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Chapter 107 The truth
Chapter 107 The truth
After saying goodbye to Mo Chu, Qiao Zhenzhen ran towards Chi Shen: "Why are you here?"
"My psychiatrist sent me a message saying that there is a lecture here, and I can make an appointment for a follow-up." Chi Shen replied.
Qiao Zhen Zhen suddenly said, "I'm here for a follow-up consultation, I thought..."
Halfway through speaking, he suddenly stopped talking.
Chi Shen's expression was calm: "Why?"
Thought you were following me. But this kind of words must not be said, Qiao Zhenzhen stared at him for a long time, her mind was full of the doctor's words, and after a long time she forced a smile: "It's nothing, are you going to see the doctor now?"
"I seem to be late, ask me in the afternoon, have you eaten yet?" Chi Shen's tone was the same as usual.
Qiao Zhen Zhen shook her head: "Not yet, go home and eat, I'll call my mother."
"Um."
After Chi Shen agreed, he opened the car door directly, Qiao Zhenzhen went to the co-pilot and sat down, waiting for him to drive before asking, "Where did you get the car?"
"I asked someone to prepare it before I came. It's convenient to drive by myself." Chi Shen replied.
Qiao Zhen Zhen nodded and didn't ask any more questions.
On a working day, there are very few vehicles on the road, and the cars are unobstructed all the way.
After a long while, Chi Shen asked lightly, "Didn't you come back to accompany your grandpa? Why did you appear there."
"Ah...let's meet a friend." Qiao Zhenzhen didn't dare to say that she came to see a psychiatrist.
Chi Shen's eyes were dark: "Yeah."
Then there was no more talking.
For the next two days, Qiao Zhenzhen and Chi Shen stayed at home to accompany their elders, but Qiao Zhenzhen was always absent-minded, and from time to time she picked up her phone to take a look, as if she was chatting with someone.
Facing her abnormality, Chi Shen was always calm and showed unprecedented patience. He disguised so well that he even deceived himself. He stayed at Qin's house for the past few days, and his mood has been very calm.
However, Qiao Zhen Zhen always felt that something was wrong with him, but couldn't figure out what was wrong. After thinking about it for a long time, she finally decided to have a good chat with him.
Yes, she felt she couldn't keep pretending to be confused.
But home is obviously not a good place to talk about this. She thought about it carefully and decided to go back to S City ahead of schedule.
"Didn't you say you would stay for three days? Why did you leave so early?" Qin Jing couldn't help complaining.
Qiao Zhenzhen smiled: "If you miss me, I will come back again next month."
"Who misses you," Qin Jing gave her a cross, "but it's time to come back. Grandpa has been thinking about you all the time."
"Well, I see, Mom." After Qiao Zhenzhen finished speaking, she reached out and hugged her.
Qin Jing sighed and turned to look at Chi Shen: "don't be too used to her, you know? If she bullies you, call Auntie."
"Mom!" Qiao Zhenzhen was dissatisfied, "How bad am I in your eyes, why are you always worried that I will bully him."
"Have you done less bullying?" Qin Jing sneered.
Qiao Zhen Zhen pouted, unable to say anything to refute.
Chi Shen was docile and calm, holding her hand in front of Qin Jing: "Don't worry, Auntie, Zhen Zhen didn't bully me."
"Just protect her." Qin Jing glanced at him helplessly, and after hearing the announcement to remind them to board, she urged them to leave quickly.
The two said goodbye to Qin Jing and boarded the plane together.
Although the ticket was booked earlier, it was delayed for a while after arriving in S City, and it was already past 1 o'clock in the afternoon when the two got home. Qiao Zhen Zhen relaxed on the sofa, not wanting to lift her fingers.
Chi Shen sat down beside her and held her hand again: "Tired?"
"...Well," Qiao Zhen Zhen closed her eyes, "Obviously she didn't do anything, but she was so tired."
Chi Shen looked at her face calmly, and after a long while he slowly said, "What do you want to eat, I'll cook for you."
Qiao Zhen Zhen snorted softly: "If you don't eat, you should also rest."
"I'm not tired." Chi Shen replied.
Qiao Zhenzhen laughed: "If you are not tired, take a rest, just wait and order takeout."
Chi Shen heard the words and responded softly, still holding her hand.
