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Chapter 68
Chapter 68
Yan Yi's suit, vest and polka dot tie were thrown aside, the French shirt was half open, and the white skin under his collarbone was dotted with reddish hickeys.
At the end of a gentle caress, Yan Yi's legs were still soft, the rabbit's tail was wet, he reclined on the armrest of the sofa, and wiped the space between his legs with a tissue.
Lu Shangjin only unzipped his trousers from beginning to end, and stretched out two tissues to help him wipe the dripping from his legs.
Yan Yi's cheeks were red and hot, and he pushed Lu Shangjin's shoulder angrily: "Go away...I'll wipe it myself..."
Lu Shangjin stopped his hand at the right time, stopped at the distance that Yan Yi pushed him away, holding a tissue in his hand, looking at him a little disappointed.
Yan Yi didn't notice Lu Shangjin's hurt eyes, wiped the flow outside, and reached for the trousers thrown on the back of the sofa.
"You keep getting it inside...I, I'm going to be pregnant." Yan Yi bit his lip and straightened his clothes, before going to the full-length mirror to straighten his crumpled shirts.
The body was suddenly hugged from behind.
Alpha is tall and handsome, a bit taller than him, and when his chin is placed on his shoulder, he looks like a tame and friendly large dog.
"So you don't want to give me a baby..." Lu Shangjin put the tip of his nose behind his ear apologetically, "Then I'll wear a condom next time."
He thought that Yan Yi cared so much about the falsely pregnant child, so he must have wanted a child. He just didn't dare to ask, as long as Yan Yi didn't take the initiative to refuse, Lu Shangjin would be able to deceive himself and let nature take its course.
Maybe, I just don't want to give birth to me... I have been bored in my heart, I want to ask, but I don't know who can answer.
"What are you talking about?" Yan Yi was stunned for a moment, then turned to a bright smile, "I just don't want to have children too early, we are both young, you have your career, and I will go after I don't need any more nutrition injections. Find a job that I like, and don't want children to occupy too much of our time together. Well, of course, I would be very happy if I had it."
Lu Shangjin didn't react for a while, and Yan Yi's words were silently digested in his mind.
It turned out that when he was in his twenties, Yan Yi was imagining their future alone.
Why do you want children to that extent later? Lu Shangjin pursed his lips, closed his eyes and leaned against Yan Yi's head slightly.
Perhaps just like he is now, Lu Shangjin hopes to have a child, and when Yanyi wakes up and wants to leave him, there will be a concern around him that will make Yanyi nostalgic.
"It's scary to have a baby, isn't it?" Yan Yi put the hand around his waist and rubbed it, "I'm afraid of pain."
"I'm here." Lu Shangjin said in a hoarse voice, "Your alpha won't hurt you." At that time, he will inject two powerful energy doses in advance to ensure the supply of soothing pheromones.
"My alpha..." Yan Yi lowered his head, looking very happy. After thinking about it for a long time, I finally decided to comfort his alpha, "Don't be too sorry about the fit, it's okay, with you... I really feel comfortable, or you don't need to be so gentle, I won't feel a little pain. feeling bad……"
This is what Yan Yi said at the age of twenty-three. At that time, he had lost his temper, and he was always a little cautious when speaking.
"No!" Lu Shangjin suddenly shivered, and sternly and loudly refused.
Yan Yi was taken aback, his fingertips trembled as he supported Lu Shangjin, carefully moved it away, and Lu Shangjin grabbed it and grabbed it back into the palm of his hand.
"Yanyan, I promise," Lu Shangjin hugged his body tightly as if seeking comfort, "I will treat you well and won't hurt you a little... You promise me that you will never leave me when you are twenty-seven years old. …”
"What are you talking about, why can't I understand." Yan Yi's expression relaxed, "Why are you so afraid, do I make you feel uneasy?"
Lu Shangjin nodded.
