Chapter 104

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Yi Chuyang put on a sweater and found his mobile phone in the cabinet. Seeing that he was about to put on his shoes and leave, Xie Qingqi stopped him, "At least! Help me clean it up."

"what?"

Yi Chuyang finally turned around, Xie Qingqi tilted his head to look at him, still with a faint smile on his face, "Even if it's ONS, he didn't pat his butt and leave after eating and wiping it up?"

“…”

I don't know why, when heard Xie Qingqi use ONS to describe their relationship, Yi Chuyang felt irritated inexplicably...

He glanced at Xie Qingqi, then sneered, and said deliberately, "Didn't you ask for this?"

"..."

Xie Qingqi stared at him without saying a word, didn't turn his head away, laughed at himself, nodded and agreed: "That's right, it's really me, I do it myself."

"..."

Yi Chuyang didn't expect him to react like this, and he didn't know what to say for a while...

"..."

Yi Chuyang was silent, put down the phone, walked over, and hugged Xie Qingqi directly.

In the meantime, Xie Qingqi struggled several times, "Let go of me!"

"Don't move!" Yi Chuyang's attitude suddenly became tough, "If you don't want to fall, just hold tight."

"..."

Xie Qingqi put his arms around Yi Chuyang's neck weakly, and his head fell crookedly on Yi Chuyang's shoulder, letting him take him anywhere...

Obviously the relationship between the two is already like this, why is he? Why can't you be more cruel?

Wouldn't it be better to just throw him away?

Wouldn't it be better to let him fend for himself?

Why is it always like this?

Why do you always have to tug at him from time to time, then let go, tug on him again, and let go again...

Compared with cruelty, why is Yi Chuyang not more cruel than Xie Qingqi?

Or...is this all on purpose?

He clearly knew that as long as he did this, he could repeatedly poke a hole in Xie Qingqi's heart...

Bleeding non-stop, can't heal...

"Yi Chuyang, I hate you so much..."

Xie Qingqi was trembling all over, and Yi Chu's masculine hand on the bathroom door couldn't help but pause, "..."

He lowered his head, pursed his lips tightly, and opened the bathroom door without saying anything.

......

The bathroom is a humble shower stall,

Xie Qingqi tried to stand, but most of the weight was still on Yi Chuyang.

In order to prevent the only clothes on his body from getting wet, Yi Chuyang had to take off the clothes he just put on.

After all, the two of them have been honest with each other so many times. In this regard, Yi Chuyang is not ashamed.

Yi Chuyang held his waist with one hand, and tried to pull the switch of the electric water heater with the other hand, but there was no water? !

I guess this place has been deserted for too long...

Just when Yi Chuyang was thinking about what to do, Xie Qingqi suddenly said, "Above."

"What?" Yi Chu masculinely asked, and Xie Qingqi sighed, without turning his head, he said directly: "There is a button on it, you have to press it to get water."

The button is obvious, Yi Chuyang pressed it as soon as he raised his hand,

He tried again, and the hot water was rushing out...

"Really..." Yi Chuyang paused, "How did you know?"

Xie Qingqi closed his eyes tiredly, and said lightly: "Do you know so much?"

Just being said this once, Yi Chuyang felt very uncomfortable and replied, "Who wants to know? I'll just ask casually."

Xie Qingqi is too tired to argue with him anymore...

...

Yi Chuyang lowered his head and carefully and skillfully helped him get the things out of his body...

In the past, before Xie Qingqi regained consciousness, Yi Chuyang would carefully fix it for him.

This was the first time, when Xie Qingqi was sober...

This kind of foreign body sensation made Xie Qingqi's muscles tense.

After trying several times, it didn't go well. Yi Chuyang couldn't help but sigh and said warmly, "Relax, don't be so nervous."

"Who's nervous?" Xie Qingqi muttered: "It's too cold."

Yi Chuyang raised the water temperature a bit,

"It's too hot."

Yi Chuyang lowered it a little bit,

"..."

Seeing his indifferent attitude, Xie Qingqi felt very uncomfortable and said in a muffled voice, "I don't need you."

Immediately after. He weakly pushed Yi Chuyang, but unfortunately he did not push.

Seeing that it was almost over, Yi Chuyang helped Xie Qingqi to sit on the small stool.

Yi Chuyang held his wrist and bubbled him seriously, without lifting his eyelids, "I'll leave after washing."

"..."

Xie Qingqi pursed his lips and stared at the ends of his hair without saying a word...

his tenderness,

It was like an unreachable thin line that strangled Xie Qingqi's neck invisibly.

Slowly, little by little tighten,

Slowly, little by little, unable to breathe,

Slowly, bit by bit tormenting him...  

If this tenderness cannot always be his, then he would rather not have felt it from the beginning...

But,

Xie Qingqi's eyes suddenly turned red.

As long as he thinks, such tenderness will soon no longer belong to him.

Even in the near future, everything he once had will belong to Ye Jing.

in an instant,

The word 'grievance' directly filled Xie Qingqi's entire chest...

But he didn't say,

because he is afraid...

Afraid to say it, it will only be laughed at by him, just like he never dared to hope that someone would really love him.

But in fact, he can also want nothing, he can be obedient, he can be very obedient and obedient.

Just like listening to mother when was a child.

