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Chapter 68
Chapter 68
Shen Zhao looked at this face, the dark sky was behind her, the sky and the sea were joined together, and she couldn't tell where the boundaries were. The sea water came up wave after wave, making a whimpering sound of water.
Seems to be crying about that absurd love too.
People are sometimes ridiculous. The more they expect something, the more they will be in vain, and all their hopes will come true.
Shen Zhao lowered her eyes, her eyes were blurry, she turned the blue diamond with her fingertips, and the light shone in her eyes, she asked gently, "Why me, why?"
She opened her mouth, a whimper in her voice. The moment the eyelashes blinked lightly, tears dripped from the eye sockets and fell into the surging sea water.
Song Ling clenched her fingers slightly, she stared at Shen Zhao's wet eyes, those eyes were no longer before, and they were full of mournful despair.
She just felt distressed.
"Azhao, it's not like that..." Song Ling said, she wanted to explain something, but she started from the beginning, but found that she didn't know how to explain it.
She was wrong, from the beginning, she was wrong.
She clearly knew that she would come back sooner or later, but she still held her luck and thought she could hide it from her for the rest of her life.
This absurd relationship was doomed to be her fault from the beginning, and then she didn't know what to do, but it only got deeper and deeper, and it hurt her completely.
"Azhao, I love you." Song Ling grabbed her hand, squatted there, looked up at her, her words were so firm, but she felt powerless.
A powerlessness that is about to lose her forever.
Shen Zhao pursed her lips lightly, and the smile was filled with helplessness and bitterness. She looked at the person in front of her with devastated eyes and asked her softly, "Song Ling, what do you love me?"
This was the third time she asked her this question. Maybe she was really stupid and didn't see it clearly from the beginning. Every time she asked this question, Song Ling never answered her seriously.
She laughed, but once again. She told her seriously: maybe it was a pair of eyes...
But at that time, she was only joking. It turned out that she had told her from the beginning.
Yes, what she fell in love with was just her pair of eyes, a pair of eyes that were similar to others.
For this, she can do whatever it takes.
Using a stalker to monitor a person who has only one relationship, threatened her with her father's life, forced her, told her to break up with Sier, lied to her that she loved her, and watched her fall into this world. In the deception in the name of love, when she is completely fallen, she will be dealt a fatal blow head-on, making her doomed.
The love she got for abandoning Sier and dignity was nothing but a hoax.
Shen Zhao raised his hands, held Song Ling's face, looked down at her eyes, and said softly, "Song Ling, I'll dig these eyes out for you, okay?"
Song Ling trembled all over, she grabbed her hands holding her face with her backhand, and shouted to her in fright, "Azhao! I'm sorry... I'm sorry, I didn't mean to lie to you..." She trembled and gradually became incoherent. In this way, although there were deviations later, she was still speechless.
It was she who lied to her, forced her, used her as a substitute, and used those methods. She wanted to explain, but all the explanations were just the word "love" in the end. But this kind of love, at such a moment, is too pale and weaker than all reasons.
Song Ling gradually stopped, her throat hurt like being cut by a knife, she looked up at her, put her lips up to kiss her, rashly, full of fear, said: "Azhao, I love you, I really love you. You." This was the only truth she could explain and say.
The lips touched, making Shen Zhao go completely mad, declaring the anger she suppressed in her heart.
She pushed her away and said fiercely, "Song Ling! Do you think of me as a thoughtful, personable and dignified person? No, Song Ling, you have no heart!" She raised the blue diamond on her fingertips, her eyes Scarlet, desperately said, "I am the animal and plaything you imprisoned in the cage! No dignity! No equality! No freedom! There is nothing! And it is the key to lock this cage! I fell in love with you because I was cheap, and I deserved it!"
Every word of the heart-slaying pain was firmly planted in Song Ling's heart. She couldn't defend herself, except to endure it silently, she had no right to refute it.
Shen Zhao threw the blue diamond at her, tried her best to hold back the tears in her eyes, and said coldly, "Song Ling, a person like you is not worthy of love." She pushed her touch away, getting up and turning around. leave.
Song Ling got up in a panic, stepped forward and grabbed her wrist, calling her sadly: "Azhao, don't go...don't go..."
Shen Zhao stopped and looked at the dark cloud of crab shell green on the horizon. Half a year ago, she had heard the same thing, but at that time, she severely hurt that person's heart.
"Let go." Shen Zhao said.
Song Ling held back the sourness in her heart, tightly grabbed her wrist, and said, "I won't let go, Ah Zhao, I'm sorry, don't go, okay..."
Shen Zhao suddenly burst into tears, she raised her head, did not let the tears flow, did not look back, she said in a low voice, "You know what? Don't go, okay?' But what about it, I still left her and said a lot of hurtful things to her, Song Ling, a person like you will never understand, and will never know, what is true and precious."
She threw off Song Ling's hand completely, and ran away from her without turning her head.
Song Ling stood in a daze, the sea water surged up behind her, wet her calf, and the coolness came up, but it was far less than the desolation in her heart.
She will lose Shen Zhao completely, just like Rui Sier lost her. From the beginning to the end, she may not know what she really wants, whether it is Xiang Jin or Shen Zhao, she can't tell the difference, so after doing this ridiculous thing, she loves Shen Zhao as Xiang Jin, but in In this absurd process, that love has long since changed. She used an excuse to convince herself that it was just a stand-in, so that when Xiang Jin came back, she still hesitated, but at this moment, she looked away. When she left, she knew that she loved Shen Zhao, she wanted Shen Zhao, and she didn't want Shen Zhao to leave.
She probably won't shed tears without seeing the coffin. Until such a decisive moment, she will never understand what is true and what she wants most.
Thinking of something in a panic, she turned to look for the blue diamond, the sea water poured up, and everything on the beach was washed away long ago. The sky was so dark that it was almost impossible to see anything clearly.
When the water ebbs, a blue star suddenly flickers. Song Ling caught a glimpse of the blue diamond in the gravel. She brushed away the sand, picked it up, and held it tightly in her palm.
This was a birthday present for her. Maybe she had other intentions at the time, but at that moment, she really wanted to send her birthday wishes.
Song Ling squatted there, hugged her calf with her arms, and buried her head between her knees. Tears slowly flowed from the corners of her eyes and dripped into the sea water.