Chapter 124 The Past (1)

This is not the first time Yan Suizhi took the initiative to get close.

He had done a more intimate movement before, and every time he scratched people's heart, but none of them was like this-

I said nothing, but it was inexplicable.

Gu Yan stunned and whispered, "I didn't want you to see those."

"Nothing." Yan Suizhi's voice arrived in his shoulder nest, a little stuffy, but still smiled slightly with a slight smile: "It doesn't matter, just a case, it's not a big deal. I just look at you. Play a hooligan. "

Gu Yan tightened his arm. His arms are not the same as the personality he revealed on weekdays. The warm body temperature wrapped people in unreasonablely, and his breath invaded his nose a little bit.

Yan Suizhi's fingers rinsed in the water for a long time were so warm, from fingertips to the palm of the palm and then filled the blood vessels to the heart, like the tide water filled with the chest cavity.

The last time felt like this, in that loft, Gu Yan said lowly to him, and he always dreamed that he was alive after the bombing case.

The last time, Gu Yan leaned against the door, looked up at the stairs, and said good night.

Going forward, it was the kitchen on the first floor of the villa. Gu Yan looked at him and kissed the corner of his mouth.

Then there is a long gap. For many years, he can't remember ...

This feeling of chest fullness and sourness always makes people have an urge to say something.

Yan Su's chin was pressed on Gu Yan's shoulder, covering his eyes in the shadow of the eyelashes, and falling at a certain point in the void. After a quiet for a while, I suddenly whispered: "Gu Yan ..."

"Um?"

"Why did you choose me as a direct teacher?"

"Because of your lectures you have heard before." Gu Yan paused and said, "And ... I have seen you in Herlan Star very early."

"How early?" Yan Suizhi's tone was slightly surprised.

"At the age of eight or nine, in a orphanage," Gu Yan said.

At that time, every weekend, his grandfather outside the judge would take him to the orphanage. The encounter of most children there is similar to him. His parents are soldiers and died in a certain battle. The difference is that he has a grandfather, and they do not.

He didn't know what his grandfather took him to the orphanage's original intention. Perhaps he hoped that he would never forget his suffering, or may he be infected as a kind person. Grandfather is not a passionate person and talk, and never told him.

However, the personality he later formed did not have a relationship with this experience.

The one when he met Yan Suizhi was a winter afternoon. The sun was surprisingly good that day, and a large bright light was cast on the lawn of the orphanage. This is more comfortable than any artificial temperature control, so many children are playing on lawns, autumn and amusement equipment, and bask in the sun.

Foreign grandfather took the donated supplies to find the person in charge and stay on the lawn.

"Why don't you take you together?" Yan Sui asked.

Gu Yan dan said, "Who knows, maybe when he is expected to come back, you can see that I play with others and roll into a ball."

Yan Suizhi laughed and was still a little lazy, "Do you like what he wants?"

"No, I found a bench with a corner, sitting waiting for him."

The bench noodles facing the lively lawn, and when turned head, could see the office building where the dean was. It was neither too boring, but also the grandfather who could see it in time. Better.

After staying on the bench for a while, he saw a figure out of the office building.

He turned his head to look at it, but found that it was not a grandfather, but a young man.

Very young, maybe just over twenty.

The other party is very particular about wearing, and it looks slender and tall. When the steps come down from the steps, the coats are slightly lifted by the breeze, but they are young, but they have a beautiful taste.

After the man came out of the building, he did not leave immediately, but stood next to the lawn for a while, watching the children who played troubles.

The sun fell on his face, and his skin was very white, and his eyes looked like a clear layer of clear glass, which was against the light.

He is gentle, but not very happy.

This was the conclusion that Gu Yan looked at him at that time.

After a while, the young man noticed Gu Yan who was sitting alone. He walked over and bent down and asked him slightly, "Why are you staying alone and awkward with others?"

He thought Gu Yan was also a member of the orphanage, and he didn't know what he couldn't participate in the fun of everyone.

"I wait for someone." Gu Yan replied at that time.

"Who are you waiting for?"

"Grandfather."

The young man nodded, and then he knew it was wrong.

During the speaking, the aunt who was responsible for looking at the children's aunts noticed the young people, and came over to say hello to him.

"Then you wait, I'm gone." The young man lazily carried Yan and waved his hand and walked away to talk to his aunt.

When talking to others, young people will smile and look more gentle.

"I heard a few words sporadic, knowing that you are going to donate money, not for the first time." Gu Yan paused for a moment, and said again, "But I have only met you once."

