Chapter 53

For the next few days, Li Shuo didn't go out. Wen Xiaohui would come for an hour or two every day, and he would leave with confidence after watching him eat his meal. People who usually squeaked were extra careful at this time.

Except for pretending to be calm when talking on the phone with his mother, Li Shuo was a little decadent most of the time. He is a person with good face, but fortunately only Wen Xiaohui can see what he looks like now.

These days, there is always a sense of unreality in the clouds and fog. Sometimes I feel that everything I heard that day is a dream, and sometimes I feel that everything with Zhao Jinxin is a dream in itself, because reality should not be so dramatic, nor should it be like this ugly. In any case, it was difficult for him to accept that he would sink in this way. He knew rationally that he should say goodbye to his failed past, but emotionally he couldn't do it. This kind of desperation that saw him out of control but helpless and powerless to save was the most painful thing to do. He is in pain.

This time, it's no use telling yourself big truths.

On Monday morning, Li Shuo received a call from his assistant and asked him why he hadn't arrived at the company yet.

At that time, Li Shuo hadn't woken up yet, and he was a little stunned when he heard this question.

The assistant paused: "Mr. Li, aren't you still sleeping?"

Li Shuo suddenly remembered that today he was going to Ennan to study the quarterly report. As early as when he was in Yangcheng, his assistant had reminded him, but now his mind is so empty that he can't remember anything.

Li Shuo rubbed his eyes: "I'm sorry, I...drinked too much." He made up a clumsy excuse, but he hoped that if he drank too much, people would wake up when he woke up, unlike now In this way, without a drop of alcohol, people can't get up when they are drunk.

"Wow." The assistant said with emotion, "Mr. Li, I've been with you for four years, and you've never delayed your work, so it's not lovelorn, right?"

The assistant was just a casual joke, but Li Shuo's heart tensed, as if a fig leaf had been ripped off in public, and his whole body trembled.

Seeing that Li Shuo didn't speak, the assistant realized that he had made a slip of the tongue, and hurriedly said: "Mr. Li, I'm joking, you can rest at home if you're not feeling well. We'll report to you the reborn business daughter after we've finished our research."

Li Shuo knew that he was scaring the little assistant. He was easy-going and got along with his subordinates like a friend. Today's abnormality-whether he forgot important business or couldn't make jokes, was indeed enough to surprise the people around him. He covered his eyes with the back of his hand, and said tiredly, "Well, send a summary to my mailbox, and call anytime if you have any questions."

"Yes."

After hanging up the phone, Li Shuo slowly put down his hand, picked up the remote control on the bedside table, and opened the curtains.

As the curtains were pulled back to both sides, the dazzling sunlight diffused into the bedroom, and the area covered by the golden yellow became larger and larger, until it fell on him. He narrowed his eyes in unbearable light, but felt A long-awaited warmth.

If sunlight can really kill bacteria, it is best to kill his decadence. He just lay there in the sun with a ridiculous devotion.

It wasn't until the sun burned his brain that he got a little dizzy, then he got up from the bed and walked into the bedroom.

A shaggy face was reflected in the mirror. The upper eyelids were swollen and the lower eyelids were blue and purple. In just a few days, he was so thin that he could vaguely see his cheekbones, which was different from Li Shuo, who was always proud of the spring breeze.

He stared at the mirror without blinking, and the more he looked, the more angry he became.

Why do you make yourself into this virtue...

He forcefully took off his pajamas, walked into the shower naked, and turned on the faucet without hesitation. It was early autumn, and the water temperature was very cold. The slices of goosebumps can be pleasant at the same time.

After taking a shower, he shaves in front of the mirror, but he doesn't know if it's because he has difficulty concentrating, or because his eyes are dry and swollen. The knife cuts through the skin, and blood flows down his chin instantly. Almost soaked in blood.

He threw the razor in exasperation, and supported the washstand with both hands, unable to raise his head for a long time.

Inexplicably, Zhao Jinxin's frivolous "I haven't played enough yet" sounded again in my ears.

Haven't played enough yet.

Haven't played enough yet.

What was Zhao Jinxin's expression at that time? mocking? Proud? What is Shao Qun's expression? contemptuous? frivolous? He only knew that he was standing outside the door at the time, his face seemed to be on fire in the next second.

His cultivation is not enough, his mind is not broad enough, so that he still can't let go.

He grabbed the marble platform tightly, because he was too hard, his fingers were all green.

Suddenly, the doorbell rang.

As soon as Li Shuo was excited, he lifted his head. He thought it was Wen Xiaohui, and quickly fell off the blood on his chin and put on the bathrobe to open the door.

The moment the door opened, he froze.

It is not a bunch of big bags every day in the sight, Wen Xiaohui with a bright and beautiful smile, but Zhao Jinxin, who is expressionless.

