eager to find out an answer, but when he opened the shirt on his chest, he became cautious again. Be careful, like a dangerous wasp on my placket.

The wound was sticking to the fabric, and it was so painful to touch it that he had to peel it off very hard. Because almost as soon as he tried, I would shiver uncontrollably and let out a suppressed choke in my throat.

"Why didn't you tell me if you're injured?" Finally, seeing my wound, he wiped away the tears from the corner of my eyes with his thumb, and his tone was as soft as a snowflake-falling on his heart, there would be a moment of coolness and relief, but waiting for you I want to go back and treasure it, but I can no longer find traces of his gentleness.

When was the last time I heard him talk to me like this?

Feeling Ji Chenfeng get up and leave my side, I suddenly opened my eyes, trying to reach for his clothes, but I couldn't.

With his back to me, he rummaged through the drawers of the living room cabinet, and finally found a red emergency medical kit.

"It might hurt a bit."

Breaking open an iodophor cotton swab, and waiting for one end to be filled with reddish-brown liquid, he gently pressed it on my wound.

It was really painful, so painful that I subconsciously started to hide.

Ji Chenfeng hurriedly put his other hand on my shoulder and comforted: "I'll be fine soon, just hold on..."

Blowing on the wound, he treated the wound for me with a very professional and quick method.

Putting the sterile gauze on, he touched my forehead, turned around and poured a glass of water back. He let me sit in his arms, he first gave me a capsule and asked me to take it: "Anti-inflammatory and fever-relieving, you have a bad burn." After I took it, he quickly fed me a few sips of water.

The clothes on my body were soaked, and the blanket could not cover it. He simply picked me up and moved me to his bedroom.

After sleeping on the floor for a long time, as soon as touched the soft mattress, the sore bones seemed to be comforted and became less uncomfortable.

Stripped of my clothes, I was tucked into a thin quilt and wrapped tightly. After doing all this, Ji Chenfeng turned around and wanted to leave, but this time he was finally caught by me.

"Don't drive me away..." I held his hand, showing weakness completely, "I will never quarrel with you again... Lock me up, put me in shackles, do whatever you want to me... I As long as you are enough...as long as you are alone..."

If you haven't been cherished, you won't know how bad your life is; if you haven't been warmed by others, you won't be greedy for each other's warmth.

I don't want to do this anymore, I can't take it anymore. How could this person cut us off so mercilessly after treating me so tenderly?