The air was quiet again, Qiao Zhen Zhen couldn't help but reopen her eyes and looked at Chi Shen's quiet profile. Since seeing the psychiatrist, the doctor's words have been planted in her mind like a spell, and whenever she looks at Chi Shen like this, the doctor's voice will be played in a loop in her mind.
Her lips moved, and she finally plucked up the courage to talk to him.
"Chishen..."
As soon as his name was called, the phone suddenly vibrated, and the two looked at it at the same time, and it was a string of unfamiliar numbers.
Qiao Zhenzhen recognized the psychiatrist's cell phone number at a glance, so she quickly picked up her cell phone: "Let's have a look at some takeout, I'll go and answer the phone first."
When he was done, he went straight back to the study.
Chi Shen looked at the back of her leaving in a hurry, and his eyes gradually darkened.
In the study, after Qiao Zhenzhen closed the door, she went straight into the bathroom, and then answered the phone: "Hello, doctor."
"Hello, Miss Qiao, this is the case. When I checked the case just now, I suddenly found a precedent with a patient similar to the one you described. After thinking about it carefully, I think I should contact you." voices of young people.
Qiao Zhen Zhen hurriedly responded: "You said."
"That's right, because I haven't seen myself, so everything is just speculation, not a diagnosis. If Miss Qiao wants to get a specific diagnosis, she still needs to bring a patient, so you can treat me as not a doctor for the time being, just a relationship. Just a good friend."
"I understand, just tell me doctor." Qiao Zhenzhen pursed her lips.
The sound of paper turning pages came from the receiver, followed by the doctor: "According to the conventional judgment, a patient has a serious dependence on a person, which often shows that he has lost his own personality, dedicated himself wholeheartedly, and will give his life without hesitation when necessary. , this kind of case develops to the most serious point, that is, it will produce self-destructive emotions, and finally cannot control the idea of suicide..."
The more Qiao Zhen Zhen listened, the more nervous she became. When she was so tense that she was about to break, there was a slight noise outside the door, and then the bathroom door was pushed open. She raised her head subconsciously, and caught Chi Shen's dark eyes.
She was shocked, the phone fell directly to the ground, the phone that was playing on the receiver instantly fell to the public, and the psychiatrist's voice sounded throughout the bathroom—
"But no matter how serious the self-destructive mood is, it will not hurt the dependent person, but you say that the patient still loses his mind and drives the car while the other party is sitting in the co-pilot, which shows that his condition is not just as simple as dependence... ...I now suspect that he not only has self-destructive emotions, but also has a desire to hurt the dependant. In short, this patient is very dangerous, and I think you should bring him to see me as soon as possible."
Qiao Zhen Zhen opened her mouth, but no sound came out.
Chi Shen looked at her expressionlessly, as if he hadn't heard that the person talking on the phone was him.
The air was almost glued.
After a long time, the doctor heard something was wrong and asked tentatively, "Miss Qiao?"
No answer.
"Miss Qiao? Are you okay?" The doctor's voice was a little anxious.
Qiao Zhen Zhen returned to her senses, hurriedly picked up the phone, and replied dryly: "I, I'm fine... I know what you said, I will do it as soon as possible... I will find you if I need it."
"Okay, then first." The doctor agreed genially, and then hung up the phone.
The bathroom fell silent again.
After a long time, Qiao Zhen Zhen said dryly: "Why did you come in?"
Chi Shen stared at her for a long time: "I thought you were calling Mo Chu."
Qiao Zhen Zhen was stunned for a moment: "Why did I fight him..." Halfway through the sentence, she suddenly reacted and asked cautiously, "Do you think I have something to do with him?"
Chi Shen was silent.
Qiao Zhenzhen was helpless: "I'm just friends with him, he's already married to my roommate in college and has children. I'll take you to meet them next time."
Chi Shen remained silent.
After Qiao Zhenzhen explained, she was embarrassed again, and it took a long time for her to smile, trying to explain to him: "The phone call just now was not what you thought..."
"When did you find out?" Chi Shen interrupted her.
Qiao Zhenzhen pursed her lips: "The day you rescued me from Li Chang."
really. Chi Shen lowered his eyes.
Qiao Zhen Zhen looked at his quiet appearance and approached him cautiously: "Shenzhen, I have no other intentions, I'm just worried about you..."