Li Shuo felt that the blood was frozen in an instant, and then the small blood vessels collapsed and burst in the body one by one, and his body kept painful pain. He lowered his head subconsciously, and didn't want Zhao Jinxin to see his embarrassment. His hand was fist behind him, and he said, "Come and get things? Just give me the key to me."

Zhao Jinxin stretched out his hand at him: "Your chin ..."

As soon as Li Shuo's eyes changed, he suddenly opened his coquettishness [entertainment].

"Papa" sounded, as if he didn't know who was thrown on the slap on his face, where he touched, the bones collided, skin friction, and spicy pain, both of them froze.

Li Shuo knew that he had excessive response, but he couldn't restrain the resistance in his body. He said coldly: "It's just scraped, the key is given to me."

Zhao Jinxin lowered his eyes, stepped forward, and wanted to come in.

Li Shuo didn't let it open, he stopped at the door: "Your things have been cleaned up." He bent down, lifted a bag from the door, and threw it to Zhao Jinxin's feet. If Zhao Jinxin did not come, he planned to throw away He stretched out his hand and repeated it again, "Key".

"I'm here to send you information. You didn't come today, I was worried about you ..." Zhao Jinxin shook the information in his hand.

"I just slept." Li Shuo took the information and aggravated the language: "The key."

Zhao Jinxin stared at Li Shuo's eyes, and said softly: "I didn't bring it."

"Then throw it." Li Shuo closed the door.

Zhao Jinxin held the door, raised his head, looked directly at Li Shuo, solemnly: "Li Shuo, I'm sorry."

Li Shuo's heart trembled, and a anger rushed straight into his head. He resisted: "I don't accept it, roll it." When he said, he would close the door again. But the hand that was under the door didn't know how strong it was, Li Shuo pushed hard and pushed it up, he narrowed his eyes: "What do you mean."

Zhao Jinxin pursed his lips, looked at the eyes deeply, and whispered, "I don’t want to do this."

"Of course you don't want to do this, after all, you haven't played enough." Perhaps it is a habit, and it is not a big deal to cut the wound repeatedly.

"No." Zhao Jinxin said clearly, "I didn't plan to hurt you."

What a ridiculous words, but unfortunately Li Shuo couldn't laugh: "How do you plan? When you don't play enough, tell me to tell me, say that you should be serious, wait for you to play, and find a" decent reason for a decent reason. 'Break up, everything is here according to your mind, is this your plan? "Li Shuo trembled and bit the rear fangs," Why should I live like this? Is it because I like you? "That" I like it The word "two words was almost chewed and swallowed by Li Shuo, and then vomited with blood.

"Like" is obviously one of the best words in the world, but now it has become abominable.

"Like" He Gu, to be ruined like this.

Zhao Jinxin's eyelashes trembled slightly: "I really like you ..."

"You are not worthy of saying these two words." For Li Shuo now, these two words are simply a curse. "Do you think I don't know what you are thinking? You are still young, I like me today, maybe tomorrow, may Like others, so you want ship. "He smiled coldly," But, I, don't, think, you hear it clearly? I don't want to. Everything you do makes me feel disgusting, just like your cousin. You are worthy of being a family. "

Zhao Jinxin's eyebrows twisted, and he looked at Li Shuo in grievances: "Uncle Li, I'm sorry ..."

"Let go." Li Shuo said expressionlessly.

"... Thank you for giving me your birthday."

"Let go of derailment of extramarital extramarital games!" Li Shuo pushed him a stun, and took the opportunity to slap into the door.

Across the door, Li Shuo seemed to still be able to feel the breath belonging to Zhao Jinxin. He gasped for breath to contain the almost flood of grief and anger. He squatted on the ground with his head in his arms, clenched his hands into fists, and thumped it hard. A few skulls.

After a long delay, Li Shuo stood up from the ground and returned to the bathroom. His beard was still unshaved, and the wound was bleeding again. His eyes were red, and he looked sloppy and decadent, like a man. Lost dog.

Yes, in this game, he lost humiliatingly and in a mess.

Li Shuo let out an angry, long low roar at himself in the mirror, which made his chest tremble, and the roar echoed in his mind, with a deafening effect, as if he woke up violently. to the self that he somehow shrank in the dark.

This trash in the mirror is not his Li Shuo! No one wants to change him Li Shuo!

He grabbed the razor, carefully hung up the messy stubble, washed away the dried blood, and blew the tousled hair. Then he went back to the bedroom, picked out a dress, put on his key and wallet and headed out.

He needs to bask in the sun, get in touch with the crowd, and sweep away the dark bad luck and hostility that surrounds him.

In the end, it's just love.

But a lovelorn.

