Chapter 69 Ji Chenfeng, I Love You

It was just an accident. I drank alcohol, lost my mind, and took too many medicines. I do want to escape reality, but I don't want to die.

I didn't want to let Ji Chenfeng know, because I was afraid that he would misunderstand me as a weak person, and secondly, I was afraid that it would cause a psychological burden on him and make him feel that he was forcing me to be like that.

I don't need him to be careful with me, I just want him to love me like he used to.

After waiting on the hospital bed for more than ten minutes, Xu Xi finally came back, but Ji Chenfeng was nowhere to be seen.

"He went to buy you hospital supplies." Xu Xi sat down beside my hospital bed and said.

I motioned for her to give me her phone, then opened the memo and communicated with her by typing.

"What are you talking about?"

Xu Xi tucked the hair from her cheeks behind her ears, turned her eyes away and said, "It's nothing, I just talked about you."

"What about me?"

Type quickly, bring the phone screen to her, and force her to look.

Xu Xi glanced at the screen, pushed my hand away, stared at me with complicated eyes for a long time, sighed deeply, and said, "In the past, I know intellectually that both of you are victims, and I should treat them equally and give the same The love and care of the people, and the problems between you should also be handled by yourself, and should not be mixed up.

I was stunned and slowly put down the phone.

"I will support and understand Morrowind no matter what life he wants to live. I won't try to control him, I won't try to find out what he doesn't want me to know. He needs me and I'm there. He I don't need me, I'll just wait there. But with you, I can't leave you alone..."

"When the weather is cold, I start to worry about whether you have enough clothes. If you don't call for a long time, I will ask Tang Bian about your current situation. Knowing that you have no place to live, I have already decided that I will tie you home even if I use a tie. ." Having said this, Xu Xi smiled, "You are no longer my sister's child, but you are still my child."

Only ten years older than me, what do you say "my child"? So numb to the stomach.

But looking back, she really tolerated me, or spoiled me, since she was a child.

She used to have trouble with Sang Zhengbai, and she always played the role of reconciliation and containment. Afraid that I would have nothing to do, I even got a manager position in my own company that didn't require doing anything. I used to be extreme and felt that she valued me because I was Xu Wanyi's child, the child of Xu Wanyi and Sang Zhengbai. All the love she gave me came out of her nostalgia for Xu Wanyi and her interest in Sang Zhengbai.

But maybe things are far less complicated than I thought. She tolerated me, spoiled me, favored me, not because of empathy, not because of interests, but simply because...she loved me.

"I told him that you are not a bad boy, you are just out of control and controlled by your emotions. You are already working hard to become better, I hope he can give you more time and more opportunities." Xu Xi said, "This is my first This is the second and last time to intervene between you, and no matter what happens to you after that, I will unconditionally support the choice of the two of you."

Xu Xi has always been aware of proportions, and this is one of the keys to her long-term success in modeling agency. For her, interfering in such private matters as feelings is already quite arrogant and disrespectful, not to mention that Ji Chenfeng and I are not just emotional disputes.

There are a lot of things to say, and thousands of threads come up, and in the end they all turn into two ordinary words.

"thanks."

Xu Xi smiled and said, "Thank you for what? I should apologize to you." She took out a new wet tissue and wiped a part of my neck for me. It must have been because I didn't wipe it carefully and I missed it. Does it hurt?"

Before Ji Chenfeng came back, I drove Xu Xi away. It's not that she is terminally ill, I really don't need her to stay here to take care of me.

Before I left, Xu Xi asked me to seriously consider staying with her, saying that there were enough rooms anyway, so Ji Chenfeng and I would be fine with one room.

How can this be called "no problem"? Really one room per person, the problem can be big.

He didn't mention this to Ji Chenfeng, and he didn't even have the slightest thought to make him feel the warmth from his aunt. I made up my mind that I would rather not find a house and live in a hotel, nor would I go to Xu Xi's house with him.

