It was a bit cold in the hospital late at night, especially when the heat in the body subsided, but there was no heating or air conditioning in the ward, so Yan Jifeng hugged Jiang Yue tightly and lifted the quilt up.

Jiang Yue was already asleep, and the dim light from the street lamp outside the window reflected Jiang Yue's face indistinctly.

Yan Jifeng looked at Jiang Yue carefully without feeling sleepy, tracing Jiang Yue's face over and over again with his eyes.

Jiang Yue still clung to him as they used to when sleeping, touching his face from time to time in his sleep, or sucking a mouthful whenever he found it.

He felt that Jiang Yue, who belonged to him, was back. Jiang Yue looked at him just now, just like every time in the past 3 years, longing for him, obsessed with him, even if there is less affection, he will always find him in the years to come. back.

Yan Jifeng raised the corners of his lips slightly and hugged Jiang Yue even tighter, leaned over and kissed the red mole on Jiang Yue's earlobe, and whispered.

"Didn't you ask if I would accompany you to grow old? You belong to me in this life, so don't even try to run away."

Jiang Yue could only respond to him with steady breathing, but he was dissatisfied again, and squeezed viciously against Jiang Yue, making Jiang Yue tremble and make a sound before letting go.

At dawn, before the doctor came to make rounds, Yan Jifeng had already dressed and got out of bed. After tidying himself up, he dressed Jiang Yue again.

When Jiang Yue fell ill, he put it on for Jiang Yue once, and found that he might like this job quite a bit. Jiang Yue obediently let him fiddle with it, and the joy in his heart was even better than doing it directly.

Yan Jifeng put Jiang Yue's clothes on one by one, and stuffed him back into the quilt. Jiang Yue woke up just after the quilt was covered, opened his eyes and met his eyes for a while, then suddenly smiled.

For a moment, Yan Jifeng's breathing was stagnant, and as the air was poured into his body again, the surrounding air became warm and bright, as if the first ray of spring breeze had come from the frigid glacier, and a feeling of utterance rose in his heart. Undeniable satisfaction.

Seeing Jiang Yue laughing, he unconsciously followed suit.

Then, Yan Jifeng pressed back on the bed, leaned over and bit Jiang Yue's lips, his voice was so gentle that he didn't realize it.

"Why don't you keep pretending to be asleep?"

Jiang Yue pulled out the hand that was held down by him, put it around his neck, and bent the corner of his eyes and said to him, "Say good morning to me."

Yan Jifeng froze again for a moment, Jiang Yue would have all kinds of seductive words in front of him, making him fall deeply into him. But Jiang Yue had never talked to him like this before, like the first flower that broke through the ice on the permafrost in spring.

His heartbeat was beating uncontrollably. In the past 20 years, he had many plans, how to get what he wanted, and how to fight back against those who hurt him.

But he never thought about the future, never thought about what would happen to him, he didn't care where his life would end, as long as he controlled everything that belonged to him while he was alive.

However, after thinking about it for a moment, he thought about every day in the future, Jiang Yue would wake up like this and say good morning to him.

"Good morning, Jiang Yue."

Yan Jifeng said it unconsciously, and Jiang Yue smiled and kissed him on the lips, and then said: "For many years, no one said good morning to me when I woke up, I don't like to wake me up and tell me to continue sleep."

"I will wait for you to wake up every day and say good morning to you."

Yan Jifeng assured him, and then deepened the kiss that was just on his lips.

The door of the ward was knocked twice suddenly, the door was locked by Yan Jifeng last night, he could only let go of Jiang Yue to open the door.

When the doctor saw the door open, he wanted to criticize the door of the ward for not locking it, but when he raised his eyes, it was Yan Jifeng again, who subconsciously stopped, and silently entered the ward to check on Jiang Yue.

As a result, as soon as he checked, he saw a new mark on Jiang Yue's neck, and immediately glared at Yan Jifeng again. Yan Jifeng's face did not change, but he looked away in embarrassment.

After the examination results, the doctor said with a sigh of relief: "There is nothing abnormal, and I can be discharged from the hospital."

Yan Jifeng only replied with a toneless "um", this perfunctory attitude challenged his medical ethics, he glanced at Yan Jifeng, Yan Jifeng's eyes were as sharp as a knife, and he turned back line of sight. Anyway, he was discharged from the hospital immediately, and he didn't bother to speculate on the thoughts of the patient's family members, so he left directly.

Yan Jifeng didn't care when the doctor left, and he pulled Jiang Yue up when he said he could be discharged from the hospital. He was only wearing the inner clothes just now, but now he took Jiang Yue's coat to help others put it on.

