Chapter 11

Qi Ling looks very much like his mother, so he looked like a beautiful doll when he was a child, and children are not very gender-sensitive. His hair color is light and his pupils are light, and his eyes are big and bright.

Grandma almost cried when she saw him for the first time.

He later heard something that said he was really too much like his mother.

Qi Ling didn't talk to his grandparents after his mother died in a car accident. At that time, he had no independent decision-making power, so he felt that if he saw that he would make his grandmother cry, he should not follow him.

In the end, he sentenced the Qi family.

Qi Ling remembered that her grandmother's face didn't seem to be glad that she didn't have to see his face at that time.

He couldn't figure it out, but they didn't have much time to communicate later.

Encountered under such untimely circumstances, the ensuing conversation was blunt.

Grandma: "You come to see your mother?"

Qi Ling: "Yes."

"finish watching?"

"I can go in again." Qi Ling said, but in ten minutes, he came back again.

They all saw the flowers he sent. Qi Ling didn't know where to put his eyes, so he still looked at the flowers.

This time, saw a small part of the missing that was blown away by the wind. It was not obvious, but it made Qi Ling want to buy a new bunch.

Because Qi Ling came beforehand, it just happened to be raining today, and without the cleaning work, it looked faster.

The aunt is a friend of my grandmother, and it is said that she also watched her mother grow up.

When Qi Ling was about to say goodbye to them, Grandpa suddenly said, "Go and sit at home."

Qi Ling nodded and canceled the car he had just hit.

They sent the aunt who borrowed the umbrella home first, and then drove back. Qi Ling passed by the lake this time.

"Eat here before leaving."

When Qi Ling came, it was in the morning, and now it was lunch. Grandpa went out with an umbrella to buy cooked food and snacks, while grandma was busy in the kitchen.

He is like an outsider but not like an outsider, in an unfamiliar environment, but the attitude of his grandparents is not like an outsider.

Grandma saw him standing alone in the hallway, and pointed him to a room, "Your mother's previous room, you haven't seen it, you can go in and have a look."

Qi Ling really never went in. He did well in the college entrance examination that year, and his father took him back. Now he thinks that he is not here to announce the good news, but to show off.

In order to prove that the Qi family had educated him very well, this kind of display was too similar to a commodity. Qi Ling didn't realize it at that time. Anyway, after staying for more than 20 minutes, he was kicked out.

His "father" told him that they didn't welcome him back, which was justified, and Qi Ling believed it.

Now it seems that he is simply not welcome.

Qi Ling pushed the door open and entered her mother's room for the first time. It was an ordinary room with white walls, bright yellow curtains, a wardrobe, desk and a bed.

With the bedroom door open, Qi Ling pulled out the chair from the desk and sat down.

His mother was the only daughter, Qi Ling looked back and saw a diary on the table.

He hesitated, but didn't move.

Although his grandparents let him in, he still didn't want to touch these private things.

After sitting for a while, he heard that the TV outside was turned on, and the room became lively in an instant.

Qi Ling walked out and closed the door.

During dinner, his grandmother asked him, "Have you seen the diary on the table?"

Qi Ling wondered if it was really a test? He shook his head.

Unexpectedly, the grandmother said next sentence: "Look at it."

"Now?" Qi Ling put down his chopsticks.

Grandma glanced at him, "Eating now, aren't you doing well in the college entrance examination?"

Qi Ling thought that he might be very nervous, but grandma was also very good at joking. Was he just saying that he was stupid?

After being told, Qi Ling found that he was not angry.

After the meal was over, the rain stopped outside.

"Do you have anything to do this afternoon?"

Qi Ling wondered if they were going to keep him overnight, so he said, "No."

"Then you can just go back. Take the diary back and look at it."

Qi Ling: It's a little different from what he thought.

But he just saw it, and there doesn't seem to be a room where he lives in the house. He feels that he is so big, and he can't live in his mother's previous room.

In fact, the plane he booked was also in the afternoon.

Originally, he was not going to stay in City C for a long time, but now because of a meal, he has been dawdling again and has changed his flight to a later date.

On the plane, Qi Ling opened the diary that his grandmother must let him hold.

It was said that it was a diary, and Qi Ling learned it after reading it. A more accurate term is a pregnancy diary, which records important events during pregnancy and needs to be provided to the doctor to facilitate the observation of the health of the mother and the fetus.

Qi Ling turned it over while sitting on the plane. Zhao Qingyu's health was not good. After she became pregnant, she started to take care of herself. Later, she couldn't hold it anymore, so she found a nurse.

Qi Ling watched all the changes in her body caused by her pregnancy, and felt that the process was long and difficult.

So hard, why are you still alive?

He thought without ups and downs, looking at these, and thinking about his situation in the Qi family, even if Zhao Qingyu was pregnant with him, he thought it would be a wiser choice to kill him.

Without him, she still has the possibility of starting a new life. After he was born, she would have no time for herself.

Unconsciously, Qi Ling turned to the end. The pregnancy diary prepared by Zhao Qingyu was very thick. Even though she basically wrote down her situation every day, there were still many empty pages in the back.

