Chapter 73

Song Yu's breath was sticking to his face, and his tone was heavy enough. Cheng Yan couldn't be naive again, and he would challenge his patience and bottom line again.

Song Yu looked at him like this, and knew that he was afraid, so he didn't tease him anymore, turned to one side, and lay down.

Cheng Yan finally breathed a sigh of relief.

Song Yu put his arm on the back of his head again, but Cheng Yan couldn't sleep anymore. He rolled over, sat up straight, and sat madly in the dark night.

Song Yu turned on the light, and finally saw his face as if he had been frivolous.

Extraordinarily interesting.

Song Yu put her arms on her pillow, looked at Cheng Yan's blushing ears and said, "Have you never thought about it?"

Cheng Yan rolled his eyes and dared to say that he picked up the blanket and smashed it in Song Yu's face, then moved to the edge of the bed, found his shoes, lowered his head and fiddled with it for a while before leaving.

Song Yu took off the blanket and looked at him like this, not to mention how happy he was, but he had to be coaxed. He also sat up, got out of bed, and grabbed Cheng Yan's arm after he went out. .

"Why are you going so late?" It was about one o'clock in the evening, the dogs were all asleep, and Song Yu grabbed Cheng Yan.

Cheng Yan turned his head and said angrily, "What's your business?"

After he finished speaking, he let go of Song Yu's hand and ran out with his shoes on.

In the middle of the night, it made people sleepless. Song Yu couldn't lie down. He followed him out and watched Cheng Yan walk forward. Song Yu was not familiar with this place, so he just followed, and after a while, He took a look at the light on his mobile phone, as if he had come to the river.

There are many rivers in the village, one family after another, and everyone has a share. The riverside is also very noisy.

"I don't want to jump into the river." Song Yu joked.

Cheng Yan didn't have time to joke with him, and his psychological quality was not that low. Because of this, he jumped into the river and felt that he could breathe here, and he could breathe.

Coming to the river and squatting, like a poor worm who ran to the side to digest alone, Song Yu came to him and squatted down, reaching out to touch his head, but Cheng Yan slapped him away.

"Am I being too nice to you?" Cheng Yan said, "I didn't listen at all."

Song Yu pretended to be confused: "What?"

Cheng Yan was about to have a good talk with him. He angrily said, "Break up, I told you we broke up, and after I told you... we went our separate ways. What's going on now?"

And kiss me.

He didn't say this sentence, he felt that it was coquettish, and it was really inappropriate, so he kept silent.

Song Yu looked like thinking, "I seem to remember, I also told you something, I didn't nod my head, it means we haven't broken up yet, I said I can't accept going your separate ways with you, no contact anymore, now there is Isn't it supposed to be involved?"

"You are arrogant," Cheng Yan said: "Why are you so unreasonable? You were the one who broke up first, and you said you wanted to suspend the relationship with me. Now I do as you wish, and I agree to suspend it with you. Why doesn't it count as a breakup if you don't accept it? It's you who said you like me, and it's you who pushed me away."

It's not his fault that he made trouble like this. It was obviously Song Yu who forced him to do this, but now it's unreasonable. He Cheng Yan doesn't want to continue liking him, can't he? Only he has the right to stop? What the world.

Song Yu was silent for a while. They couldn't escape this topic. It was because Cheng Yan was too emotional, and he didn't dare to mention it. Now he said it. It was just an opportunity. Song Yu said, "I'm sorry."

Cheng Yan said: "I don't want to hear sorry."

He is also a shrewd person, Cheng Yan only found out today that he would be so difficult to deal with.

He didn't want Song Yu's apology, it didn't make any sense, he had to understand the problem, he didn't know what he was mad at him.

Song Yu pursed her lips, turned off the light on her phone, listened to the frogs croaking in her ear, raised a tone, and said seriously, "I'm sorry first, I can't escape this sentence."

Cheng Yan turned his head to look at him.