I thought that Ji Chenfeng would immediately talk to me about the accident a few months ago. But it may be because of my physical condition. Besides frequently asking me how I feel, whether I feel suffocated, dizzy or not, whether I want to sleep or not, he just takes care of me carefully, just like every time I get sick before.

In the sixth hour after the fire, tissue edema began to increase, the pain in the throat became more pronounced, and swallowing became difficult. It was not very comfortable to fall asleep by sitting, but I finally fell asleep. I was either woken up by a cough or a sore throat.

Due to exhaustion and physical discomfort, his temper was not good.

He pushed open the cup Ji Chenfeng handed to his mouth, and the water inside splashed out, wetting the back of Ji Chenfeng's hand and a small sheet.

"Everyone said let you sleep, I'll drink water myself when I'm thirsty."

Putting the cup on the bedside table, Ji Chenfeng took out a tissue. Ji Chenfeng wiped off the water on the back of his hand, and then sucked the water off the sheets.

Throwing away the tissue, he sat back on his small bench, frowned slightly, and said, "How can you fall asleep until your condition is stable?"

If he lost his temper with me likewise, I would still be able to maintain his aura, but now he talks to me with such a worried tone and expression, not to mention his aura, his heart can't even support it.

"Aren't you tired?" I asked.

Ji Chenfeng shook his head and said, "I'm used to it."

I don't know if it's a habit of staying up late, or a habit of taking care of patients.

Since neither of them can sleep, let's just start chatting.

After the fire was put out, Uncle Li called Ji Chenfeng again and told him that although the house was not burned, black smoke entered the house, and it was pitch black everywhere.

Fly City was originally a poor house, and the perpetrator had already died in the fire, so it was impossible to get compensation. There is no other option but to admit to being unlucky.

"Where will we live until the house is repaired?"

"Jane Xing said that you can live in the pet hospital first. The attic is just empty, and you can live in people after a little cleaning."

I live in a pet hospital. It's good, Ji Chenfeng is convenient to go to work, and I can spend more time with him.

In the second half of the night, although it was difficult to fall asleep, because was so sleepy, fell asleep intermittently.

Every time I wake up, Ji Chenfeng will put down the phone to confirm my condition, and will be relieved after getting a positive answer that I am fine.

When I woke up again because of the pain of swallowing, I opened my eyes in a daze, and saw Ji Chenfeng staring at the phone in thought by the bed. I moved my body and he looked over immediately.

"Don't worry, I'm fine. What are you looking at?"

Ji Chenfeng glanced at his phone and handed it to me.

"Hua Rong Road. I'm afraid of falling asleep, so I use it to refresh myself."

I took it and took 79 steps, 11 steps left.

Each level of Huarong Road has its own fixed number of steps. If it exceeds the level, although it can be cleared, it cannot be regarded as the optimal solution.

Move the soldiers, then Guan Yu, Cao Cao, the soldiers... After some operations, the game was successfully cleared at 90 steps.

These are all leftovers I played when I was a kid, not challenging at all.

Returning the phone to Ji Chenfeng, I patted the bed next to me and motioned for him to sit down.

"I want to see you play."

Ji Chenfeng glanced at the customs clearance screen on his mobile phone and sat down according to the words.

Leaning his head on his shoulder, while watching him play games, he acted as his game cheat, helping him when he couldn't go any further and fell into a dead end, guiding him to pass the level.

Doctor Ji, who is good at everything and only makes mistakes in games, is particularly cute. At first, could hold such an idea.

But later on, as the levels became more and more difficult, and he made more and more mistakes, such thoughts disappeared.

Gee, how can you go like that? must go to Zhang Fei.

Sometimes without waiting for him to continue, I couldn't help grabbing the phone to complete the following steps for him.

After staying in the hospital for three days, my edema began to subside slowly the next afternoon, and Ji Chenfeng finally had time to deal with the house. Jian Xing helped out with the past, and took some clothes back to his own home for washing and drying. At the same time, the two also cleaned up the attic of the pet hospital and arranged simple furniture.