When Zhao Yingjie came, he met Zhou Tian downstairs, they went upstairs together, and stopped at the same time when they reached the door of the ward, and looked inside with startled eyes.

Yan Jifeng helped Jiang Yue get dressed like a child, and Jiang Yue cooperated with Yan Jifeng to wear it like a child. The atmosphere between the two was like a couple with a sour love smell.

But from what they have known about the two for many years, the two seem to have been taken away, and everything is strange and weird.

Zhao Yingjie turned his head and glanced at Zhou Tian. They both saw each other's suspicion, and then went inside.

Yan Jifeng had already dressed Jiang Yue and helped him put on his shoes and get off the bed. When he saw Zhou Tian and Zhao Yingjie who came in, he just glanced at him indifferently and said, "Let's go."

Zhao Yingjie understood Yan Jifeng's meaning very well, and immediately went to help Jiang Yue complete the discharge procedures.

Zhou Tian was at the end, watching Jiang Yue go out with Yan Jifeng's arms around his waist, Jiang Yue let Yan Jifeng's arms with a smile in his eyes, and didn't pay attention to him the whole time, as if he couldn't see him.

Zhou Tian doesn't think he knows Jiang Yue well, but he has worked in the police force for more than ten years. He has known Jiang Yue in these years, and he has seen Jiang Yue's appearance at his lowest point. No matter what angle he looks at, he feels that Jiang Yue has changed overnight. , too abnormal.

He followed him to the airport, looking for an opportunity to talk to Yan Jifeng alone, but Yan Jifeng kept holding Jiang Yue tightly, and he didn't find the opportunity.

Zhao Yingjie even booked Zhou Tian's ticket yesterday, so they returned home on the same flight.

The first-class cabin of the aircraft may be specially designed to combine two positions, and the middle partition can also be lowered to become a semi-enclosed "double room".

Zhou Tian glanced at Jiang Yue and Yan Jifeng's positions, and glared fiercely at Zhao Yingjie. Zhao Yingjie shrugged, "I dare not resist what Boss Yan means."

He sat down and didn't say any more. With Jiang Yue's current state, he couldn't take him away from Yan Jifeng.

When the plane took off, the cabin became quiet. Jiang Yue sat on the seat and opened the curtains. The winter in N country is also sunny all year round. Looking out, there is endless blue sky and white clouds.

"Jiang Yue, what are you looking at?"

Yan Jifeng found that Jiang Yue was ignoring him while facing out the window, but his upper body was in Jiang Yue's position, Jiang Yue still didn't reply to him, and didn't move a bit.

He called again, "Jiang Yue."

"Jiang Yue?"

Yan Jifeng's voice sank unconsciously, but Jiang Yue still didn't respond, as if a barrier had been added to the whole figure, isolating everything from the outside world.

He looked at Jiang Yue's face, and Jiang Yue's eyes fell outside the window, but there was nothing in his eyes, as if he had returned to the way he was when he first came to the hospital, becoming an unresponsive puppet.

"Jiang Yue."

Yan Jifeng yelled again, this time he unconsciously lowered his voice, as if he was afraid of disturbing Jiang Yue.

Jiang Yue still didn't respond, he reached out to touch Jiang Yue's face, and gently turned it to face him.

"Jiang Yue?"

He called Jiang Yue's name softly again, Jiang Yue saw him, but he was not in his eyes.

Yan Jifeng couldn't tell what had pierced into his heart, he was a little flustered, he took Jiang Yue's face and kissed it, the kiss without cum was gentle and comfortable.

Then, he let go, and carefully called into Jiang Yue's eyes: "Jiang Yue?"

Jiang Yue's eyes didn't blink, and after a long while, he seemed to finally recognize him, and then he seemed not to know what happened to him just now, he took his hand away and said, "People will find out."

Yan Jifeng took a deep breath, and there was a dull pain in his chest. He held Jiang Yue's face again, made Jiang Yue look directly at him and said, "Look at me, don't look anywhere else. Jiang Yue, just look at me."

Jiang Yue's eyes were blank for a moment, and suddenly he smiled like a spring breeze blowing through the frozen ground, "Okay."

The return flight flew from morning to afternoon. Jiang Yue changed many positions, but he never left Yan Jifeng's eyes. He listened to Yan Jifeng's words and only looked at him. During lunch time, the stewardess came to ask what they needed. He also refused to eat anything.

