Chapter 85 It is better for us to start over (thirteen)

From that day on, Xia Zhixu did not go to the fifth floor to find Xu Qichen.

He woke up from that beautiful dream and sat on the bed sweating for a long time. He couldn't believe that he was probably crazy to have such fantasies about his friends.

This is the biggest disaster he has encountered in the past sixteen years.

Even when he went home, he tried to keep a certain distance from Xu Qichen, just to prevent him from discovering what was in his heart.

If Xu Qichen found out, would he feel disgusted? He was so innocent, so gentle.

Thinking about such things too much, Xia Zhixu would even have nightmares at night. The content of the dream is nothing more than the fact that his mind was discovered by others, and he was despised by everyone. But he doesn't care about other people's opinions, all he cares about is Xu Qichen.

If he knew, would he still be friends with him?

Certainly not.

"Hey, do you want to play basketball in this gym class?"

Chen Fang and Xia Zhixu walked down the stairs side by side, Xia Zhixu hummed, "Let's fight."

"You're so weird recently," Chen Fang turned his head and looked at his face, "What are you thinking about all day long? Sigh, it's going to be a holiday in a few days."

Xia Zhixu shook his head, "I didn't think of anything."

The two walked to the playground, and Chen Fang saw a large group of girls, and then he remembered, "Class 4 also has gym class today."

The word "Class 4" was like a thorn, and it plunged into Xia Zhixu's heart at once. He struggled for a long time, but he couldn't help raising his eyes, looking for the familiar figure everywhere. In the end, he was found in the 4th class that was gathering. The strong sunlight made his eyes narrow, and his whole body was dazzled by the sun, and he was so cute.

Xia Zhixu hurriedly looked back.

Terrible. It's really deadly.

Gathered with his class, then ran around the playground for two laps, and then disbanded after hearing a few words from the physical education teacher. There were many boys in Class 13, and they all automatically surrounded Xia Zhixu when they finished, discussing playing basketball. The matter of the team, but Xia Zhixu's heart was not on the basketball in front of him at all, and he had already flown to another class not far away, he had to smile and say, "It's fine, you decide."

He was in such a bad state that he couldn't make any shots, so that's fine. The confused Xia Zhixu accidentally bumped into the basketball hoop, rubbing off a piece of skin on his elbow, and it was hot.

Feeling irritable, and if you continue to fight, you will arch out the fire. Xia Zhixu withdrew himself and walked to an empty court with the remaining basketball in his arms, "You guys play, I don't feel good today, so I need to practice throwing."

A person is facing the frame, throwing over and over again.

The more you cast, the more chaotic you become.

"I haven't been going to the fifth floor to hang around recently, I really miss you~"

Just hearing this voice made Xia Zhixu's eyes roll to the sky. He was about to make a layup when Xia Xiqing, who came over, blocked his cap all of a sudden.

"I said you've been too bad recently, even I can cover your hat." Xia Xiqing smiled and threw the ball back into Xia Zhixu's arms.

"What are you doing here in our class?" Xia Zhixu patted the ball on the ground without looking up.

"Oops~" Xia Xiqing stretched, "Of course I have to avoid Xiao Chenchen's confession, otherwise I'll be too blind to see."

Xia Zhixu paused, raised his head, Xia Xiqing took a big step to the side, and two figures appeared in the vacant line of sight.

Xu Qichen was standing on the edge of the football field, and there was a petite girl in front of him.

"We Chenchen are good-looking and talented, so it's not surprising to be liked by others." Xia Xiqing raised his hand to cover the sunlight in front of him, looking at the two people over there, "Don't say, we look pretty good. , A boy like him should be matched with a cute and cute girl."

He knew that Xia Xiqing was a person who was afraid that the world would not be in chaos.

He knew that he was deliberately letting himself see this.

Xia Zhixu just couldn't control his emotions.

He tilted his head, grabbed the basketball with one hand, and lifted it up.

He threw it violently in the direction of the two people.

