Chapter 64 I'm Not Cute

Mu Qing's face was deflected to one side by Tao Shuang's beating, and a clear red mark spread from the cheek to the auricle. But when he raised his head and looked at Tao Shuang, he smiled as if he didn't know the pain: "Don't you just want to hear my answer when you ask this question? A man walked out of me in the morning, and said Any other explanation?"

Tao Shuang looked at the almost frivolous expression on his face, her lips trembling violently. She raised her hand again, and Mu Qing turned his head subconsciously, but the expected pain did not fall on his face, but sounded opposite him.

"Snapped!"

He looked over in astonishment. Tao Shuang had unnatural redness and swelling on half of her face, but she still stood upright. Only tears fell from her eyes as if they had been broken, soaked her clothes, and swept in silently. on a light-colored rug.

Mu Qing was stunned.

He stood up bewildered like a child who had done something wrong, but he didn't know how to comfort Tao Shuang, and he didn't dare to approach her. She admitted her mistake: "Mom, don't cry, I... I was wrong, I'm sorry."

Tao Shuang took a deep breath, barely holding back her tears, ignoring the mess on her face, she just looked up at her son who was cautiously keeping a distance from her: "Why are you standing so far? Am I a beast of a flood, can I scare you into a so?"

Mu Qing looked at Tao Shuang's tearful and angry face, hesitated for a moment, and then said: "Don't you like me?"

Tao Shuang heard his words, but the anger that was about to come on his face suddenly stagnated for a moment: "What?"

Mu Qing thought she didn't hear clearly, and said again: "I know you don't like me, you didn't like me since you were young, and you don't want me to be close to you. So if I keep a distance from you now, you should feel a little better. "

His family was different from others, Mu Qing knew from a young age.

But when he was a child, he always didn't understand why the children in the community and in the school could hold their mother's hand or even get their mother's hug, and as long as he had the intention of getting close to Tao Shuang, the busy mother would immediately take it. Pick up your bags and find all sorts of weird excuses to leave the house.

He also tried to quietly hold Tao Shuang's hand when she was leaning on the sofa and closed her eyes, but Tao Shuang's subconscious refusal, as well as the horror and disgust when she opened her eyes to look at him, made him feel overwhelmed. Early to understand what sadness is.

Taking advantage of the gap between piano practice, he lay on the windowsill and whispered to Gong Shichen, who came over, that my mother didn't like me. Obviously it was just a statement of the facts, but Gong Shichen didn't know why his eyes were suddenly red, and he was crying with a wrinkled face, like a bun full of stuffing.

That night, Gong Shichen's mother brought the little crying bag and a large bag of toys to visit. Gong Shichen eagerly taught Mu Qing how to flip the switch of the little train. The moment the little train started running, Gong Shichen's mother touched Mu Qing's hair and gave him a warm hug.

——Halal and cute, Auntie likes you very much.

This was the first time he had received such straightforward kindness from an adult. It was strange, but he didn't hate it.

-Thanks Auntie, but I think you must be mistaken because I'm not cute.

Gong Shichen's mother was stunned for a moment, but she still smiled and patiently asked him why he was so sure.

Little Mu Qing looked at the little train that made a sound of "woohoo" and sighed sadly:

—If I was cute, my mother wouldn't dislike me.

Gong Shichen's mother suddenly turned her head, and when she looked back, the smile on her face was still warm:

- Where can a mother not like her child, your mother is just too busy. But it doesn't matter, auntie will come to play with you in the future...

At that time, Mu Qing naively believed her words. Until the year he graduated from elementary school, he accidentally discovered a dozen of psychological counseling medical records that Tao Shuang kept in the deepest part of the cabinet.

——Physical disgust for children, desire to vomit when approached...

- Intense discomfort that cannot be reconciled...

In the bright summer sun, he read through the thick stack of diagnostic instructions in the attic alone, carefully sealed them, and returned them to their original locations.

Since then, he has never approached Tao Shuang's side again.

even today.

The 28-year-old Mu Qing stood in front of her mother, who was still tearful, and said this matter lightly: "I have seen your medical records by accident before, and I know you didn't do it on purpose. So I—"

His voice was lost in a sudden embrace.

The fragrant fragrance filled Mu Qing's side, Tao Shuang raised his arm awkwardly, and patted him on the back awkwardly.

Mu Qing was silent for a moment, but gently pushed Tao Shuang away, and finished what he just said with a smile: "I won't blame you."

It's just a little sad in the summer when was twelve years old.

He looked at the pale Tao Shuang, and thoughtfully filled her with tea: "Drink a little and press it."

Tao Shuang looked at Mu Qing, who was sitting back opposite, and drank the tea in silence.

She put down the cup gracefully, looked at the son who had grown much taller than herself, and was also a stranger, straightened her back, and wanted to continue the topic just now, but the moment she opened her mouth, she could no longer speak. Controlling his emotions, he burst into tears.

Her husband, who had originally said that she did not want children, tricked her into getting pregnant under the urging of her family, but under the repeated persuasion of her family, she was forced to restrain her fear, listen to the strange movement from her belly, and endure from the high-rise building. The desire to jump up and down finally gave birth to this child.

Time has polished him into an excellent adult. He is gentle and polite, quiet and humble, but because of lack of enough family affection, he has always carried indifference and paranoia that cannot be integrated into normal people.

She used to think that when Mu Qing said that he liked men, it was against her, and it was absurd, ridiculous, and naive to change people around her. But today, she is very clearly aware of the fact that this indifference and paranoia stemmed from Her former husband was also derived from herself.

How can a child who has never received normal affection and attention know how to love normally.

Suddenly there was a little fluffy thing in her arms, and it was Mu Qing who pushed Yun Si into her arms. On the cat's head is a cute big pink hat, and a pack of unopened wet wipes is fixed with stickers on the hat. The color matching of blue and white clouds is as beautiful as a rainy summer.

She undid the pack of wet wipes with trembling fingers and wiped the marks on her face carelessly.

Seeing that she was finally calming down, Mu Qing breathed a sigh of relief, got up and walked to the kitchen, intending to make a cup of soothing hot chocolate and bring it to her, but he didn't take two steps, but suddenly a voice came from behind him. Tao Shuang's voice.

"Clear."

Mu Qing was stunned for a while before turning around hesitantly: "You, are you calling me?"

Tao Shuang nodded slightly, the hair on her forehead scattered and covered her face.

She whispered: "Qingqing, mother is sorry for you."

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