Chapter 65

Cheng Yan slowly released his hand, lowered his eyes, did not explain much, and repeated: "We don't want to be together anymore."

In fact, he never thought that he would say this to Song Yu in this life, but the plan always failed to keep up with the changes, as if he wanted to spend the rest of his life with Song Yu at first sight, and it did not delay them from reaching this point.

Cheng Yan doesn't dare to be so reckless now. He has learned to be cautious. The most important lesson that life has taught him is that he can no longer be so naive.

Song Yu didn't know what he was thinking. This sentence came out of Cheng Yan's mouth. He didn't know how to react. His brain was empty for a moment, and he couldn't think of any decent words. Song Yu kept bending over and getting closer. Yan's movements stiffened for a while and asked, "Why?"

Cheng Yan turned to start, he could still feel Song Yu's faint breath, Cheng Yan whispered, "It's nothing, I suddenly thought about it."

Song Yu clenched his fists, not knowing what he meant by suddenly thinking about it. This was the opposite of his behavior before he fainted. He was completely unprepared. Hearing Cheng Yan say this, Song Yu explained in a flustered tone: "No, Cheng Yan, what I said before was stupid, I didn't really want to part with you..."

"Maybe," Cheng Yan said, "I know you like me."

Song Yu didn't quite understand the situation: "What do you mean?"

He knew he liked him, why did he break up? Does he hate himself? His words were all stupid, he thought about it clearly, but Cheng Yan's face now... Song Yu couldn't think he was joking.

Cheng Yan said: "I like you too, the same, I am separated from you, as you said, you will cause me harm."

Song Yu's eyes didn't blink, and she looked at Cheng Yan in a daze. He was hurt by his words or something. In short, Cheng Yan overturned his words. Did he suddenly become afraid? Do you think he is scary?

Cheng Yan raised his head, his eyes fell on the bridge of Song Yu's tall nose, his decadent eyes were not angry, he said: "Now I want to say sorry to you, let's separate first, Song Yu."

He bit his name clearly and separated, and the tone had clearly drawn the relationship between the two.

Song Yu had nothing to say. He stood in front of the hospital bed and looked at Cheng Yan with many questions, but after the answer came out, he didn't know what to ask.

"Can I trouble you to call my dad?" Cheng Yan didn't seem to be affected, he suddenly raised this irrelevant question, and continued under Song Yu's warm eyes: "Let him pick me up, I don't like spending the night in the hospital."

Song Yu didn't speak, he just stared at Cheng Yan quietly, Cheng Yan knew that he was still looking at him, the atmosphere in the ward was anxious, the silence of the two was a dispute, and it was much more terrifying than making a fuss. .

Song Yu turned around and walked out.

At the moment when he turned around, Cheng Yan was finally willing to raise his head to see the tall and slender figure walking away.

The salt water hasn't finished hanging yet, but the smell in the hospital is really bad, and the smell of the bottles and jars of medicine makes people unable to sleep.

Song Yu didn't come back after he went out. The next person to enter the ward was his father, and he really helped him with this last favor.

Cheng Yan packed up his things and wanted to unplug the salt water that had not been lifted. Fortunately, Dad Cheng saw it and didn't let him pull it out. Instead, he carried the salt water on the road. Cheng Yan didn't answer a word.

"I didn't see Song Yu, where is Song Yuren?" Dad Cheng asked, "He called me, but he didn't see his shadow when he came."

There was silence in the car, and the co-pilot Cheng Yan's pale face was reflected in the rearview mirror. He didn't answer what Cheng's father said, so Cheng's father said, "uncomfortable?"

Cheng Yan said in a hoarse voice, "I'm sleepy."

Dad Cheng said, "Then I'll drive faster. You can sleep in the co-pilot. I'll call you later."

"It's okay, I can make it home." He is not sleepy, not sleepy at all, and his mind is extraordinarily clear, otherwise he would not be able to make such a rational decision, he likes to mess around, and when others don't want him, he also wants to beg others to want him .

That's not good at all.

He doesn't like a person's unrequited love. If this relationship doesn't go both ways, then his own persistence will sooner or later lose to that deliberate indifference.

Ask yourself, he is brave enough, but he doesn't like enough people, then the pain is worse than the pain, it's just the beginning, it's easy to end...

When she got home, Cheng Ma stood in the living room in her coat and waited. When she saw Cheng Yan coming back with a drip, don't mention Cheng Ma's opinion, "What's wrong? Her face is so pale."

"It's okay, Mom," Cheng Yan held on to a smile, Mom is not as big as Dad, and Mom is too careful, he didn't want her to sleep well, "I just got a little rain and caught a cold, and now I'm almost fine. already."

