Chapter 110

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Yi Chuyang stood in front of the unfinished building, and the phone in his hand kept ringing...

He glanced down and finally took it.

"Hey?"

"Oh, my ancestors! You finally answered the phone!!" Jiang Mingming's voice sounded very anxious, "Where have you been? Everyone is waiting for you to come back for training."

Yi Chuyang looked up at the unfinished building in front of him, very upset, "You guys start first, I'll go back later."

"Isn't it..." Jiang Mingming immediately complained, "I said Yangshen, no matter how powerful you are, you can't make it like that. It seems that there are still less than half a month before the global finals, why are you still all day? Are you in the mood to run outside?!"

"No, Xiao Chuyang, this doesn't look like you at all..." Jiang Mingming suddenly became suspicious, "You are more nervous than me about training, so when do you need me to urge you? To be honest ,what happened?"

"I'm taking a leave of absence."

At this time, Yi Chuyang had already walked upstairs.

"Are you asking for leave?" Jiang Mingming was still bitten to death and refused to let go, "No, Xiao Chuyang, you won't really guess it for me, right? You shouldn't, really go back to him, right? "

"..."

Yi Chuyang was silent, and the hand that had just touched the doorknob couldn't help but stop...

silence for a moment,

"I'll go!" Jiang Mingming stunned, "Aren't you? Yi Chuyang? Are you still the decisive Yang God on the field? When people posted up and down before, you didn't even look at them. Now people You've given up, and you're trying your best to catch up? Are you fucking wrong?"

"The situation has changed."

'click'

The door was twisted...

"Where can it change?"

Yi Chuyang suddenly lowered his head and called to him, "Jiang Mingming."

"do you know?"

He murmured, as if saying to himself, "It wasn't me that he gave up, it was himself."

"Ah, ah?"

Before Jiang Mingming could react, Yi Chuyang hung up the phone directly.

Pushing open the door of memory that has been sealed for a long time——

He looked at the still dilapidated room,

Determined to step in...

He must,

Must find!

Must find that long-lost truth...

...

In the small room, Yi Chuyang touched the black and mottled walls. He couldn't imagine that Xie Qingqi would grow up in such a small nest...

There are so many certificates on the wall...so many that Yi Chuyang is almost out of count...

Is it all his alone?

What's up... can't see clearly?

In such a small room, anyone can find anything if they have the heart...

Yi Chuyang easily found a diary in the small desk cabinet.

Made of black leather, new and heavy.

The delicate cover texture is out of tune with the dilapidation of the whole room, as if it came from an accidental landing from another world...

only……

too weird.....

There's no date on it? !

As far as he knows, every diary of Xie Qingqi will be marked with the year, even the latest one.

And this one, why not...?

He slowly turned the first page, the date was when they first met,

However, Yi Chuyang had already read the diaries of this period!

It is because of that diary that they will...

Yi Chuyang was silent,

Just because this memory is so deep, so deep... even the lines on the cover, he still remembers it to this day.

It must not be this!

It doesn't even match the cover color! !

He carefully looked at the first page, and it was clearly the same thing, but even the content inside was different.

This whole book seems to be just recording some things between them...

‘Today, I met a boy in the third middle school. He is very good, and his smile is very sunny. Just looking at him can make people feel warm. He was surrounded by everyone and looked very welcome. I don't know, will he notice me like this? Shouldn't you notice? After all, he is really dazzling...'

'In the afternoon, I met him again, Yi, Chu, Yang...a person who is really warm and sunny. However, I can still clearly feel that between me and him... from two different worlds. He and Xiao Ran are of the same kind. They are also so confident, free and easy, so proud that one can't help but be moved... Suddenly a little sad. Why is my world, but only me? ’

'I also want to try to be a person who can be seen by others, and I also want to be a sunshine. But the guys at the Gay Club just want to have sex with me. I hate my body so much, just like my father said, with my mother's blood, no matter what efforts I make, my bones will always be so dirty. Maybe that's the difference between us, and the reason why I'll never get on with him. ’

'The other day, I was drinking very hard, and another person who wanted to pick up the corpse came. Fortunately, I still have some consciousness, and in a daze, I seem to see my sunshine again. Still a lost sun. Maybe I want to have such warm sunshine too much. This is the sunshine that I have been longing for since I was a child.... But the sunshine didn't want me. But he finally seemed to notice me. ’

'In the Internet cafe, when I saw him again. He is playing the game, his hands are very fast, and the operation is also amazing. Rao is a confident and warm person like him. When he is framed by others as a cheater, he can pick up the stool without saying a word and confront others, and he is still a high-spirited sunshine. He was so good that I couldn't help the throbbing in my heart, but.... What should I do with me like this? ’

'I couldn't hold back after all...but he seemed to like me a lot, like me like that. ’

It seems that haven't written any more after a long period of time...

