Chapter 50

The psychologist came in the afternoon of the second day. He was dressed in a white coat and showed a very gentle temperament. The smile on his face made people feel friendly and comfortable.

"Hello, Mr. Zhong."

Chu Yan put down the entertainment magazine in her hand, and raised her head when she heard the words, but she was stunned when she saw the person coming, and after a long while, she nodded: "Hello."

The counselor chatted with him for a while and then immediately got to the point.

"Don't you feel abnormal about what you said? In fact, you can also feel that the recent situation is obviously wrong, right?"

Chu Yan lowered his head and was silent for a while, then nodded very lightly: "I know."

During the chat, the psychiatrist asked him some more questions, but gradually, the cold sweat on his back almost came down, because it was obvious that it was no longer mild depression.

On the surface, the patient's attitude towards life is still very optimistic, but in fact, his heart is depressed and negative, low self-esteem and depression, and even has a pessimistic and world-weary mood, and most cases even have a tendency to recur, which means that the suicide is unsuccessful, and there is still a lot of pain. There may be a next time.

And he has encountered this kind of case several times before.

"Mr. Xu, the patient's condition is very serious, and it is obviously the result of long-term development. The most difficult thing is that he is not willing to open his heart to me at all."

The doctor frowned slightly: "Is Mr. Xu his friend? I have some questions to ask you about the patient."

Xu Lin pondered for a moment, then nodded: "He is my lover, you can ask me any questions you want."

A look of surprise flashed on the doctor's face, he hesitated for a long time before he considered: "According to the results of my chat with Mr. Zhong just now, Mr. Zhong's relatives have all passed away one after another, and his professionalism is not He is very strong, and his future career plans are not particularly clear...and the relationship between the patient's friends and him seems to be only general...so as a lover, you should be his only relative in this world, and from him During the conversation, I also vaguely felt that he seemed to regard you as his only emotional sustenance..."

"This is actually a very dangerous psychological tendency in itself, and I think you can know it without me saying it. But what really surprised me was that the patient seemed very reluctant to talk about it, so I I want to take the liberty to ask, is there something wrong with your relationship?"

Hearing this sentence, Xu Linshen's heart felt as if he had been hit with a hammer, which made him stunned.

The only emotional sustenance?

This word made him feel trembling in an instant. He always thought that in this relationship, Zhong Yu's relationship should be far less deep than his own, because his personality is proud and free, and he can almost just say it. Immediately, it was completely broken, in other aspects, and emotionally, so at that time, it was possible to disregard his own hard pleas and decide to break up without a trace of nostalgia.

But now the doctor told him that Zhong Yu actually regarded himself as his only emotional sustenance. And the only word, the solemn level, made him feel frightened even thinking about it.

It was hard for him to imagine what kind of emotion this would be. If a person pours all his emotions into one person, it is like making a big gamble with no way out... If he doesn't love him, if Did you fail him?

Ask yourself, he can guarantee that in this world, Zhong Yu is the person he loves the most, and he is willing to give his life for Zhong Yu without hesitation and no regrets.

But at the same time, there are other things in his life. He has career and ambition, and he has his own family, which all occupy a certain place in his life.

However, Zhong Yu, doesn't he even have all of these?

He can feel that Zhong Yu's professionalism is indeed not strong. In fact, some directors have praised that Zhong Yu is actually very talented in acting. It's just that he has not received any professional study, and his heart has never been in this area. He never cared about the criticism of his acting skills or even showed that he didn't care... As for friends, since he entered the entertainment industry, his daily work schedule has been extremely full, and there is no time to make friends.

So after such a misunderstanding, Zhong Yu thought that he had always regarded him as Ye Jingyun's substitute. How did Zhong Yu spend with him during the breakup period?

Xu Linshen didn't dare to think about it at all. Just thinking about it, he felt a bone-chilling chill spread from the soles of his feet...

The doctor looked at Xu Linshen with a dazed look, and sighed softly: "These are the information I vaguely learned from the process of talking with the patient, Mr. Xu, so my suggestion is, when do you talk to the patient? Have a good chat, maybe he is the only one who can open his heart."

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After Chu Yan woke up, he saw Xu Linshen sitting beside his bed. He didn't know how long he had been sitting. He seemed extremely cold and silent, and his whole body was covered with a layer of indescribable sadness.

After seeing him awake, Xu Linshen's expression softened a little, and the icy temperament around his body gradually melted away, and he whispered softly: "It's noon now, do you want something to eat?"

Chu Yan didn't speak, just looked at him quietly, and said softly for a long time, "Okay."

In the depths of his pupils, there seemed to be countless small stars, and his soft black hair rested on his bloodless cheeks. He stared at him for a moment, looking like a small animal with no sense of security. In this way, it is confirming what is the same.

Xu Lin stroked his hair deeply, and asked someone to go to the small kitchen to bring him a bowl of glutinous shrimp mixed porridge, and then feed him little by little.

[At that time, chose the right hand, otherwise how could enjoy the five-star feeding treatment now? ! ]

System 2333 was stunned to hear him say this: [Master host, is this also the reason why you cut your wrists? ]

After Chu Yan finished drinking the porridge, she leaned on the bed with a melancholy expression, and after a while she felt her hand being held.

"Zhong Yu..." Xu Lin stared at him for a long time, and when he saw that he turned his gaze to himself, he opened the bedside table and took out a small velvet box from it.