"Show me a little more coquettish." Lu Shangjin held Yan Yi's cheek lightly, bowed his head and kissed him, "You promise me... promise me."
Yan Yi turned around and tiptoed in response to the kiss, it seemed that he was not doing well, and his alpha was always worrying about gains and losses.
He found a pen and paper from the wine cabinet in the lounge, leaned over and wrote a paragraph with elegant and beautiful strokes.
It read: "I will love you at twenty-seven."
Also sign your name in the lower right corner.
"Promise you." Yan Yi stuffed the note into Lu Shangjin's hand and released a pheromone to comfort him, "If you don't do it, sue me."
Lu Shangjin smiled: "Who would accept such a boring appeal."
Yan Yi watched him cherishly fold the note into squares and put it in his pocket, with warm water flowing in his heart.
The charity auction was coming to an end, and Lu Shangjin had to show up again. Yan Yi stayed on the second floor, sitting where he could see the booth and drinking orange juice.
It happened that Tan Meng was also on the second floor, so he brought two pieces of chocolate almond cake and came to chat with Yan Yi.
"I took two pieces, do you want to eat?" Tan Meng sat on the high stool, the butterfly omega was very petite, sitting on the high stool, his two slender legs swayed gently, "Lu... always go to the booth Yes."
Lu Shangjin had repeatedly instructed them not to mention the name "Lu Shangjin" in front of Yan Yi to stimulate him.
Yan Yi seemed to pause, Tan Meng immediately changed the subject, took out a hardcover book from his backpack and pushed it to Yan Yi, "My new book has a commemorative edition, and the last one is for you."
"Oh my God, thank you." Yan Yi fondly stroked the plastic packaging box, "It's very cool."
"Actually, I have a club that only accepts omega, and the members are of relatively high rank. If you are interested, come and have a look at me?" Tan Meng leaned against the long table and crossed his legs, holding a large glass of orange juice to suck.
Closing speeches began at the booth on the first floor, expressing sincere thanks to Mr. Lu Shangjin, the organizer of the exhibition.
Yan Yi stared blankly at the words "Lu Shangjin" on the screen, and his whole body froze.
Tan Meng immediately wanted to pull Yan Yi away, but Yan Yi sat dazedly on the high stool, staring at the three words.
He suddenly couldn't remember the name of his alpha.
For months, he hadn't thought about the name of his alpha because he was sure he knew.
What's more, when he was at home, he rarely had the chance to come into contact with the name of alpha.
"Ayan..." Tanmeng didn't stop him anymore. He is also a member of the high-level omega, and he can also empathize with some of the injuries Yan Yi has suffered.
It's a matter of time to restore memory, and Lu Shangjin must face it no matter how to escape.
Yan Yi recovered from his astonishment, stood up in a trance, walked to the iron railing, and stared blankly at the alpha who spoke calmly on the booth.
His name is Lu Shangjin.
The somewhat dreaded name in memory belonged to his alpha.
Yan Yi couldn't tell why he hated the name, but felt a little stomachache and nausea.
His mind went blank for a while, until something was pulled out of his mouth, and Yan Yi could see the alpha who was panting and standing in front of him.
Lu Shangjin took the cigarette butt drawn from Yan Yi's mouth, snuffed it out with his thumb and index finger in front of Yan Yi, and asked helplessly, "Why did you go to the rooftop to smoke?"
When Lu Shangjin heard his name read aloud, he knew it was over.
It's all over.
"I don't know." Yan Yi leaned gently against the roof fence, "I don't know how I became so skilled at smoking for the first time."
"Did you hide something from me?" Yan Yi raised his face slightly, looked at him deeply, rolled up Lu Shangjin's tie with his fingertips, and looked into it.
Lu Shangjin hugged him tremblingly, and lowered his head to Yan Yi's shoulder. He didn't know how many times he could hug him, or if he could give him a happy death.
