Chapter 105

in the emergency room,

"The patient lost too much blood!"

The doctor walked in quickly, turned around and commanded: "Check the blood type immediately and check whether the corresponding blood bank has sufficient stocks."

A nurse stared at the instrument, her eyes suddenly trembled, and she shouted, "Doctor! The patient has suffered cardiac arrest—"

The doctor turned back immediately, "CPR immediately!"

......

'tick, tick, tick...'

......

Xie Qingqi seems to...seem to have a dream...a very long, long dream.

In the dream...he returned to a moment of warmth that he had rarely felt in his life...

It was the second week of Mom and Dad's funeral, and Xie Qingqi saw his grandparents for the first time.

It's the first time know,

It turned out that in order to pursue true love, my mother stole the family's money and eloped to Huadu City with my father.

If it wasn't for this 'accident' accident, they wouldn't even know that Xie Qingqi existed.

For more than ten years, my mother has never come back once, and she has never said that she is homesick.

But maybe it's because she really has a new home.

Knowing this, Xie Qingqi didn't even know what kind of mentality he should use to treat his mother.

What kind of person is she...?

Xie Qingqi seems to have never really seen through her...

In this way, he lived with his grandfather and grandmother, and studied in the nearest junior high school.

He lived a bland life every day. In the morning, his grandmother cooked hot noodle soup. At noon, he had two meat and one vegetarian meal. Grandma would always give him an extra half bowl of rice. After eating and drinking in the evening, he accompanied his grandfather to enjoy the cool outside the courtyard...

At that time, he really thought about whether he could still be a normal person?

It's a pity that God never seemed to really favor him.

In less than three years, grandfather and grandmother, who had always been tough, passed away within half a month...

That year, Xie Qingqi was less than sixteen years old...

at the funeral,

For the first time, he cried like a child.

Compared to being a child, being thrown out of the house by my mother is a thousand times more sad...

Xiao Ran also once hoped that Xie Qingqi could live in his house, but was still rejected.

In fact, Xie Qingqi has always known that the relationship between his aunt and uncle has never been very good, and they often quarrel.

Now he is not big, but not small.

It's like a drag that doesn't seem to do anything but cause trouble.

Besides, the aunt has already given him enough living expenses, and the rest is not something he can ask for...

Maybe he shouldn't have a home.

Xie Qingqi stayed in the town and was admitted to the third middle school that was just established at that time with excellent results, exempting all tuition fees for three years.

In less than a year, Xiao Ran ran away from home.

At that time, my aunt was in the process of getting divorced from my uncle, and she had no time to take care of him at all.

And Xie Qingqi has always been stubborn, even if he has no money to eat, he is not willing to ask for money.

A 17-year-old boy, relying on frugal food every day, 20 yuan, forcibly endured for half a month, and directly lost weight.

Fortunately, Xiao Ran had a delicate mind and cared about him every once in a while, only to realize that something was wrong.

Xiao Ran silently gave him living expenses, and carefully maintained Xie Qingqi's poor self-esteem, so that Xie Qingqi, a high school student with heavy studies, would not starve to death on the street.

But even if food and satiety are resolved,

With no friends, he hardly communicates with anyone except for Xiao Ran's occasional text messages.

With a withdrawn personality, he is like a monster who can only read.

After three years of high school alone, he chose the relatively unpopular psychology to learn how to understand human nature in college.

It's quite sad to say, what does a person really want to become?

It is necessary to learn how to communicate with people through such systematic study and training as he did.

until three years ago,

The principal of No. 3 Middle School personally called and invited him to attend the anniversary of No. 3 Middle School.

He didn't want to go.

I just thought that my grandparents had also left a dowry to my mother in the past.

According to the law, it belongs to Xie Qingqi now, but over the years, no matter how poor or hungry he is, he has never moved half of it.

Now, it's time to go back and get those properties in order. …

After learning to disguise, Xie Qingqi was really familiar with such large-scale speeches.

Because all his life, he was trying his best to separate himself from the past, and kept telling himself: 'Xie Qingqi, you are no longer the Xie Qingqi who lived in the unfinished building in the past, you are now Dr. Xie. ’

Even if it's just a disguise, he wants to force himself into this absurd world with his poor self-esteem...

As long as you don't think about it,

For him, it's like eating, and it's easy to handle.

It was his memory that was deeply embedded in his bones.

But when his eyes passed through the crowd, he saw Yi Chuyang at a glance.

He knew that he was done...

Yi Chuyang, who is so popular, looks like a sun and smiles so cheerfully.

Obviously, Yi Chuyang, like Xiao Ran, lived like a warm sun in winter.

always warm,

always passionate,

I have never experienced such a dark day in person.

He still remembered that when he was young, he hated the rainy season in Huadu City very much.

The rainy weather lasted for a month or two, and everything in the house was wet and could not be dried.

In a slum like that, even in the scorching July sun, the sun wouldn't be able to enter his room for a few hours.

And they have an innate beauty that Xie Qingqi has never touched in his entire life.

So, every day with Yi Chuyang.

Xie Qingqi felt as if he was exposed to the sun, warm, as if he had regained a new life...

.....

Huadu City,

The day the photo was exposed.

On the hillside of Huadu Nancheng, a major accident occurred, and a car was hit by a mudslide...

Two dead and one wounded.

"..."

The small mobile phone screen glows dazzlingly in the dim corridor of the hospital.

Xie Qingqi lowered his head, making it difficult to see his emotions.

I just kept mumbling in my mouth, and read the breakup letter in my hand over and over again...

