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Chapter 1 So Love Will Disappear
Chapter 1 So Love Will Disappear
When Ye Rong had a car accident, Xu Jue was entangled with another man.
As he was dying, Ye Rong couldn't remember whether to call first aid or the police, but instead called Xu Jue over and over again.
He didn't lose his head because of love, and he didn't think that maybe he should listen to Xu Jue's voice for the last time before he parted ways.
He was awake to a terrifyingly terrifying level, more awake every minute than he had been in the first twenty-five years of his life.
He wanted to give Xu Jue one last chance, to give Xu Jue, who trampled on him so many times, the last chance to continue squandering his love without bottom line.
He could feel that a few of his ribs should be broken and dig into his internal organs. He fixedly looked at the unanswered phone, and in the hustle and bustle of blood and fire, he finally couldn't help laughing.
Every inch of his flesh and blood was throbbing.
Destroying tendons and bones, deboning and cutting meat, I'm afraid it's just the same.
Before Ye Rong lost consciousness, the only strength he had left was to smash the phone in his hand.
It's like the love that he was also ruined by others.
Between life and death, he had a dream that was neither long nor short, so absurd that it seemed like a farce.
He dreamed that Xu Jue cheated for the first time. He came back from a business trip and wanted to surprise Xu Jue, but he didn't expect to be surprised.
He didn't expect that he could not help but spit a piece of dog blood when he saw it in TV dramas, and it would fall on his head impartially.
He thought about it a lot that night, and his reason told him that he should be cut off. There were countless times of infidelity and betrayal, but emotionally, he couldn't take that step.
For him, Xu Jue was not just a lover, but his redemption. In front of Xu Jue, he was a fanatical believer who was willing to sacrifice his body and mind.
So as long as Xu Jue admits his mistake, he can't help but forgive, and then the man who has nothing to fear will return to his old ways.
Endless cycle.
Ye Rong even learned to persuade himself that each of the lovers he found had his own shadow. Xu Jue must love him, but he just hasn't settled down yet. Wait for him, he will look back and see himself.
Until he saw Xu Jue's younger brother, Xu Li, and saw the face that was too similar to himself and the gaze that Xu Jue was lingering on him.
The self-hypnotic phantom bubble burst with a puff.
He thought that this was the extreme pain, and he was willing to stay by Xu Jue's side despite the torment.
Xu Jue needed a thought, and he could just do that thought.
When Ye Rong thinks about it occasionally, he will make fun of himself, and he is really cheap.
But this humble rotten in the mud has to be stepped on again.
Xu Li was not Xu Jue's younger brother.
Xu Li was born from his parents after Xu Jue's younger brother went missing.
orphan
The adopted child in the hospital is regarded as a consolation, and the child is still alive with self-deception.
The scenes seemed dark humor, Ye Rong watched coldly, but couldn't smile.
In the back of his mind, there were thousands of spiders weaving their webs, crawling around densely with silk, clinging to his thoughts and making him unable to break free.
"Who do you think you are? Ye Rong, who do you think you are?"
"You can't control my business, you have been stalking me."
"Ye Rong, remember, you love me, and it's all because you love me!"
The swarms of small spiders in his brain gradually melted into a big spider, which screamed, and the piercing sound was so loud that he wanted to smash his head and rip the monster out and die.
It was still clamoring nonstop, its huge mouthparts swayed and its limbs leaned in a little bit, it became clearer and clearer, Ye Rong, who couldn't bear the nausea, was forced to wake up.
When he opened his eyes, he saw Xu Jue standing by the bed with a cold face.
He was still as handsome and prudent as always, but pursed his lips tightly, with a look of boredom in his expression, staring at Ye Rong calmly, as if he was watching a clown who kept making people laugh, "Ye Rong, you are here again. What a trick."
Ye Rong didn't pay attention to what he said last time. He first listened carefully and was relieved to make sure that there was no scream that made his scalp tingle.
"Ye Rong, you can't finish." Xu Jue said again impatiently.
Ye Rong was wearing a fixed plate and a hanging bottle. His eyes turned around before falling on Xu Jue. His beautiful amber eyes were full of doubts, "What are you doing here?"
The gratitude that he expected to be frightened by being by his side did not happen, Xu Zhizhi was slightly surprised but did not reveal anything.
If you let him know that he left his new love to come to see him specially, he might have to put on the pitiful look of deep affection.
In fact, Xu Jue was extremely disgusted with Ye Rong's morbid and almost obsessive love for him. This love, like a shackle, would always make him feel like he had committed some heinous crime.
But he just doesn't love Ye Rong, what's wrong with that?
Xu Jue seemed to be looking at a bereaved dog, "I've said it many times, you won't let me have any pity on you by torturing yourself, don't insult yourself again."
Ye Rong's eyes were still wandering, and his interest seemed to be attracted by the chirping sparrows outside the ward.
