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Chapter 179
12. Be sentimental, the world is sad and hard, this taste is heartbreaking
Pei Nianyu tried his best to ask that sentence, but felt dizzy for a while, and could hardly stabilize his figure.
He staggered and was about to fall.
Then he felt his arm being supported by someone, supporting him.
Li Han's face was pale, and he used all his strength to support the crumbling Pei Nianyu.
"My lord..."
He knew that the prince used a method he didn't know to read through his past memories.
Pei Nianyu grabbed the iron bars of the cell with one hand, stopped himself a little, then shook off Li Han's palm violently, roaring:
"Please speak!"
Li Han looked at the prince who was always gentle and graceful, but now his face was broken down like never before, and his face instantly became paler, almost like a dead man.
He couldn't answer the prince's words.
How did you manage to...
Li Han has asked himself this question in many nights when he woke up from nightmares, and all of them ended up in deep regret until dawn.
Li Han's body softened, and he knelt down feebly:
"The subordinates are... ruthless, unfaithful, and unfilial. The subordinates have never been... good people."
"Let the prince...disappointed..."
He lowered his head, not daring to look at Pei Nianyu, his voice was extremely hoarse.
"...Li Han, this king thinks he treats you kindly...why...why treat me like this?"
Pei Nianyu didn't do anything to him, but the prince's words of regret and indignation made Li Han feel as if his chest was cut into pieces.
He closed his eyes, trying to think of something to say to ease the pain of the man in front of him.However, Li Han knows that all his sufferings are caused by himself, so who has the right to comfort him?
"...I'm sorry. Li Han doesn't deserve this from you..."
Pei Nianyu could only feel his internal energy rushing through his meridians, his headache was about to split, his eyes turned black, and he couldn't see clearly.He knew that it was mostly due to the emotional fluctuations in the last scene, and something went wrong with the ancient secret technique in operation.
He braced himself not to faint, gritted his teeth and asked:
"Let me ask you one last question, when you took on this mission, was it... not what you wanted?"
Li Han grieved in his heart.He knew what the prince was thinking: the prince wanted him to think that he was forced...
However, a big mistake has already been made. Twenty years ago, he was cold-blooded and ruthless. In order to carry out his mission, he never showed mercy to a child. What qualifications does he have now for the prince to show mercy to him?
Li Han shook his head, neither admitting nor denying:
"The matter has come to this, what's the use of subordinates' sophistry."
"Li Han!"
He took a deep breath:
"One person does things and the other person is responsible. The subordinates have committed a lot of crimes and should have died long ago. You can do it, my lord."
"I've been waiting for this day for a long time..."
Hearing what he said, Pei Nianyu felt extremely pained in his heart.He couldn't forget all the pain of being tortured by the Peach Blossom Gu when he was a teenager - but he also couldn't forget the adversity of the two brothers and Li Han who walked through it together.
The blade of the folding fan was already on the chest of the black-clothed prisoner, and it only needed one blow to end this fragile life.Since then, all debts have been wiped out, and both love and hatred have disappeared.
However, the hand holding the folding fan was shaking violently.
Li Han stretched out his hand to hold the folding fan to help him stabilize it.At the same time, I sent it firmly towards my heart.
Shao Yan's words before he died suddenly flashed in Pei Nianyu's mind:
——"Fortunately, before I left, I went to Pei Niancheng as a right-hand man, so that he could also taste the feeling of losing his shadow..."
The moment the sharp blade cut through his clothes, Pei Nianyu closed his eyes and kicked Li Han in the chest, knocking Li Han to the ground.
"roll!"
Pei Nianyu turned around:
"Isn't it too cheap for you to die like this?"
Seeing that Li Han couldn't bear the force of his foot and fell down, at that moment, he still couldn't bear it.However, his headache had intensified, and he hastily took advantage of the last moment of sanity, and staggered out of the prison.
"Owner!!!"
Lian Xiao, who was guarding outside, couldn't hear everything that happened inside the deep wall.So when he saw his master coming out like this, he was shocked and hurriedly supported Pei Nianyu.
"Master, how are you? This is... something wrong with that pill?"
Pei Nianyu exhausted his last bit of strength and left a complaint to his trusted subordinate:
"I committed a big taboo of this technique... My mind was shaken and my will was unstable, so the medicine backfired. Symptoms: headache, black eyes, and repeated hallucinations..."
Lian Xiao nodded, desperately remembering all the symptoms in his heart so that he could prepare the antidote.While using his internal energy to help his master protect the internal energy scurrying through his meridians, he lit a signal firework.
After a while, Lou He and the two met Lian Xiao on the way.Lou Yefeng saw that his master had fainted, his face was like gold paper, knowing something was wrong, he quickly carried him all the way back to the mansion.
