Chapter 73 Double Change~

73 (1) to confide;

Ren Zhaoyuan had never seen Tan Zheng's wronged appearance.

Just listening to the lowered voice saying "I feel so useless", I immediately raised the white flag.

"It's not that I don't want to tell you, what are you thinking about..."

Tan Zheng lowered his eyes, something was covering up for a moment, as if it never existed. He held the person in his arms tighter, and his voice was lower: "Sometimes I worry, and if I don't do it well enough, I can't make you feel at ease."

"No one is better than you," Ren Zhaoyuan stood up, holding Tan Zheng and kissing his forehead and the bridge of his nose, "It's my character, I'm not used to saying it, don't think about it."

"Your personality is fine."

Ren Zhaoyuan couldn't help but want to laugh at Tan Zheng's sudden detour, and then sighed softly and rubbed his face: "You..."

"Tell me about it, it will be much better if you say it, it's just the two of us, no one else knows," Tan Zheng said in a low voice, persevering and persuading, "You can tell me all your feelings, big or small. , it doesn't matter if it's good or bad."

Ren Zhaoyuan's pupils swayed slightly, his lips opened a little, he wanted to say something, and he heard Tan Zheng say: "Tell me, okay? All your feelings are very important to me, all thoughts are always reasonable, I will not Evaluate any point, and I will only accompany you."

He pinpointed Ren Zhaoyuan's weakness, showed weakness, coaxed him, made Ren Zhaoyuan shake and give in step by step, and voluntarily pushed down all his defenses and surrendered to Kaesong.

At the end of the round, Ren Zhaoyuan was completely captured by a solemn sentence.

Tan Zheng said, "I want to get involved in your emotions."

If you try something you haven't done before, you're bound to get rusty at first.

Just saying a few simple words that were lost because of the attitude of his parents, Ren Zhaoyuan stumbled, speaking slowly and habitually to find excuses for his parents and excuses for himself that he didn't care too much about, but Tan Zheng just listened without urging or interrupting. , did not object.

Gently patted him on the back, and occasionally responded softly and calmly, indicating that he understood and was listening.

It gradually became much smoother after that.

From the meeting with my parents a few days ago, it has been extended to the relevant pieces of life.

The golden toad that my uncle said at the beginning was just the least important point among the many lost corners.

He is always conflicted.

On the one hand, I knew from a very young age that my uncle and aunt are only relatives, and I have done my best to be willing to adopt. I know that I can't really regard it as my home, so I kept the most appropriate distance early on. But at the same time, with the lack of parents and living in harmony for many years, he couldn't help but gradually put his expectations.

On the one hand, he knew that the pregnancy was just a drag for his parents. If it wasn't for physical reasons, he would definitely choose to have an abortion. They never cared about him or had feelings for him. But in the bottom of heart, thought more than once, heard that people will become thirsty for family when they get old, and will they find him one day many years later and regret the past.

He said a lot, from the imagination in his mind when he was waiting outside after receiving the call this time, to the accumulation of mountains when he met many years ago, and finally resisted the questioning without saying a word.

The order is reversed, the primary and secondary are messed up, and there is no way to say where you think about it.

"When Zheng He and the two fathers met me, they asked me to be humble for Xie Rong. Uncle Ji called and asked me to issue a letter of understanding to Xie Rong. I actually envied and felt it was unfair. Why did he attack me regardless of right and wrong? , but he has a dad trying to protect him, I don't."

"Yu Nan said he didn't dare to admit it or let his family know, saying that his parents would break his legs. I don't need to worry, even if it's time to meet, it's meaningless. They don't care."

"You said that if uncle and aunt said they wanted to see you, they would say that they would have time at any time this month. They didn't ask. When I divorced before, they were very worried, but they never asked. They knew they had to be careful, because they were afraid I would be disgusted."

Ren Zhaoyuan could not desire it, but his desire and inaccessibility could be seen everywhere.