"Now that you know, what are you going to do?" Chi Shen interrupted her again, "Do you want to tell my grandfather and grandfather, and send me abroad just like when I was eighteen? What are you going to do after that? You lied to me that you would wait for me, but turned around and started dating?"
His tone was calm, but Qiao Zhen Zhen could still hear a strong hatred, as if someone had beaten her heart in an instant, the pain spread from her heart to her whole body in a second.
She was silent for a moment, and then her voice was a little dull: "I don't interact with anyone."
Chi Shen looked at her with a deep sarcasm in his eyes, it was the first time that Qiao Zhen Zhen saw such an aggressive expression on his face.
"I'm not Chi Shen anymore, you can't lie to me," Chi Shen looked at her seriously, "I won't leave, I won't leave you, and I won't let you leave, no matter who you like, you have to follow I'm together, alive or dead."
It was obviously a threat, but there was a hint of despair.
Qiao Zhen Zhen's eyes turned red, she bit her lip and hugged him. Chi Shen's dark eyes flashed for a moment, then he pursed his thin lips, and after a long time he said coldly: "I want to kill you, are you not afraid of me?"
"Then will you kill me?" Qiao Zhen Zhen buried her face in his chest, her voice sounded muffled.
Chi Shen didn't answer because even he wasn't sure.
"At least when I lost control on the road that day, I wanted to die with you." He finally told the truth.
"Why?" Qiao Zhen Zhen raised her head to look at him, and suddenly remembered something after being quiet, "...You saw me chatting with Mo Chu?"
Chi Shen looked at her expressionlessly.
"...I really have nothing to do with him, why do you care about him so much?" Qiao Zhen Zhen had a headache.
"I said, you can't lie to me, I know you better than you think." Chi Shen stared into her eyes.
Qiao Zhenzhen was stunned: "When you were abroad...investigate me?"
Chi Shen was silent, trying to find a little disgust in her eyes, but apart from being stunned, he was not bored with himself at all, and he couldn't help but feel a little disappointed.
Yes, disappointed.
The secret he worked so hard to hide has been discovered by her, and I believe that more people will discover it soon. At that time, he will once again become a patient in everyone's eyes, and once again he will be forced to leave his homeland, leave the person he likes, and go to an unfamiliar place for treatment until he comes back "healed".
He was tired of this kind of life, and he didn't want to repeat the previous life, he just wanted to end it as soon as possible.
And the way to end all of this is for Qiao Zhen Zhen to be a little more ruthless towards him, so that he might not be soft-hearted and let her belong to him forever and ever.
Qiao Zhenzhen clearly saw the despair and violence in his eyes, and also knew that he was very dangerous in such a state, but the amazing thing was that she was not afraid at all, but after he revealed his original face, she felt a little more in her heart.
It's like when a big knife hangs over her head, she will be tortured by fear day and night, but when the big knife falls, she will feel nothing more than that.
She was silent for a moment, and then slowly said: "I don't know how you investigated, but Mo Chu and I really have nothing to do. He chased me when he was in college, but I refused, and then it was a good friend relationship. He helped me a lot when I started my business, and as a thank you, I gave him a share of the studio, and now he is my roommate's boyfriend, and we have that relationship."
As she spoke, she looked at him firmly, "I have always had only you as a boyfriend, and I have been waiting for your return."
Chi Shen's eyes moved slightly, and seemed to be a little shaken.
Qiao Zhenzhen let go of him and took a step back, looking at his indifferent expression, she suddenly couldn't help but slapped him, choked with red eyes and complained: "You bastard, you said it would be cured soon, but the result is For more than six years, do you know that I've been waiting for you to go crazy?"
"I still don't dare to let Grandpa and the others know, I'm afraid they will be careful, I dare not let you know, I'm afraid that you won't like me after you get better, and my waiting will make you feel burdened, how about you? If you don't give me good treatment, Instead, I think about making myself sicker all day long, what's the point of us being separated for so many years?!"
"It's okay if you pretend to be healed, and pretend you don't like me. Do you know how uncomfortable I feel when you say we are starting over, a new shit! I'm not over with you!"
The more she talked, the more sad she became, and Chu Chishen's hands turned red, and in the end she knelt on the ground as if she had collapsed, and cried while covering her face.