After listening to Yan Suizhi, she didn't speak for a while, and she "ah" gently, saying, "It's a bit impressive. But I have never met if I have happened again. People. That time, it was only because the arrangement of the diving club has changed temporarily, and it will go to Helan Star on weekends. "

Hearing the diving club, Gu Yan remembered what he had said, "I often dive at that time?"

Yan Suizhi "um". I don't know why, when he mentioned this topic, he was a little quiet again. Gu Yanneng was keenly noticed that his emotions fell again. After a while, he whispered and said, "It's not at that time. This sport is so wonderful. "

"15 years old?" Gu Yan asked.

The intuition told him that Yan Suizhi was trying a little bit, and gave him the matter in his heart.

"Um. At that time, my parents had just died ..." Yan Sui's voice was very light, as if he was saying something rare, or for too many years in the past, he hadn't felt so much, "I followed你说过么？我母亲有赫兰星那一代人常会有的病，基因上的问题，也遗传给了我。不过我没她那么严重。那年她状态很不好……你也许知道， The life of that disease was almost at that time. The hospital had a notice number in the hospital, so that my father had a two -choice between genetic surgery and her. The result was obvious that my father made a genetic source. "

At that time, genetic surgery, especially the direction of this treatment, needed a healthy genetic source. In order to avoid more accidents, most people choose to be close to them.

"In the end, the operating table actually includes me." Yan Sui said, "The risk of the surgery is very high, including those who provide genetic sources."

He looked at the eyes outside the window and blinked gently, saying, "I am lucky, they didn’t."

People are always unwilling to believe what they don't want to accept, and they always doubt whether there is something behind it. Although 15 -year -old Yan Suizhi was well protected, he still had some conspiracy theories.

"My parents were not closed on the operating table ... dragged for a few days." Yan Sui said, "I suspected that there was a problem with the surgery at that time, the doctor was not kind, the nurse was careless, all participating in the scene of the scene was involved in the scene. The surgery. But my parents were very exclusive to that thought. In the last few days, they have been emphasizing that the risk of surgery is unavoidable. I don't want me to drill the horns. "

Those who almost constitute their parents' last words. hope he will not consume his life in this matter, don't stop it, don't be dragged into the mud water, don't be skeptical. hope he can still treat others fairly and accept others in good faith. He can live a long -lasting, occasionally mixed with surprise, ordinary but happy life.

Like that birthday blessing, it has almost become a magic barrier for more than ten years after Yan Sui.

"The last words must be listened, after all, it was the last time they left to me." Yan Sui said, "So I found a lot of things for myself that year to avoid idleness, because once I was idle, I would There will be a lot of ideas, some less beautiful and dark thoughts, running counter to the back they want. "

Now that he wants to come, he can't even remember what he was busy that year, because no matter what he did, he felt like an empty wild wilderness in his heart.

Sometimes he stopped walking without any reason. He stared at a certain place on the side of the road. He didn't know where he was going, and he didn't know where he would return.

He has a lot of money, and there is a long spend of time, but there is no home.

"At that time, the only thing I felt that the heartbeat could be dive." Yan Sui said, "When the oxygen is sucked into the oxygen under the deep pressure, there will be a feeling of being filled with the chest cavity ..."

The feeling of being full of sourness will always give people an illusion -it seems quite satisfying, and it seems not so empty.

At that time, he was always wearing diving clothes, sitting on the edge of the second floor of the diving boat, and his hair dripped with wetness. Sunlight.

There was a coach beside him talking, and he looked at it as a meaningless background sound.

After a slight rest, we will push into a more silent sea.

Waiting for oxygen, fill in the heart.

This taste is probably greater than the charm of any kind of drugs in the world, and it is too addictive than the charm of any kind of drugs in the world.

Until encountered the accident of Master Manson, experienced a feeling of lack of oxygen underwater, and he suddenly felt ... it was really boring.

"It seems that I am pretty good. I walked the road without ten years old. I also tried to twist the route. I tried a lot of things. If they were still there, I would probably drag me to boast." Yan Suizhi thought for a while, and laughed, "My mother is always exaggerated, my father has no temper, probably just nodded next to him and said," Your mother said right '... "

He said, Wu Zhe, and said, "It's a pity, I can't hear it."

No matter what he did, no matter what happened, even if it was just a interesting smell on the roadside, no one could say.

After a long time, was slowly used to not mentioning it with others.

He had fallen empty for decades and finally met Gu Yan.