Song Yu lowered his eyes and said, "Cheng Yan, I hid you before, really because I thought you would be afraid, no one is not afraid, what you see now is the normal me, the me who can still control, if there is One day I really got to the point where I couldn't control it? I went crazy, I beat people, and when I didn't recognize my six relatives, I would definitely scare you."

Cheng Yan knew his scruples. He was too persistent, disappointed, and angry that day, so he didn't listen to anything, and then he took the slant and forced Song Yu to choose.

"You can accept me because you have the courage. I am very grateful for your intention, but this is not the reason why I can convince myself. You don't know how serious my condition is once it deteriorates. To be honest, I don't know how it will be. It won't be good, what if, if I'm so serious that I don't know anyone and I can't help hurting you, I can't bear the consequences," Song Yu paused: "You know that every time I see you playing billiards When you look high-spirited, when you beg me, you look pitiful, I want to hurt you, time and time again, I am frightened by this thought, will I be the next Tan Tingting? Will I become a Madman? The future I gave you has no guarantee at all, how dare I want you to be with me unscrupulously?"

Cheng Yan didn't say a word. He listened to Song Yu's explanation and understood in his heart, but he didn't know he would have such thoughts. No wonder, no wonder in the billiard room, his eyes were bloodshot red when he kissed him several times, no wonder he He would tremble when kissing him, at that time...he was having a seizure.

Cheng Yan lowered his head and said solemnly, "I told you, I'm not afraid..."

"But I'm afraid," Song Yu said. "You're not afraid because you won't hurt me, but I'm different. I'm a ticking time bomb. If I blow you up, once, once is enough to destroy you."

He can still control his emotions these years, but these years do not mean that in the future, his condition will become more and more serious, and his violent complex will only become more serious. Want to get close to him, this instinct is more difficult to control than the disease.

"What about now?" Cheng Yan blinked, "You're approaching me again, what is it?"

Song Yu clenched his fists, his face was worried and helpless, "I don't want to do this, I don't want to hurt you Cheng Yan, but at least now, I can't convince myself to stay away from you, I'm sorry, I'm really selfish, I shouldn't be with you entangled, but..."

Song Yu held her forehead, feeling helpless when she thought of such a contradiction.

Cheng Yan watched his movements through the moonlight, he was also very tangled, wasn't he? In fact, this matter is very simple. It is Song Yu who has magnified it. If he really does not want to have any relationship with Song Yu, Song Yu's entanglement is wrong, but the fact is not, he is willing, he did not say that he is afraid, Why did he make this kind of thing so complicated?

In the past, Cheng Yan thought that Song Yu was very smart, and he was quite open to it, but he was not clear about this matter, could he not be angry? Saying such words, to push him away, to break up with him, can Cheng Yan not be angry for such an unconvincing reason for breaking up?

"Song Yu, do you know what I'm mad at you?" Cheng Yan finally started chatting, what he said in the past was really angry, and he also knew that Song Yu didn't believe the reason he gave him for breaking up, and when I said this today, Cheng Yan didn't either. Avoiding again, he said: "I'm angry with you for not being firm, and I'm angry at you for being shaken easily. I never feel that the best relationship is smooth sailing. I think the best relationship is when we have the same heart, and when we meet in life. All kinds of problems, all the way through hurdles, after eliminating all difficulties, I still want to come together in the end."

Song Yu stared at Cheng Yan's facial features.

Cheng Yan lowered his head and said, "Like before they said that I have nothing to be worthy of you, and they said that you and Su Su are so talented and beautiful, that they were a match made in heaven, and I was shaken at that time. I have never been firm enough. I was superficially false and mad and collapsed when I met a little fact, but then I figured it out. There will always be people who match you. They may be better than me, and they are taller than me. Well, they are more capable than me and can compete with you, but what if they are not chosen by you? Why did you choose me, because you like me, I should respect your heart for me, and should Look up to yourself more and be more confident, because if someone else is good enough, why do you have to fall in love with me?"

Song Yu chuckled lightly.