"It's almost the same, you can see your face for yourself, it's like a ghost," Cheng Ma hurriedly entered the kitchen, "Wait, I'll make you a bowl of hot soup before going to sleep."

"Mom, what time is it now, don't do it."

"Quick, five minutes, don't sleep."

Cheng Yan wanted to go back to his room to sleep. He was not hungry at all, but the movement in the kitchen had already begun, and he could not close his eyes at the moment.

Closing is also a fake sleep, he slept enough in the hospital.

Cheng Yan returned to the room, his father came in, took something and put him a salt water bottle, adjusted the speed, turned the salt water bottle and asked, "Are you uncomfortable?"

Cheng Yan shook his head: "It's not uncomfortable."

Dad Cheng put down his hands after adjusting, and didn't leave immediately. He looked down at Cheng Yan who was sitting on the sofa chair, "Are you in conflict with Song Yu?"

Cheng Yan touched the hand that was stuck with the medical tape, "No."

"No?" Dad Cheng said sharply: "I won't send you back without him? I didn't see him today when I went there."

"He has his own business."

"What's up?"

"I have no idea."

Dad Cheng wanted to ask, but Mom Cheng came in with the hot soup. The spoon hit the bowl and made a crisp sound. Mom Cheng told him, "Hurry up and drink it."

Cheng Yan sat up straight and held the spoon. He was not hungry, but he could still drink a bowl of hot soup. Cheng Yan turned to look at his parents, "Mom, go to sleep first."

Cheng Ma frowned and said, "How can I sleep like this?"

After finishing speaking, he said to Dad Cheng, "Go to sleep, I'm here."

Dad Cheng could sleep well and said, "That's okay, I have a meeting tomorrow morning. I'll go first. You have a day off tomorrow and look at him at home with a dead face."

Cheng Yan touched his forehead, "No."

Cheng Ma urged: "Go to sleep on yours."

Dad Cheng left, and only Cheng Ma and Cheng Yan were left in the room. Cheng Yan didn't want his mother to accompany him, looked at him or something, and said, "Mom, go to sleep, how can I be so delicate?"

"I'll go after you finish hanging." Cheng Ma touched the salt water bottle and told Cheng Yan to drink the soup quickly.

"I'll give you some water later, and you can take a hot bath before going to bed." My mother was attentive. Although she usually disliked Cheng Yan a lot, Cheng Yan always knew that his mother was all about him and this family.

After finishing speaking, Cheng Ma asked again about what happened tonight. Cheng Yan made up a random story, and didn't tell the story of standing in the rain, but just said that he caught a cold after a little rain.

"How old are you, can you learn to take care of yourself?" Cheng Ma worried: "Then I and your father are gone, what do you do, and who do you expect to serve you?"

"I'm just sick, I haven't been sick for a long time."

"Why, are you still proud?" Cheng Ma rolled her eyes, "I think you have a mild cold."

Cheng Yan sipped his head and drank the hot soup. He didn't answer. He said a few times just because he didn't want his mother to worry too much. His real mood now is that he didn't want to say a word.

"I'll put hot water for you, take a bubble bath and then sleep, it's comfortable." Cheng Ma walked out, and Cheng Yan didn't even have a chance to veto it.

After all this tossing, don't know what time it is. After taking a bath, Cheng Yan went back to the room and closed the door. It had just rained heavily and the room was cold and damp. Listening to the song, he did exactly that.

In fact, breaking up is not as terrible as he imagined. In fact, he doesn't have to do anything, doesn't he? Song Yu didn't like him that much, and he didn't like Song Yu that much either.

He thought so, but listening to songs for too long, staying alone for too long, and the sound of rain outside was too much for the scenery, he was really a little sad.

There is a process. Anyway, he is not alone in this world who will lose love. Anyway... he was just happy for a while. He didn't have Song Yu in the first place, and the short time he had had should be satisfied.

In the past, I always heard from my family that the person I talked to on campus would never reach the end. At that time, I was extremely puzzled by this kind of remark. Whether it was because of rebellion or because he thought so, he felt that love during the campus period was the best. The love is the love that can go to the end.

Because after walking into society, there will be more things to think about and consider. At that time, the two will be separated due to some external factors. It turns out that it is not. The important factor of whether it can go to the end.

He originally thought that he and Song Yu were the same, and there would not be so many differences. Now he no longer dares to claim to know who he is and who he is the same as. The other half of his soul has never been compatible and difficult to find. In the end of failure, there is nothing to regret, nothing...