A thud. The basketball fell straight to the position less than half a meter away from the two feet, and then bounced high. The girl was startled by the loud noise and the sudden basketball, and subconsciously hid behind Xu Qichen.

"I'm going..." Xia Xiqing was stunned for a while, then laughed, "You're really scarier than I thought." He reached out and patted his shoulder, "Be restrained, or you'll be finished."

"Not everyone is as indifferent as I am, Xia Zhixu."

After the provocation, Xia Xiqing left the crime scene slowly and leisurely.

Xu Qichen followed the direction of the basketball and saw Xia Zhixu. He distanced himself from the girl behind him and said softly, "Are you alright."

"No, just startled."

Hearing the footsteps, Xu Qichen raised his head and saw Xia Zhixu running over with a bright smile on his face, his tone full of apologetics, "I'm sorry, I just played and accidentally let go, are you alright?"

When the girl saw it was Xia Zhixu, her face was full of surprise and joy, but she was suddenly concerned by the grass, and she was speechless, "I didn't encounter it, I was just scared..."

"That's great, I was also taken aback. It would be terrible if I hit someone." Xia Zhixu breathed a sigh of relief, and his eyes finally fell on Xu Qichen, "How about you?"

Xu Qichen stared into his eyes, as if trying to see something out of it.

"I'm fine."

Xia Zhixu smiled, picked up the basketball on the ground and tucked it under his arm, with a clear tone, "Well, if I invite you to a drink, just treat me as an apology, okay?"

No girl would refuse his invitation.

The girl was separated from the two, Xu Qichen was standing on the right, and his whole body was dazed by the sun. From the football field to the empty cafeteria, Xu Qichen didn't speak, but silently listened to the voices of the two people beside him.

The person you like, and the person who claims to like you, have a lively conversation.

The three of them sat on the empty seats in the cafeteria. Xia Zhixu bought three cups of milk tea, one for each person. He sat beside Xu Qichen very acquainted, and asked Xu Qichen to face the girl.

But Xu Qichen only felt restrained, he didn't want to sit face to face with the accused person at all, and he didn't even want to have another Xia Zhixu in such a scene.

"What did you guys just chat about on the football field?" Xia Zhixu asked with a straw in his mouth.

Seeing that the girl first looked up at him in surprise, then he faltered and couldn't say a complete sentence.

Xia Zhixu pretended to unknowingly guessed: "Is it a confession?" He put his arms on the table, moved closer to the girl deliberately, and stared at her face carefully, "So Xu Qichen likes you like this. girl."

"No, no..." The girl's ears were all red, and she was very embarrassed, "I told him..."

"Oh, I did it the other way around." He showed a sudden realization.

To be honest, Xia Zhixu didn't know why he was so mean.

But he just wanted to make everyone uncomfortable, not just himself.

"I think you're a good match," Xia Zhixu took Xu Qichen's arm deliberately, "don't think he usually doesn't talk, he's actually a very good person."

"I...I know..."

you know? what do you know...

Xia Zhixu lowered his head and smiled.

The unprovoked maliciousness made him hate himself.

Xu Qichen felt a panic in his heart, maybe it was because of the defendant's frustration, maybe it was the basketball that came out of nowhere, or maybe it was Xia Zhixu, who had misunderstood him, but he didn't want to stay here any longer.

"I'm a little uncomfortable. I'll go to the infirmary." After speaking, he stood up and walked out of the cafeteria without even taking the milk tea.

The girl was obviously confused, but Xu Qichen was a deeply hidden person, and she never understood it.

Xia Zhixu smiled, "It seems that I disturbed you, I'm really sorry." After he finished speaking, he picked up the basketball on the ground, and held his milk tea cup with the other hand, "You drink slowly, I'll first Let's go." He gave the girl a friendly smile, "I wish you success."

After he finished speaking, he also left.

Xu Qichen walked in front, the dazzling sunlight was about to melt him. At a distance of five or six meters, Xia Zhixu walked behind, holding a milk tea and slowly sucking it.

He originally thought that Xu Qichen was just looking for an excuse to escape, but he was a little worried, in case he was really uncomfortable, so he couldn't help following behind him.