……………
At the same time, in prison.
Li Han was also affected by the effects of the medicine, and fell unconscious in the empty cell.
In the darkness, the memory fragments awakened by the medicine were still layer upon layer, uncontrollably jumping into his mind one by one.
He saw himself as a child, and his mother hugged him and fell on the road to escape from famine, and was rescued by the Chen family.The mother became the humble servant of the Chen family.
He saw his mother whispering to him in the middle of the night: "Li Han, when you grow up, you must remember the kindness of the Chen family..."
He saw that when he was in the Chen Mansion, he had just shown his talent in martial arts, and was taken away by the coach of the mansion, and he practiced hard day and night.
His mother told him that you have to work hard to live a better life in this mansion as a mother.
He saw the head of the Chen family sending him to the Shadow Guard camp for the first time.
He saw... all his limbs were broken, the broken bones were reattached, and he was bedridden for three months, eating, defecating, and defecating could only be done by the servants.
He saw the day when he confessed the Lord for the second time.The ten-year-old fifth prince brought him back to the prince's office when he was already twenty-eight years old.
He thought that the first thing to do was to establish the rules of master and servant for him, and he was ready to be punished first, which was commonplace.However, his new master stretched out his hand to him, his tone was crisp and refreshing, but his eyes were firm and solemn——
"Li Han, you are welcome to join. Let me introduce yourself first?"
He was stunned for a long time when he saw himself at that time, because he didn't know what he could introduce.
"Hmm... like what are you good at at work? What do you like?"
In the first few days under the new owner, spent watching the owner holding a pen and paper and listing the schedule and plan one by one.
The new owner set him a rule: "If you ask questions, ask for leave. If you have meritorious service, you will be rewarded, and if you do something wrong, you will be punished."
On the night of the same day, he received the last letter from Concubine Chen Guifei:
"It's okay to lurk beside the fifth prince, and wait for important information to be sent in the future. Destroy the letter and don't expose it."
Then, he saw many memory fragments coming one after another——
The master teaches him what "I like" and "I don't like", how to protect himself while completing tasks, and what is right and wrong.
He still remembered the trip to the Southern Border, that was the first time the master took a ruthless hand, rooting out the villainous big country gentry.Crowds of beauties and green tiles were on fire, and his young master stood outside the raging sea of flames, with his hands behind his back, his eyes like knives:
"This is my brother and I's country, and I will never give it up. I want my brother, and all the kind and ordinary people in this land, to have a place to stay."
"So these—scumbags! Whoever makes the people unable to live, I will make it impossible for them to live."
Standing behind his master, he recalled the memories of his childhood that he had almost forgotten, those villagers who starved to death under the heavy taxation of corrupt officials and... father.
He secretly made a decision in his heart—let his subordinates come down to help you.
In the years to come, he accompanied his master to forbear in the court, to accumulate strength, to have both ways...to subdue all sides.
His master's methods gradually matured, but no matter how difficult the situation was, the master never forgot the oath he made before the sea of fire.
The memory is getting messy.
Li Han fell in a corner of the cell, and before he was about to faint completely and his consciousness was completely plunged into darkness, there was only one thought in his mind:
Master, it is you who let me live once in this world, knowing joy, anger, sorrow, love, hatred and hatred.
However, the mistake has been made, and God's will tricks people.Master, this country of yours, from the very beginning, has no place for your subordinates.
I'm afraid... can't go on with you anymore.
……………
Although the prince suddenly fell into a sudden illness, there was no panic in the palace.He Qi ordered the shadow guards to set up vigilance, and Lian Xiao had silently formulated a prescription for detoxification in his heart.
Fortunately, he personally prepared the pills for the Dream Seeking Truth Technique, the prescription is not complicated, it's just that the hallucinogenic ingredients are extremely strong, and the corresponding antidote is enough.
Lou Yefeng stood by his master's side, his palm never leaving Pei Nianyu's back.
He Qi hurried into the house and asked:
"Have you taken the Wanyong Jiedu Pill, Huxin Pill, and Qingnao Pill?"
Lou Yefeng hummed faintly as a response, and then asked back:
"What's going on, Master has something to hide from me?... You hid it?"
At this point, He Qi told him about the ancient secret technique he had given to his master.
Lou Yefeng's expression turned extremely cold for a moment:
"Those things of unknown origin... how dare you let the master try it yourself! He Qi, do you still remember that you are the leader of the shadow guards, where is your duty?"
He Qi's complexion was like snow, and he looked at him fixedly:
"Old building, you are not the only one who is worried about the master and loves the master. The master has his own ideas, so you don't have to teach me."
"If the master's dignity is damaged, I will kill myself and apologize."
