Chapter 87 You are my first love ten years late (1)

Xu Qichen stood on the spot, the familiar and unfamiliar land seemed to hold his legs firmly, preventing him from taking a single step. He could only look at the man sitting on the bus stop bench, with his black and white eyes.

Xia Zhixu just said that he did all this just to feel the feeling of being liked by himself.

What does this represent?

The fall of the truth came so suddenly that Xu Qichen almost lost his basic ability to judge.

He just felt so confused and didn't know what was going on.

Are you dreaming.

"I don't understand..." Xu Qichen frowned, his voice weak.

"I know you don't understand." Xia Zhixu smiled and pointed in front of him, "When I first saw you, you stood there. Seriously, I was so stupid when I was young, and now I look back. Think about it, it turns out that I fell in love with you the first time I saw you, and I didn't even know it myself. I accepted the basic law of opposites attracting since I was a child, which made me think that I just wanted to be your friend when I was in my heart. ."

Xu Qichen's heart throbbed, his chest seemed to be a dry well that had been dry for a long time, and suddenly there was the sound of running water.

What he was saying, I didn't understand at all.

At first sight, fell in love with...

Joy seems to be separated from his consciousness. They have taken over his body inexplicably, filling every cell, and before he can react, he has fallen into emotions.

But how is this possible?

It was something he couldn't even imagine.

"It's also in this place, you said, you don't want to be friends with me anymore." Xia Zhixu took a deep breath, as if trying to get out of the painful memory, "Actually, do you know? I I've thought about it for a long time. Every minute I'm with you, I'm struggling. Do you want to say it? Say it, but I'm too timid. I'm afraid that you will run away if I take a wrong step. already."

He lowered his head, his tone pretending to be relaxed, "I think, as long as I don't pierce this layer of paper and rot those words in my stomach, I can at least occupy a more intimate identity, stay with you all the time, go to college with you, Watching you realize your dreams, find someone you like, get married, have kids, and I can drive you to pick up your kids from school when you're busy. That's exactly what I thought at the time."

Xu Qichen's fingers began to tremble uncontrollably.

Xia Zhixu's voice was a little choked, "I can really hold back, I can hold back and just be friends."

It doesn't matter who you are as long as you can stay by your side.

I'm not that greedy.

"But God didn't even give me such a hope, and ruined everything while I was away." He wiped his face, stood up, and walked in front of Xu Qichen, only a step away.

He smiled at him, still the same as when he was young, the little tiger teeth gleaming in the sun.

His tone was very solemn.

"I'm 25 years old this year, and I've spent two-fifths of my life on liking you. Rounding up, it's half my life. Originally, I wasn't going to tell you these words, I didn't want to. Disturbing your life. But since I met you at the last class reunion and talked to you for a while, I couldn't sleep all night, even if I was exhausted and fell asleep, all my dreams were about you." He laughed at himself, "I'm afraid that if this goes on like this, I'll get sick."

Looking at Xia Zhixu in front of him, Xu Qichen's heart seemed to be grabbed by someone, it hurt so much.

He never thought that Xia Zhixu, whom everyone looked up to, would become like this for him.

"People always say that time heals everything, and that's what everyone told me."

He lowered his eyes and shook his head, "But I don't think, if it is, then he is also a quack doctor and gave me the wrong medicine, which made me more and more helpless. I thought later, the reason why I became like this, Maybe it's because I've never gotten it, and I'm unwilling, so I want to borrow your consciousness, just ten minutes, use these virtual characters to get close to you, and feel the feeling of falling in love with you, even if it's fake, even if you It's enough to just do the task. I get what I want, and I can walk out."

"But I was wrong." His voice was getting lower and lower, and the disguised ease began to break down, "It was wrong from the beginning, people are greedy, if you get it once, you want the second time, and you don't want to end it. Not even content with just having you in the virtual world."

"I finally understand that I have suffered for so many years, not because I didn't get you, but because I just like you, I just want to be with you, I..."

He raised his head and looked at Xu Qichen.

"I love you."

Finally, after saying what he wanted to say for ten years, Xia Zhixu thought he would feel relieved.

But he found out now that he didn't feel that his wish was over at all. Instead, he began to feel uneasy, as if he was still looking forward to something. After all, in so many virtual worlds, he got a lot, more than he imagined.

just in case……

just in case.

Xu Qichen suddenly lowered his head and laughed.

Laugh all the time.

Xia Zhixu was a little puzzled, was what he said just now funny?

The anxiety intensified.

"The two of us are just a pair of fools."

Deaf, blind, and stubborn.

After groping in the dark for so many years, the person was looking for was obviously each other.

Xu Qichen took a half step closer.

His voice was a little choked.

"hug me."