'After you went back, I thought about it carefully. When I was with you at first, it was just out of curiosity and thought it was kind of fun. Now that I think about it, it's actually quite disgusting and embarrassing. That's it, just think that I am young and ignorant, and we should not contact each other in the future. When you meet on the road, pretend you don't know each other. After all, I want a face. ’

The last bit of self-esteem left by Xie Qingqi kept telling him, 'Xie Qingqi, you have to take it up and put it down. ’

‘There’s no need to be stalking, right? ’

Xie Qingqi's fingertips trembled slightly, but he still made the call after all.

'beep-beep-beep-'

'click'

got hung up...

When Xie Qingqi fought again, he had already been blocked.

just this moment,

His heart is like falling into an endless ice cellar...

How he hoped that the freezing cold air could instantly freeze his heartbeat.

That way, he won't be in pain anymore...

He suddenly stood up—

It was the first time in his life, the first time such a crazy idea appeared!

He thought, he wanted to go back!

I want to question Yi Chuyang face to face!

He wanted to... fight for himself again.

Just then, the operating room opened...

Xie Qingqi froze for a moment, and immediately regained his sanity, "Doctor, how is my brother?!!"

The doctor glanced at him, flipped through the medical records, and said in a flat tone, "The patient Xiao Ran has a comminuted fracture in his right hand, and the rest is basically fine."

Xie Qingqi stared blankly, "Bone, fracture?!"

The doctor collected the medical records and said, "This accident was very serious. The other two victims at the scene died directly on the spot. It is a miracle that he is like this."

But Xiao Ran...will die.

Xie Qingqi lowered his head and only asked, "Can you still raise it?"

The doctor reassured, "Take care of it carefully and wait for the bones to heal on their own. It won't affect your daily life. It's just that the pain is irreversible, and you can't do too detailed work in the future."

"Is there any way to save it?" Xie Qingqi still didn't give up.

"This..." The doctor looked at him carefully and suddenly brightened his eyes, "Are you... Doctor Xie Qingqi from the Psychology Department?"

Xie Qingqi paused, "How do you know?"

The doctor turned to a gentle smile, "You're very famous. When you go back to the scientific research conference, Professor Jiang will always mention you. Saying you're very talented would be a waste if you don't study orthopaedics."

"So, what else can I do?"

"I can only tell you that Jiang is always an expert in this regard."

Xie Qingqi lowered his eyes slightly, "Then I know, thank you."

The doctor patted Xie Qingqi on the shoulder, sighed, and left without saying anything.

"..."

Xie Qingqi stood alone in the corridor of the hospital,

dark night,

almost engulfed him...

He... decided to give up...

Under such a choice, he gave up the opportunity to go back to find Yi Chuyang.

Think of it as a love affair...

From the moment of separation, perhaps, they were doomed to miss...

Now, he only has Xiao Ran.

Even though he had no interest in orthopedics at all, Xie Qingqi finally changed his major for Xiao Ran.

......

The day when the results came out was probably the only thing Xie Qingqi was happy about in the past three years.

At the time, he also wrote in his diary:

'The professor said that this technology has made a great breakthrough and can completely solve the problems that occurred in Xiao Ran. I am very happy, for the first time in three years, I am so happy, it seems that I made the right choice. That's right...'

But...he really has nothing...

In the past three years, Xie Qingqi never made that call again, but he desperately hoped to be able to get through it just once.

He once wanted to embrace the sun, but was burned by it...

So much so that he began to fear all the ways that could give him warmth.

Because, in his eyes, all warmth is related to the sun.

But he still longed for a moment of sunshine to pass through the dilapidated hut...

.....

But the long-term restraint has made Xie Qingqi gradually numb and calm...

He didn't dare to stop, and he didn't dare to think too much about the past, because he was afraid that he would be obsessed with it, he would go to him like crazy, and he would not be able to stop thinking about the temperature on that person.

But God, but still want to play all kinds of witty jokes to him,

When Yi Chuyang reappeared, even with the risk of being humiliated, Xie Qingqi turned his head for him without hesitation...

Even if it was the southern wall, Xie Qingqi willingly bumped into it.

Therefore, when he knew that the letter of breaking up was not Yi Chuyang's original intention, Xie Qingqi's first reaction was not to collapse, but to be happy.

After all, from the beginning, Xie Qingqi did not expect to have the sun, but only hoped that he could stay under the sun for a little while longer.

But the sun is too warm...

So much so that he became more and more greedy.

He didn't want to leave, and was inevitably hostile to all enemies who might contend for the sun.

He thought he could disguise himself well, but he never wanted to throw away his armor and armor again and again for Yi Chuyang.

But once the mask is worn for too long, whether it is torn off or stuck back, it will not be easy.

Therefore, when facing Yi Chuyang's questioning,

Xie Qingqi is like a child who is panicking.

He didn't dare to tell the truth, he could only want to use countless new lies to fill those old lies, but he never thought that the gap would become bigger and bigger...

For him, he abandoned the self-esteem that he had carefully guarded for many years, but in exchange for it was contempt again and again.

look.....

What he loves is the arrogant, decent and confident Doctor Xie that he disguised.

Instead of the selfish, embarrassed, self-abased Xie Qingqi who is now exposed.

'Mom, I have exhausted all the means you have used to keep Dad. But it's useless, why is it useless at all? ’

‘He doesn’t want money, he doesn’t beg, and he doesn’t want me. ’

'At the end of the day, I'm really not likable at all. ’

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