Chapter 84

Last night's sleep was not stable at all, mainly Song Yu. He seemed to be awake all the time. Every time Cheng Yan woke up, Song Yu didn't fall asleep, so this morning, he found that Song Yu's eye circles were tired again.

On the way to the breakfast shop, Cheng Yan couldn't help but ask.

"What's the matter?" Cheng Yan touched the corner of his eyes and said worriedly, "You've been sleeping too badly recently."

He can be so bad when he is still by his side, what about when he is not there? Is it more serious? He couldn't sleep like this, what was it that shocked him like this.

"It's okay," Song Yu held his hand and paid the money. He wasn't in the mood to eat breakfast, and he didn't drink a single sip of his soy milk, and said, "It will be fine in a while."

"It will take some time," Cheng Yan said. "It's been a long time. It won't work like this. You have to go to the hospital. I'll accompany you after school at noon."

"What can the hospital do if I don't sleep well?" Song Yu said, "I'm emotionally unstable, I'm really fine, I've had it before."

His violent complex has not been aroused. Now it is only a mild attack, which is just emotional instability, which will lead to sleep problems. Excessive excitement and loss are easy to insomnia. Song Yu has been used to it for so many years.

"Have you been receiving treatment recently?" Cheng Yan asked him, "Your attending doctor... What did he say?"

Cheng Yan was very careful in using words in this regard. He had never been to a psychological club or anything, and he didn't know what to call those people.

"I haven't watched it recently," Song Yu said. "I'm too busy. Competitions, college entrance examinations, time will only get more and more tense, and it's not a real attack, just emotional fluctuations. It's really okay, don't worry too much."

"How can I not be worried? It's just emotional fluctuations now, what if it gets worse? You promised me that I would receive good treatment, and it would be irresponsible for me to not pay attention to myself," Cheng Yan asked, "Please invite me in the afternoon. Fake, I'll accompany you there."

Song Yu said helplessly, "Are you really here?"

Cheng Yan took a bite of the bun: "Well."

Must go, no room for negotiation.

Song Yu did not refuse, and agreed to ask for leave in the afternoon.

The game has just passed, there are still things in the school team, it seems to be in charge of handover and so on, because the senior year is about to take the college entrance examination, such as Song Yu, Han Cang, and Su Su, they are going to start selecting the next batch of players who will bear the heavy burden of the school team. , Everyone gathered in the team, and they all arrived today, not a few, obeying the arrangement of the school team.

Susu is the gold assistant in the school team. The girl is a little adjustment in the tired training of a group of rough men. Not to mention she is a beautiful woman. She will be eclipsed by the school team, but Susu has already trained the next one. The assistant, who is also a girl, is standing in front of everyone and introducing herself. She is not tall, and she is not amazing. Compared with Su Su, it is a lot worse. It will definitely make many people feel a sense of gap, because she is too familiar with Su Su. , I can no longer accept other people to take up this role, but fortunately the new assistant has a good understanding of the rules of basketball, and she can bear the burden of the team assistant.

"Don't bully her," Susu said caressingly, she was with a group of boys, and she knew a lot about some of their psychology, "For my sake, I have to take care of her, Tingting likes basketball very much, she will definitely be able to help you. A lot of things."

Before anyone could answer, Song Yu's eyes became uncomfortable. He glanced at the new assistant and asked in a deep voice, "What's your surname?"

"Ah?" The new assistant hurriedly said: "Oh, deputy team, my surname is Lin, Lin Ting."

"Oh." Song Yu turned his head and focused his attention on the list in his hand again. He sat there and looked at the senior high school players in the school team who were leaving from today.

Cheng Yan frowned slightly, he stood in the team, his eyes focused on Song Yu who was sitting at the table on the side.

"Then we will announce the new captain. This is decided by our school team," Han Cang said. "Zhu Fei and Master Wang, please list them."

The two looked at the crowd, and for some reason, they walked out of the team and came to Han Cang.

"Zhu Fei is an old team player. After so many years in the school team, he has a clear understanding of the rules and arrangements of the team. We decided to let Zhu Fei lead the team and Master Wang as the deputy team. Does anyone have any objections?"