Yan Yi's heart softened, and he patted Lu Shangjin's back: "You happen to have the same name as someone I don't like, so it's not your fault."
"You hate him?" Lu Shangjin felt that his blood pressure had increased.
"It's annoying." Yan Yi replied perfunctorily, "Otherwise, how could I remember it so deeply."
Lu Shangjin had nothing to say, the heart was sliced horizontally by a small blade, and then scraped vertically into pieces, the fine blood was dripping in a pool.
After the jewelry exhibition, the two went home as usual. The difference from usual was that Yan Yi was covered with a thin layer of ice, alienated and cold.
It's starting to snow.
There is a ginkgo tree outside the window of Lu Shangjin's office. It lost its leaves as early as autumn, and there is only one branch standing precariously covered with snow.
A gust of cold wind came over, and Lu Shangjin shuddered, looking out the window, the last lingering leaf was twirling and falling.
Full of tenderness, he chases the light across the swamp, seemingly fleeing but falling.
The moment the ginkgo leaves fell in the thin snow, Lu Shangjin got up and left.
It was about minus 20 degrees, Lu Shangjin was wearing only a suit and shirt, sitting in the car that was not yet warm, and twisted the fire with his frozen hands.
It snowed and the road was slippery, and there was a traffic jam in the middle. The company was not far from home. Lu Shangjin threw the car on the side of the road, pulled off his tie and ran towards home in the cold wind.
Standing in the empty living room, Lu Shangjin's hair was still dripping with water, and there was a circle of mud on the edge of the leather shoes, stamping a series of footprints on the smooth floor.
The car key slipped from the palm of his hand and fell to the ground with a crisp sound.
Lu Shangjin knelt on the ground, dazedly listening to the slow sound of the clock in the silent home.
"It's very early to get off work today." There was a rustling of changing shoes and hanging clothes from behind, "I came back from Tanmeng and brought you snacks."
Yan Yi looked at the dirty mud floor under Lu Shangjin's feet in surprise: "What are you doing, don't think about it?"
Lu Shangjin suddenly rushed over and took Yan Yi into his arms, gasping for breath, and asked in a hoarse voice, "Please tell me when you leave home, can you?"
"Okay..." Yan Yi wanted to get the mop, but was picked up by Lu Shangjin and stuffed into the bathroom.
"I'll drag it later." Lu Shangjin refused to let him go.
On the bed, Lu Shangjin was still uncontrollably releasing pheromones to comfort him. He was indeed too tired today and fell asleep faster than Yan Yi.
When sleeping, Lu Shangjin always hugs him tightly from behind, with the tip of his nose against his neck, and breathes calmly behind his neck.
Yan Yi turned sideways and closed his eyes for a while, and put his hand on the big hand that was tightly wrapped around his waist, wanting to part Lu Shangjin's hand to go to the toilet.
The arms around his waist tightened in a panic, and Lu Shangjin babbled in his sleep: "Don't go... I'll change, I'll change everything..."
Recently, his alpha has always been sleepless, and every night he has nightmares.
Yan Yi gently opened his hand, turned around, stuffed the quilt with his own scent into Lu Shangjin's arms for him to hold, and quietly went to the bathroom.
When he returned with a glass of water, the headlights in the bedroom were dazzlingly bright.
Lu Shangjin was sitting on the bed holding his head in pain, and his eyes were bloodshot when he raised his head to look at Yan Yi.
Yan Yi hurried to the bedside, released an alpha that comforted him with pheromones, and put the cup in his hand to his lips.
"Drink some water. Haven't slept yet."
Lu Shangjin looked haggard, looked at him helplessly, and muttered happily, "Ah, you're still here."
Yan Yi touched his forehead, it was very hot.
Lu Shangjin's bloodshot eyes were covered with a layer of tear film, his trembling hand grabbed Yan Yi's wrist and put it on his dry, cracked and hot lips, close to the tattoo on the base of his ring finger.