Li Shuo called Wen Xiaohui and asked him to have dinner. Wen Xiaohui was overjoyed when he heard that he was out, and rushed to the restaurant as quickly as possible.

Wen Xiaohui looked surprised when he saw him: "Brother Li, you've been living here for so many days, you can figure it out!"

Li Shuo smiled lightly: "Although the food you brought is delicious, I don't want to eat takeaway anymore."

"Hahaha, why don't I do it for you."

"Let me go."

Wen Xiaohui looked at Li Shuo without blinking and smiled.

Li Shuo touched his chin: "Well, I shaved it when I shave. It's okay, and my face is not very good, right?"

"But it's still handsome." Wen Xiaohui winked at him, "I'm relieved to see you feel better."

Li Shuo smiled: "I will be fine."

Wen Xiaohui did not change his true colors, and kept adjusting the atmosphere during dinner, the two of them chatted and laughed.

After dinner, Li Shuo proposed to go shopping.

"Let's go, what are you buying? I'm a near-professional buyer, and I promise to make you look blinding."

"Just look at it, mainly to buy it for you."

"Buy it for me?" Wen Xiaohui pointed at himself, "Why buy it for me?"

"I want to spend money." Li Shuo rubbed his hair, "I want to spend money for you."

Wen Xiaohui hugged his arm and called out affectionately, "Dad."

Li Shuo laughed. He knew that Wen Xiaohui couldn't be short of money, even if he didn't have his own high income, he was still supported by Luo Yi, but his emotions needed some proper venting-it's not too late to vent, the president's secret lover.

The two settled the bill and went straight to the shopping mall. Li Shuo quietly watched Wen Xiaohui try on clothes and choose a match, tangled between different colors, and muttered that the fit of these trousers was not good, and those shoes were not suitable for booster pads. It was so fun when he went shopping with his mother, he never got impatient, as long as the other party had a satisfied smile on his face.

Even though the likable big boy wasn't his, he still got the feeling of being "needed" from him - and that's exactly what he needed right now.

After shopping for a few hours, Luo Yi's phone came three times, and Wen Xiaohui couldn't hold it anymore, so he had to go back.

Li Shuo carried him a shopping bag and sent him to the car.

Wen Xiaohui smiled brightly: "Brother Li, thank you."

"Are you happy today?" Li Shuo looked at him gently.

"Happy!"

"That's good, let's go back." Li Shuo closed the car door for him.

Wen Xiaohui lowered the car window and gave him a kiss: "Brother Li, you are doing well."

Li Shuo gave him a thumbs up: "Be careful on the road."

Wen Xiaohui's car drove away, Li Shuo stood by the street and watched the car until it disappeared.

It's really hard to feel alone... Li Shuo decided to go to Sanya for inspection in a few days. After the inspection, he will go back to the United States, where his home is.

He got into the car, hesitated for a moment, took out his mobile phone, and made a call: "Hey, Xiao Qi, I'm Li Shuo, are you free today..."

Li Shuo returned home, tidied up the room a little, and then sat on the sofa in a daze.

After the call, he actually regretted it, but if he refused again, wouldn't he be playing tricks.

He just wanted to find someone to accompany him, not to prove anything.

Li Shuo, what do you want to prove?

The doorbell rang, Li Shuo woke up, walked over and opened the door.

A sunny and handsome boy stood at the door. He was not tall, thin and fashionably dressed: "Hi, brother, long time no see."

Li Shuo smiled and said, "Long time no see, come in."

The boy's name is Xiao Qi, and Li Shuo doesn't know his name. The two met in a bar. They did it a few times. After they met Li Chengxiu, they never contacted him again. The call was made, and the other party answered.

"Brother, your face is not very good, are you sick?"

Li Shuo shook his head: "I've been too busy lately, I don't have a good rest, it's alright."

"Oh, you've lost weight." Xiao Qi stretched his waist and looked around, "Your home is so big, did I come here once? I don't remember anything."

"I've been here." Li Shuo said, "Have you eaten yet?"

"No." Xiao Qi took Li Shuo's arm and said coquettishly, "Brother, will you do it for me?"

"Okay, what do you want to eat?"

"It's a natural couple in the entertainment industry."

"There aren't many ingredients at home, so I'll just make some." Li Shuo smiled, "Let's watch TV."

"Hey."

Li Shuo opened the refrigerator, only some dishes that Wen Xiaohui bought to make salads, or it was leftovers. He couldn't eat leftovers for others, but he really had nothing to do, so he cooked two bowls of noodles.

Xiaoqi didn't pick either, he ate happily, and told Li Shuo about his internship experience. He complained about his excellent boss for a while, and said that his male colleague's butt was up. Li Shuo listened with a smile. He didn't care what Xiaoqi said, just This big house needs a little vocal.

After eating, the two watched a movie together, and while watching, Xiao Qi sat down on Li Shuo, holding his face and kissing him.

