Chapter 33. Fragile and Hard

Feng Yi noticed her gaze, lowered his head to look at her, smiled and hugged her into his arms.

Qiao Li looked into his eyes, was silent for a few seconds, and suddenly said in a low voice, "I met Zhou Zhe at the supermarket tonight."

Her emotions fluctuated when she met her ex-boyfriend, not because she still loved Zhou Zhe, but because he represented the experience of the past ten years, the fragile, helpless and struggling self, the one who was bound and hidden in The shadow in the darkness jumped out and tore in her body. It was the ugly youth that couldn't be shaken off her bones.

She didn't want to face it, and she didn't admit that she couldn't control her emotions, but she was afraid of Feng Yi's misunderstanding.

She was a little afraid that Feng Yi would get angry, after all, she shouldn't have mentioned her ex-boyfriend inexplicably in this atmosphere.

Unexpectedly, Feng Yi's expression didn't change in the slightest. He just lightly touched Qiao Li's forehead with his forehead, like an adult coaxing a child.

"I know." He kept his voice softer than he had ever been.

Qiao Li looked at him with wide eyes in surprise.

It was the first time he saw Qiao Li stunned, his black and white eyes were full of his reflection.

Not used to it, but he liked it.

He raised his hand awkwardly and touched the back of Qiao Li's head, perhaps trying to stroke her hair, but the movement was jerky and turned into a careful up and down pat.

The changing screen light made the light in his eyes soft and dazzling, beautiful and unreal, and his voice smiled: "Qiao Li, do you really think I'm stupid?"

Qiao Li didn't know how to answer. The struggle, confusion, surprise, and guilt made her mind mess up. She could only look at Feng Yi stupidly.

This is really not like her in the past. Feng Yi knew that her heart was not as calm as she had deliberately expressed, but he didn't expect to see her inadvertently revealing the tumultuous inner heart tonight.

Her most seductive moment is when her sense of proportion is out of balance.

"Qiao Li, my life is very simple, I grew up in a greenhouse, I have no ups and downs worth mentioning since I was a child, my past is dull and boring, so what you see is all of me, my past, my present , and my possible future."

"But you are not. I can feel that you are hiding your past and acting as your present. All a person's past experiences, every choice and decision, every joy, sorrow and joy are combined together to form the present. Own."

He cupped her cheek carefully, and his slightly trembling palm betrayed his nervousness: "What I like is you, your whole person, your everything, not the shell you force yourself to play. Qiao Li, I say you are good to see. Glowing is not a lie to lie to you, everything about you attracts me, not your appearance, it's you, just 'you'."

He approached her, like a child who hid in a quilt and whispered in childhood, surrounded by barriers, and there was only softness in the ivory tower:

"I hope that one day in the future, when you are ready, you will be willing to tell me all about you and make up for my dull past, okay?"

There was a loud cheer on the TV, and the host counted down the countdown aloud amid the jubilation.

"3!"

"2!"

"1!"

Her lips were touched lightly.

Feng Yi smiled with crooked eyebrows and white teeth, like a tree growing vigorously in the sun: "Happy New Year."

When his voice fell, Qiao Li suddenly plunged into her arms, making him tense with fright.

He tentatively raised his arms, wrapped them around her slowly, and tightened them a little bit.

The noise on the TV continued, the room was full of laughter and excitement, and the two embraced each other quietly.

What is true firmness?

Qiao Li has always thought that in a life of ups and downs, the clouds are light and the wind and snow are not eroded.

You can't show your cowardice, you have to hide your fear and panic, otherwise there will be countless people accusing you, and countless scenes will crush you.

The teenage years are gone, girls must give up their fragility, worship logic, and be less emotional. Softness is the most useless thing, and all must be judged with reason. If there is an oversight, it is not good enough, then you have to be tougher, otherwise you are not strong enough, and you are naturally inferior to men.

Every step and every decision in life, can't wait to think about all the consequences and possibilities, measure it in every possible way, and consider everything before, so as to make sure that this step is stable enough.

But at this moment, she was trapped in Feng Yi's arms, and she didn't want to think about the chances of his words being false, and she didn't want to force herself to wake up rationally and rigidly, and she didn't want to worry about the present and the future.

She just wanted to enjoy her fragility in his arms calmly and safely.

New Year's Day passed, Feng Yi went back to school to prepare for the exam week, Qiao Li also worked overtime to complete the year-end work, both of them were so busy that they hardly chatted.

Qiao Li's boss returned to China after Christmas, and when she arrived at the company, she began to frantically urge her to ask for things. She was so busy every day that she couldn't even bother to eat.

She was so busy that she couldn't tell what month or day it was today, so when she saw her mother calling, she thought something was wrong at home.

She picked up her phone and went to the stairs to pick up the phone so as not to interrupt other colleagues' work.

"Hello? Mom, what's wrong?"

Her mother's slightly distorted voice came from the other end of the phone: "Hello, Lili, happy birthday."

Only then did she realize that today was her birthday.

It wasn't something happened at home, she breathed a sigh of relief: "Thank you."

"what are you doing?"

"In the company."

"Oh, when will you come back during the Chinese New Year? You only came back for one day last year, so you have to stay a little longer this year."

Qiao Li rubbed her temples: "I know, I won't be too busy this Spring Festival, don't worry."

Her mother's voice was obviously a lot more pleasant: "That's good, that's good, then you also bring Zhou Zhe back and show it to relatives and friends."

Qiao Li froze. Someone passed by the stairs to greet her. She nodded with a smile, turned around and lowered her voice: "Mom, I broke up with Zhou Zhe."

"Break up?! How did you break up with him?" The sudden increase in the volume made her unable to hold her phone away.

Qiao Li really didn't want to continue this topic, but in the end she could only answer obediently: "Mom, he dumped me."

"What did you do, he dumped you? You've been talking for seven years, how can he break up with you? You let him down and apologize to him. Men are soft-hearted, and he will forgive you if you apologize. "

"Mom, it's impossible, there's no possibility for me and him to get back together." She was already numb and said patiently.

"Tell me again?! Qiao Li, are you going to be mad at your mother, you talked to him for seven years, and these seven years are such a waste? You will be 26 today, and you think you are still young What about the little girl? Your cousin is about to give birth to a second child. What are you still dawdling about? I just thought that you were so assertive that you didn't push you. Do you think you can find someone as good as him?"

Qiao Li sighed and weakly persuaded: "Mom, calm down..."

"I'm relieved? I think you're mad at me, so you can feel at ease. Why did I raise you, a white-eyed wolf, for you to go to college, to go to graduate school, and to the end of your reading, you're going to be wild, you think you How amazing is it to work in a foreign company, isn't it? How did I give birth to a daughter like you, and everyone would laugh at me when I said it..."

There were constant accusations from the phone. A colleague came to pat Qiao Li on the shoulder and asked where the documents she had signed were. She covered the microphone and told him in a low voice.

The voice on the phone leaked a few words, and the colleague gave her an embarrassed glance and hurried away.

Qiao Li raised the phone to her ear again, just heard her dad's comforting voice beside her, and then hung up the call suddenly.

She lowered her head, lowered her hands weakly, leaned her head against the wall, closed her eyes for a few seconds, took a few deep breaths, and returned to the office in a stable mood to continue working, not at all like the dog who was scolded by sharp words.shower head man.