On the second night, Ji Chenfeng's exhaustion was already written on his face, and even Hua Rongdao couldn't improve his spirit. He drank a lot of coffee, all American without sugar, and when he got close, he could even smell the faint bitterness of his body.

Afraid that he would get sick from exhaustion, I forcibly took away his cochlear implant. He was begging to no avail, so he could only lie down beside the bed to rest under my stare, and after a while he fell asleep with his breathing gradually deepened.

On the third day, the edema subsided, and I was finally able to speak, but my voice was hoarse and not very pleasant. Ji Chenfeng was completely relieved that night, and borrowed a hospital reclining chair to sleep on the side, but he still refused to take out the cochlear implant.

On the fourth day, the doctor allowed us to be discharged from the hospital, and Jian Xing came to take us back to the veterinary hospital.

Although the attic of the pet hospital is quite large, it has been used as a warehouse because it is not high enough. This time, an area of ​​more than a dozen square meters was cleared, and a temporary iron frame bed, a plastic wardrobe, a foldable table, and a few plastic chairs were placed.

There is a small skylight on the top, which is responsible for ventilation and lighting. The sound insulation is poor, you can clearly hear the dogs barking downstairs.

I thought that Fly City was already the limit of my living environment in this life, and I never imagined that it could fall further.

The only thing that comforted me was that there was finally an air conditioner - the attic was too hot, and Jian Xing hurriedly installed an air conditioner for us. For this reason, I decided to be less hostile to him in the future and more enthusiastic.

The fourth night after the fire was also the first night in the attic of the pet hospital. After a busy day, Ji Chenfeng almost fell asleep. I tried to close my eyes and woke up within two hours. No way, I slept too much these days.

Can't sleep, nothing to do. The skylight had no curtains, and the moonlight just came in, giving the dim attic a faint glow. With this dim light, I could clearly see Ji Chenfeng's back.

Wide, strong and full of security. In appearance, he is by no means weak. But strangely, I sometimes feel that he is so fragile, which makes people want to protect and love him.

He hugged him from behind, and his five fingers wandered all the way from his chest to his well-defined belly. When I wanted to go further down, the person in front of me breathed slightly, moved, and grabbed my messy hand.

"Sleep..." Ji Chenfeng said in a low voice.

"I can't sleep." We were very close, and he should have been able to feel how good my "spirit" was without much need for words. "Doctor Ji, the place has changed, is the half-year agreement still counted?"

Ji Chenfeng gradually woke up after being rubbed by me, stiffened a little, and said, "What do you think?"

"If you ask me, I'm sure I won't say anything." He kissed the back of his neck lightly, while speaking, his scorching breath blew on his skin, "How on earth can you trust me and forgive me? If I can, I really want to dig out my heart and show you. See if it is you from beginning to end, only you.”

Ji Chenfeng was speechless for a while, if it wasn't for my hand still being held by him, I would have wondered if he had fallen asleep again unconsciously.

Breaking free from his restraints, he pulled back a little, lay flat, and spoke in a sticky, ambiguous tone on purpose.

"You don't want to play with me, so I can only play by myself."

He made a lot of strange sounds, all of which were the most annoying in the past - calling out "Doctor Ji" as thin as a dying patient, a trembling voice like crying, and a creaking bed.

If he can endure such a temptation, what I may need to consider is not the question of his not forgiving me, but the question of which hospital to take him to for treatment.

After holding it for too long, and with Ji Chenfeng beside me, there was a different kind of stimulation. I bit my lip and stained my hands within a few minutes.

I used this hand to touch Ji Chenfeng's face.

"Ji Chenfeng, I love you." My brain was flooded with dopamine that brought pleasure. Using a lazy tone afterwards, I smiled and confided my love words to Ji Chenfeng again.

Just as the fingertips touched the warm skin, a strong force grabbed my wrist. The next moment, Ji Chenfeng came over my body, put one hand next to my head, and pinched my chin with the other. , leaned over and kissed with a bit of annoyance.