Chapter 129 Reading aloud (4)

The city bureau is a very interesting place. Across the road is the old business district in the city center. There are high-end hotels and several old-fashioned shopping malls supporting the facade. The popularity gathered by these "facades" has also been derived. A bunch of small commercial streets of different grades, crossed the road after exiting the Municipal Bureau, and the parking lot opposite the gate was surrounded by various food stalls. It's prosperous - probably because this generation of comrades in the police is extraordinarily greedy.

A luxury trot that was out of tune with the surrounding environment was parked in the open-air parking lot, and there was a dining car selling octopus balls not far from the side. The queue was more than ten meters long, like a long dragon, which was really daunting.

Fei Du took a look and gave up, raised the car window again, and chatted with Lu Jia next to him: "After the year-end bonus is received, it is usually the peak period of resignation. Do you have any plans for next year? You want to stay here with me in the future. gān, or do you plan to experience a different life?"

Luo Wenzhou had been working overtime at the city bureau for the past few days. It was more convenient to drive in and out in his own car. Fei Du came here in his own car. The driver's seat of the sports car was a little cramped for Lu Jia, and he couldn't stretch his stomach. He leaned back when asked, "Mr. Fei, do you think I eat too much and have a large displacement, so I can't afford it? "

"Isn't it," Fei Du glanced in the direction of the city bureau, "I still eat soft rice myself."

Lu Jia laughed silently for a while, the first-time lanterns got in through the gaps in the open car windows and fell into his slender eyes, where a pinpoint-like light fell in the corners of his eyes.

Then his smile faded, and after a while of silence, Lu Jia said, "I heard people say that the physiological structure of the brain of those who have taken drugs will be changed by drugs - this statement sounds very scary, you Think, if experience, sex, and upbringing are all detachable software on the human body, then the brain must be hardware. The brain has changed, which means that you have changed from an 'ultrabook' to a 'little bully'. ', this ròu body is equivalent to being 'borrowed' by another soul, and even if there is memory from the past, it is not the same person from before."

Fei Du didn't chatter, he listened very patiently.

"But actually sometimes I think 'trauma' is a bit similar," Lu Jia said, unbuckling his seat belt, and stretching slightly, "trauma can also turn a person into another beyond recognition. Appearance, sometimes when you look at others and look in the mirror, you will feel very dazed, and you will think, how did I become like this? I don’t even know myself anymore.”

"The things that ordinary people pursue are nothing more than houses, cars, careers, love, status, and ideals. They are busy every day, and everyone is full of troubles and happy things, which is really annoying. They are so happy that they don't know what 'impermanence' is, they just feel that today is the same as yesterday and tomorrow, and they don't think 'I am an ant floating in the river on a dead leaf, and it will be turned over at every turn.'"

Fei Du didn't make any comments, propped his head up and said "um", waiting for him to speak.

"But you're different, you can't live like this, you're just like the mother who let the pào fight scare the bald hair, and you can't lay eggs from now on - you look at others and feel that these things they are after It’s all in the mirror, you can’t take it seriously, you can’t say no. You have nightmares every day, your head is full of delusions, you are irritable, anxious, and nervous for no reason... When someone looks at you one more time, you think that he may have bad intentions, someone is there If he pulls you on the street and asks for directions, you think he's making a mess, and sometimes you even see someone touching their pockets and bags for a long time, and you suspect that they have a murder weapon hidden on them."

Lu Jia's voice became lower and lower.

There was a loud and noisy voice from the fèng gap of the car window, mixed with the man's words, making him more and more out of place and more lonely.

"Trust in society and the environment is the cornerstone of a sense of security," Fei Du said. "Without this, you will only be displaced in a long-term state of stress. It's really painful, even if the trauma is over..."

"If you can't make it through, this matter will never pass, even if the murderer is caught, 'Those who stare at the abyss, the abyss is also staring at you', I don't know if you feel this way," Lu Jia shook his head, "I sometimes feel like myself It's like a neuropathy, it's very boring to live."

Fei Du silently reached out and patted his broad shoulder.

Lu Jia waved his hand: "I especially like to chat with you, although you didn't say a word for a long time while you sat there."

"According to the general social etiquette, I should comfort you with a few words, such as 'everything will pass, time will make you lose your memory and intelligence, and of course your wounds will heal,'" Fei Du said. Hearing a short whistle from a car next to him, he didn't look out the window, just picked up the jacket next to him and put it on, "It's just that these are all nonsense, and I don't bother to say it if you want to hear it."