Unexpectedly, he actually went to the infirmary.

There was no one in the infirmary. Xu Qichen walked to the consultation room. There were some daily disinfection tools and medicines on the table. He picked up a medicine bottle and looked at the label on it.

After hesitating for a long time, Xia Zhixu finally came in.

"Sit over there." Xu Qichen said without raising his head.

Xia Zhixu didn't think much of it, and sat obediently on the white hospital bed next to him, with his long legs stretched out, the basketball between his feet, and his eyes fixed on Xu Qichen.

When only the two of them were left, he hid those dark sides again and turned into a sun shining towards him with all his heart.

Xu Qichen walked to the water dispenser, took a glass of water, then walked to Xia Zhixu's side and sat down, grabbed his arm, poured cold water on his elbow, and washed the wound for him. Then took another alcohol cotton ball and gently rubbed the broken skin.

"Did you come here to help me deal with the wound?" Xia Zhixu regretted it when he asked this without thinking, he shouldn't be so hasty.

Xu Qichen didn't speak, lowered his head and carefully helped him disinfect, and then changed a cotton ball and rubbed some iodophor on it.

He couldn't say that he saw him hit the ball rack when he was still in the confession.

Seeing that Xu Qichen didn't speak, Xia Zhixu was also a little embarrassed, so he had to change the subject, "You are amazing, as skilled as a doctor."

"When I was injured, I often cleaned myself up."

He finally answered, but what he said made Xia Zhixu more distressed. The man in front of him overlapped with the man who was covered in bruises when he first met.

Xu Qichen accepted him at the most difficult time and regarded him as a friend.

But he had an indescribable thought.

"Why are you avoiding me recently?" Xu Qichen said.

"I do not have……"

"You have."

He always had such a determined tone. Xia Zhixu hesitated, "Didn't you also come to see me?"

Xu Qichen's hand paused. He didn't go to him, just because he had never taken the initiative. Once he took the initiative, he would definitely show his guilt when he was so unfamiliar.

"So why didn't you come to see me?" Xu Qichen returned to the topic again, he looked up at Xia Zhixu, "Didn't you say I'm your friend?"

The word friend seems to be his destiny.

"Yeah..." The wound hurt a little, Xia Zhixu lowered his head, avoided Xu Qichen's sight, and pulled his arm back from his hand, his voice muffled, "It's my fault, I've been in a bad state recently. It's not right, it won't be like this in the future."

It's still good to treat him like before, and it's also good to continue to be friends. At least can see him every day and feel better.

But, you have to deceive him.

"Let's go." Xu Qichen stood up.

"You don't like that girl, do you?" Xia Zhixu asked from behind.

Xu Qichen shook his head.

Xia Zhixu caught up with the basketball and stammered, "Then what kind of girl do you like?"

"I don't like anyone."

"Oh……"

Finally, it was the holiday. Chen Fang was taken by his parents to travel abroad. Xia Zhixu originally thought he could have a cleaner vacation, but he didn't expect that Xia's mother signed him up for a math Olympiad cram school, so that he didn't even have time to play. No, the funniest thing is her reason for signing up for class.

"Oh, the teacher of this cram school is a good friend of my mother. When you win the prize in the Mathematical Olympiad next year, she will use you to promote it. It's so good, you can do my mother a favor~"

Xia Zhixu carried his bag to the cram school every day, and occasionally sent messages to Xu Qichen to chat.

The various holiday arrangements that were planned before have been soaked in various accidents. But he couldn't blame anyone. After all, the biggest surprise was that he fell in love with his friend inexplicably.

When he came out of the cram school, Xia Zhixu's cell phone rang. When he took it out, he saw that it was Xia Xiqing. He hung up decisively, and the other party called again.

"Hey……"

"Xiao Zhixu~ Good afternoon, did anything unpleasant happen during the recent holiday? Say it to make the little uncle happy?"

"If you have nothing serious to say, I'll hang up."

"Don't, we haven't seen each other for so many days, don't you miss me at all?"