Yan Jifeng is not at all satisfied because Jiang Yue listened to him at the moment, he definitely didn't mean that Jiang Yue should really keep looking at him like this.

He told Jiang Yue, "Don't skip meals, forgot that you were hospitalized before?"

"But I want to see you, not eat."

"Jiang Yue." Yan Jifeng held his breath again for a moment, he grabbed Jiang Yue and hugged him, buried Jiang Yue's face in his chest to block Jiang Yue's sight, and said next to his ear: "Don't look at me!" Now, take a rest and sleep if you don’t want to eat.”

"it is good."

Jiang Yue replied and raised his face to him, "I'm sleeping."

Then, Jiang Yue pushed him away, leveled the chair and fell asleep.

Yan Jifeng finally exhaled the breath that was stagnant in his chest just now, he called the stewardess away, and also put the chair down flat, there was no barrier in between, he could reach out and touch Jiang Yue.

He just looked at Jiang Yue quietly, but Jiang Yue was clearly in front of him, but he felt that there was a mist between them, so he couldn't see clearly.

"Jiang Yue, what's wrong with you?"

Jiang Yue was already asleep, Yan Jifeng took his hand and squeezed it tightly, approached Jiang Yue and said in a low voice: "The person you love is me, and I'm right next to you, aren't you happy? I'm I will accompany you until the old age, and accompany you for the rest of my life, we will travel together, as agreed before."

Jiang Yue remained motionless, he subconsciously squeezed Jiang Yue's hand, and couldn't help but say, "You love me. You can only love me, you know? Jiang Yue, don't go to other people anymore."

Jiang Yue was pinched uncomfortably and snorted, as if answering him, he finally felt a little safe, and fell asleep holding Jiang Yue's hand like this.

It was still early when the plane landed, Yan Jifeng ignored Zhao Yingjie and Zhou Tian, ​​and called another person to pick him and Jiang Yue up. He didn't take Jiang Yue back to the villa, but went to the hospital first.

Seeing Jiang Yue's resistance from the hospital, Yan Jifeng hugged him and said, "It's just an inspection. The conditions of the hospitals in country N were too poor before, so I can rest assured after a re-examination."

Jiang Yue seemed to be persuaded by him, and cooperated with him to conduct more than 20 inspections. Private hospitals, one-on-one professional services, and the results of the examination will come out soon.

Yan Jifeng went to the doctor's office alone. Several doctors each held stacks of reports. They saw him choose a representative with each other's eyes, and spoke in front of him.

"Mr. Jiang Yue's health doesn't have a major problem, but it's really not very good... He may have suffered from insomnia for a long time, which caused his body's metabolism to be quite chaotic. No special treatment is needed, but he must be well adjusted. Otherwise, it is easy to develop into a disease."

Yan Jifeng nodded calmly, looked at the doctor and said, "Are there any other questions?"

The doctor hesitated for a moment and said: "The long-term insomnia, if not for physical reasons, is mostly psychological."

As he spoke, he paused and looked at Yan Jifeng, "I suggest taking Mr. Jiang Yue for a psychological evaluation."

"Gone?"

Seeing that the doctor didn't ask any more questions, Yan Jifeng shook his head, turned around and left.

The hospital has a special waiting area for rest, which is decorated similarly to a coffee shop, and there are free snacks and drinks.

Sitting alone by the window, Jiang Yue was out of tune with other people. He looked outside motionless, as if everything beside him had nothing to do with him.

Yan Jifeng walked in and stopped aside to observe for a while, Jiang Yue was really motionless, he didn't respond when he walked to the side, and he didn't seem to hear his name called.

Only when he stood in front of Jiang Yue and turned Jiang Yue's face to meet his gaze, would Jiang Yue come back to his senses.

"What did the doctor say about me? Seriously?"

Jiang Yue smiled and asked Yan Jifeng, but his expression didn't care what happened to him at all, as if he was just looking for a reason to talk to Yan Jifeng.

"Jiang Yue."

Yan Jifeng sat next to Jiang Yue and held his hand after hesitating for a while, and finally said, "Let's go see a psychiatrist, okay?"

He thought that Jiang Yue would resist and refuse, but Jiang Yue just looked at him for a moment and nodded, "Okay."

Jiang Yue answered so succinctly, but he didn't want Jiang Yue to go, "if you don't want to go, you don't have to go."

"Why should I want to go?"

Yan Jifeng was speechless to answer, and finally took Jiang Yue there.

The psychiatry department of this private hospital is quite famous. The layout of the entire psychiatry department does not have the feeling of a hospital, but is more like a leisure club.