Lu Jia laughed: "Mr. Fei, you are purely discriminatory in terms of appearance, right? You are too lazy to tell me a single word, it is all the truth, should you be a beautiful girl sitting here, you should pay attention to social etiquette? "

"It's more fortunate to be plain and simple. It's not easy to listen to my truth." Fei Du said seriously, and then he suddenly turned to Lu Jia, "Old Lu, I was too lazy to tell you, but a while ago I had a conversation with a guy. The pretty girl talked, there are a few ready-made sentences, do you listen?"

Lu Jia, who was discriminated against, made a helpless plea.

"Everyone will be shaped by foreign things, the environment, the encounter, the people you like, the people you hate...even people like Lu Guosheng who make you want to rip him off. Murderers will shape a part of your blood through trauma. , it's a fact, whether you like it or not."

Lu Jia stared at him blankly.

"Do you know what would happen to me if it were me? I would cut off that piece of ròu, release the bowl of blood, and chop off the deformed bone underneath with an axe. I am not someone who stares into the abyss, I am the abyss. ." Fei Du gave him a bloody smile, but before the smile could be unfolded, it was smashed by another car horn, which made the scenery unpleasant. Fei Du shook his head helplessly, turned around and opened the car door and got out of the car, "Hurry up. What - help me drive the car away, my parking space is a bit tight, if you like it, just drive out to relax, happy new year."

Lu Jia's lips moved, seeing that Fei Du didn't even confirm the license plate, he just opened the door of the temporarily parked car next to him. Luo Wenzhou got out of the car lazily, changed to the co-pilot's side, waved to Lu Jia, and the two quickly walked away.

This is not the first time Luo Wenzhou has lived in the duty room for several days in a row. He has lived there before. Apart from finding someone to feed the cat, he has no other worries. It has never been the same as this time. He feels like he is sleeping in the duty room. half a lifetime. When he honked the horn for the first time, he saw Fei Du start to put on his jacket, and knew that the other party had heard him, but Luo Wenzhou watched him wear a tattered suit for a minute, and was still talking to the fat man at the end. I couldn't help but honked the horn again, very incompetently.

Not seeing each other for a day is like every three autumns—according to this scale, Fei Du dawdling for one minute is equivalent to 18.25 hours of dawdling.

As soon as he closed the car door, Luo Wenzhou couldn't wait to insult the driver, but considering that the environment was too noisy, and there was a winking fat man watching from behind, he just resisted the impulse and complained very dissatisfiedly: "You two are conspiring. Subversion of the galactic regime? What kind of meeting is it going to take so long?"

Fei Du sighed, turned the steering wheel steadily, maintained a slow and unhurried speed on the main road, and then spared time to pull Luo Wenzhou's salty pig's hand out under the hem of his clothes, "I'm going to hit the roadside guardrail. already."

Fei Du didn't show it on his face, but he was actually a little overwhelmed, because the last sentence Luo Wenzhou said to him was "Your uncle Fei Du", which was really not very sweet. These few days, the big things were connected with the little things, and no one had time to answer them. Who is okay? After being free for a short time at this time, he feels as if he came back to seek peace after two days of cold war.

At this age, Fei Du has played with his life and with fire, but he has never played the "Cold War and Peace" game with anyone. The aura of "I am the abyss" has already been sprayed into the clouds with the exhaust. He searched his stomach for a moment: "you……"

Before "you" came out, he saw Luo Wenzhou slowly withdrew the hand he had just wiped off, sniffed for a while, and then licked his fingers.

Fei Du: "..."

"Hurry up," Luo Wenzhou said meaningfully, "I'm starving to death."

Usually in this context, whether it's an apology or an explanation, it's not a good time. Fei Du shut his mouth knowingly and stepped on the accelerator stuck at the speed limit.

However, I don't know if it was because he drove too smoothly or what. Luo Wenzhou, the sleeping god, had finished his hooligan big move, but he tilted his head and fell asleep again. There was less than ten minutes to go. When Fei Du woke up, Luo Wenzhou stretched his waist sticky, which was inherited from Luo Yiguo, and grabbed Fei Du's arms. Said, "I'm sleepy."

Fei Du: "Wake up, go home."

"I don't want to move," Luo Wenzhou lied on top of him and pretended to be dead for a while, and then he had an idea. For some reason, he squeezed his throat and said, "Husband, carry me on your back."

Fei Du: "..."

Luo Wenzhou didn't say anything for a long time after seeing him froze, thinking that the well-informed President Fei was stunned by his shamelessness, and shivered with laughter.

Seeing that Fei Du suddenly buttoned his coat, got out of the car and went around to the other side, Luo Wenzhou opened the car door in a stunned manner, turned and knelt down: "Come on."