A trace of surprise and doubt flashed in Chu Yan's eyes, and then she saw Xu Linshen open one of the boxes. In the soft and white velvet, there was a pair of low-key men's plain rings, under the cold light. Reflects a lustrous sheen.

"I bought this pair of rings a year ago, but I always thought that things like this should be more serious, and I should find the best time to speak... But now I feel that these are not what I originally imagined. So important."

Xu Lin stared at Chu Yan deeply, his voice was not heavy but very clear, his tone was solemn and almost pious: "Zhong Yu...you are willing to become a legal partner with me, from now on in the rest of your life, whether it is poverty or wealth, health or disease, Are you spending time with me?"

Chu Yan looked at him, but his face became more and more pale because of his words, his lips were shaking uncontrollably, and finally he closed his eyes heavily and said hoarsely: "I'm sorry...""

"I can't do it...I can't promise you..." Chu Yan shook his head, then raised his hand to cover his eyes tightly.

Seeing him like this, Xu Lin was stunned for a moment, and then slowly grabbed his hand, but unexpectedly touched the hot tears in his hand. Immediately froze.

He stared at Zhong Yu, his breath stagnant, and asked again softly, "Why?"

Chu Yan lowered his head and didn't look at him at all, his tone was broken: "I know it all... Don't lie to me again, I know everything..."

That was when the emotions broke out completely at a critical point. As if desperate, Xu Linshen's body completely froze, and a terrible premonition appeared in his mind instantly.

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Ye Jingyun was still at a cocktail party when he received a call from Xu Linshen. At that time, he was a little drunk, and his mind was still a little dazed when he saw the call reminder on his mobile phone.

However, when the cold and clear voice came from the other end of the phone, Ye Jingyun felt like a bucket of ice water had been poured all over his body, and most of his drinking was gone.

The study was so quiet that needles could be heard falling. Ye Jingyun was called over late at night and looked at Xu Linshen, who was sitting in the armchair behind the mahogany desk, bowing his head and reading the documents without saying a word, the fear that remained in the deepest part of his heart in the shadows of those years. gradually emerged.

Ye Jingyun stood for a while, until the clock made a dull sound, and he spoke cautiously and cautiously: "Brother, what is the matter with you coming to me so late?"

Xu Linshen raised his head, closed the document in his hand, and said lightly, "It's nothing, I just want to chat with you."

Then he looked at Ye Jingyun who was standing there motionless, and said, "What are you doing standing so far, come here."

Ye Jingyun moved his legs and walked slowly to the table, thinking in his heart - this is actually extremely abnormal for him.

"How are you feeling recently, are you still used to coming back?" Xu Linshen leaned back on the back of the chair and looked him up and down.

Perhaps because of the lighting and angle, Ye Jingyun felt that there was a bit of cold and sharp scrutiny in his eyes, which made people tremble slightly from the bottom of their hearts.

Ye Jingyun slid his throat up and down, but he didn't make a sound for a while. He paused and said again: "It's not much different from before, so I can't say that I'm not used to it."

Xu Lin gave a deep "um", then smiled slightly: "You have always been smart and hardworking since you were a child."

What he meant by this sentence was unclear, Ye Jingyun tightened his fingers, and his palms were slightly sweaty: "Big brother..."

Xu Linshen raised his hand and directly suppressed what he hadn't said yet, and continued slowly: "Your homework is also very good, but you know that you went to take the initiative to tell your father that you would give up studying financial management and choose film and television acting. "

"I originally thought that you could always be so smart and do what you should do. With your current development, you will have an unlimited future in the entertainment industry."

Having said that, he stopped and glanced at Ye Jingyun: "Unfortunately, you have become stupid. I warned you before, but you didn't take it to heart at all."

Ye Jingyun looked at him, and for some reason, suddenly calmed down: "What do you mean by eldest brother?"

Xu Lin turned over the document at hand with his fingers, and said without looking up, "Did you find Zhong Yu last Friday? However, I seem to remember that I told you before that you should not disturb him? Huh?"

Ye Jingyun's face changed slightly, looking at Xu Linshen: "It's just that we happened to meet during the audition together, and we just talked for a while."

Xu Lin stared at him deeply, his voice was calm, and if he didn't listen carefully, he wouldn't be able to detect the cold smell in it: "It's true that I just said something for a while, or it's good words for me."

Ye Jingyun frowned, and could vaguely sense something was wrong.

Xu Linshen threw a document in front of him, and said lightly: "Join the Jiacheng Audit Department to help you... But you should do it a bit more clean. I originally planned to wait and see for a while, after all, this kind of thing can be considered a shame. Outreach."

Ye Jingyun suddenly raised his head and looked at Xu Linshen suspiciously, subconsciously trying to defend himself, but his eyes glanced at the documents spread on the table, but he was surprised to find that the signature was indeed signed with his name.

Even the handwriting is spot on.

But he had never signed this document before. He looked at Xu Linshen in surprise, only to see him looking at him with great interest, his eyes were calm without a trace of waves, Ye Jingyun moved his lips and opened his mouth for a long time, but he couldn't say anything. syllable.

framed?

Ye Jingyun clenched his hand that was hanging by his side, and it took some time before he let go, gritted his teeth and sneered: "You said I've become stupid, but you've always been so stupid... You'd better be better in the future. Watching him all the time, praying that he will not get sick again, this time he can save his wrist by cutting his wrist, what will happen next time..."