Xia Zhixu froze in place, everything exceeded his expectations.

Could it be that in case it really happened?

Xu Qichen raised his head and looked at his wet eyes. He stretched out his hand and tugged at Xia Zhixu's arms.

"Hug me."

Xia Zhixu, who had been holding back the flood of emotions, hugged him in his arms. He had a lot of things to say, but they were all stuck in his throat and couldn't say them.

Do you also like me?

Do you really like me?

how can you like me...

He buried his head in Xu Qichen's neck.

Xu Qichen's hands trembled slightly, he hugged Xia Zhixu's back, he sniffed, his voice soft.

"You shouldn't know, Lin Ran, Mu Yao, Song Yuanyan, Su Rin, they are all based on you, I have no experience in love, I can't write a good love story, the only thing I can refer to is what I have for you. Feelings. However, I thought it was impossible for me in this life, so the ending of every story was very miserable, so miserable that I was tricked into this ghost system by you, and I felt that it was the punishment given to me by the readers."

Feeling that the body of the person hugging him was stiff, Xu Qichen rubbed against his neck, "Rounding up, I have only loved one person in half my life."

His breath lingered gently on the side of his neck, like some kind of comfort.

"His name is Xia Zhixu."

Xia Zhixu's mind went blank for a moment.

It never occurred to him that he had been carefully playing himself.

"Hey, I didn't cry, why are you crying?" Xu Qichen patted him on the back and smiled softly, "If I had known, I wouldn't have told you."

Even though he is 25 years old, he still cries.

Xia Zhixu rubbed against his shoulder, "What you said never counts."

Really vengeful. Xu Qichen pushed him, "Then you shouldn't have heard of it."

"Impossible, if you don't admit it, I'll let 0901 transfer the video to show you until I see you admit it." He laughed, showing his little tiger teeth, "After you go back, tell me again. "

This fool was crying and laughing.

Xu Qichen's ears were a little hot, he lowered his head and smiled a little embarrassedly.

Suddenly, he found that under his neckline, there was a chest badge with the word Xia at the beginning.

Turning over the collar, three words were written on the nameplate.

Xia Zhixu.

"This……"

"This is my last bit of selfishness." Xia Zhixu covered his nameplate and smiled a little embarrassedly, "Don't look at it." After saying that, he took his hand and said, "You can accompany me to a place before going back. place?"

"where to?"

Xia Zhixu smiled, didn't speak, just held him and walked into this campus where countless memories were stored.

This place is empty, there is no one, they no longer have to care about anyone's eyes, they don't have to hide, but they hold each other's hands frankly, let go of the grudges and unease they once had, and re-accept this too much in their hearts. long time place.

"You made all these?" Xu Qichen looked at Yinglin near the entrance to the school, and the marble steps, each of which overlapped with his memory, "It's amazing."

"I've come back many times, and many places are different." Xia Zhixu sighed, "So I can only use my memory to restore it."

Xu Qichen never went back to Jingjian once.

Although he knew that after he left, there were many clarification posts on Tieba, and many people came forward to help him explain, but the experience of that month made him no longer able to summon the courage to return to this place that once gave him a lot of warmth. place.

Before he knew it, Xia Zhixu took him to the downstairs of the teaching building. He smiled and said, "Xu Qichen, we have to go back to class."

He seemed to be waiting for something, stood still, and after a few seconds, shouted again, "0901, hurry up."

0901's voice suddenly appeared: "Sorry, the audio didn't work just now, I fixed it."

"Stop talking nonsense..." Xia Zhixu cleared his throat and repeated, "Student Xu Qichen, we want..."

The bell for class suddenly rang, and the sound was so loud that it completely covered up the half-sentence he didn't finish.

Xu Qichen was amused by him, and he couldn't straighten his back with laughter, "I can't tell, you are still a formalist."

Xia Zhi Xu Qiang endured the heart of wanting to clean up this stupid AI, "We'll settle this account later..." He grabbed Xu Qichen's hand and took him up to the fourth floor.

Two people stood in front of the classroom door at the entrance of the stairs.

I looked up and saw that the first grade (13) was written on the door of the classroom.

He put his hand on Xu Qichen's shoulder and pushed him inside, until he sat in the fifth row of the fourth group, "Classmate, this is your seat, please take a seat."

Xu Qichen sat down obediently, raised his head with a smile, and watched him walk to the podium, cleared his throat, and looked under the stand, as if it was really full of students.

"Hello everyone, my name is Xia Zhixu." He turned around and wrote his name on the blackboard.

"Although my name is not as elegant as Xu Qichen's, there is actually a reason for it." He showed the same smile as back then, turned around, and held a piece of chalk.

One stroke at a time, next to the three words Xia Zhixu, he carefully wrote another three words.

