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Chapter 59
Song Juhan did not prosecute. It was an ordinary fight, and it did not cause serious consequences. Zhou Heyi was still a foreigner, and the police let him go after a few words of education.
Why did you pick him up.
Zhou Heyi walked out of the police station, and when he saw He Gu, he bowed his head in embarrassment and did not speak.
He Gu looked at him for a while, then reached out and touched his head: "Stop doing such stupid things."
Zhou Heyi kicked the stones with his feet and whispered, "Is he serious?"
"β¦β¦fine."
Zhou Heyi seemed relieved: "He deserves it."
"Whether he deserves it or not, you can't solve a problem with a crime."
Zhou Heyi slowly raised his head, his eyes were a little red: "I'm sorry brother Gu, I've caused you trouble."
"never mind."
"You're a few years older than me, so I always wanted to be mature, lest you think I'm naive." Zhou Heyi smiled bitterly, "This image is completely ruined."
He Gu was helpless, but he didn't have the slightest strength to educate Zhou Heyi: "You think too much, I won't blame you, I just hope that you can learn from the past, and when you do things in the future, think about it first. ."
Zhou He nodded.
"Okay, I'll take you home, your friend is very worried about you."
Zhou Heyi said softly, "Song Juhan... How could you let me go so easily? Did you go to him?"
He Gu was silent for a while: "No, it's not a big deal, I asked a friend to help."
The two got into the car. Zhou Heyi leaned on the seat, pursed his lips slightly, and his eyes fell on the gate of the police station not far away, his eyes were very dim.
He Gu suddenly realized that Zhou Heyi should be a little scared. After all, he is only in his early twenties, and he has never experienced such a thing, and it is not in his own territory. Even if he does not show it on the surface, he should feel panic in his heart.
He Gu stretched out his hand, squeezed his neck, and said softly, "He Yi, it's alright."
Zhou Heyi turned his head to look at him, his eyes were a little dense, and he was as docile and pitiful as a puppy.
He Gu sighed softly.
"Brother, if..." Zhou Heyi's voice choked, "if I don't go to the United States and I stay here, can we be together?"
He Gu frowned slightly, his eyes full of pity: "He Yi, go study hard, you have dreams and goals, these things are much more important than ethereal feelings, you will meet more in a new place man, you'll soon forget me."
Zhou Heyi shook his head: "I won't forget you."
He Gu smiled lightly: "I won't forget you either."
After delivering the person to his home, Zhou Heyi hugged him and kissed him lingeringly, as if he had poured all his enthusiasm and love into it, and finally let go of him reluctantly, and said sadly, "Brother Gu, you are the most gentle, gentle and loving person I have ever seen. The best man, Song Juhan is not worthy of you, you must stay away from that lunatic."
He Gu said lightly, "I will."
Zhou Heyi gave him a deep look before getting out of the car. He didn't even dare to turn his head back and hurried upstairs.
Both knew that they would not see each other again any time soon.
It seems that nothing has changed, but in fact, nothing has changed.
Why did he stop there for a long time, and after the heavy sadness in his heart passed, he restarted the car and went home.
When He Gu arrived home, seeing that the part-time worker had already cooked food for Susu, Susu rushed over to see him happily: "Brother, why did you come back so late, I still want to go to see my mother with you."
"I'll take you to see your mother tomorrow." He Gu squeezed her chin, "Did you listen to the teacher today?"
"Yes, the teacher has always praised me for my good foundation."
"Have you eaten?"
"After eating, what about brother?"
"I have eaten."
He Gu took her to his lap: "Susu, my brother has something to discuss with you."
"what?"
"My brother is going to accompany a friend tonight, can you sleep by yourself?"
Susu widened her eyes and immediately shook her head: "I'm afraid."
"I'll accompany you to sleep before leaving. You're a big girl. Sleeping alone is nothing."
Susu flattened her mouth, reluctantly: "Who are you going to accompany?"
"A friend was injured."
"What kind of injury, is it more serious than mother?"
"I'm different from my mother, but I also need someone else to accompany me."