"three two……"

The voice on the other end of the phone finally calmed down, "Today is the birthday of Xu Qichen's parents, so you shouldn't forget it."

Xia Zhixu froze in place, the pedestrians on the road were so noisy that his mind went blank.

"Or...you don't know at all?"

Yes, he didn't know at all. He never asked, because he was afraid of causing Xu Qichen's sadness.

Xia Zhixu asked in a low voice, "You lied to me, right? How would you know?"

"I'm not like you, I will always ask if I want to know anything." Xia Xiqing on the other end of the phone was still sitting in front of the drawing board and could only clamp the phone between his shoulders, "I'm too lazy to talk nonsense with you, what should be said should not be said. , your little uncle, I have said it, you can figure out the rest by yourself, and hang up."

Xia Zhixu hung up the phone and looked at the busy street.

On this day, did he lose everything?

Xu Qichen, who had just returned from the cemetery, went upstairs alone. Before his aunt came home, he opened the refrigerator and took out two tomatoes.

Suddenly hearing someone calling his name outside the window, Xu Qichen walked to the window with some doubts and looked down.

I saw Xia Zhixu who was out of breath.

Why did this idiot just come here, without considering whether he was at home or not?

He thought of something and took out his cell phone.

Ah, no power. No wonder he ran right over.

Xu Qichen put the tomatoes on the table and quickly changed his shoes and went downstairs.

"Why are you here? Is there something wrong?"

Xia Zhixu grabbed Xu Qichen's wrist and dragged him forward involuntarily. He walked out of the community and went to the bus stop.

"Where are we going? I haven't said hello to my aunt yet..."

Xia Zhixu took out his mobile phone and handed it to him, "You can make a call, you must be home before nine o'clock." After that, he dragged him onto a bus. After sitting side by side, Xia Zhixu took out two lollipops from his pocket and gave one to Xu Qichen. Xu Qichen took it with a smile, tore the package and put it in his mouth. He didn't ask Xia Zhixu where he was going to take him, and Xia Zhixu didn't say anything, the two of them just sat quietly.

The bus route was longer than he thought. After sitting for some time, Xia Zhixu felt his shoulders sink, and when he looked sideways, Xu Qichen actually fell asleep.

When he fell asleep, his mouth was always slightly open, and the lollipop he was holding seemed to be about to fall out. Xia Zhixu reached out and gently took out the lollipop from his mouth.

The round candy pulls the ambiguous crystal threads, and also pulls Xia Zhixu's heart.

Xu Qichen's head moved, so frightened that he thought he was awake, but he didn't expect Xu Qichen to just rub, find a more comfortable position, and breathe calmly.

Xia Zhixu didn't dare to move, his whole body was tense, for fear of waking him up.

And the bright lollipop in his hand is like the fruit that the snake in the Bible lured Eve to eat.

Alluring.

Xu Qichen was finally woken up by Xia Zhixu.

When he got out of the car, he was still a little dazed, and the summer Jiang Feng rushed to his face. Only then did he realize that Xia Zhixu had brought him to the riverside.

"Bring you to blow the air." Xia Zhixu originally wanted to pull his arm, but finally gave up. He handed the lollipop in his hand to Xu Qichen, "You fell asleep, I'll take it out for you." Xu Qichen took the candy in a daze, and after hesitating for a while, he put it into his mouth again, it was cool and sweet.

Xia Zhixu led him to the bridge, "It's beautiful to watch the sunset here, my grandfather lives nearby, and he often took me for a walk when he was a child." He supported the railing by the bridge with both hands, "he told me , if you are unhappy, just tell the Yangtze River, as soon as the river wind blows, it will all disperse."

The bridge is very long, spanning the entire Yangtze River. The warm red sunset was crushed and sprinkled on the river surface, sparkling and beautiful. Xu Qichen leaned his back against the railing of the bridge, and after a while he said solemnly, "Who told you that?"

Xia Zhixu knew that he was asking about the anniversary of his death.

"Whoever you told is who told me."