There will be a bright future in the future, and more people will meet, he will have a good life, and so will himself.

What time is it? Everyone who should be asleep is asleep, right? Not advocating a person's cranky thoughts, Cheng Yan pursed his lips and laughed, thinking that he had become a kind of sentimental person? No wonder Zhao Yibai said he was sensitive, but how did insensitivity discover those things? How could Insensitivity come this far with Song Yu? There are good and bad.

Cheng Yan got out of bed and planned to turn off the lights, but before his feet landed, he stopped when he saw the tattoos on his ankles.

When he got this tattoo, he asked Song Yu to go with him for bad reasons. If Song Yu didn't know his intentions, he should know the English when he saw the string of tattoos he wanted to tattoo, right? He said he liked him a long time ago, how early?

The phone rang at an untimely time, interrupting Cheng Yan's immersive thoughts. He turned his head, retracted his legs, and folded one leg on the bed. When he saw the caller, his next move stopped.

He didn't sleep either.

Cheng Yan's Da Che Da Wu collapsed in an instant, the corners of his eyes were red, there was nothing, just a phone call, and his eyes were red in despair.

The phone rang for a while, and Cheng Yan seemed to have forgotten to answer. He was preparing himself mentally. He didn't know whether to answer the call or not, and he didn't know if they should still contact.

He thought very clearly, before this call came.

The call that never hung up proved the caller's persistence. Cheng Yan was helpless. Not bad for this call, he rubbed the corners of his eyes and adjusted his voice so that he didn't sound so vulnerable before he clicked to answer.

No one spoke, and the silent voice echoed Cheng Yan's weak breathing. Although no one spoke, they all knew that the other party was listening.

Cheng Yan was used to taking the initiative in the past. Whenever and wherever he was, he was the one who took the initiative. Before he was with Song Yu, he took concrete actions for his liking. He was not a coward who only played with secret love. He was very brave in the aspect of liking Song Yu, but now that bravery and initiative dissipated tonight when the relationship was suspended.

Cheng Yan didn't say anything, saying that he did it deliberately, or he didn't know what to say, but he was really tired after taking the initiative for a long time. He thought what could he do if he didn't take the initiative? Active is the end, not active?

In the end, it was Song Yu who broke the silence. His first sentence was a polite greeting. When he asked him if he had arrived home, Cheng Yan said it. , is the meaning of this call.

Song Yu asked, "Are we over?"

Cheng Yan cherished his words like gold: "Well."

There was another silence, and the thoughts of both parties did not stop. One was thinking about what to say next, and the other was thinking about what he would say next. Song Yu waited for a while and said, "I'll ask you again, why?"

The answer must be puzzling. There are so many things in this world that are incomprehensible, and there are only one or two things that you can't understand. Cheng Yan said, "As I said, I'm afraid of you, I'm afraid of you. When I get sick, I am afraid that you will disturb my life, I am afraid that you will hurt me, and I am afraid that you will not look like a ghost, don’t you think so too?”

Song Yu sighed, as if he knew that this was not the real answer, he denied: "Cheng Yan, don't be angry with me, the last time, let me ask you again, why?"

Okay for the last time, Cheng Yan didn't want to talk to him all night about this issue, how could he express that he would understand? After thinking about it, Cheng Yan simplified his words and expressed his current ebb and flow: "Deputy team, I don't want to like you anymore."

The rain outside was quieter, and Cheng Yan's words echoed in the room, enough for the person on the other end of the phone to hear without hindrance.

What Song Yu thought Cheng Yan didn't know, he only heard a slight heavy breath from him, and then Song Yu asked: "Okay, then I want to ask, does the breakup need both nods to be the real end?"

Cheng Yan was silent, not that he agreed, he just wanted to know what Song Yu wanted to say.

However, his words are destined to make him sleepless all night, Cheng Yan should never have to, just hear this sentence and answer the call.

Song Yu said loudly: "Then listen carefully, Cheng Yan, I don't accept your proposal to break up."

After Song Yu finished speaking, he repeated these four words emphatically: "I don't accept it."

He has never seen Song Yu who is messing around, will he be a fool too?It would be surprising and funny in normal times, but not tonight, today is a serious night, Cheng Yan did not indulge himself at all, and said coldly, "Why?"

"I can't accept your indifference, I can't accept without you in the future, I can't watch you stay away from me and remain indifferent, I can't imagine that you and I will go our separate ways in the future, and I don't even think that you will be with another person in the future.People form a family." Song Yu gave him the reasons one by one: "I need you more than I thought, I'm sorry Cheng Yan... I just want to like you, okay?"