'He appeared. Like I never planned to open this diary again, everything was not in my plan... I was suddenly a little scared, and he broke into my life like this. But he, as written in that letter, doesn't want to have any more interaction with me at all....'

'His attitude was firm and it made me angry, and even for a moment, I really wanted to destroy him. If he got dirty too, wouldn't he.... wouldn't hate me so much? ’

'But I can't do it, I can't see him like me, living in a bottomless ditch all my life. So I can only try to control myself, don't lose my mind. At this time, it seems that only pain can make me extraordinarily awake...'

‘That day, Pan Hao found me. Turns out.....I really got the sun dirty. He...was not supposed to be contaminated by me, it seems that I caused everything. Like my mother said, I am really a broom star. Now...is it time for me to let it go? ’

' He said the breakup letter was not written by him. I don't know what kind of attitude I should show? This is something I haven't touched in my psychology class. He was obviously so sad...but why? I am so happy? He... doesn't seem to hate me, does he? ’

'When I touched the sun, my heart began to try to possess him. But when I took possession, I tried to make all the invaders disappear for me! ! Am I... being too greedy? ’

'I was discovered anyway... When he asked me about Xiao Ran, I didn't dare to say it. Because his relationship with Yi Chunuan is so good that I can't imagine how angry he will be when he finds out about all this... Will he stop them from being together? Will he really... break up with me? ’

'The misunderstanding is getting bigger and bigger...to the point, it seems that no matter how I explain it or try to please him, it's useless. He already... doesn't like me anymore...'

'I tried to push him, trying to protect my last bit of ridiculous pride. But Yi Chuyang is still Yi Chuyang... How could he be threatened by others? He just, just seemed to be utterly disappointed in me... well, he should have been disappointed in me by now. I would have... nothing to be proud of. Since you're already so disappointed, why don't you hate me more? ’

'I may have been really crazy that I really...really brought him here. Since there is no way to go, let's die together! Sure enough, I am my mother's child...'

'This should be an absolute stroke... It's almost, just a little bit. I really want to take him...but why...why let him go? Maybe he was just afraid that Huang Quan would be too cold, that he would not be able to stand it. Or maybe someone like Yi Chuyang should go to heaven. Like I'm doomed to hell, I can never take him or anything. ’

"It's really bad luck, I didn't die... but forget it, cutting my wrist, it really hurts..."

The back is blank...

"..."

Yi Chuyang hasn't recovered yet...

What the hell is going on here?

What is the past like? Can Xie Qingqi be so careful that he even has to write two diaries to cover up his true heart?

The bookcase is small,

So small that apart from this diary, there is only a rusted tin box left.

This seems to be... a box used to hold moon cakes during the Mid-Autumn Festival?

It's a pity that after a long time, the paint on the iron box has almost fallen off.

After Yi Chuyang opened the box, there were naturally no moon cakes in it.

Yes, just some scattered yellowish papers...

'Today, my father beat my mother again. My mother told me that only if I looked good, docile, and had better grades would make my father happier. ’

'I am already obedient and obedient, I have not been surpassed, I can be the first in the test every time. But why does dad still beat mom? ’

'When I shielded my mom for the first time, I thought I was going to be beaten by my dad, but I didn't...because my mom did it for him...that was the first time I was beaten and cried . I thought I was no longer afraid of pain...'

'Afterwards I was really not afraid of the pain. Be the best child, but... they all call me a monster... don't cry, don't make trouble, don't laugh...'

‘Should I learn how to smile? ’

"..."

Yi Chuyang's breathing became rapid...

He... actually didn't have the courage to read it...

He has always been afraid that angels will be stained with dust, but he never thought that angels also climbed out of the abyss of hell...