Qi Ling closed the book, and inadvertently saw that the color at the end of the paper seemed to be old, and there were traces of being turned over.

He turned the book he just closed to the end again.

To be honest, Qi Ling didn't have much memory of Zhao Qingyu. He was too young when she left, but he was only four years old.

It is difficult for a four-year-old to remember things. Qi Ling does not have the ability to understand a person's character through photos. He does not know her. If someone asks Qi Ling if she has ever felt a mother's love, he will not be able to answer.

The book was finally written in pencil and even erased by the owner.

Qi Ling had no intention of spying. Since its owner didn't want others to see it, he didn't want to follow the traces to recognize the handwriting.

He thought it was over like this, but he still didn't understand why his grandmother wanted to show him, did he want to tell him how hard Zhao Qingyu was giving birth to him.

After reading this pregnancy diary, Qi Ling did have a deeper impression... He went back to the cemetery to give himself time to calm down and seek an answer that would not make him regret.

It seems that they are also helping him find the answer now, so let's start taking that medicine after going back.

Qi Ling made a decision, and the part with the fold marks at the end came to the end. When Qi Ling was about to put it away for the second time, he accidentally glanced at the traces of the black pen.

This one hasn't been erased.

He stared.

"I don't regret it, I love him very much."

The words are not big, so they only take up a small line. If Qi Ling is not careful, he will probably ignore it.

After all, the erased pencil marks in the front will make people feel that there should be nothing behind. Unexpectedly, in this ordinary position, which is neither the front nor the last, Qi Ling saw this sentence and wrote it with black ink. A line of words erased.

Qi Ling looked at it for a while, then raised his fingers to stroke each outline, the bumpy feel, his mother's handwriting was particularly beautiful, and the very graceful line script looked like it was printed, especially this one line, it was extraordinarily neat.

It seems that really want people to see this line of expression, so stroke it one stroke at a time, without any scribbles.

Qi Ling lowered his eyes, he might change his mind.

He wanted to know the reason why his mother didn't regret it, and now that he had the same opportunity, if he was born, his feelings would change the same way his mother did.

Not necessarily, maybe he will fall into boundless regret and pain.

Qi Ling is very aware that his moral bottom line is not high. He tries his best not to be responsible for anything. Problems that can be solved with money are not a problem in his opinion. He does so, others can owe him. the favor, but he never owes anyone anything unless necessary.

In his view, things with life are the most difficult thing to solve. If the money is not enough, he must invest his feelings.

Qi Ling didn't close the book, he looked at the jargon again.

Make a decision later.

After Qi Ling returned home, the tied black plastic bag was still placed at the entrance. The doctor said that he had to take a procedure and prescribed two different medicines to be taken together.

He watched for a while but didn't touch it. It was too late to come back today. Dr. Xu Bo said that he would eat twice a day, so he could start again tomorrow.

Qi Ling was holding the pregnancy book and couldn't say how he felt.

He went to the study and pulled out a new book, opened it carefully, and wrote it on the blank title page.

Nausea improved.

Qi Ling was just thinking about the month and date when he first had symptoms when his phone rang and it was an unfamiliar number, so he picked it up.

Qi Xi: "Brother, are you asleep?"

Qi Ling thought that he had answered the wrong call, but Qi Xi would call him and call him brother, Qi Ling felt absurd and funny.

"Sleep, you woke me up." Qi Ling didn't hang up, he waited for Qi Xi's message.

There was no movement over there, it seemed that he was just taking a deep breath. Qi Ling wondered if he would hang up for him first, and was feeling bored when he heard it suddenly.

"It's like this brother, although you and I are not born of the same mother, I also know that I have done a lot of excessive behavior before. You see that we are all grown up now, and the company will still rely on our brothers to support each other in the future. I apologize to you for the trouble at home."

Qi Xi looked forward to getting Qi Ling's answer. He always felt that Qi Ling seemed to be a good talker. He used to look down on him, but now that he is soft, Qi Ling will accept it immediately. After all, the Qi family is his home. Does he want to wander all his life without relying on him?

He didn't think anyone could endure this kind of life. If Yu Ke didn't ask him to apologize to Qi Ling today, and asked him to record all the calls Qi Ling accepted to let him know, he wouldn't do it.

"What kind of medicine did you take?" Qi Ling asked, almost knocking Qi Xi up.

But he has already opened his mouth, naturally he will not refute, he can only say haha, "I am very sincere."

Qi Ling hooked her lips, "I'm also very sincere. You and Yu Ke will go to the treatment together."

He had already guessed, Qi Xi guessed that it was not a sudden convulsion, but Yu Ke who asked him to do it.

Qi Ling didn't bother to ask Yu Ke why he did this, he didn't really care.

Whether he raised or not raised this child, it was not Yu Ke's turn to point fingers, let alone play emotional cards with his unfeeling family.

The phone hangs up, Qi Ling wants to throw away the medicine tomorrow, should there be a special place for recycling medicine?

In the evening, Xu Bo's work WeChat received a message.

"Doctor Xu, I've thought about it, but I still don't want to have an abortion."