So after the high-rise building that his parents had built for a long time collapsed, before he knew it, he shifted his emotions and expectations, his uncle and aunt, his marriage with Zhao Yuanqing, and the Zhao family.

And his aunt and aunt failed to lay a very intimate emotional foundation when he was a child. Zhao Yuanqing betrayed his marriage, and Zhao Rongsen and Feng Yun slowly revealed their true colors.

The failures and disappointments of the latter two have come one after another, and there is not much left for Ren Zhaoyuan to rely on.

Therefore, the usual behavior and words of aunts and aunts will touch the nerves.

And when his parents met again after a lapse of more than ten years, the final possibility that he had been looking forward to in his heart was completely torn to shreds.

No, no, even if they are old in ten or twenty years, there will be none.

Confessing and dissecting are also tiring.

Later, Ren Zhaoyuan closed his eyes in Tan Zheng's arms and said, "Forget it."

never mind.

This was the second time Tan Zheng heard from Ren Zhaoyuan, and he never wanted to hear it again.

So sad.

Does he really not know what Ren Zhaoyuan is thinking about?

he knows.

But Ren Zhaoyuan struggled with insomnia all night long, he thought, neither breaking nor standing.

So he deliberately induced him to speak out, open up his deepest and most subtle thoughts, and prepared to tell Ren Zhaoyuan when he was at his softest and weakest, that as long as he wanted to, he would have a forever home in the future.

Tan Zheng had promised Ren Zhaoyuan so much eternity, but at this moment, he didn't dare.

Can he really give Ren Zhaoyuan a home that never disappoints? Can he guarantee that parents treat Ren Zhaoyuan like their own children? Can he be sure that he is safe and sound in this life?

He had been making Ren Zhaoyuan depend on him, expressly and implicitly, and wanted Ren Zhaoyuan to be inseparable from him, but it was only at this point that he felt afraid.

It is too rare for Ren Zhaoyuan to get out of a failed marriage and rebuild his trust in love. If he asks Ren Zhaoyuan to put his sustenance on family affection on himself, Ren Zhaoyuan will have no other choice.

This is clearly what he has been pursuing.

But what if?

How many things are there in life?

He can be sure of forever, but full of love.

If something happens to him one day, and his love and affection are all destroyed, can Ren Zhaoyuan still come out?

"What do you think?"

Tan Zheng looked at Zhaoyuan's predecessor, "Huh?"

"Hold tighter and I won't be able to breathe."

Only then did Tan Zheng realize his strength and quickly let go: "Does it hurt?"

"No," Ren Zhaoyuan raised his hand to loosen his frown, "what are you worried about?"

"I'm thinking, I'm going to outlive you. If I walk ahead of you, I'll be dead."

The two fingers Ren Zhaoyuan touched between his eyebrows hit him on the mouth in the next second, with obvious annoyance in his words: "What nonsense."

"I.."

Tan Zheng's arm had just loosened his strength, and he was unprepared for a moment. Ren Zhaoyuan broke free and got off him with a push.

"I was wrong, I was wrong," Tan Zheng hurriedly reached out his hand to stop him, but he couldn't stop, so he turned to the other side of the bed, turned his position up and down, and hugged him, "Blame me, blame me, talk nonsense, don't be angry, don't be angry, what."

Ren Zhaoyuan couldn't speak at all. Tan Zheng pressed him down and kissed him every few words. At the end of the kiss, Ren Zhaoyuan lost his temper. He frowned and pushed him with a smile: "Get up, you're going to die."

"I'm on my elbow," Tan Zheng still kissed him, "It doesn't work."

"I'm afraid of you, um..." Ren Zhaoyuan ducked a little, "Wait."

Tan Zheng kissed him on the face: "Huh?"

"Speak first, what did you just think about?"

Tan Zheng looked at him and said, "I want to give you a home."

In front of Ren Zhaoyuan, all his thoughts can be said frankly and frankly.

What you want is what you are afraid of.

