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    "How come there is no way to go? We have traveled such a long way, and there will be no time when the mountains and rivers are at the end!" Luo Xi could hear the sound of metal clashing, but could not see the situation on Deng Huailing's side, and became more and more anxious."In short, you come back first. I won't allow you to lose your life like this. To me, this is simply an unacceptable plan!"

    Deng Huailing clenched the handle of the saber as hard as he could to prevent Tang Dao from being knocked off by Medusa's attack.Fierce metallic buzzing crisscrossed in this narrow space, and the sound of blades and snake hair splitting the air was buzzing.The towering black cabinets around him blocked his sight, so he had to pay attention to the subtle changes in the wind and cut off the attacking snake hair in time.

    Fortunately, due to the limitation of the cabinet, Medusa was unable to exert its ultimate destructive power and break through Tang Dao's precarious defense, so the two sides temporarily maintained a balance.Deng Huailing blocked and retreated to the depths of the cabinet, wiping off the blood from the corner of his lips:

    "So what about the people in the second district? Rosie, you are the leader of the 'art', you must give priority to the safety of the people. You have to admit that there will be times when you can't do anything, and now, there is no other choice but to abandon meThere is a way."

    "Then what about the oath you made to me? Don't you count it?" Rosie bit her lower lip hard, her voice sounded like a threat, but it seemed to be begging pitifully, "You told me to accompany meBy my side, accompany me to see all the beautiful scenery in the world, you also promised me that you would send me different flowers every day, I have always, always believed in you."

    "Forget about those vows. If you can, forget about me as soon as possible," Deng Huailing's voice was very soft. He needed to work very hard to curb the jealousy in his heart, and make a good judgment for Rosie with clear reason, "IKnowing that you never lack suitors, you are a very attractive person, without me, there will be many people who are willing to stay by your side..."

    Rosie suddenly heard the loud sound of a punch being hammered on the table, and the earphones were filled with chaotic shouts: "Are you a fucking bastard? Deng Huailing! I really want to verify with my own eyes whether you are the person I know, If it were him, he would have been jealous a long time ago, what are you thinking in your mind, and what are you talking about!"

    "I..." Deng Huailing smiled lightly, his dark blue lips bent, as if laughing at his own duplicity, and he admitted sincerely, "I'm jealous. Thinking about how you might feel after I dieBeing with someone else, doing all the intimate things I've done with you, I'd be so jealous I'd kill your future lover."

    He has retreated to the deepest part of the cabinet, leaning against the wall and gasping in embarrassment, "But I'm even more afraid that you won't forget me... I'm afraid that you won't be able to get out of this shadow, and you will become depressed from now on, and let down the ideal you have pursued for more than ten years.Rosie, you have had a hard time moving forward these years, you gave so much love, but most of what you received was incomprehension and betrayal."

    "I want you to be truly respected and supported. If forgetting about me allows you to accept the love of thousands of people without any worries, then forget about it."

    Rosie's eyes were already red, he suppressed the tears in his eyes, tightly covered his mouth to prevent himself from crying, his heart was filled with sadness and anger.Until then, Deng Huailing only thought about the suffering he had suffered. The other party saw his lonely childhood, deceived teenager and betrayed youth in the Huanhai system, so he wanted to send him the best thingshands.

    But what about Deng Huailing?Isn't Deng Huailing himself the same?Walking alone in the vast city, accompanied by killing for a long time, looking up at the moon in the dark alley, Rosie is the moonlight that inadvertently illuminates him.For this ray of light, he can risk his life to chase it, just like a moth that does not care about himself.

    Why did Deng Huailing have to be sacrificed?This is simply the most unfair thing in the world!Even if sacrificing him could save the whole world, the world never treated him kindly, never gave him any favorable conditions, but made him pay his life.

    "Why do you have to sacrifice for me." Rosie said angrily, holding back tears, "Obviously you...haven't gotten anything from me or anyone, and you have to sacrifice everything. Thinking of me forgetting you, andDo you really feel better when other people are together?"

    He wanted to provoke Deng Huailing's reluctance, so he spoke more violently, "Huai Ling, time can really dilute everything, maybe I can't forget you now, but in three, five, or ten years, it may not be so! II will find a lover who is more suitable for me than you, I will love him sincerely, and he will love me sincerely, I will live a life without worries, but these have nothing to do with you..."

    "That's good." Deng Huailing interrupted him, and repeated as if covering up, "That's good. You know my character, I won't pretend to bless you and that bastard, but I will die contentedly. YouYou deserve the best in the world, even if it has nothing to do with me, I hope you can live that kind of life, if you can exchange for these, then I will die without regret.”

    Rosie couldn't see the other end of the call, Deng Huailing closed his eyes hurt, and a lonely look gradually appeared in his brown eyes.He knew that Rosie was deliberately telling lies to provoke him, but it was undeniable that Rosie's lies might come true one day, and no one could tell the future, just like he couldn't be sure that Rosie's side would never appear again.The lover who rekindled the passion of the other party.

    One day, Rosie, who cared about him the most, would forget about him, and he would disappear from the world.Deng Huailing raised the blade and cut off the snake hair creeping up from the corners of the walls and the ceiling on both sides. As he overwhelmed his strength, more blood spilled from his lips. The color of the blood was almost dark black and thicker.thick, which indicates that his life is about to run out.

    He will eventually reach the ending forgotten by everyone, and he will die alone.When a chess player wins, he will only celebrate with his friends and leave the table full of discarded pieces behind him. What the broken knight gets is just a smile from the chess player. For that one smile, he is willing to sacrifice himselflife.