"When my mother married my father at the age of seventeen, my father had nothing, and my grandmother did not agree with this marriage, because my mother was too persistent. She said that she was interested in my father's character at that time, and felt that in the future She won't suffer after following him. It turns out that she bet right. Although my dad is not rich or famous, he has treated my mother like a day for ten years. Xian will buy her gifts..." Cheng Yan raised his hand and touched Song Yu's face: "I don't know if I can bet right, but I hope we end up because one of us doesn't like it, not For any other reason, because of that, we will regret it, right? When we grow up, you get married, or I get married, will we think, if I didn't give up back then, if we insist on going It's fine at the end, I'll just be a little firmer, you can guarantee that we will give up easily, because of this inferior reason, won't you regret it in the future?"

The moonlight was sparse, hitting the clear eyebrows, Cheng Yan's face seemed to be flashing, and there was a fine moonlight falling on his face, leading Song Yu to touch his warm face.

"Song Yu, I don't want to care if I bet right or not, and I don't want to put pressure on you not to live up to me, I just want you to know one thing, if you like me now, you must like me well, you can not As reckless and brave as I am, but you can't back down easily, you can't say goodbye easily, if it's just me running towards you, if it's just me holding your hand tightly and you give up easily, I will doubt, You don't really like me, at least not that much, you know?"

This is the reason why he is angry, this is the reason why he cares, it is the reason why he didn't want to face Song Yu in those days, if he knew that he didn't like you that much and he didn't want to have a future with you, why would Cheng Yan want to meet him? to this person? Everyone has temperaments and emotions.

Song Yu finally understood that he really wasn't careful enough, and then felt even more guilty. He looked into Cheng Yan's eyes and asked cautiously, "Then now... do you still think so?"

Cheng Yan shook his head frankly.

"Because you came to me, is it ridiculous? Because of this, I won't be so stupid that I think the person who traveled thousands of miles to eat this jealousy has no purpose. He is so anxious that his eyes are full of thoughts when he sees me." Cheng Yan His fingers rubbed against the corner of Song Yu's eyes, and those affectionate eyes were exuding a smile.

"You have learned to speak love." Song Yu chuckled.

"Don't you want to hear it?"

"No," Song Yu corrected: "I don't think I deserve to listen."

Cheng Yan also followed with a laugh. After so many days, he finally cleared the congestion in his heart, and finally managed to keep the clouds open to see the moon. Tomorrow will be a sunny day, because his mood today is already gone. Feel the scenery of tomorrow.

"I understand your intention, then let us be firm with each other. You have to hold me tightly, and I won't let go easily," Song Yu said softly, "Because I really... like you very much."

Cheng Yan said: "I promise you, Song Yu, don't be afraid of those emotions, you will definitely be fine, even if not, I won't feel bad about you, I will only worry about you, I hope you remember that from the first time I saw you, I love you uncontrollably."

Song Yu's eyebrows rolled down, and she smiled softly.

"Well, I remember," Song Yu said, "let's go, go back to sleep, it's getting late." He stood up, lifted Cheng Yan's arm, and pulled him up, Song Yu grabbed his hand, Turn back on the narrow road by the shore.

At night, Cheng Yan finally lay on the bed, but he did not relax. Instead, his nervous head became dizzy, and he tightly grasped the blanket in his hand.

"Can you?" Song Yu raised his head from him.

Cheng Yan's brows were tense: "I'm afraid..."

Song Yu smiled in a low voice: "Don't be afraid, I won't do anything too much. It's going to be a long time in Japan. I'll make you hurt again at the right time, in a romantic enough atmosphere, after everything is done."

Cheng Yan grasped the blanket tightly, his face flushed red.

The strawberries on the cabinet next to him were not finished, and bright red marks were planted in his neck. He gently stroked Song Yu's hair and gradually relaxed.

Waking up tomorrow is a brand new scenery, it is a hot and tempting summer.

Hot people are itching.

Hot people tremble.