Chapter 88

Song Ling's expression froze for a moment. Chi Zhoubai's reputation plummeted because of the film "Qiqiao" four years ago. His career was tragically destroyed, and his commercial copyright was almost wiped out. He also broke up with Jiaming.

"Qiqiao" was regarded as a group of dark horses at the time. Although the film was characterized as pornographic. The film was banned from broadcasting, but after the film was nominated at the Xili International Film Festival in T country, it quickly aroused discussion in China, and the public began to Check out this so-called qualitative pornographic film.

Literary films have inherent advantages, and the topic of human nature is always the most talked about subject by audiences.

To put it bluntly, if Chi Zhoubai hadn't performed "Qiqiao", it probably wouldn't have been able to make such a big wave. But it is precisely because of Chi Zhoubai's performance that "Qiqiao" has a greater degree of discussion.

Time will dilute everything, and the impulsive pleasure and desire will gradually be replaced by contemplation and deep value meaning. More people believe that the "Qiqiao" has cultural value.

The ban on Chi Zhoubai is gradually lifted in China, but when a person falls from the peak to the lowest point in the dust, it is easier said than done to start over.

He broke up with Jiaming again, and without resources, it was too difficult to just rely on one face.

But fortunately, in recent years, Chi Zhoubai has been doing quite well in country T. Although it is not as good as the top level in China, he is still active in this circle, film and television, music and fashion. point.

It can be considered that she has opened up international resources for herself.

It should also be the idiom of the blessing in disguise.

Nothing is absolute. When you think that you are in a desperate situation, maybe there will be another scenery in the depths of the desperate situation.

Song Ling looked down at the information in her hand, and the past suddenly came to her mind. The mention of Chi Zhoubai and "Qiqiao" suddenly reminded her of Ah Zhao.

In that crew, Ah Zhao also stayed in it for a while.

During that time, it was probably their rare and only warm time.

But not much time.

In fact, if you do the math, they don't have much time together.

Most of the time, they hurt each other.

Nearly four years have passed. During these four years, Song Ling has not heard from her. She has searched almost everything she can find in the whole country, but there is still no clue.

She wanted to see her again, hug her, kiss her, and tell her that she misses her very much, and misses her very much.

The loneliness came to her heart, and Song Ling suddenly didn't have the mood to read any more information. She threw it on the table and said lightly, "Go out."

Ji Mingshu caught a glimpse of her expression and knew that she was in a bad mood again.

Over the past few years, she can feel that she is not happy.

Since Shen Zhao left, she suddenly seemed to be a different person. She was obviously the same Song Ling from before, but in a moment, Ji Mingshu would find that she was not as cold-blooded as before.

People are always changing, and Song Ling's changes all come from Shen Zhao.

Time is sometimes not a ruthless thing. In addition to bringing pain and regret to a person, it also makes a person slowly settle and become better.

Time is the scissors for pruning the branches of life. Although the pain is deep, it will slowly bloom beautiful flowers.

Song Ling was like this, Ji Mingshu suddenly wondered, if some people in life are destined to meet, can it be later, if she meets Shen Zhao at such a time, will they have a good ending.

But where are those ifs...

Something happens and it's there for the rest of your life.

Ji Mingshu lightly retracted his gaze, and without saying anything, turned around and left the office.

Song Ling sat there and slowly pulled out the drawer at hand, where a photo album was hidden.

She stretched out her hand and took out a lot of photos, all of which belonged to Shen Zhao alone.

There was a time when she was madly infatuated with her, and secretly took a lot of photos with her mobile phone. Neither got together.

Song Ling printed out all of Shen Zhao's photos and bound them in a beautiful photo album. Ah Zhao didn't leave anything for her. On the day she left, she didn't even say goodbye, she didn't bring anything, and she didn't leave anything. The last time they met, they were so hasty and embarrassed.

Opening the albums, Song Ling looked at them carefully, each one seemed to be able to find the scene at that time.

This one was the night when Ah Zhao went to listen to Chi Zhoubai's concert. She was drunk in the bar. She drove to pick her up. She leaned on the car and fell asleep. While waiting for the traffic light, she secretly photographed her. sleeping face...

This is the first time she took the initiative to entangle with her, and she fell asleep deeply tired. In the middle of the night, she stared at her curled eyelashes, she felt cute and gentle, and the eyes that she took casually...

And this one, she forced her that day, but she said she came to the aunt, and she got the bed, she made the bed with her, she bent over half-kneeling at the head of the bed, and she stood at the end of the bed, she held her cell phone, Suddenly called her, she turned around in a daze, just fell into her camera, this is a rare positive and sober photo...

...

...

In fact, most of them were Ah Zhao who was asleep, because when she was awake, she didn't dare to be presumptuous, for fear that she would get angry.

Sometimes she wonders what love is, but it's actually that complicated. She loves seeing that person, being with her, kissing her soft lips, sticking to her warm face, rubbing her ears, and love. everything about her...

Love without knowing it is a sad thing in the world.

It was a relatively warm time, but she forgot to recall the feeling at that time.

Falling in love with Ah Zhao was much earlier than she thought.

What about a pair of eyes? From a different angle, it can be regarded as love at first sight in another sense.

Fingers touch the profile face on the photo, the beautiful face looks like a well-behaved sika deer when he is asleep.

She rubbed gently, her voice carrying endless nostalgia and longing: "Azhao, I miss you so much."

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Country T, Kangzhuang Apartment.

Standing in front of the floor-to-ceiling window, Shen Zhao looked at the heavy snow drifting outside the window, whimpering, as if the heaven was crying.

