Chapter 49

The bone marrow and blood were completely frozen. After a few seconds, his knees softened and his whole body fell out of control. He fell from the wheelchair and half-knelt on the edge of the bathtub. .

Xu Linshen could only think of taking him out of the water for a while, but he saw several wounds of different depths on his wrist. There was blood going out, and after a while, the chest of the pajamas was dyed red.

Due to the loss of blood and soaking in the water for too long, the skin on his body is cold and has no temperature, his face is pale and gray, and his breathing is so weak that it is almost negligible. The blood on the hands was hot.

Xu Lin shuddered deeply, only to feel the blackness in front of his eyes, and the buzzing in his ears, a bone-piercing coolness seemed to come out inch by inch...

It was more than ten minutes before the doctors and nurses arrived. The doctor in the ambulance stopped the bleeding for Chu Yan. After learning about the situation, they called the hospital to arrange for plasma.

As soon as he arrived at the hospital, Chu Yan was sent to the emergency room. Xu Linshen was sitting in the corridor of the hospital. He stared absently at the blood stains on his clothes, his ears were silent, but he felt a cold wind passing through his blood vessels. , even the blood is frozen.

I don't know how long it took before I was freed from the dizziness that the whole world was spinning around. Many chaotic thoughts flashed through my mind, like self-torture, but I kept forcing myself to recall it over and over again.

Why did he... do this?

How, how could he be so cruel to himself?

Xu Lin lowered his head and covered his eyes in pain, his shoulders trembled for a while, and the nerve endings tingled, but instead it made his mind extremely clear.

When Xiao Meng rushed over, she froze when she saw Xu Linshen who was waiting outside the operating room.

The pajamas on his body can no longer be seen, and the dry water is mixed with several eye-catching bloodstains, making his face pale and without a trace of blood.

About an hour later, the doctor came out of the operating room, and his surgical gown was stained with a lot of eye-catching bloodstains. It was like this in the middle of the night, and his face was very ugly.

"Mr. Xu."

Looking into Xu Linshen's eyes, the doctor continued: "Fortunately, the aorta was not cut, and it was delivered on time. The patient's life is no longer in danger."

Speaking of this patient, he actually knows him. The male number 3 of a drama has been popular recently, and his wife is at home watching the TV broadcast every night.

Speaking of which, you can be considered young and promising, with fame and fortune, and at a very good age, how can you not think of cutting your wrist and committing suicide?

Xu Lin listened deeply, and suddenly felt a little bit of emptiness after the panic, gradually spreading from the limbs to the whole body, the back that had been tense suddenly relaxed, only then did he realize that almost all of it was covered in cold sweat.

He spoke, his voice so hoarse that he could barely hear himself: "Okay."

"thanks."

——

The news was still suppressed. When Fang Dingyao rushed over the next day, looking at the gray-white unconscious person on the hospital bed, he was also incomprehensible.

During this period of time, when he was at work, Zhong Yu didn't show anything unusual at all, he looked very normal... If there is any difference, it's just that compared to before, the whole person seems to be a lot more silent.

But after all, this is not a matter of one or two days. Speaking of which, his personality is indeed much more quiet and introverted than before, but Fang Dingyao had always thought it was a good thing... After all, if he wanted to join the entertainment industry, he had previously That kind of temperament should indeed be well restrained.

But who would have thought it would turn out like this?

After the doctor sutured the wound for him, he gave him an emergency blood transfusion of 800cc, but the vein ruptured, which is not a big problem.

So what is really serious is that the nerves on his wrist are damaged. If the recovery is not good, it is very likely to cause obstacles to the perception of the hand.

Because of excessive blood loss, Chu Yan was in a coma for two days, and didn't wake up until the third night.

As soon as he woke up, he was strongly condemned by the system: [Master host, are you crazy, if the male protagonist finds out later, you will just hang up! ]

[How is it possible, even if he is a little more sluggish, he can be saved in an hour. If I remember correctly, the success rate of suicide by cutting the wrist seems to be only 5%. ]

[Also, where I cut is a vein. ] Generally, the successful wrist cutting is directly cut to the aorta, and the cerebral shock caused by blood loss will lead to death.

So System 2333 stopped talking, and he felt again that the host was too ruthless.

He lay alone on the bed for a while, and the ward was still deserted, so quiet that he could almost hear the dripping sound of the medicine in the infusion tube.

It took about half an hour to find him awake until the nurse came in to change the drip.

The doctor came over to give him a detailed examination, and finally came to the conclusion: "It's not a big problem, just lose a few more days and wait for the wound to heal."

Xu Linshen, who was on the side, was silent the whole time. The doctor greeted him and left the ward.

The footsteps were far away, and the ward became quiet again. Xu Linshen pushed the wheelchair to the side of the hospital bed and looked down at Chu Yan with cold eyes.

Chu Yan looked at him for a while, then lowered his eyes slightly and moved his body slightly. He moved his right hand, and found that he was so paralyzed that he could not feel at all, so he carefully stretched out his left hand around his body to pull him on the The hand on the knee.

However, when he was holding it, Xu Linshen rudely threw his hand away. This action happened so suddenly that there was almost no warning, so Chu Yan froze almost instantly.