"Stupid or not..." Ren Zhaoyuan turned his face away and blinked several times, his Adam's apple rolled a few times before turning back to speak as usual, "Although I have no experience, the most important thing in a family is actually feelings, some parents and children. If they are all together, if they hate each other and use each other, it’s not family, I think so.”

His and Zhao Yuanqing's homes were broken, not because they were gone.

In the first two decades, he was not accompanied by his parents, but he never felt that he had no home.

"Well," Tan Zheng replied, "Yes."

Ren Zhaoyuan looked at him, his voice soft and firm: "Emotions are not limited."

Feelings are not limited by time and space, and do not even disappear when people leave. What he wanted and lacked was a firm and special feeling.

In fact, what he was looking for from beginning to end was nothing more than that.

Tan Zheng kissed him deeply and long, holding his cheek cherishedly.

"The people who hurt you are not worth thinking about. If you want, we will have a new home, a home of the two of us."

"There will be a bigger home. My parents are also your parents, and Tan Qing is also your sister."

"Forget them all, I will always be by your side, as long as my life."

"Just look at me, okay?"

Ren Zhaoyuan looked into Tan Zheng's eyes, always firm, always frank, and full of his figure.

After a long time, his eyebrows stretched, and he smiled lightly.

"it is good."

73(2) Unexpected;

After a night of chatting until the early morning, Ren Zhaoyuan was not sleepy and urged Tan Zheng to go to bed quickly, but Tan Zheng was unwilling.

"Aren't you working tomorrow?"

"It doesn't matter."

Ren Zhaoyuan disapproved, and just as he moved his body to speak, he couldn't hold back his laughter.

Tan Zheng gave a half-truth and a light "tsk", and reached out to scratch him: "Laugh at me again?"

"I can't even laugh...hey..I was wrong...don't dare, don't dare.."

Ren Zhaoyuan's tears were about to come out, and Tan Zheng stopped, as if he was not relieved, he lowered his head and grinded his teeth on his ear.

He is always easier on this kind of thing, often Ren Zhaoyuan is still calm and calm, and he is already forcing it.

Just chatting to the end of the kiss, the reaction was completely uncontrollable, but he was unwilling to destroy the warm atmosphere. Ren Zhaoyuan had been uninterested recently, so he quietly backed away, thinking of pressing down before he was noticed.

Anyone who wants to turn around will be caught.

The smile in Ren Zhaoyuan's eyes didn't fade away, he hooked his neck and pressed down to kiss him. After a while, he parted and panted slightly, "Just do it when you think about it, hide something."

"I'm afraid you're not in the mood."

Ren Zhaoyuan rolled over and pressed on Tan Zheng, making the two stick closer together: "Do you know now?"

Tan Zheng's eyes deepened, and he pressed Ren Zhaoyuan back again with a light effort.

Ren Zhaoyuan had always been reluctant to move immediately after having just done it. The two stayed for a while. Tan Zheng went to take a bath first, and Ren Zhaoyuan only went after he came back.

When Ren Zhaoyuan was taking a shower, Tan Zheng simply cleaned up and got out of bed. At first, he often changed bedrooms and slept together the next day. Later, he noticed that Ren Zhaoyuan took longer to fall asleep after changing bedrooms.

It's easy to clean up. After finishing the cleaning, change the water at the head of the bed to a new one. After Ren Zhaoyuan came back after washing, they took a sip of water and fell asleep together.

After taking a bath tonight, Ren Zhaoyuan lay quietly on Tan Zheng's arm as usual.

Tan Zheng can now tell whether he is asleep or awake by the sound and frequency of his breathing.

"Don't want to chat?"

Ren Zhaoyuan opened his eyes and looked at him: "I thought you would fall asleep if you hold on for a while."

Tan Zheng looked at him and smiled softly: "Your technique of pretending to be asleep is a bit poor."

It's almost three o'clock, and it will be dawn if don't sleep for a while.

But Tan Zheng was unwilling, and Ren Zhaoyuan couldn't force him to sleep.

The lover's mind should be properly received.