    Deng Huailing calmly persuaded himself to accept this fact, but just as he mobilized his weak body to deal with the snake hair, Rosie suddenly cried out in his ear, the choking cry seemed like the accumulated tide had washed away the dam, starting from the collapseThen intensified:

    "I... I was lying just now, Huailing, don't believe it! I will never forget you, I love you, even if I exchange the whole city, I will never forget all the memories related to you! You are my lifeThe most important and precious person in my life, no one can replace you, you are not dispensable, you are not alone, you... and me..."

    Deng Huailing was stunned.He has always been able to easily see through Rosie's mind, and did not believe the other party's lies, but the other party was afraid that he would be shrouded in loneliness for decades before he died, so he accepted the fact that he would be forgotten, and walked towards death alone, leavingUnder the biggest regret.Even though he could bear the worst ending, he still couldn't help being moved by Rosie's enthusiasm and sincerity.

    After crying unrestrainedly, Rosie's words became self-willed, sobbing, "I can't live without you at all... If you die, who will tie my hair, who will sleep with meHelp me tidy up the messy files from time to time, encourage me when I forget the words in my speech? Huailing, I will make a mess of these things, don't you go, don't you go, okay?"

    "Those things you already know, you just want me to help you on purpose." Deng Huailing comforted her helplessly and indulgently, "I have never been a necessary option in your life, and you are not a delicate person.Rosie, who struggled to get up from adversity again and again, is a brave and strong fighter. You will never be defeated, and this time is no exception."

    Medusa couldn't make a quick attack, so she simply stopped using snake hair, and all the mother's body turned into tides and rushed into the gaps in the cabinet, rushing towards Deng Huailing from all directions.The hideous silver snake's head protruded from every crevice, and was cut off by the Tang Dao. The space for dodging became smaller and smaller. Deng Huailing was forced to move to the open space that was destroyed by the giant snake before.

    This monster was hunting him, just like the ancient people drove the wild beasts into the net when hunting. There is no cabinet in the open space, which is the perfect hunting ground for Medusa.Deng Huailing barely resisted the attack, trying to delay the speed of being driven away, Rosie was still crying at the other end, trying to keep him:

    "Who said you are not my necessary option? You have long been the most important part of my support. If you were not here, how could I get up again..."

    In the bag on his back, the countdown sound of the suitcase has changed slightly, which is a signal that there are two minutes left before the nuclear explosion.This difficult resistance only needs to last for another two minutes, but Deng Huailing didn't feel relieved, on the contrary, he was reluctant to leave because Rosie was crying.

    Rosie's tears can always touch his heart. When Rosie was sad, he used to hold her in his arms to comfort her, but now he can't touch Rosie, and there will be no such opportunity in the future.In this situation, even Deng Huailing, who is good at understanding people's hearts, didn't know what to say, so he had no choice but to sigh:

    "Don't cry, Rosie. Think something happy, you can get everything you want in no time, the position of mayor, the well-being of the people, the peace we dream of, no more super corporations control the lifeblood of the economy, peopleDoesn’t it make you happy not to have to rely on fantasy to survive, and to have a city free of slums and displaced children?”

    Rosie sniffed, sobbed weakly and said harsh words: "I don't want any peace. If being a terrorist for a lifetime can make you survive, then I'll be a traitor to the city. I shouldn't have been with you before."Robert against..."

    "This is self-defeating words." Deng Huailing knew that the other party had lost his mind and even said that he didn't want peace, so he calmly corrected, "This revolution is your lifelong long-cherished wish, how can you give up so easily? PromiseI'll take care of myself and enjoy the post-war scenery for me, as if you were watching it with me, okay?"

    "No, no, it's not that I shouldn't confront Robert, but that I shouldn't get you involved," Rosie murmured to herself, her words mixed with uncontrollable crying, almost going crazy with self-blame, "It was I who harmed you... When I was in the Lost City, I should have firmly pushed you away. I had the dream of the river early in the morning, but I still selfishly saved you and let you go on the same path as me.the way."

    He tugged at his long hair with great remorse, "No, no, I shouldn't have said those things to you a long time ago, at Bloody Christmas, and prevented you from making any promises to be a good person. IKnowing that abiding by one's heart will be much more difficult than abandoning one's conscience, walking on this difficult road, how can there be a good result? It is I who harmed you. The closer a person like me is to you, the easier it is to lose youwhat……"

    "Rosie." There was only more than one minute left in the countdown, and Deng Huailing couldn't say much, but could only stop Rosie from confessing her guilt in time.Medusa approached him into the open space in the corner. To his right was the torrential rain, and the dazzling light shone in from the hole in the ceiling.Part of the silvery liquid has already flowed into the open space, and the twisting little snake is ready to go.

    "Rosie, you didn't hurt me, and I don't regret meeting you at all. Don't blame yourself anymore. Without you, there would be no Deng Huailing now. Without the belief you gave me at that moment, Cesina City would be nothingIt's just one more gangster aimlessly killing time."

    Deng Huailing lowered her eyes and smiled, her tone was extremely gentle, "It was you who gave my life a unique meaning, from that moment on I really began to live... I am a seed you planted with your own hands, and in the endGrow into a tree that belongs to you. I am yours, so you can't mold me too much."

    Rosie couldn't cry anymore. He was curled up at the corner of the corridor outside the meeting room, holding the communicator on his knees, his eyes filled with tears, and the unstoppable tears fell straight down, soaking his long hair and wetWearing a pure white military uniform.The cold and arrogant leader in the past was trembling uncontrollably, as if the lofty white porcelain had fallen into a handful of shards.

    He really wanted to question Deng Huailing, why he was so infatuated and persistent, clearly not as strong as him, but regarded him as a weak person who needed protection, and always kept him behind; he had nothing, but willingly gave him everything.But he opened his mouth, but couldn't make a sound, all the syllables were drowned in tears.

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