Susu said reluctantly, "Then you have to wait for me to fall asleep before leaving."
"I will. When you get up tomorrow, I will be back, and I will buy you your favorite beef brisket marinated noodles."
"Okay." Susu looked at He Gu and whispered, "Brother, it would be nice if we met earlier."
Why couldn't help laughing.
"Don't laugh, really, I like you so much, I really hope that you will be by my side when I was born and grow up with me."
He Gu touched her head: "It's not too late now."
Susu buried her head in his neck and smiled happily.
He Gu coaxed Susu to sleep, then left the house quietly and drove to Song Juhan.
He couldn't say whether he was numb or calm, in short, he was calm now. When he finds that there is no way out and is irreversible, he will face any predicament with the calmness that he has cultivated throughout his life. Panic is neither his character nor useless.
Now, he was going to face Song Juhan.
If there is really a power in the world that can change a thing beyond recognition, then he and Song Juhan have already experienced it. He witnessed with his own eyes how he and Song Juhan came to this unbearable day step by step, but it was difficult to give him such a Zen-like name, but he couldn't understand the reason. He is both a victim and a bystander, watching the relationship between the two rot at an embarrassing speed, but there is nothing he can do.
He hoped that Song Juhan could stop a long time ago, in that case, he would let himself forget all the unhappiness in the past, and only leave behind the pure beauty of loving someone.
Unfortunately, it's too late.
When he arrived at Song Juhan's house, he took out the key and opened the door - the key he had never accepted.
When the door was opened, Song Juhan just sat up from the sofa with a sleepy look, obviously waiting for him, and complained, "I'm here so late."
"Coax my sister to sleep." He Gu stood in front of Song Juhan, waiting for the next "instruction".
Song Juhan took his hand, let him sit on the sofa, and gently arched his gauze-covered head into his arms: "I've been waiting for you, and I haven't eaten."
"What do you want to eat."
"I'm so hungry, I don't want to eat." Song Juhan hugged his waist and said softly, "You don't have to worry about your mother's business. I will help her and let her treat her with peace of mind."
He Gu fixedly looked at the night scene outside the window: "Okay."
"I will... I will solve all your troubles, help you take care of your family, and let you live a carefree life." Song Juhan closed his eyes, his eyelashes trembled slightly, "I will be good to you for the rest of my life, so don't leave. I."
He Gu was silent for a while, his eyes were empty: "Okay."
Song Juhan tightened his arms, even though the man was in his arms, unspeakable sadness still flowed in his heart.
He knew he wasn't normal, and since the day he wanted to leave him, he wasn't normal. The person he thought he could have forever was always the person who silently waited for him behind him, the person he regarded as air, when he wanted to pull away, he realized how he could live without air.
In seven years, why did it take seven years to plant a seed in his heart, and then in the slanting wind, drizzle, and silently, he cultivated it into a towering tree. He enjoyed all the goodness of the tree. But he didn't find that countless root systems had already been deeply implanted into his blood, nerves, flesh, and bones, pulling one hair to move his whole body. To pull out this big tree, it was like peeling and cramping, and it was more painful than death.
He already felt scared, how could there be a person in this world who made him fear to lose to this point.
Why can't he see through Song Juhan's thousand bowels, he only knows that he and Song Juhan used to be the caregiver, and now they are still caregivers. It's just that he used to do it voluntarily, but now he is forced.
Well, he should have a dog. As long as Song Juhan can no longer go crazy and bite others, it is enough for him to bear it alone. After all, in this world, no one can adapt to Song Juhan better than him.
As for whether he will be in pain, afraid, ashamed, sad or tired, who cares.
In the evening, Song Juhan slept with He Gu in his arms. The medicine he took had sedative ingredients, and he slept soundly beside He Gu, but He Gu did not sleep well all night.
He looked at Song Juhan, who was sleeping peacefully, several times, his undefended appearance and his slender neck, all of which gave birth to a kind of malice. There might be an easier way to end their mutual torture, but he couldn't.
So they can only continue to torture each other.