'Only obedient children will not be thrown away by parents. ’

And as long as he doesn't leave him, let him do anything.

......

Yi Chuyang carried him back to the bed, Xie Qingqi turned his head away from him.

Just after the quilt was put on, Xie Qingqi said, "Let's go."

After a slight pause on his elbow, Yi Chuyang continued to lower his head and tuck the quilt for him, "Let's go in a while."

“…”

Xie Qingqi didn't speak, and he didn't even want to see him leave in the end, so he chose to close his eyes directly.

He knew that he was pretending to be asleep, and Yi Chuyang stood there and watched him for a while, but Xie Qingqi still didn't mean to open his eyes.

Yi Chuyang just turned around and left...

'click'

At the moment when the door was closed, Xie Qingqi opened his eyes in vain.

"..."

The emptiness of the room, with a musty smell of dust, permeated all his senses.

The word 'despair',

Almost annihilating Xie Qingqi...

He sat up mechanically, stepped on the concrete floor with bare feet, walked slowly to the table, and picked up the unused fruit knife.

His face was looming on the surface of the knife,

He tilted his head and stared blankly at the sharp blade, muttering to himself...

"Mom, actually I always wanted to say that he doesn't love you at all, and you don't love me..."

"Now even he... doesn't love me anymore..."

"No one in this world will love me."

"What's the use of being pretty? It's not pleasing at all."

"But I've grown up like this, and it's just this...unpleasant look."

"I'm sorry, Mom, I let you down again."

"Looking at him, I still can't let go..."

He smiled, "But it doesn't matter, although I am alone, I will let him remember me as a person for the rest of his life."

"Yi Chuyang, now... I chose it for you."

"I choose, the third one."

"I let you and myself, but from now on, can you still let me go?"

......

The wild geese fly south, the morning dew is wet and cold...

Yi Chuyang walked down the narrow stairs and entered the intricate alleys, the broken walls and the cluttered paths. In such a cold and clear day, there were always a few shouts of scolding coming out of his throat from time to time. .....

"......"

In such a prosperous first-tier city, who would have thought that there would be such a dark place just separated by so many streets, and how did Xie Qingqi find such a place in the first place?

Yi Chuyang walked around for a long time before he finally found the exit. When he was about to leave, he met Granny Tang's store.

how come? !

Although the store has been closed, it has been there anyway, and Yi Chuyang recognized it at a glance.

Didn't expect Xie Qingqi to bring him here? !

Thinking about it now, the soup that dream about, even in dreams, and this chaotic alley, and even the button in the bathroom...

One by one, this incident made Yi Chuyang feel a little uneasy in his heart...

He always felt as if there was something else that he had missed, or that he had never noticed.

He stopped immediately, and there was an exit in front of him. As long as he walked out, he could return to the club within ten minutes.

And behind...

There was still no one passing by in the alley, this kind of coldness aggravated the anxiety in Yi Chuyang's heart...

He just took a small step forward, then stopped again, "..."

Hold! !

Yi Chuyang gritted his teeth, turned around suddenly and ran back——

......

When Yi Chuyang went back out of breath, the door was still open and not locked.

He pushed it gently, and the iron door creaked open...

The scene in front of him, Yi Chuyang will never forget in his life——

Xie Qingqi leaned against the bed, slumped in a pool of blood on the ground, his head drooping lifelessly on the edge of the bed...

What about the heart?

Where is my heart?

Why can't hear it? !

Why can't hear it! !

"save....."

Yi Chuyang can't make a sound anymore...

His feet seemed to be filled with lead, and he suddenly stopped listening.

He almost rushed over, tearing off the thin quilt and tying it twice at Xie Qingqi's blood-gushing wrist, suppressing the blood...

"Qingqi, Xie, Xie Qingqi..." Yi Chuyang patted his pale face due to excessive blood loss, "Xie Qingqi! Wake up, wake up, wake up... wake up. …”

Xie Qingqi really woke up...

"You, you're awake!" Yi Chuyang was suddenly overwhelmed with joy, "You, you hold on for a while, the ambulance will be here soon!"

Xie Qingqi hung the last nod of spirit head, moved a bit, the blade in his hand fell to the ground,

'bang 嘡-'

Xie Qingqi slowly raised his blood-stained hand and wiped his face, "You...cry..."

"what?"

Yi Chuyang was stunned for a moment, completely unaware of when he was crying.

He quickly turned his head away and wiped it casually, "Nonsense, I didn't."

Xie Qingqi smiled.

'That's right... He hates me so much, he should wish me to die quickly, how could he cry for me?’

'Is this an illusion before death?’

'Feel.....'

'not bad......'

Xie Qingqi's eyes darkened, and he fainted again...

"Qing, Qingqi!!! Don't sleep..." Yi Chuyang hugged him desperately, "Don't sleep!"

He began to babble nonsense, "Don't you hate me? Don't you hate me to death?! Come on! Hate me! You are like this, what are you doing to hate me!"

"Do you think that if you do this, I will remember you forever? I tell you I won't!!" Yi Chuyang cried, "If you leave, I will go to someone else the next day, so I won't remember you.Woolen cloth!"

"Xie Qingqi—!!"

"Live to me! You live to me...!"

"Xie Qingqi..."

"I... hate you too..."