"Xia is Xia Zhixu's Xia, Xu is Xu Qichen's Xu."

The dust floating in the air outlines the shape of the light, and the light shot straight in from the corner of the window illuminates his splendid face inch by inch.

"That's my name."

Also my destiny.

I, called Xia Zhixu, will meet you and get to know you one day.

have you.

Xu Qichen tilted his head and stared into Xia Zhixu's eyes, "Who allowed you to introduce yourself like this, Xu Qichen himself disagrees."

Xia Zhixu got off the podium, clapped the chalk dust on his hands, and pretended to sigh, "Oh, you really have changed. If you were the same as before, you would definitely not dare to look at me."

Saying that, he sat behind Xu Qichen.

Every day in the past, he faced the man in front of him, watching his shoulder blades protruding slightly from under the white shirt, like butterfly wings, stirring his heart.

Xu Qichen was also a little embarrassed, he didn't look back, just like he was ten years ago, his heart was clearly tied to the back seat, but he didn't dare to look back easily.

His voice came from behind, "Student Xu Qichen, you are so good, so good, you are all good, but there is something wrong."

Xu Qichen smiled softly, but did not speak.

"Why don't you ask me what's wrong." Xia Zhixu squeezed the back of his neck with a smile, "Not modest at all."

"Then you say, what's wrong?"

Seeing Xu Qichen handing him the steps, Xia Zhixu immediately smiled and said, "I'm missing a boyfriend."

what. Xu Qichen lowered his head halfway, his ears hot.

Do it like a high school student.

Xia Zhixu cleared his throat and said in a serious tone, "Classmate Xu Qichen, would you like me to be your boyfriend?"

Xu Qichen stared at a small gap on the edge of the table.

"I was serious."

The heartbeat was so scribbled, it just missed a beat without thinking.

"Turn around and look at me if you want."

Outside the dazzling green window, Xia Chan was instigated by the extremely loud noise.

Xu Qichen took a deep breath and turned his head.

But he was kissed by the person who was half propped up on the desk behind him.

Surprise made him widen his eyes, seeing his close eyelashes trembling slightly, as if brushing open the curtains, revealing those deep black pupils.

He has tried many kisses with this person under different skins, some soft rubbing, some passionate fusion.

But it has never been so throbbing like this moment.

It was just the soft touch of his lips, with a little surprise, but his heart seemed to be taken away by him.

Xia Zhixu released him and gave him a hug across the desk.

"This first kiss was sent ten years late." He lowered his head again and kissed Xu Qichen's ear, "But I don't feel a pity at all. Even if you are fifty years late, you are my first love."

Xu Qichen's eyes were a little sore, and he had to hide it with a smile, "It's obviously your secret love."

"Aren't you also a crush." ​​Xia Zhixu let go of his hands and flicked Xu Qichen's forehead, "They're all cowards, don't talk about anyone."

childish. The corners of Xu Qichen's mouth couldn't help but rise.

Although they really missed a lot, how would they know if it wasn't for luck, if they didn't have the years of separation.

It turns out that I really need you.

"Go back." Xu Qichen looked into his eyes, his amber pupils shone brightly, "Let the past Xia Zhixu and Xu Qichen end here."

He stretched out his hand and gently stroked Xia Zhixu's face, slowly sliding down from his eyes to the jawline.

"I want to hug the real you."

Xia Zhixu grabbed his hand and nodded.

"Okay, let's go back."

In an instant, the surrounding scene melted into tiny spots of light, which melted away little by little. Xu Qichen closed his eyes. He felt that he was probably infected by Xia Zhixu.

Could it be that all this is just a dream.

The voice of 0901 suddenly appeared, "The main body of consciousness is stripped, and the system is closed."

There was a short electric beep in my ear, only three times.

Xu Qichen felt a pain in his head. He raised his head and found his workbench in front of him. His eyes were suddenly illuminated by strong light, and he was not used to it.

He was about to raise his hand to rub his eyes, but found that he was still wearing his new glasses. I took off the glasses and looked down carefully, only to find that there was a small metal disc on the metal temple.

The voice of 0901 suddenly came from his ears, and Xu Qichen was startled, only to realize that he was wearing the headphones that came with his glasses.

"Mr. Xu, please come downstairs."

downstairs?

Xu Qichen stood up suspiciously and shook his head, "The system is shut down, do I still need to follow your orders?"

0901 replied calmly: "Please don't blame me, I am also under command."

Pretty good at throwing pots.

Xu Qichen opened the door. On the spring night, the temperature was not too high. He wrapped his coat, put the key in his hand and pressed the elevator.

"Will you still be in the headphones all the time?"

0901 replied: "Mr. Xu, I will have a new form in the future. Of course, the data in the past will be backed up."

