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Chapter 114 I Don't Know What Love Is
During breakfast, there were two people missing from the table, but Shu He didn't care. He had a good appetite and ate two big bowls of porridge.
Seeing how delicious his food was, Qingyang Shuoyi couldn't help smiling.
Yu Xiang looked at Qingyang Shuoyi, then at Shu He, opened her mouth to speak but stopped, and finally bowed her head to eat her own.
After breakfast was over, Shu He, who was in the middle of Yu Xiang tidying up the dishes, grabbed her and asked, "Yuxiang, have you seen the master?"
Yu Xiang was taken aback, then shook her head, "My lord, this servant called your master to have breakfast, but there was no response in the room. The servant probably left the house early in the morning."
After finishing speaking, then pack up things. As for those strange people, let them continue to be strange!
Shu He blinked, "Where are you going this early in the morning?"
"Let's go out and have some fun!"
"..."
Yu Xiang suddenly stopped what he was doing, turned his small eyes around, leaned close to Shu He's ear and whispered, "Young Master, do you know? This servant saw that Hua Hua left the valley."
Hearing this, Shu He's face froze, and then he smiled indifferently, "It's normal for Hua Hua to leave, he's not like idlers like us, the king of a country is very busy."
Don't come back when you leave, people on two lines should get entangled together, no matter who is accommodating, if there is no future love, it will hurt if you talk too much.
Yu Xiang didn't understand, "My lord, this slave girl's face was not good when she saw Hua Hua leave, did you quarrel with him?"
Hua Hua yelled and yelled before, did the two have conflicts at that time?
Shu He patted Yu Xiang's cranky little head, and managed to pull himself together, showing a look of indifference, "Okay, little girl, don't worry so much, do what you should do, go."
"Young master!"
"Go."
"..."
Shu He pushed Yu Xiang to leave, but she didn't want to say more, Yu Xiang stared dissatisfied, and finally walked to the kitchen obediently with the bowl and chopsticks, thinking to forget it, the master's business is not up to her as a maidNevermind!
Although it feels uncomfortable to think so...
Qingyang Shuoyi sat at the door with a calm expression, and Shu He also moved a stool beside him, and the two of them watched the rain of pear blossoms side by side, spending time eating together.
Qingyang Shuoyi glanced at Shu He, and suddenly said, "I asked Qiyue to pack up and send Shu Xiaoya over, and it will arrive in the afternoon."
Hearing this, Shu He smiled faintly, Shu Xiaoya looks very good, he was very relieved.
"It doesn't need to be so troublesome. You can carry the child as you used to. There is no need to carry the child around just to accommodate me. It is not good for the child." Shu He thought for a while and then said, "You take Shu XiaoyaTake good care of him, let him follow you in the future."
Qingyang Shuoyi was taken aback for a moment, thinking that what he said didn't sound right.
"What about you? Are you still planning to leave us to live alone?" With a tentative opening, although the surface was calm, the tightly clenched fists in the sleeves revealed the tension in Qingyang Shuoyi's heart.
Shu He looked up at the sky, his eyes were flat and his expression was elusive, "Qingyang, you can find a new start, if one day Shu Xiaoya will become your hindrance, then you can send him to me."
Qingyang Shuoyi looked at his side face, trying to maintain his composure, "Shu He, have you ever thought about my mood, have you ever thought about Hua Hua's mood, do you think the love we talk about is just a joke?"
This man can really drive people to death!
Shu He tilted his head, seeing Qingyang Shuoyi's sullen face, he smiled slightly, "Qingyang, I don't know what love is, the most unforgettable love I've ever seen in my life is when a silly woman loves someone she thinks she loves."The man gave everything, but in the end his family was ruined and his life was worse than death. Can you believe it? I was only three years old at the time, and every night I would hear this woman crying in my ear, listening to her complaining, and it took more than ten years in a flash.One can understand."
When he was very young, he carried all the hope of his mother's survival. Shu He didn't know what happened after losing his mother, but he could probably guess that without his son, the result of that woman would be nothing more than two, mad, or dead.
At the beginning, he always thought about the past, but gradually Shu He didn't dare to think about it anymore, he was afraid that the worries of that era would affect his mood, and he was even more afraid that he would not be able to survive well in this time and space.
Shu He admitted that he was a little bit evasive, but he was really helpless, he couldn't go back, could he?
Qingyang Shuoyi didn't understand Shu He's mood, let alone who the woman he was talking about was.But Qingyang Shuoyi knew that Baili Qianliu's childhood memories were very bad, even extremely painful.But it's all good now, isn't it?You can be happy as long as you forget the past, right?Why deny other people's love for him just because of their failed love? Is it fair?
"Love is also beautiful. You can't deny everyone's sincerity just because of this example." Qingyang Shuoyi said, "Besides, it's normal for a man to have three wives and four concubines. That woman must have done something wrong when she ended up like this, maybeIt was because her love was too extreme, or maybe she was too naive, there must be a reason."