Yan Jifeng brought Jiang Yue to the doctor. Jiang Yue was always polite and indifferent to strangers, but this time he took the initiative to greet the doctor. "

"No. Go, I'll wait for you outside."

But Jiang Yue, who was still calm just now, took his hand, as if he was afraid that he would be abandoned here.

Yan Jifeng looked at Jiang Yue's eyes for a long time. He seemed to understand something, but he didn't understand anything. He grabbed Jiang Yue's hand and said, "I won't leave, just wait for me outside."

"I came out to see you."

Yan Jifeng suddenly remembered that Jiang Yue had been with him for 3 years, and he had never asked him except for the bed.

He nodded firmly, "You can see me when you come out."

Jiang Yue finally let go of his hand and followed the doctor in.

Yan Jifeng looked at the closed door, took a deep breath, turned and walked to the window directly opposite the door, looking at the garden outside, but there was no line of sight, he kept looking at his watch.

Just when he watched it for the 38th time, Jiang Yue came out.

Yan Jifeng walked over quickly, Jiang Yue came out of the door, staring blankly ahead, he held Jiang Yue's face and forced his gaze.

"Jiang Yue."

"I'm done."

The expression on Jiang Yue's face finally recovered, Yan Jifeng glanced at the doctor behind Jiang Yue, understood what the doctor meant, and then said to Jiang Yue, "You sit and wait for a while, I'll be right back."

"it is good."

It seems that no matter what Yan Jifeng asks him to do, he will say yes, and then strictly implement it according to Yan Jifeng's instructions.

Yan Jifeng seemed to have been hit by something in the chest, so he took Jiang Yue to the sofa outside and sat down, asking someone to watch before going back to the doctor.

The doctors are different from the actual departments. In order not to put pressure on the patients, they don't wear white coats. They are just ordinary home clothes.

Seeing Yan Jifeng coming in, he smiled gently, "Mr. Yan, please take a seat."

"No, let's talk."

Yan Jifeng stood straight at the door, looking like he was in a hurry.

The doctor didn't let him go in and sit down again, and then stood at the door and said, "Jiang Yue's situation is very complicated. There are only a few major categories of mental illnesses, and each person's situation is different, unlike other diseases. Uniform symptoms and criteria."

The doctor pondered for a moment and then said, "Jiang Yue's situation is more complicated than usual. He has a strong defensive mentality and knows how to cover up his true situation if he gives positive answers to questions."

Yan Jifeng looked at the doctor seriously, "What do you mean?"

"It's difficult for me to give a definitive outcome to his condition, it's serious and it's probably going to be longer than we thought."

The doctor said for a while, "His psychology is very contradictory, he may have a hidden tendency to self-destruct, that is, he will subconsciously do something that puts himself at risk.

But he is very rational and has a strong ability to self-regulate, which also leads to his strong psychological defense ability.

His current performance is a kind of psychological defense, he didn't say it just now, but something must have triggered his defense ability. "

The doctor looked at Yan Jifeng for fear that he would not understand, and said in another way: "In simple terms, he encountered something that was enough to make him nervous, and in order to save himself, his subconscious closed it up and concealed it. The impact and pain it brought to him.

But everyone's personality formation is affected by experience, and this part of him that is closed may have an impact on his personality characteristics, and will show some personality characteristics that are different from usual. This part of the characteristics may be repressed in the past, or it may be a new characteristic that has been inspired.

I'll give him some medicine first, and usually make him feel better, spend more time with friends, and spend more time with him. "

Yan Jifeng was motionless for a long time, the doctor saw the blue veins protruding from the back of his clenched hand, and stopped silently, waiting for the blue veins on the back of his hand to fall before reopening.

"For him, that incident may be the low line of his psychological defense. It is best not to let him contact relevant information in the near future, lest he be stimulated again and cause serious consequences."

Yan Jifeng remembered the scene where Jiang Yue heard that Yan Yueqin might have passed out with a nosebleed on the island.

He nodded expressionlessly, turned around and went out to find Jiang Yue.

Jiang Yue was still sitting in the same position he was sitting in before he left, and he didn't respond to anything as if he was isolated from everything in the outside world.

Yan Jifeng walked over and squatted in front of the sofa, Jiang Yue looked down at him, he instantly suppressed the anger in his eyes, put his hands on Jiang Yue's face, and made Jiang Yue meet his gaze.

"Jiang Yue, let's go home."

The author says:

The psychiatrist's words have no basis and no science, don't take it seriously, everything is needed for the plot!