"You don't seem to have dark circles easily."

"Huh?" Tan Zheng thought for a while, "I haven't noticed."

"Didn't you stay up late before?"

"Boil, why not boil," Tan Zheng put his hand on Ren Zhaoyuan's waist and patted lightly, "When I was in college, I helped Jin Shiyan run the company. At that time, he smeared his eyes, looked up cases and looked up contracts and reports, often I only slept a full night in half a month."

"It's too hard."

"There's no way, I don't understand. His character wasn't as good as he is now. The brothers at home had to be on guard, and there were no trusted friends outside, so he caught me and stabbed me by myself."

Ren Zhaoyuan felt distressed and at the same time was amused by Tan Zheng's remarks, and rubbed his hand on his stomach: "Fortunately, you are amazing."

Tan Zheng inhaled and puffed out his belly, Ren Zhaoyuan looked up at him: "Huh?"

"Inflated."

Ren Zhaoyuan burst out laughing. After laughing for a long time, he finally stopped. He touched Tan Zheng's stomach and couldn't help but laugh.

"Why didn't I find you before.." Ren Zhaoyuan laughed until his stomach hurt, retracted his hand and rubbed himself, remembering Tan Zheng's "swelling" just now, and couldn't help but want to laugh.

Especially when Tan Zheng said it, he was serious and serious, as if he was poking at Ren Zhaoyuan's laughter.

"Hey," Tan Zheng couldn't help laughing after he laughed, "I'll rub it for you, don't rub it."

"I didn't realize you had such a sense of humor before?"

"Not really," Tan Zheng rubbed him, "maybe I've been with you for a long time."

Ren Zhaoyuan looked incredulous: "Do you think I am humorous?"

"No," Tan Zheng smiled, "I'm happy with you, always happy, always happy, maybe the system will automatically generate new skills."

"Then your love story skills should be full."

Tan Zheng still laughed.

"I still remember that when I was with you, Tan Qing sent me a message, saying that you can't talk nice and can't coax people. You can't coax people. No one in the world can coax people, right?"

"The evaluation is so high," Tan Zheng smiled and kissed him, "This is not the other, I am telling the truth."

"That's what you would say."

"You can listen to it if you like."

Ren Zhaoyuan smiled and patted it on his hand, remembering the message Tan Xuqing sent him some time ago: "Didn't Tan Qing want to come and play, hasn't the summer class finished yet?"

I finished school two days ago, but in fact, school will start in a few days.

As soon as the make-up class ended, Tan Xuqing excitedly called Tan Zheng and said he was coming, afraid that she would go to grind Ren Zhaoyuan again, Tan Zheng told her the truth that Ren Zhaoyuan was in a bad mood recently, so that she could come back later, and also told her not to ask Ren Zhaoyuan .

It's the third year of high school when the school starts, and the second year of high school is very nervous, and it is impossible to make time for the third year of high school. However, Tan Xuqing didn't say much, and agreed very happily. He couldn't help but ask what was wrong. Tan Zheng didn't say anything and didn't ask again.

These Tan Zheng didn't mention it to Ren Zhaoyuan, but Ren Zhaoyuan started to ask. Tan Zheng thought that Tan Xuqing was amusing and that Ren Zhaoyuan liked her a lot, so he might be able to divert his attention.

"Come on, it is estimated that there will be a quarrel soon."

"She can live here if she wants, or go to your place if she's not used to it."

"What's wrong with living?" Tan Zheng lowered his head and rubbed the top of his hair, "I can't let her live by herself when I go to my place. Do you still want to separate from me?"

Ren Zhaoyuan couldn't help laughing and laughing: "Don't I have long legs? Mr. Tan, what about IQ?"

Tan Zheng's habitual house, Ren Zhaoyuan, has never slept there. His habitual thinking hurts people. Tan Zheng presses and rubs people into his arms: "It's over, IQ is gone."

Ren Zhaoyuan was hugged by him on the upper part of his body, and he simply propped his arms towards him.