"you!"
Lou Yefeng wanted to say something more, but he heard a middle-aged man's voice outside the door with a calm tone:
"If you say something about killing yourself, don't worry, your master will be fine."
Pei Nianzhen stepped in, looked around, looked at the two shadow guards who were angry at each other, and the two maids in the room, Jiang Xue and Xia Yao, who had worried eyes, and said loudly:
"Your prince is benevolent and has done good deeds all his life. His merit is as deep as the sea. In the dark, there will be destiny to protect his body. He will turn evil into good fortune. What are you anxious about?"
Although Pei Nianzhen was not a frequent visitor to the mansion, his auspicious words seemed to have an inexplicable force at this time, which calmed everyone down.
He Qi thought to himself, he really deserves to be a prince, he really has a way of fooling people.
But of course he didn't say it.After all, Pei Nianzhen's auspicious words really hit the ears, who wouldn't want the master to have a body protected by destiny?So no one said anything.
Seeing that the two stopped arguing, Pei Nianzhen looked at the brother on the bed and sighed:
"Why do good people always suffer..."
At this time, Pei Nianyu's eyes were closed tightly, beads of sweat appeared on his forehead, and his breathing was slightly short of breath.
Pei Nianzhen frowned:
"Ayu looks like... being haunted by a nightmare."
"Damned?"
"When I was young, my mother often had nightmares late at night, and this was the case."
He Qi thought of the principle of the dream-seeking technique that time, and nodded to confirm his guess.
"Is there any way you can wake him up first? If this continues, I'm afraid the medicine will burn his brain."
"I'll try."
So Lou Yefeng lightly held his hand, trying to call the master one by one.However, no matter how he called, Pei Nianyu's consciousness was still immersed in the sea of hallucinations, unable to break free.
"This……"
Not long after, Pei Niancheng, who received the news, also rushed from the palace to the palace, frowned and asked after entering the room:
"What's going on!"
Unexpectedly, He Qi and Lou Yefeng didn't give him good looks.Or He Qi explained:
"In order to save Your Majesty's shadow guard, the master wants to learn about Li Han's identity..."
Pei Niancheng was taken aback.
He Qi briefly explained the ins and outs:
"...Master came out of the imperial prison like this. Pei Nianzhen said that he seemed to be haunted by a nightmare. The prescription to solve this medicinal effect is already being fried, but it will take time."
At this moment, Pei Nianyu, who was in a hallucination, suddenly murmured intermittently:
"Why... do you... harm me... I don't want... here... go home... can you... go back..."
Pei Niancheng was shocked and waved his hand:
"You all go out, let me try."
Lou Yefeng knew that his master and Pei Niancheng had some secrets in common, so he had a glimmer of hope in his heart and told everyone to retreat.
When there was no one in the room, Pei Niancheng turned around and sat beside his brother's couch, leaning over and whispering something in his ear.
………………
At that time, Pei Nianyu's consciousness fell into an abyss, and the medicinal properties of the phantom drug involved his thoughts, making him repeatedly see the memories he didn't want to look back at——
The desperate cry of the mother and concubine when she had a difficult childbirth;
The pain of the first peach blossom attack;
Father's dislike and intentional neglect;
The contemptuous eyes of the palace people, the secret and harsh treatment of the young prince by the servants;
The smiles of the biological brothers and the harem concubines hide their swords;
Constant stumbling blocks when studying in the study;
There was also one of his little servants who was dragged out and beaten to death because he was caught in the wrong place. That was his first person of his own, and he couldn't keep it;
In these scenes, occasionally there are some——
The gangs of the children in the orphanage;
When was in elementary school, when filled out the form, was embarrassed by classmates who found it empty in the parent information section;
During the summer vacation after graduating from high school, when working part-time to pay for college tuition, restaurant customers insulted him;
All the things he least wanted to recall in his heart were forced to turn them out one by one.
In his dream, he wanted to cry but couldn't.
He wanted to ask why.
Why was he born so well, but so many people wanted to kill him; why were those concubines wanting to kill him just because of an auspicious rumor;my servant...
The nightmare was reversed and the painful scene reappeared.
However, at this moment, Pei Nianyu heard a voice from the farthest place in the darkness:
"Brother, wake up, I will take you home. Believe me, I will find a way. I will take you back to the place we came from, meet our parents, and tell them that this is my long-lost brother......"
"They'll love you so much... trust me, we'll go home..."
Pei Nianyu eagerly searched for the source of the voice, and slowly opened his eyes.
The moment he saw it was Xiao Sheng, warmth flowed through Pei Nianyu's eyes.
The author has something to say:
The title "The Sorrows and Hardships of the World" refers to Yu and Han at the same time.