Chi Shen's heart hurts like a needle stick, a hint of confusion flashed on his face, his hands hanging on both sides of his body raised, lowered and raised, but he didn't have the courage to take a step forward. He seemed to have become the eighteen-year-old self again, and even if she frowned, he would make him be careful, let alone see her cry.
Ever since he knew she was going to see Mo Chu in City A, countless dark thoughts appeared in his mind, and even when he came back this time, he planned to completely seal up the house so that Qiao Zhenzhen would not have the chance to contact outsiders again. , he also thought of using the most extreme way to keep her by his side forever, but his reason has been restrained.
Just now, he thought that the moment she hid to answer Mo Chu's call, the only remaining restraint almost disappeared.
But the next moment, she cried and complained.
Now, Chi Shen stared at the little girl crying in front of him, hesitated for a long time and said, "I'm just afraid that you will send me away again."
"It's not that I don't like you, I just want to approach you like a normal person."
"As long as you don't expose me, don't... leave me, I can pretend for a lifetime."
Although his voice was much better, he was still hoarse and said every word seriously, for fear that she would not understand.
Qiao Zhen Zhen sat on the ground and didn't want to look at him. She lowered her head and cried for a long time before she calmed down. Chi Shen stood quietly in front of her, until she suddenly raised her head, he took a step back subconsciously.
Qiao Zhen Zhen couldn't hold back her joy: "...Can I eat you?"
Chi Shen stared at her face, unable to see whether she was angry or not angry now.
Qiao Zhen Zhen gave him a hateful look and got up from the ground: "Aren't you very powerful? Aren't you going to kill me? Why are you afraid of being like this when I raise my head?"
"...I really had such thoughts." Even if there were no secrets left, Chi Shen was still a little embarrassed when he said this.
Qiao Zhen Zhen took a breath: "Then would you really do this?"
Chi Shen was silent for a long time, and finally shook his head.
He won't, because she's afraid of pain and hates indignity, and no matter what way of leaving the world, no matter how perfect it is, it must be painful and indecent in the end.
Qiao Zhen Zhen glanced at him and was satisfied: "I know you won't hurt me."
Chi Shen pursed his lips and said nothing.
The two were quiet for a long time, Qiao Zhen Zhen sighed wearily: "I shouldn't have handed you over in the first place."
Chi Shen's eyes moved slightly.
"I should have taken you by my side to take care of me." Qiao Zhen Zhen reached out and hugged him.
Chi Shen stood stiffly for a long time, but in the end he still stretched out his hand and hugged her too.
The body temperature of two people plus one is always greater than two, and now the weather is getting hotter, the bathroom is very stuffy, and sweat a little while hugging.
After a long time, Qiao Zhen Zhen asked in a low voice, "So you really never liked anyone, did you?" Until today, she had to admit that she was a vulgar person and couldn't care less about his past.
Chi Shen was silent for a moment: "No."
"Neither did I," Qiao Zhenzhen reciprocated, after hesitating, "Do you believe it?"
"Trust." Chi Shen replied without hesitation.
Qiao Zhen Zhen raised her head: "Really? Why do I think you don't trust me very much?"
"I believe." Chi Shen looked into her eyes and repeated.
Qiao Zhen Zhen sneered: "Wouldn't you just say you believe it and then turn your head to play blackening for me?"
Chi Shen: "I don't understand."
"After reading so many novels, you don't know the word blackening?" Qiao Zhenzhen raised her eyebrows.
Chi Shen really didn't understand, but it didn't prevent him from being guilty. After being quiet, he took the initiative to hug her.
At this moment, all the defenses were removed, and he became relieved in an instant.
Qiao Zhen Zhen was strangled by him so she couldn't breathe, but she was too lazy to let him go, so she stayed in his arms quietly.
Chi Shen hugged for a moment, then slowly said, "I don't know how to make you believe me."
"It's a coincidence, so do I," Qiao Zhenzhen paused after speaking, "it seems there is a way."
"What?" Chi Shen took the initiative to let her go.
Qiao Zhen Zhen's eyes swiveled around him, and she coughed before opening her mouth: "Try to see if it's the original one that hasn't been opened, or you'll know."
Chi Shen was stunned for a moment, and suddenly blushed when he understood what she meant.