Li Shuo wrapped his arms around his thin waist and responded skillfully, but Xinhu was deadly calm.

After kissing for a while, Xiao Qi frowned slightly: "Brother, what's wrong?"

It is easy to tell whether the kiss is passionate or not.

Li Shuo smiled: "It's nothing." He hugged Xiao Qi's waist, pressed the boy on the sofa, kissed his cheek and neck, and gently removed his clothes.

Xiao Qi vigorously picked teasing him, obviously a little emotional.

The two rolled from the sofa to the wool carpet. Every step of the foreplay seemed to follow the rules, but Li Shuo had an indescribable resistance in his heart, and he resisted this resistance. In the end, he could no longer concentrate, instead he was fighting the idea in his mind that went against his will, and in the end, he didn't even know what his true will was!

"Brother..." Xiao Qi called out in a low voice.

Li Shuo came back to his senses and looked at him in panic.

Xiao Qi said embarrassedly, "If you don't mind, don't... force it."

Only then did Li Shuo realize that he hadn't reacted yet. His mind was in a mess, and Zhao Jinxin's face appeared uncontrollably, which made him deeply disgusted.

He stood up and said solemnly, "Xiao Qi, I'm sorry..."

"It's okay." Xiao Qi also got up and touched his face, "You're in a bad mood, did something happen?"

Li Shuo shook his head: "Sorry."

"...Lovelorn?" Xiao Qi raised his eyebrows.

Li Shuo was stunned and did not speak.

"Hey." Xiao Qi hugged his head and kissed his forehead, "I'm very happy that you can find me today, but we don't have to. If you're in a bad mood, I can chat with you. ."

Li Shuo looked at the cheerful boy with shame and said softly, "I'm sorry..."

"It's alright, it's human nature." Xiao Qi got up from the carpet and dragged Li Shuo up, "Come on, let's continue watching movies, oh, I'm hungry again, I'll order takeout , I want to eat skewers, have another dozen beers, and live together tonight."

Li Shuo smiled, relieved a lot: "Okay."

Li Shuo ordered takeout. The two of them watched and chatted while eating. Apart from making love, they also had some common language, such as football, music, and a few bottles of wine. Xiao Qi told Li Shuo about her troubles at work. , Li Shuo enlightened him with his rich experience, and the chat was very interesting.

Before they knew it, they chatted until the middle of the night, and the two climbed into bed drunk and fell asleep.

The next day, Li Shuo woke up with a hangover. His mind was still drowsy, and he felt warm skin by his hand. He habitually mumbled, "Jin Xin..."

As soon as these two words blurted out, Li Shuo opened his eyes, he sat up like an electric shock, and stared at the person beside his pillow.

Sleeping sweetly, with a handsome face.

Not Zhao Jinxin.

At that moment, Li Shuo's heart felt the weightlessness of jumping off a cliff. The feeling of the steep turn was terrifying. He couldn't tell whether he was lucky or lost.

He sighed deeply, rubbing his tousled hair, hesitating whether to get up or go back to sleep.

Suddenly, he heard the sound of the door lock turning from the living room, and he straightened his back with a shudder.

The next second, the door was opened, he turned around and got out of bed, rushing towards the living room.

not……

He ran to the living room and collided with Zhao Jinxin who came in with something.

Both of them stunned.

Li Shuo came back and looked at him unbelievable: "Who was allowed you to come in?"

Zhao Jinxin did not answer. He visited the living room, from a pile of coffee or bottle coffee table, saw a few clothes lying on the carpet, and then to the canvas shoes at the door. Finally, Li Shuochi -naked Kiss marks on the upper body and neck.

Zhao Jinxin's eyes changed and became cold and gloomy. He threw away the things in his hand and walked towards the bedroom.

Li Shuo stepped up, pushed him away, and yelled, "Roll out!"

Zhao Jinxin looked at him with a fierce look: "Who? Who is the house?"

"none of your business?"

"Is Wen Xiaohui?"

"Less saying eight."

Zhao Jinxin had to rush to the bedroom. Li Shuo grabbed his collar, and said with a cold voice: "Zhao Jinxin, I will say it again, roll out, and completely disappear from my home, from my eyes, and from my life. "

Zhao Jinxin stared at Li Shuo, his eyes were a little congested, so he said, "Who did you find?"

"Roll-" Li Shuo desperately pushed his chest back.

After Zhao Jinxin took two steps back, his footsteps were nailed to the normal. He never moved a step. He grabbed Li Shuo's hand, stared at his eyes, and then opened his fingers.

Li Shuo's face was pale and angry.

Zhao Jinxin finally opened his two hands, dumped it aside, and then rushed into the bedroom without hesitation.

Li Shuo scolded and chased.