Chapter 73

All the way back home, Shen Muchuan didn't talk much, and only asked a question when it was time to remind him.

"Have you taken the medicine the doctor prescribed you today?"

2333 also reminded: [Master host, remember to take medicine every day, after all, we cannot return it if our body is damaged, and we will stay in this world for a long time. 】

The implication of the system is to let Chu Yan take it easy, take medicine when he needs to take medicine, and receive treatment when he needs to receive treatment. Killing yourself would be really troublesome.

Chu Yan nodded.

Shen Muchuan looked at him doubtfully and asked, "Where did you put it?"

Chu Yan was stunned for a while without answering. Seeing him like this, Shen Muchuan understood that maybe he didn't remember where he put it. He searched around the living room and couldn't find it. Shen Muchuan sighed and could only go back to his bedroom. found.

The furniture in the bedroom was the most complete. At that time, he discussed with Chu Yan whether it was necessary to remove all the excess furniture, but Chu Yan rejected him nervously, with an attitude that was almost tough and firm.

So the things here didn't move. Shen Muchuan touched the head of the bed and the corner of the table, then opened the drawer of the bedside table, and found them one by one according to the names of the medicines he remembered.

Only one bottle was never found.

Shen Muchuan squatted down and searched by the bed, and finally found a small white medicine bottle at the foot of the bed.

He picked up the medicine bottle, and when he was about to get up, his eyes caught a glimpse of a box under the bed.

Shen Muchuan's eyebrows jumped, and he put the medicine bottle back in the drawer, almost uncontrollably, and subconsciously, he stretched out his hand and pulled the cardboard box out of the bed.

The box is big and heavy.

What is it that my brother can bring with him when he moves?

Shen Muchuan's heart beat abruptly, not so much as a curiosity, but an expectation that bordered on longing.

Although the cardboard box is placed under the bed, there is almost no dust on the surface. It seems that it has not been placed under the bed without moving...

Shen Muchuan opened the box, but before he moved his hand, he was shocked by the contents of the box and his internal organs were shaking...

Because in this box, except for the small boxes at the top, the box is neat and tidy, and all the letters are coded.

When the amount accumulated to a certain amount, the impact on the vision was undoubtedly huge. Shen Muchuan just picked up the above one and found that it was written for himself, not only this one, but all the others. The recipients of the letters are all the same...

And it was never mailed because the envelope wasn't even postmarked.

Shen Muchuan's hands trembled, panting, a voice in his heart was screaming, louder than his heartbeat, it seemed to be urging him to open, but the blood seemed to be frozen, and he couldn't move. Finally, after an unknown amount of time, Shen Muchuan slowly opened the first letter.

What caught his eye was the Qing Jun font that was familiar to his eyes.

"Mu Chuan, five years have passed, but I still feel like I'm dreaming. Maybe it was God's blessing that I could see you again before I can't see you, see you again...you look better than five years ago. Higher and more calm. But it has become less laughter and more silent...

When I'm with you these days, I almost never see you smile.

Also, I remember that you didn't do very well in finance courses before, but you are still a businessman who can do it alone.

In this way, some things are not necessarily set in stone.

It’s absurd to say. When I was studying with you in country M, I liked to think about the future. I thought that in the future, if I were to grow up, be free, and be able to do what I wanted to do, it would be great, but now that I’m really grown up, I am free, but my mind is full of only the past.

The more I think about it, the more I can’t help but miss it. I miss when we were studying and when we were together, but I think more, if only I could understand what I want earlier.

I never understood what you said to me before. I always listened to it as a joke. I just thought that sincerity is just something that can easily change in this world. Who can tell how much a person's sincerity is. There is no steel scale, go to weigh it, measure it, and see if it is as much as people say, or it has long been lacking in the tempering of the years.

But after you left, I found out that a person can't see not only other people's thoughts, but also his own.

Five years is not long, and sometimes I can't help but wonder in the middle of the night, why did God give me these five more years, and it would be better if everything ended five years ago. But thinking about it and feeling that this kind of thinking is really selfish, I should wake up and see how I regret it,

Speaking of which, I don't know when I realized it later. Maybe it was after the car accident, maybe when I woke up from countless dreams, maybe when I was walking the road we used to walk together... At that time I only know that there are a lot of things I want to say to you, thinking that if I can see you again, I must tell you, but after thinking about it for a long time, I realize that it is just the simplest sentence... I love you still Yes, I'm sorry... But gradually, I felt that I didn't say that to you five years ago, so I'm also not qualified to say it five years later. I should never be free, just like these five years..."

"I love you."