The next morning, He Gu left early. He promised Susu that he would go back before she woke up, take her to the painting class, and then go to the hospital.
After sending Susu away, he brought food to his mother, who seemed to be in good spirits today, and the chemotherapy was also effective, temporarily inhibiting the spread of cancer cells.
The two were chatting when He Gu's cell phone rang. He looked down and saw that it was Song Juhan. He went out to answer the phone.
"Where have you been?" Song Juhan asked straight to the point.
"Come to the hospital to accompany my mother."
Song Juhan was silent for a while: "Then come to me after you are with her. I am also a patient."
"I have to pick up my sister from get out of class at night, cook for her, and put her to sleep. I can only find you at night."
Song Juhan didn't speak. After a while, He Gu realized that the phone had been hung up. He didn't care, and threw the phone into his pocket.
At dusk, he watched his mother finish eating, and went to pick up Su Su. The two also bought some ingredients in the supermarket and planned to eat hot pot at night.
When they got home, the sky was still a little bright, and the two saw the familiar figure at the door of the house again. .
Susu's eyes widened: "Song Song Song..."
Song Juhan raised his head, put his index finger on his lips, and smiled at Susu.
Susu's face turned red all of a sudden.
He Gu had nothing to say, so he had to open the door, Song Juhan took the big bag in his hand and walked into the house.
Susu kept looking up at Song Juhan, and after Song Juhan took off her hood, she stared at his gauze-covered head again.
He Gu couldn't help but said, "Didn't you hear the doctor tell you to rest?"
"I can't calm down when you're not here." Song Juhan said as a matter of course.
Susu exclaimed, "Brother originally went to accompany him last night."
He Gu put her hand on top of her head and turned her in a different direction: "Go change clothes and wash your hands."
Susu was obviously a little excited, and jumped back to her room, and the moment she closed the door, she made a "yo-joke".
Song Juhan hugged He Gu and gave him a heavy kiss: "I miss you so much."
He Gu pushed him away: "Don't come here casually in the future."
"Why not, your mother isn't here, and your sister likes me too. You can't come to see me, I'll come to see you."
"Do you have anything else to do?"
"I'm injured now, what can I do? It's even more troublesome to be seen." Song Juhan smiled, "Is it right to eat hot pot, I know this, I can cut vegetables."
He Gu picked up the bag with a blank expression and carried it into the kitchen.
Song Juhan was stunned, loss flashed in his eyes, but he followed in.
When He Gu was dealing with the ingredients, he started to fight next to him, but he found that He Gu would at least chat with him before, but now he would not say a word unless necessary.
During the meal, Susu kept pestering Song Juhan asking this and that. Song Juhan has always been impatient with children, but she was surprisingly gentle and friendly with Susu, which made her face burn with excitement.
He Gu took twice as long today to coax Susu to sleep. When he returned to the room, he saw that Song Juhan had already taken a shower and was lying on the bed in his obviously shorter pajamas. When he saw him entering the room, He looked at him with a smile, a certain desire in his eyes.
He Gu closed the door and said flatly, "My sister just fell asleep, you have to do it, don't make a sound."
Song Juhan's expression froze: "I...I didn't want...I didn't come to you for that."
"What could that be for." He Gu's tone was not even sarcastic, just calm, "I think you are still alive and well, this injury shouldn't affect your performance."
Song Juhan sat up and his breathing became a little short: "Why, I won't force you any more."
"You said the same thing half a year ago." He Gu stood at the head of the bed and looked at him condescendingly, "Do it or not, then go to sleep."
Song Juhan bit his lip: "I was really crazy that day, and I already regretted it so much that I don't know what to do, if I'm such a beast again, I'll chop up my stuff, I'll definitely, never do it again. Force you."
He Gu held the corner of his mouth and smiled, but there was no smile in his eyes. He lifted the quilt and got on the bed, and lay down with his back to Song Juhan.
Song Juhan sat in a daze for a long time and slowly closed his eyes. He lay back on the quilt and hugged He Ge from behind. For him, even just holding him like this was enough.