The window was not closed, and the wind and snow blew in ragingly, blowing on his face, with a bone-chilling coolness and dampness. She raised her head to look at the gray sky, her lower jaw outlined a slender arc, and the profile of her profile was more refined, a style and elegance that belonged to the precipitation of time.

It's winter again, and this is the fourth deep winter she has spent in country T.

There is an empty space in my heart, it is a bottomless pit that can never be filled.

The sound of the key being unlocked came from behind, rustling.

The door was opened, and you didn't have to guess who it was.

Chi Zhoubai was wearing a down jacket, with a mask and scarf to cover himself tightly, and opened the door with white mist in his mouth. As soon as I looked up, I saw the person wearing a suspender skirt standing in front of the window, the long waves dragged behind the waist, and the wind blew in, making a cold arc. She held a cigarette with her fingertips, and the smoke gradually rose into the sky, and then dissipated in the wind and snow.

Chi Zhoubai changed his shoes, walked over in silence for a moment, pulled the shawl on the sofa to put it on her, then closed the window, and said in a light voice: "Why don't you close the window, the experience of blowing a headache last time, Did you forget it so soon?"

Chi Zhoubai silently took the cigarette in her hand and snuffed it out in the ashtray on the coffee table.

A voice came from behind, softly, "Looking at the snow scene, I was fascinated by it for a while."

In the past four years, she has changed a lot, but the only thing that has not changed is that voice, which is still warm and soft, with a low lingering lingering.

She suddenly remembered that the first time she was attracted by this voice, she still remembered it clearly after so many years.

The person in front of him had suffered a period of inhuman pain.

Four years ago, Shen Zhao's drug addiction relapsed from time to time. During the time she was taking care of her, she knew everything she had encountered.

In half a year, she accompanied her to get rid of the drug in her body. The drug was really hard to quit, sometimes it relapsed, and it suddenly came up, which caught people off guard. In addition, she was severely depressed, and she couldn't eat or eat. He vomited, which resulted in severe stomach problems.

Because of that poison, she got sick all over.

Even cigarettes have become another addiction for her.

Chi Zhoubai lowered her eyes, her long eyes were still wet with melted snow, she blinked her eyelashes lightly, and asked lightly, "Didn't Doyle say that we can stop smoking now?"

Shen Zhao closed the shawl on her body and still stood by the window. She turned around and looked at the person standing beside the sofa, with a shallow smile on her face, and said softly, "It's a habit, I Change it as much as possible.”

The cigarette was different from the one next to her. It was the tobacco treatment that Dr. Doyle personally gave her. It was the one that assisted her in her detoxification. .

Chi Zhoubai was sitting on the sofa, leaning there lazily, looking up at the person by the window, because she was facing the light, she couldn't see Shen Zhao's face clearly, she stared at that face for a long time, and finally said: "I want to go back."

Shen Zhao didn't think of it for a while, and asked her with a smile, "Where are you going?"

"Return to Jiangcheng."

The smile on the corner of her lips suddenly froze, and Shen Zhao was stunned for a moment, but it was only for a moment, she turned around again, no longer looking at the people behind her, but no longer interested in looking at the snowy scenery outside the window.

She said lightly: "Go back."

"What about you?" Chi Zhoubai stared at her, taking in all her expressions.

Shen Zhao was silent, smiled lightly, and said, "I'm not going back, you can go back."

Chi Zhoubai's mouth twitched slightly, as if she knew she would say this for a long time, she chased after and asked, "Why?"

Shen Zhao was silent, her lips pursed tightly into a thin line, she lowered her eyelashes, and the atmosphere suddenly made her uncomfortable. She didn't want to continue such a topic, and turned around to flee.

But Chi Zhoubai seemed to be sure that she was going to leave, and had long ago walked behind her. Shen Zhao turned around and looked directly at her. She was stunned for a moment, and there was a slight moment of panic in her eyes.

Chi Zhou stared at her face and asked, "Is it because of Song Ling?"

She doesn't often discuss this kind of thing with her, and she never mentions these two words in front of her. It seems that these two words have become taboos. As long as they are mentioned, she will still be out of order.

But this time, for some reason, Chi Zhoubai suddenly didn't want to run away anymore. She wanted to see whether the deep scars, pus and scabs, had gotten better.

Shen Zhao raised her eyes and looked at her. Against the white snow scene, her paper-like face was white and moving, and her eyebrows were as pale as Daishan. She retracted her gaze, fell into the air, and said, "No."

"You still love Song Ling, don't you?" Chi Zhoubai picked up the scar and pressed her to the depths.

Shen Zhao seemed to be poked in pain, she raised her head to meet her, her eyes were instantly red like a Shura, she stared at her and said, "No, I said, no."

"Then accept me." Chi Zhoubai's lips raised a smile, but there was a little helplessness in that smile. She looked into her eyes and continued, "If you don't love her anymore, then accept me, as long as you accept it. I, I believe it."

Shen Zhao was silent, his eyes dimmed slightly, and he did not answer her words.

Everything was as expected, the person in front of her was rescued by her, and she spent four years with her, which was the darkest four years in her life.

The light in those eyes was once extinguished, but she managed to light it up again.

Shen Zhao in front of her was obviously redeemed by her.

"Zhaozhao, the real letting go is never escaping, but facing." Chi Zhoubai looked at Shen Zhao who was drooping and said slowly, "Go back with me, whether you still love it or not, face everything, even ifWithout me, just face your heart, things will always end, are you going to escape for the rest of your life?"

Shen Zhao raised her head slightly, stared at the firmness in Chi Zhoubai's eyes, she tried her best to curl the corners of her lips, and said lightly, "Okay."