A few sparrows scattered on the telephone pole fell for a while and then fluttered their wings and flew away. Ye Rong reluctantly turned his eyes back and looked at Xu Jue with a light expression, "After I leave the hospital, I will go to Jinshuiyuan to move things. Come out and be patient, it won't be long."
This time Xu Jue was really surprised. Jinshuiyuan was almost Ye Rong's bottom line, as if he could occupy himself if he lived there. No matter what kind of people he brought back, Ye Rong stayed as if he had taken root. there.
What new method is this time, hard-to-get?
Xu Jue glanced down at his watch, he still had work to do, and to see Ye Rong was also taking the time to look at the last bit of affection, since he didn't die, he didn't bother to talk any more, and left a sentence "as you" After that, only a back was left in a hurry.
Ye Rong turned his head and looked out the window again. This time, he was not looking at sparrows, but attentively looking at the new buds on the old tree by the window.
He meditated, spring is here, and it is time for everything to be reborn.
He thought in a daze, his tired body and mind couldn't hold it, and he fell asleep again with his head tilted.
He slept into the night, his out-of-focus eyes slowly gathered, and he was stunned to find that there was another person beside the bed.
Ye Rong opened his mouth to speak, but he hadn't drank water for a long time, his voice was like a creaking rusty gear, hoarse beyond words, and said to the gloomy child beside the bed, "Xiao Sheng, my throat is itchy, and I want to smoke. "
Ye Sheng surprisingly didn't swear, sat still, staring at Ye Rong on the hospital bed like a wolf cub, "Do you want to die?"
Seeing his expression, Ye Rong was frightened and frightened, and knew that he was really scared this time.
Ye Rong wanted to reach out and rub his meticulously groomed hair to comfort the little wolf cub, but unfortunately his forearm was broken and he couldn't move.
Ye Rong shook his head, his eyes were terribly dry, "I don't want to die, I still have Xiaosheng to support, who doesn't need money to go to college and marry a daughter-in-law."
Ye Sheng showed no mercy and sneered: "Take care of yourself, you don't have to worry about my affairs."
Ye Sheng gambled for a while, stood up and poured him a cup of hot water, put it on his mouth and blew it, then walked back and raised his neck to feed it gently.
Ye Rong couldn't help but sighed that the child he was pulling and growing up had finally grown up and could serve others in front of the bed, "Xiao Sheng is so gentle, my sister-in-law will be really happy in the future."
Ye Sheng's hands didn't stop, and he closed his mouth neatly.
By the time Ye Sheng packed up, it was not too early, but he had no intention of going back. Instead, he dragged his suitcase and took out a set of clean sheets and quilt covers, which he put on three or two times, and lay beside him without saying a word. hospital bed.
Ye Rong just wanted to ask him what he would do if he stayed here for school tomorrow, when he saw Ye Sheng turned out of bed again and took out a stack of books from the suitcase without thinking, "What do you want to listen to, choose one for yourself, and then go to sleep after listening to it. ."
This is Ye Rong's old problem. When his parents were gone, he couldn't sleep all night. After trying countless methods, he finally figured out a solution.
Ye Rong still asked, "How do you go to school tomorrow? It's not close to your school, so you can't miss the senior three courses."
Ye Sheng ignored him and repeated, "Which one to choose?"
Ye Rong knew that he couldn't beat this ancestor, so he picked out this collection of poems at random, and bought Shakespeare's sonnets a few years ago, which had been sitting on the shelf for ashes.
Ye Sheng hula hula opened the book, picked up a random article and read it without emotion.
The mellow tone of the young man was like a veil blown by the wind in an empty room, floating to cover the full moonlight.
"The most deformed monster or the most beautiful face,
Mountain or sea, day or night, crow or dove,
The eyes instantly shape your beautiful face.
My heart is full of you, nothing can hold it anymore,
In this way, my heart teaches the eyes to tell lies. "
After reading a song, Ye Sheng raised his eyes and found that Ye Rong not only didn't sleep, but stared at the ceiling with his eyes open, his voice was muffled, and he seemed to be full of fear, "I think I saw a spider, okay? Big one."
Ye Sheng raised his head and carefully searched for him. He found a circle of white as new walls. There was nothing at all. He walked over and covered Ye Rong's eyes, "There is nothing, just sleep in peace."
Ye Rong breathed a sigh of relief and drove Ye Sheng away. Seeing that he had to read the book again, he had to beg for mercy in time.
"Go and turn off the light, I'll recite a poem for you, and I will put you to sleep tonight."
Ye Sheng obediently slammed the light off, climbed onto the bed in the dark, covered the quilt and put on his hands and feet, and said indifferently, "Coax."
The night when the light is extinguished is the best protective color. Ye Rong finally couldn't help revealing a little invisible pain. She shook her lips and took a few deep breaths, her eyes glowing brightly in the night.
"Holding a dim butter lamp,
Walking through the fog,
Ghosts wandering the castle all night,
Finally, when the light of the sky appeared,
to die unintentionally. "
[The author has something to say: I am a dog blood lover, although it is late]