Master Wang's strength is well known, and his character is also good, but he is a newcomer after all, so it's a little bit different, but this is the arrangement of the school team, and no one has anything to say. As for Zhu Fei, he is just like what Han Cang said. , veteran players, experienced, can afford this burden.

Everyone said no, and Cheng Yan was also a little surprised. He thought Zhou Xikuo would be somewhat of a bad guy, because Team Han asked him about it before.

But Master Wang is not bad either, he is a top-notch figure among the freshmen.

"Then it's settled," Han Cang said, looking at everyone, feeling a little sad, he hasn't left yet, but this place that has been staying for so long will disappear from their life and future, he is waiting, waiting Don't know anything, goodbye? Couldn't wait, and didn't like such a pretentious end, Han Cang turned his head and said, "Do you have anything to say?"

He asked Song Yu.

Everyone looked at Song Yu, who had not spoken much, with anticipation and pleading in their eyes. What did they plead for? Want the deputy to cheer them on? Give them a little encouragement, give them a warm farewell? Anything is possible. In the school team in the south of the city, how many people believe that Song Yu is, how many people want to be, and how many people work hard.

"Then..." Song Yu turned the pen in his hand, glanced at every familiar face, and some unfamiliar faces, he gave everyone a slight smile, "Work hard, don't smash the people in the south of the city. Shop sign."

Ye Qingjian: "Can't you say something nice?"

Everyone: "Yes, the deputy team, they are all gone right away, and they are still so cold."

Song Yu laughed, stood up and said, "What's the use of being nice? Can a few words make your game soar? If not, just keep the bottom line for me, Chengnan's dominance in the basketball world, I don't want to be the only one. In our year."

The words are not good, but there are also expectations. This is the team that Song Yu has been with for a long time. Everyone here is gathered for the same goal and because of love. He does not know if he will meet such a pure team in the future. and people.

"At the end of the day, let's talk about a nice vice team," someone whispered: "Normally, people in our team don't dare to talk to you. It's the last day, and I've gathered up my courage. Is the goal okay?"

What Song Yu said is their goal. Some people worship him like this. It is not an exaggeration to say that Song Yu is a star in the south of the city. He has indeed achieved what few people have achieved at a frivolous age.

"Then we will meet at the summit," Song Yu said. "We will meet on the court in the future. I hope you will show mercy."

I hope that at that time, they will all go further and further on this road, tie him, surpass him, and become opponents or teammates.

The farewell is here. The men's team lacks a lot of warmth. It's not that they are too indifferent, it's just that many things are unwilling to express in words.

Han Cang took Zhu Fei Wang Shi and others to a meeting, and Song Yu also went. Noon was not the time to practice ball. There were a few volunteers left in the arena to practice, and the others went back to the dormitory.

Cheng Yan didn't leave, he sat beside the ball rack with the basketball at his feet rolling around.

Zhou Xikuo said, "Don't go back?"

Cheng Yan looked up and saw him, "I'm waiting for someone."

Zhou Xikuo guessed accurately: "Deputy team?"

Cheng Yan nodded.

Zhou Xikuo held the ball stand, raised his hands above his head, and inquired, "You and the deputy team are really close."

Zhou Xikuo's performance during this period of time had a clue in his heart.

Cheng Yan didn't deny it. Even if Zhou Xikuo made it clear now, he wouldn't deny it. Song Yu didn't want to hide him for a lifetime, and he didn't want to be an underground couple.

"The clothes aren't yours, right?" Zhou Xikuo thought jumping, focusing on Cheng Yan's body, "It doesn't fit."

Cheng Yan looked down and explained embarrassedly: "Song Yu's."

Zhou Xikuo was a little surprised and didn't speak for a long time.

Cheng Yan changed the subject, remembered the arrangement of the Korean team, and took the initiative to mention: "I thought you would be elected captain."

Zhou Xikuo came to Cheng Yan, flicked the ball in his hand, moved to sit under his butt, "Why?"

"Because the Korean team asked me about you two days ago." Cheng Yan didn't mention this to Zhou Xikuo, and it was surprising that he knew there was no Zhou Xikuo after the arrangement was made today.

"It's impossible to be the captain, it's impossible for a newcomer to lead the team, and the arrangements in the school team are not clear, so it's okay to be a deputy," Zhou Xikuo said: "The Korean team talked to me two days ago, and I know this To be honest, Zhu Fei is an old man, and although Master Wang's ability is not as good as that of the deputy team, he is also top-notch in the team and is convincing."