He said this as if he was blaming himself. Xu Qichen thought so. But he never asked how he could say it, as if to win sympathy.

"Did you sleep well last night and fell asleep as soon as you got in the car?"

Xu Qichen nodded, and the warm Jiang Feng whistled past his ears. He hadn't slept last night, and as soon as he closed his eyes, he felt like he was back to that day, with the sound of shattered crashing in his ears, and his vision was full of bright red.

"Just treat me as the air, I'm not here." Xia Zhixu chuckled softly, "If you are unhappy, just tell Changjiang, it's lighter, it will spread out when blown by the wind, heavy It will sink to the bottom of the river, and I will never bother you again."

True to his words, Xu Qichen turned around and lay on the railing like he did.

His voice was very soft, as if it would really be blown away by the wind.

"... how are you doing?"

"I miss you so much."

Xia Zhixu's heart clenched, and he couldn't even say the words "parents".

He felt that there was already a cry in his voice, but he turned his face to look at him, but he didn't cry, his lips were pressed tightly, as if he couldn't say more.

Xia Zhixu couldn't help reaching out and gently touched the back of his soft-looking head a few times.

"They miss you too."

"They want you to be happy every day."

Xu Qichen lowered his head and buried it in his arms. Xia Zhixu's palm was very warm, as if he possessed some kind of peculiar healing power, which made his painful and manic heart gradually calm down with gentle strokes.

He raised his head slightly, revealing a pair of eyes from his arms, watching the sunset that was gradually sinking just like his thoughts not far away.

"If only my heart could be like a house, I would empty some furniture when it felt crowded, clean it when it felt dirty, throw out the rubbish, just take a little time to make it look new."

His voice was muffled, and he smiled softly, "But it's impossible, it's not a house, it's a rotten tree root inhabited by various germs, I can't get rid of those bad emotions that corrode me, I can only let it go. Let it spoil a little bit."

"Then pull him out and dry him in the sun."

Xu Qichen glanced at him, and the other party showed two tiger teeth, smiling sincerely and brilliantly.

Xia Zhixu withdrew his hand and leaned on the railing, "Actually, if the heart is really a small house..."

He hesitated, but Xu Qichen turned his face and looked at him suspiciously.

Xia Zhixu shook his head, "Nothing."

If so.

I want to live in your little house and clean your house every day.

As for remuneration...

Just give me a smile every day.

They didn't know how long they had been standing on the sidewalk on the bridge, the river wind made their hearts swell, and the sugar in their mouths had long since melted.

A couple suddenly passed by behind him, the boy seemed to be a little loose, and his tone was full of complaints.

"Why do you have to pull me here, this bridge is too long and it's hard to walk."

The girl's voice carried a hint of coquettishness, "This is the first bridge in history to cross the Yangtze River. Haven't you heard of that legend? If two people walk across the Yangtze River Bridge together, they can stay together forever. Together."

"That kind of thing will deceive a little girl like you."

The two walked over noisily and dropped a so-called legend, which made Xia Zhixu and Xu Qichen feel uncomfortable.

"Let's go back the same way later." Xia Zhixu said awkwardly.

Xu Qichen was silent for a while, then raised his head to look at the halfway that was not over yet.

"Come on, let's go." He added, "If it's a friend, this legend should also apply."

To be two friends who will never be separated for a lifetime.

The tiger teeth rubbed the inner wall of the mouth, vaguely uncomfortable.

"Maybe."

Saying that, the two stood up straight and walked towards the other end of the bridge.

Xia Zhixu looked at the turbulent river under the bridge and the other side that was getting closer and closer, "Speaking of which, I like that poem very much."

"A bridge flying from the north to the south, the moat becomes a thoroughfare?"

"Um."

"It's very imposing." Xu Qichen affirmed.

Xia Zhixu walked silently, but what he thought in his mind was not how imposing it was, and whether it matched the scenery in front of him.

He was just thinking, will the insurmountable moat in his heart become a passage one day?

I couldn't help but bowed my head and smiled.

"why are you laughing?"

"Oh, nothing."

It's a good thing to have a dream.