His eyes were black and white, and the depths of his pupils always seemed to reflect a little water, so when he looked at it blankly, he seemed innocent and sad.

Xu Linqishen forced himself to look away and opened his mouth, his voice was hoarse with all his might to suppress, like a trapped beast with nowhere to go, despair and madness that couldn't be hidden no matter how he suppressed it: "Zhong Yu, sometimes I really want to put your heart away. Open it and see what's inside?"

Chu Yan's eyes turned red, her pale lips pursed slightly, and her voice was harsh: "I'm sorry..."

Xu Lin's chest heaved up and down, staring at Chu Yan stubbornly, grabbing his hand on the quilt with such force that the veins on his arm were taut.

Every word seems to tear his throat, wrapped in thick blood: "I'm sorry? Zhong Yu, you know now that you're sorry to say to me, why did you dare to do this at the time, did you... do you have to? Are you happy to drive me crazy?"

Chu Yan's lips trembled, suppressed a choked cry, and said intermittently, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry... I didn't mean to..."

But after he said this, his emotions seemed to have completely collapsed, and the tears kept rolling down, but he gritted his teeth and tried not to let himself choked out, his entire chest was rising and falling sharply, gasping for breath. .

Tears kept rolling down from the corners of his eyes and down his cheeks to his chin. Xu Lin looked at him deeply, feeling as if his heart had been crushed into flesh, and the pain made it hard for him to even breathe.

He slowly loosened his hand, then leaned down and wiped the tears from his face for him. His heart was so bitter that his throat seemed to be blocked with a hard lump, and he said hoarsely, "I'm sorry..."

Xu Lin hugged his body deeply, moved him a little bit, stroked his back, and said apologetically and sadly, "Good, don't cry..."

His body was trembling slightly because of his sadness, and a thin layer of fine sweat was crying on his forehead. His body was warm and thin. Xu Linshen hugged him and continued to comfort him in a low voice, with a strong and weak tone in his voice. Anxious, he could only kiss the tears in the corners of his eyes intermittently: "Don't cry, darling, don't cry..."

Almost broke his heart...

Because it was not long after he woke up, his body was still very weak. Not long after Xu Linshen hugged him, he fainted again.

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in the director's office.

After listening to Xu Linshen's words, the doctor thought for a while, and finally said hesitantly: "Mr. Xu, in fact, during the operation, we also found many other wounds on the patient's body, so... I think the patient may exist. Self-destructive tendencies..."

Self-destructive tendencies?

When he heard this word, Xu Linshen's heart beat violently, his fingers couldn't help curling up, and he asked as if he didn't understand: "What... does this mean?"

"I'm not a professional either, so I just understand a little bit. Depression is actually a very common mood disorder with many symptoms, and self-harm and self-destruction is just one of them. The patient is stimulated or has been in a state of being unable to change the status quo for a long time. When you are in a state of extreme mental stress and pain, you will take the method of harming your own body to relieve the mental pain.”

After the doctor had finished speaking, he asked, "Mr. Xu, I would like to ask if the patient has any abnormal performance in the recent stage?"

Xu Lin's heart continued to sink, his hands and feet were cold: "He...he has been having nightmares from time to time recently, and that night as well. Also...sometimes when I talk to him, he is always absent-minded..."

He always thought that Zhong Yu was too busy with work and too tired to do this... So, isn't it?

After listening carefully, the doctor sighed: "These are all symptoms of mild depression, so after this recovery, I suggest you find a psychological counselor for psychological counseling for the patient."

That night, Xu Linshen called his assistant and asked him to find out who Zhong Yu had been in contact with in the past two weeks. If it was only mild depression, it would not be so serious. think the reason why he did that extreme behavior that night was mainly because of the nightmare that started a week ago.

When Xu Linshen returned to the ward, he found that Chu Yan had woken up, half-closed his eyes, but his eyes were looking at the air, slightly ecstatic.

The blood on his face faded away, his face and the sheets on his body were almost white, his lips were chapped, and a thick gauze was wrapped around his wrist. Just looking at it, he could feel how cold and cold the skin was. There is no temperature.

After Xu Lin stared at him for a while, he saw that he seemed to be aware of his existence, and his eyes turned towards him.

In fact, I really want to ask him directly, thinking about what is in your heart, what makes you so unbearable, and you want to hurt yourself?

But Xu Lin Shen was worried that if he asked in the wrong way, he might invisibly increase his psychological burden.

Chu Yan looked at him and said softly, "Sister Fang called just now and said that I passed the audition."

Xu Linshen already knew, sighed and asked, "Do you still want to go to work?"

Chu Yan shook her head, her tone slightly sad: "I just feel sorry for her, I feel that it is irresponsible for me to do this, after all, she has paid a lot for this..."

Xu Lin listened deeply to what he said, and his heart tightened. In fact, if I had heard him say this before, I might have laughed at him for being sensible, but now in this situation... he couldn't help but think of the doctor's words...

He suddenly realized that Zhong Yu's temper had actually subsided a lot, and he had completely lost the way he used to do whatever he wanted, as if he had grown a lot overnight...