Shu He smiled wryly, after all, her mother was too naive!Just a woman who has been dazzled by love, can you expect her to think things rationally?What's more, by the time she recovered, it was already too late, who could bring the dead grandfather back to life?Who can get uncle out of prison?
Shu He told himself not to think too much about the past, that would only make his mood worse, what he has to do now is to let Qingyang Shuoyi leave.Shu He twitched the corner of his mouth, a few words can't send people away, so let's keep talking!
"Qingyang, I have never loved anyone. I don't know what love feels like. I have a wife and children in my planned life, but I don't have the role of a lover. I think if I really fall in love with you one dayI will definitely become overwhelmed, forget about all the love affairs, I don't like to be in that kind of confused future."
When you are happy, holding a worthless little gift seems to own the whole world. When you are in pain, you can’t wait to cut off a piece of meat to stop the pain that is like a knife. The mother’s hysterical lament is something that Shu He can’t get rid of from his soul.He would rather live a bland and tasteless life than be that sad moron for love.
Qingyang Shuoyi understands that Shu He is avoiding love, understands that he is deeply influenced by that woman, not because he doesn't know how to love, but because he doesn't dare to love, it's obviously so hateful, yet it makes people feel so distressed.
"Shu He, can't you try to love once?" Qingyang Shuoyi looked at him seriously, "We have children, even if we don't say we love each other, we can still live like family members, isn't that okay?"
Shu He looked back at him, and shook his head seriously, "Qingyang, I'm the kind of person who is only suitable for living alone. I don't know how to communicate with others except for interests. Since I was a child, I have always been alone."
What is family?mother or father?Or those half-siblings?Except for his grandfather, he only has fear and hatred for those so-called family members. All the nightmares in childhood belong to the family members. These two words are even scarier than lovers.
Shu He smiled bitterly, feeling very sad in his heart, who was he living his thirty years of life for?Mother?But what did he win for his mother?Shu Group?That's become a distant dream...isn't it?
"Qingyang, I want to see the world, I want to live for myself selfishly, without restraint, and don't stop for anyone, so please leave, and when I don't pay attention, walk quietly like Hua Hua, from now onLive the life you deserve."
After speaking resolutely, a sense of suffocation surged, Shu He stood up and walked forward, walking aimlessly, eager to find a way to redeem his soul.
Despite the thousands of words, even though he wanted to grab this person and beat him up, he still wisely chose to remain silent at this time.If this person is determined to drive him away, then he...
Silently following behind Shu He, Qingyang Shuoyi took out the jade Xiao and put it near his mouth. The clear Xiao sound swayed and swayed, instantly calming the restlessness of everything and making the wind still.
Shu He continued to walk forward, kept walking, and stopped under the pear tree when he was tired, sat on the ground leaning against the tree, closed his eyes and fell asleep slowly.
Qingyang Shuoyi took Yu Xiao down and guarded it quietly...
Shu He didn't wake up until noon. The place where he was lying was no longer under the pear tree, but in his own room.Shu He pulled the corners of his mouth and forced a smile, thinking that Qingyang Shuoyi must have brought him back, but he was just annoyed at how he could sleep so dead.
Shu He was about to get up, but suddenly stopped in the middle of turning over, and looked into the bed with surprised eyes, and saw Shu Xiaoya pouted like a frog, drooling, the half of his face facing outward was red, sleepingVery sweet.
Shu He bent down and touched the child's face, careful not to wake up the little ancestor, then got out of bed lightly, put on his shoes and ran out.
"Yuxiang, Yu Xiang."
Hearing the purposely lowered call, Yu Xiang came out of the kitchen in bewilderment.
"My lord, the servant is here."
Shu He pulled her and asked, "Where is Qingyang? Have you seen him?"
"Young master? The servant hasn't seen it for a long time." Yu Xiang thought for a while in doubt, clapped her hands and said, "That's right! July is here, ask him, he must know where the young master is."
After finishing speaking, Yu Xiang girl left her precious son and ran away in a hurry.
Shu He froze on the spot, searched for the person of July in his mind, he was a very ordinary man in his memory, he was suddenly surprised, when it comes to July, why is girl Yu Xiang so happy?Could it be!
Sure enough, female college students are not allowed to stay!
Shu He shook his head helplessly, went back to the room, looked at his son's indecent sleeping position, and smiled.
After a while, Yu Xiang led Qiyue in, and before Shu He asked, Qiyue bowed expressionlessly and spoke.
"My lord, the young master left the valley an hour ago. The competition in Xiajiang City is about to end. The young master needs to preside over the last day. The young master asked his subordinates to send you a message. I hope you can calm down for a few days and wait for him to come back."
After finishing speaking, Qiyue cupped her hands and stood aside.
Shu He touched Shu Xiaoya's little butt, and he didn't have any thoughts in his heart, just calm, unusually calm.
However, his good decision will never change because of this...