Shen Muchuan read the words one by one, only these three words reverberated in his mind, and the sour taste brought by these words filled his nose. Just looking at these words caused a piercing pain in his heart.

He recalled that he had asked Chu Yan many times before, whether he had any regrets.

Now all the doubts have been confirmed, in addition to being full of sourness, he only feels that his heart is suffocated and suffocated. The two of them are just people who have been played by fate, but at least there are still people who can go there in the past five years. Hate, but who can Chu Yan hate in the past five years?

After a sound of rummaging came from the bedroom, the sound stopped completely. Chu Yan sat on the sofa and listened for a while. He thought about it and felt that the location of his things should be a little too hidden, but he didn't know if the other party could find them. If they couldn't find them, should he remind them? ...

Chu Yan stood up from the sofa and groped to the door of the bedroom, but he heard no sound, and finally asked aloud, "What's wrong?"

2333 looked at the male protagonist sitting on the ground, with several open envelopes on the carpet beside him, his eyes were red, he almost cried like a fool, it was really unbearable to watch.

But he looked at Chu Yan as if he didn't know, and couldn't help it: [Master host, you really have no heart. 】

Chu Yan sighed: [Alas. But I also have good intentions. I really wrote these letters for a long time. Also, I also spent a lot of effort in order to make them old. ] And the content of each letter should be sincere. The text should neither be too explicit nor too subtle. It is best to express a kind of pain and love in the understatement.

The system recalled the time in the prison along the way. The host continued to work even when he was sick. It turned out to be for this, so it seemed to be considered a foresight.

[But those letters don't seem to have any substantive content, so why don't you tell the male protagonist personally? What a hassle. 】

[People will always choose to believe what they find. If I say it, the credibility will not be as high, and the effect will not be as good as it is now. 】

2333 believed it, but he still felt cruel. The host is simply using the most extreme methods over and over again to force the male protagonist to face the "truth" he created for him.

Hearing the sound, Shen Muchuan raised his eyes to look at Chu Yan who was standing at the door. His vision was hazy. He felt that he couldn't see clearly, so he wiped his eyes again, but the more he wiped, the more blurred his vision became.

Chu Yan didn't get an answer, and tentatively took a few steps forward, but now he is blind, so naturally he can't see his feet.

Seeing that his knee was about to hit the corner of the table, Shen Muchuan immediately warned, "Don't move!"

His voice was hoarse because of the out-of-control emotions just now, and in such silence, it sounded like a bit of excited scolding.

Chu Yan stopped subconsciously, and before he could react, he felt his shoulders being hugged by a strong force.

"You don't move..."

Immediately afterwards, Chu Yan felt a warm dampness coming from his shoulders.

[What's the benefit of always making him cry, you don't have to coax him. 】

Chu Yan didn't know why, so he just let him hug him for a while, and before he could ask, Shen Muchuan said, "Don't you have a lot to say to me?"

"But why am I in front of you... but you don't say anything?"

After he said these words, Chu Yan's whole body stiffened, and his face instantly paled visibly to the naked eye.

There was a trace of deep regret in Shen Muchuan's eyes, and he didn't want to force Chu Yan, but if he didn't make it clear, he didn't know when this person would hurt himself.

"What did you say?"

Shen Muchuan nodded in his pale eyes, his voice choked, he hesitated for a while before whispering, "I saw it all."

Chu Yan's lips trembled, his eyes pale and bleak.

"If you don't give yourself a chance, don't you give me a chance?"

"That's different."

Shen Muchuan stared at Chu Yan, and said word by word, "You don't have to rush to deny it. I have eyes and a heart. I will see for myself."

2333 After watching the whole process, don't want to say anything. The male protagonist is just giving him away.

"If you really don't want to be sad, don't say anything against your will that hurts me, and hurts yourself even more."

Chu Yan opened his mouth and wanted to say something, but after Shen Muchuan said those words, he couldn't say anything.

"What do you want to say to me all these years, I'm right in front of you now, you say, I listen."

Chu Yan's lips trembled, and after a long time, he closed his eyes heavily.

Shen Muchuan knew that he couldn't push him too hard, so he could only sigh slightly.

"Then take today's medicine first. You said that you have taken it, but I counted it just now, but it's not missing at all."

Shen Muchuan helped him sit down beside the bed, then turned around to pour water for him, but before he could walk away, someone grabbed his arm suddenly.

"……I love you."

He heard Chu Yan speak in a panic.

Shen Muchuan was completely stunned, these three words fluttered in the air, but they still smashed Shen Muchuan's heart astringent and hot, and the heat rushed from the heart to the heart and nose, causing the dry eyes to instantly spread. wet.

For the first time in five years, he truly felt that one of his heart was still hot.

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