"You really think about it."

"Really," Zhou Xikuo smiled: "I've never been an official before. If you let me go up, I'm afraid it would be a shame."

Cheng Yan smiled at him, Zhou Xikuo touched his clothes and said, "Are you asleep?"

Cheng Yan patted his hand away, his expression changed suddenly, and he said politely, "Go away."

It made Zhou Xikuo laugh.

He had an appointment to see the doctor. Cheng Yan waited for a while, but before anyone came out, Zhou Xikuo went back to the dormitory. He sat under the basket by himself. After another ten minutes, he finally saw those people disbanding the meeting. But only saw Master Wang, Su Su and others, not Song Yu.

Cheng Yan walked over and asked Su Su, "Is the meeting over?"

"Well, it's over, I haven't left yet."

"I'm waiting for someone." Cheng Yan didn't say more, and after chatting with Su Su about something unrelated, he walked to the conference room.

The door of the conference room was open, and Cheng Yan was about to enter when he heard a voice.

"What about Cheng Yan?"

It was Han Cang. Cheng Yan didn't want to eavesdrop on other people's speeches, but Song Yu was the one who answered the call. He couldn't keep up and leaned against the wall, listening to his own topic.

"Look at him, he can stay if he wants to, I can't force him." Song Yu's voice, what are they talking about? Why is it still related to him? Cheng Yan was cautious.

After being quiet for a while, Han Cang said again: "You asked him to choose him, but after the change of office, no one can protect him anymore. If he can't keep up, he will be eliminated. You must be clear about this."

"I know."

"It's fine if you know, let's go, it's all gone."

Cheng Yan listened to the movement of the chair being pulled open, and was about to run, but the distance from Song Yu to the door was not the same as the distance from him to the next corner. He couldn't escape. As soon as Cheng Yan turned around, the people in the conference room came out. Now, Song Yu and Han Cang were standing together, and his somewhat unexpected voice sounded behind him: "Cheng Yan?"

Cheng Yan really wanted to find a hole to burrow into. Every time he did something like this, he would be caught by Song Yu. It was like a law. Cheng Yan turned around slowly, there was nowhere to escape, and he confessed. Said: "I'm here... to find you."

Han Cang spread his hands and looked at Song Yu without saying anything.

The door of the conference room was closed again, leaving Song Yu and Cheng Yan sitting opposite.

This matter is Song Yuli's fault, his tone is not very comfortable, and he worries: "Are you all right?"

Cheng Yan shook his head. He didn't blame anyone, but was a little surprised. It turned out that he still couldn't keep up with him. He thought he was already on the same frequency as him, "So... I wouldn't have been selected, right?"

Song Yu couldn't bear to say it, but after hearing the words, he couldn't hide it any longer, "Almost."

It's a good euphemism to say, it's almost, in fact, it's a lot worse, don't have to protect him like this, his psychological quality won't be so bad.

"I'm sorry." Cheng Yan clasped his hands together.

"I'm sorry for what?" This matter was decided by Song Yu and Han Cang. It was Song Yu who let him go through the back door. It had nothing to do with him. He didn't know about this matter. Where did he come from?

Cheng Yan said in a low voice, "Because I come in, I will squeeze out a person's place."

Maybe someone else who should have come in, someone with strength above him, was not selected because he occupied the spot and went through the back door? Chengnan's basketball team is so difficult to enter, so many people want to enter, he really shouldn't be arrogant and think he can enter, he should have suspected it earlier, everyone said that he couldn't enter, because his strength is not at this level, You can't compare with Zhou Xikuo and the others, you shouldn't be on the school team.

And he didn't win that tryout either, and even though he played well, he couldn't compare to the good guys on the other teams.

Song Yu heard the sound but smiled faintly, "You think too much, you didn't squeeze anyone out of the spot."

Cheng Yan raised his eyes.

Song Yu explained: "Of course I know it's unfair to do this. I can't make fun of other people's pursuits and dreams. With so many people trying to get into the school team, how could I let you take someone else's place?"

Cheng Yan still didn't quite understand.