After a long time, it feels very comfortable to lie on.

But as soon as he pressed down, before Ren Zhaoyuan could react and say anything, Tan Zheng snorted.

"What are you..." Ren Zhaoyuan couldn't tell for a moment whether he was more surprised or surprised. He was only one of the two or three co-authors before?

"Are you in particularly good spirits tonight, or have you always been this good?"

Tan Zheng was so sweaty that he grabbed Ren Zhaoyuan's side and moved up: "Not tonight, especially..."

"Don't tell me, I haven't been full since the beginning."

Obviously what Ren Zhaoyuan said was not a boneless word, but it still made Tan Zheng feel hot when it fell into his ears.

Ren Zhaoyuan touched his ear, which was hot.

"Why are you so shy?" Ren Zhaoyuan smiled and pinched his earlobe and shook it, "harmony is also very important in this kind of thing, why don't you say it if it's not enough?"

"If you don't want to call it stop, I can't force it," Tan Zheng buried himself in Ren Zhaoyuan's neck as if he had given up on himself, "Stop if you don't want to, you will wake up the next day with sore backs and sore legs. Suffering."

"I'm not someone who lacks exercise a lot," Ren Zhaoyuan thought for a while, "It should only have been severe backache for a while at the beginning, and then a little bit when I woke up, I'll be fine when I get up and move around. It's really hard to be able to go out?"

In the beginning, Tan Zheng was inexperienced and made it heavy, and Ren Zhaoyuan hadn't been through for more than two years, and Tan Zheng really got used to it for a while. After that, Tan Zheng slowly got used to it, and he became harmonious.

However, it turned out that it was only harmonious here in Ren Zhaoyuan.

If it wasn't for his insomnia and not being as sleepy as usual, this person wouldn't know how long he would endure it.

Ren Zhaoyuan's few words were carefully read through Tan Zheng's place from beginning to end, and he smelt a little, and immediately turned around and pressed the person down firmly: "You mean it's not uncomfortable? Can you do it?"

Ren Zhaoyuan looked at the person whose auricles had not yet faded, and suddenly began to tease him a little, pressed the back of Tan Zheng's neck to lower the person, and deliberately whispered: "Actually, I told you to slow down, when you stop, no matter what. The truth is, you can pretend it is false."

Tan Zheng's eyes turned terrifying for a moment, and he fixedly looked at Ren Zhaoyuan, his voice hoarse at some point: "Really?"

It was true when he said this just now, but it was locked by Tan Zheng's deep eyes, and the sense of crisis in Ren Zhaoyuan's bones appeared unconsciously, almost instinctively denying it for self-protection: "I'm just kidding - um.. "

In the gap between blurred vision and disordered breathing, Ren Zhaoyuan raised his neck and suddenly had a thought.

Shower is white.

Then the thought went to the back of my mind.

Can't care.

In the end, he couldn't even say what he said to stop showing weakness. He heard Tan Zheng calling his name in a daze, and Ren Zhaoyuan shrank himself into the quilt with the last trace of clarity.

"No..did.."

Tan Zheng wanted to take him to take a bath for fear of waking people up, so he let him sleep and was worried that he would not be able to handle it.

In the end, the entanglement was tangled, and after listening to Ren Zhaoyuan's breathing gradually becoming longer, he lightly moved to get warm water and a towel.

Just make it simple.

Simple to think, but difficult enough to operate.

For fear of disturbing his rare dream, his movements could not be lighter, and even the slightest change in Ren Zhaoyuan's breathing rate could make Tan Zheng tense.

After finishing cleaning up, Tan Zheng was sweating profusely.

He glanced at the light coming in from the window and pressed all the control buttons of the other layers of curtains with gentle movements, so that Ren Zhaoyuan could sleep peacefully and wake up naturally.

Looking back at the sleeping man, heart softened into a ball, hugged him and kissed it gently, but there was no response, and couldn't help but want to laugh.

This is considered unintentional, crooked and right?

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