Xu Qichen coughed and said guiltyly, "I hope you can destroy some backups."

"Sorry, Mr. Xu, you know, I don't have this kind of authority."

With a ding, the elevator door opened. Xu Qichen walked out and asked, "Why did you get me down at four or five in the morning, it's scary..."

Before he could finish speaking, a tall figure appeared in front of him, stepping out of the dark shadow of a tree, with the same earphones hanging around his neck.

Xu Qichen froze in place, "Why are you here?"

How did he get here so late?

Xia Zhixu came over and stood in front of Xu Qichen, "It's the first time I've used this system, and I was afraid of any accident, so I rented a house in your community ahead of time."

He took off Xu Qichen's earphones and touched his ears, "Are you cold?"

The cool fingertips gently touched the hot ears, the real body temperature exchange gave him a wonderful psychological effect, and he felt the nerves all over his body tense. Xu Qichen shook his head. He had gone through so much in the virtual world together, and he had done everything he should and should not have done, but he still felt embarrassed when the real person stood in front of him.

"You, do you want to go up...have a cup of coffee or something?"

Xia Zhixu laughed, "We look like a couple who just started dating."

"It's fine if you don't go up." Xu Qichen's heart started to burn, "Then you come..."

What are you doing with me?

Or, what should we do now?

sky. He really felt that he was now back when he was fifteen years old, and he didn't understand anything and was confused about everything.

Xia Zhixu grabbed his hand and dragged him to run as before, Xu Qichen seemed to be used to it, and was dragged by him like this until he was stuffed into the car.

"Where are you going?"

Xia Zhixu started the car, "Go to a place I've dreamed of taking you to."

Xu Qichen looked at him with some doubts, Xia Zhixu stopped talking, just silently grabbed his hand, put it on his lips, kissed his fingers thinly, and kissed his heavily again. back of hand.

Then, across the handbrake, he turned sideways.

Xu Qichen closed his eyes.

However, he found that things were not what he thought, Xia Zhixu was leaning against himself, bowing his head, and earnestly helping him fasten his seat belt.

"All right."

Xu Qichen's Adam's apple moved, and he felt extremely embarrassed by his misunderstanding just now. The car slowly drove out of the community, Xia Zhixu's hand was still clutching his, and the pulp of his thumb gently touched him. Rubbing his knuckles.

Xu Qichen pretended to be sleepy and wanted to use sleep to cover up the throbbing in his heart. Xia Zhixu saw that his head was tilted over, so he thoughtfully lowered his backrest. It was a pretense at first, but Xu Qichen was staying up all night before entering the system. When he relaxed, he felt extremely sleepy, and he actually fell asleep pretending to be.

He didn't seem to have slept for a long time, and he was woken up by Xia Zhixu, who was staring at him. Xia Zhixu's hand lightly touched his face and whispered his name. open eyes.

"Reached?"

Xu Qichen didn't get enough sleep, and was a little unhappy. He didn't know why Xia Zhixu had to run around with him when he first came back, and where exactly he had to lead him here.

Xia Zhixu saw that he wasn't awake yet, so he helped him up and sat up, stood by the car, hugged him, and gently touched his back. Xu Qichen put his head on his stomach, snorted twice, and pushed him away after a while.

"What's wrong?"

Xu Qichen rubbed his eyes, "Your stomach is hard and uncomfortable."

Xia Zhixu laughed, "This is my abdominal muscles, not my stomach. Well, we have to go up." He took a woolen hat from the back seat of the car, put it on Xu Qichen's head, and pulled it for him On the edge, he trimmed his hair, "You can't blow dry when you wake up, it's easy to get a headache." After putting the hat on, Xia Zhixu kissed his forehead through the wool thread, "Let's go."

Xu Qichen's eyes weren't as good as before. This time, he went out in a hurry. He didn't take out his glasses, and everything was blurry. It was even more obvious when he woke up. He could only let Xia Zhixu hold his hand and walk to a Elevator door.

"where are we going?"

"You'll know in a moment."

Soon, the elevator arrived. Xia Zhixu took him to a door, Xu Qichen looked at him with some doubts, but Xia Zhixu smiled and said to him, "Ring the doorbell."

Who is this to visit?

"I thought it was your house..." Xu Qichen raised his hand and rang the doorbell.

Suddenly, he found that there was an extra ring on his ring finger.

He stared blankly, thinking it was his dazzling eyes.

"It's my home." Xia Zhixu smiled.

A middle-aged woman's voice came from the door, "Who is it this early in the morning?"

"Mom, it's me, open the door."

mom……

Xu Qichen turned around the ring that appeared inexplicably in his hand, and blinked ignorantly.

Then wake up instantly.

mom? ? ?