Song Yu eloquently said: "Listen to me, I know you want to join the school team, I have confirmed with you several times, you insist on joining, I don't want to disappoint you, I also have selfish desires, this is what I am in the south of the city. In the last year, I also hope to see you every day, and choosing you to join the school team is also to satisfy my own wishes. I discussed with the Korean team that you will not be allowed to occupy anyone's place, just come in and play with everyone. Train together, if you can catch up with those people and meet the school team’s standards, it’s not a bad thing for the school team, but if you can’t, you will still have to be eliminated, just like this time in the joint school competition, I also didn't let you play, you haven't reached the strength to play, and I won't let the people who should be selected have no chance to please you."

"But I still came in."

"Yes, you came in, it's just for my sake, it's like I'm taking my brother into the team to play, not to disturb others, not to break other rules, what should be in the school team or what, you don't have any privileges, "Song Yu said: "But even though I say so, it really can't change the fact that I let you go through the back door, but I don't care, I am willing, I am not just for you, but also to satisfy my own selfish desires, this should not be I have done what I have done, and I will treat it as an abuse of my private power."

Cheng Yan probably understands that he is like something that comes with a product. You take it home and you can use it or not. Just put it there and put it together with the genuine product. If you find it is better than the genuine product It's easy to use, then you can use it, otherwise you can abandon it, just give him a chance to try.

"Did you choose 21 people this year?" Cheng Yan asked. The school team has only 20 places to be selected each year. If he doesn't occupy other people's places, then he is the extra one.

"You didn't see it?"

"I was so happy to be selected at the time, I didn't pay attention to many people."

"Well, 21 people, those 20 people were selected according to the school team standards, you..."

"I saw your private rights come in." Cheng Yan is quite measured, and it is not a big difference, because after joining the school team, he also felt the difficulty, and the gap with others has only proved that he is not. He's too bad, but he shouldn't have appeared in the school team at all. He didn't have that strength, and he didn't even have the qualifications for comparison.

"I'm sorry," Song Yu felt his loss, touched his head, and reassured: "If you want to blame, blame me. I made this decision, and I kept it from you."

Cheng Yan shook his head, he wasn't so unclear, "I don't want to blame anyone, this is my own problem, I'm just afraid that I'll squeeze out other people's places, I'm not a particularly noble person, but Chengnan's The school team is not easy to enter. If I delay others, I will feel guilty. Moreover, you have reminded me many times before that I myself can't understand the overtones, and in order to follow you, I never listen to my true will ."

How many times has Song Yu revealed it before? He asked him if he liked basketball, if he planned to develop in this field, and his mother. She had asked similar questions, but she was too stubborn and didn't understand other people's thoughts.

Now that he has got what he wants and is with the person he wants, he does not need to be obsessed with following the footsteps, but should listen to his inner thoughts and wishes, and recognize his true heart.

He has been pursuing others, following Song Yu's footsteps, and has never found his own rhythm.

"I know you are doing all this for me. I am willing to give you a chance to experience the experience, but I don't like you like this, Cheng Yan," Song Yu said, "You have what you are good at, and you have your own. In the future, you are not an ordinary person, and you don't have to follow my footsteps at all to become your shining self, you don't need to follow me, not only me, but many people will approach you, because excellent people are attractive, don't they?"

Cheng Yan was thinking about it, and he was thinking the same way. He was also considering whether what he was doing now was appropriate, whether it was what he wanted, the future was in his hands, and what kind of person he became is something he can decide. And destroying oneself is also a matter of one thought.

Training on the school team for so many days, training without passion, was stressful and tortured to him.

He finally understood Song Yu's painstaking efforts, and finally knew the gap between them. He shouldn't be on this road. As Song Yu said, he is good at different fields. Blindly pursuing things he is not good at is a good thing. A kind of courage, at worst a kind of stupidity.

What should be done and what should not be done must be pursued. He is not responsible for his own future, nor is he responsible for those who have expectations of him.

"I understand," Cheng Yan stood up, his eyes were clear, and he looked at Song Yu calmly, "Then we will meet at the summit."

He responded to him with his farewell to the school team.

Song Yu smiled beautifully, that was his best farewell to the school team, and also Cheng Yan's best farewell to himself who followed him.

Don't be someone else, follow yourself. You and I are good at different things. When our respective fields reach the peak, we will naturally have the best encounter.

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